Friday, November 30, 2012

It's not Random! Just feels like it.

Hello Beautiful People,

Alright, I'm just going to start with the good stuff. Today I went out to lunch with Ms. Barb, Ms. Tracey, and another coworker. We had been planning it for a few days. YEAH!  Well I knew where we were going and I know that I don't always tend to make the right decision there. Sure, the food is awesome and I am never unhappy with my choice, but I also know that I could make smarter options some of the time. For the most part I will get the sandwich or salad on the "Lighter side". That uses lower fat ingredients. However, sometimes I forget to use the term "lighter side" or just choose something different altogether.

Knowing that I would probably make a bad choice I went online and looked at the nutritional menu. It always amazes me the calories and sodium that can be in some stuff. What the heck?  Be careful. Just because it's a salad does not mean it's the best option. Watch what is being put in it. There was one salad that was 800 calories and 1500mg of sodium...WHAT?

I picked the chipotle lime chicken salad. I told Ms. Tracey that yesterday and told her that I was not allowed to change my mind. She had my permission to slap me if I started looking at the menu when we got there. I had even considered writing down what I want and handing it to the cashier, but I was afraid they would think I was robbing them.

I stayed strong. I did look at the menu. And I really wanted the Turkey, stuffing, and cranberry sauce sandwich, but I didn't get it. I got my salad. It did not disappoint. It was very very good. YEAH!

Tonight for dinner, however, bah!  Peace a Pizza! That's the name of the place. It's one of my favorites. I always get a slice and a salad, but I could easily eat 3 slices. They are fun slices. My favorite is Eggplant Parmasean. They have a cheeseburger pizza and a macaroni name it and they'll put it on pizza.

Okay so that was the plan, but it closed! WHAT?  Luckily there's still one by work. Anyway, we ended up at Panera and I got my Pick 2. I got the french onion soup and the turkey cranberry panini.

And in case anyone was wondering, yesterday we took the left over frosted sugar cookies into the kitchen. Okay, to be more precise I had Ms. Tracey take the cookies into the kitchen after she, Ms. Kerri, and I each had one. The floor around my desk is littered with smashed sprinkles. Those suckers just did NOT stay on the cookies!

I wanted to talk about food today because I am starting to stress over the upcoming month. I'm booked solid. This means that I sense some poor choices are going to be made because "I don't have time".  Argh. I will need to sit down this weekend and plan out my eating schedule for the month. It sounds crazy, but I already have one week when I have 1 pot luck and then 3 lunch dates. DANG. I can't eat out that much! Serenity Now!

I need to go grocery shopping this weekend and I made sure to put Chili ingredients on my list. I will have to make a batch on Sunday for my dinner for the week.

This is starting to feel like a Random Friday haha, but I'm sticking to a food theme. Last night I was on the treadmill reading and making it a light night (foot has started to bother me again dang it!). I started reading a Jenny McCarthy book. It's short and funny. I figured it would be fun. It is funny and a bit raunchy, but I got to this chapter she wrote about Periods *boys feel free to go visit ESPN.COM now...see you tomorrow*. I don't know if this is true, but she said that she had read that your metabolism increases when you have your period and that's why you are so hungry during that time. She talked about how if you eat right during that time you may actually lose weight by the time it's over. I have had some where I have done that, but just figured that I was smaller because I was bloated for a week. Who knows, but someone has hers right now and feels like she could eat a house right now. Just sayin! On the plus side, she won't have it for the race next weekend...Hallelujah!

Quickly, while I'm talking about the book let me tell you a funny story. I was on the treadmill on the aisle. If you are going anywhere on the lower level of the gym you have to walk by me. No big deal...usually. So there I am casually reading the book. Like I said, it's short. It's even shorter because every few chapters includes a cartoon. They weren't that bad, but then I get to this one chapter about porn *DISCLAIMER: it was not a porn chapter, just about men and porn * and the cartoon is a picture of her as a dominatrix.  My hand FLEW to cover it up while I finished reading the page. All I kept thinking was "what the heck is anyone thinking if they see me as they walk by?"  I'm a good girl. Really I Am! 

Okay kids, I have to work in the morning. No, you got that correct. Tomorrow is Saturday, but I have to come in for the morning. Oh boy. So I shall call it a night.

Have a Blessed Night my friends.

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Thursday, November 29, 2012

My Christmas Wish List - Health & Fitness Style

Hello my Lovelies and Gents,

So have you started your holiday shopping?  I shall challenge you to think Health and Fitness this year for giving and receiving. 

All year long I think of things that I want to put on my Christmas list. And then when it comes time and someone asks what I want I freeze. I feel like Ralph in A Christmas Story when he blanks out when Santa asks what he wants.

Well it's easy this year. I want my Personal Trainer certification at the beginning of the new year. I'm going to need equipment.

Last year I asked that no one give me candy. I still got a few of the usual items (mint andes candies and a bar of peppermint bark), but for the most part things calmed down. Don't be afraid to put that out there now. Let people know. I love christmas cookies and chocolate as much as the next person, but I will ask you again right now to please not give me any.  Shoot, if that's your gift to everyone I would ask for a card instead. You can even write in it: "My gift to everyone else is a tasty treat. My gift to you is the avoidance of temptation."

