Thursday, September 1, 2011

Surviving a crappy day

Today started off so good.  It was Reuben Thursday .  I had been drooling over this for days.  But, to put it mildly, work has been sucky for a while.  I have been way too slammed and stressed.  I have barely been drinking my water all day and that's not like me.  I have just had so much tunnel vision on my computer that I haven't been taking care of myself. 

The water is good for so many reasons.  First of all, it makes me get up often, as my bladder is the size of a pea.   Second of all, it helps reduce the swelling in this heat.  Third of all, it's flushing the toxins out of my system.  And yet I haven't been doing it.  Argh.  So I'm frustrated with myself for that.

The volume at work is just crazy.  I'm working on three accounts and trying to train someone at the same time.  I am very thankful to have a job in this economy, but the reality is that I have been looking to move back to Charlotte for three years with absolutely no job prospects :-(

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I can't even identify what the deal was today. No one was yelling at me or anything.  It just felt like I was in quicksand all day.  By 3:30 when I was supposed to be training this poor new girl my brain popped.  It POPPED I tell you.  I could not form sentences.  I could not tell you my name.  Quite frankly, I should not have been allowed to operate a moving vehicle for the drive home.  My brain was jello.  I had to push the training until tomorrow because I was afraid she would quit for having to work with such a nincompoop.

So fast forward to the drive home and that dreaded fat devil popped up on my shoulder.  "Just go home.  You need to relax.  Oh and remember there's some ice cream in the freezer.  Go ahead and have some...have it all.  It was a stinky day and you deserve it."  OH I wanted to listen.  And the old me would have.  Heck she would have stopped at Wendy's for a burger and fries and then still have polished off the ice cream.  But, not the new me!  I stopped in the park and I walked three miles.  In fact, I got so caught up in the walking the I lost track of my laps.  I thought I had one lap to go when I looked at my pedometer and realized I had completed all three miles.  GO ME!

Now if you'll remember I had my reuben today.  And it was heavenly!  So here's how I worked around that:

1-Knowing that I was going out for lunch I still packed my healthy snacks.  And an hour before we were going out I had my banana, cheese stick, and small v-8.  "Why?" You ask.  Because that way I was not going to be starving and order the fries also.  Just the sandwich.

2-I also made sure I wasn't wearing a dress or loose pants.  I wore jeans.  You will feel yourself getting fuller and stop eating when the jeans get tighter.

3-Dinner tonight was a salad, turkey sandwich with cucumbers, and I snacked on carrots and guacamole while I prepared.

I still hear the ice cream calling me, but I think I'll pass. I have to face the scale tomorrow.

****Please note****

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  1. I completely agree with you.I kinda of eat more when I am upset or stressed.. But I also skip meals. In case I eat in the morning, I don't eat anything till dinner. I have been trying to give up rice since a month.. It's been difficult.. Sometimes it's so frustrating... But its nice to know that there is always support around...

  2. Stress eating is the WORST! I feel like I have a PHD on that subject. I definitely plan on writing about that.

    Don't make me come over there! If I hear you are skipping meals I will! Now I'm going to IM you after each break to make sure you had something. :-) Skipping just makes you more hungry and slows down your metabolism.

    I'm always here for you sister!