Here is my Christmas Wish list:

* Resistance Bands
* Underarmour ankle socks
* Itunes gift card
* Massage
* Yoga Blocks
* Jump ropes
* Bob Harper Book: The Skinny Rules
* Kettle bells
* Medium petite yoga pants (Target)
* Reebok Realflex Size 7
* Stop watch
* Subway Gift Card
* Healthy Cookbooks
* Core ball
* Hula Hoop
* Core Foam Roller
* Medicine ball
* Bosu Balance Trainer
* Reebok Balance Board
* Equipment bag
* Free weights of all sizes (to keep in my car for clients)
* Rock'n'Roll USA Half Marathon Registration :-)
* Skinny Girl Peach Margarita
* Shape or Fitness Magazine subscription
* Hungry Girl Cook books
* Bath and Body Works: Twisted Peppermint lotion (soothing on my sore muscles)
* A call from Tony Stewart

Here are some items that you can put on your list or buy for others.  And feel free to steal from my list too.  Now let me preface this by saying, if you are giving this as a gift, please be sensitive about it. Don't go getting a gym membership or workout dvds for all of your overweight friends. You don't want to hurt anyone's feelings with a gift. These ideas are meant to motivate not hurt anyone's feelings.

* Stability Ball
* Yoga Mat/DVD
* Pedometer
* Water bottles
* Gym Bag
* Sneakers
* Push up bars
* Gym membership
* Zumba membership
* Race registration fee
* Bicycle
* Weight lifting belt
* Weight lifting gloves
* Hand warmers (for the winter walks)
* Froggtogg (to keep you cool)
* Karate lessons
* Sports earphones
* ipod/mp3 player
* Workout Dvds
* Workout journals
* Basketball
* Tennis Racquet/balls
* Football
* Soccer ball
* Swim goggles
* Baseball/Softball bat
* Ice Skates
* Roller blades
* Lunch bag (so that you can prepare your lunch and skip going out so often)
* Heart Rate monitor
* Stepper
* Gift card to Sporting goods store
* Just Dance games
* Crockpot (for the gift of time and healthy chili)
* George Foreman Grill
* Crate of Oranges

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Wednesday, November 28, 2012

WOO WOO Random Wednesday

WOO WOO it's Random Wednesday!

So there was an article today that held my attention.  Did you hear about the controversy over this plus-sized mannequin?

Some of the reactions to it made me sick.  Some made me sad. And looking at it made me question whoever designed it. It reminded me of the man with the shrunken head in Beetlejuice.  It was like they inflated every part of a regular mannequin except the head.

There were some positive comments from those who feel that finally they are being recognized and will now know what the clothes actually look like on their body type.  One person commented that fat people are finally being treated as "real people".

There were also some negative comments. Some expressed fear that "obese would become the new normal." And one commented about fat people not taking responsibility for themselves.

When I start to think about this stuff my head hurts. On the one side, I've been the Fat Girl. I know how it feels when people make fun of you. I know what it's like not to want to go shopping because none of the mannequins look like you. I know what it's like to feel like people are judging me.  It HURTS.  Things might have been different for me if the perception of Fat wasn't so negative.  Perhaps it would not have been a vicious circle of unhappiness and self sabotage.

And then I sit on the other side now. I certainly don't look at fat people with horror. I do get angry when I see a large person eating a meal that could feed a small family, but I also look past that and see the unhappiness.  I just want people to be healthier. I want people to believe in their physical capabilities.

So the good news is that with all of my napping and sleeping over the holiday, I finally gave my shoulder the rest that it needed. Ironically, I think the knitting and computer work would have continued to aggrivate it. Thank goodness I didn't get to work on my To Do list at all!  I realized on my drive home on Sunday that it was no longer sore and that it had not been sore in several days.
Score 1 for Rest!
Have you seen the new James Bond movie yet?  One of my favorite parts was watching him run. Te he. He would haul ass in his suit and dress shoes.  Perhaps with all of their secret gadgets they have created a dress shoe that actually runs like a sneaker. And then I thought: How cool would it be to have a James Bond 5K? Have everyone dress up like 007 or one of the way cool chicks (Ms. Asskicker herself Eve Moneypenny).  I think it can be done.
I tried googling for it, but all I get are James Bond movie marathons. So if you know of any that happen please let me know. I would like to come watch. (

The frosted sugar cookies are still sitting in my locker. Bah! I have not taken them out to the kitchen for the office to eat. But, I also have not eaten them myself.


Today I have officially changed my Home Gym location. It made me sad. I love the new gym, but I miss Gym Crush 1. So I ordered a book on cd from the library (still haven't joined the one right down the street from the new place). I will just have to go to the old gym when it comes in and I have to pick it up...come on Gym Crush 1!  Please be there!


Last week at the gym, Gym Buddy Lisa was telling me about some ignorant comments someone from her high school had made on Facebook.  It was right after the Philly Marathon and they were commenting that the fat people should not be allowed to register because they hold up traffic. And then it turned into a feeding frenzy with everyone jumping on and agreeing.

WHOA!  Hold the phones there bucko.  First of all, do a little research before you open your mouth and make such a stupid statement. There is a pace time cut-off. If you fall below that pace the van will pick you up. The organizers only get a set amount of time. And it doesn't matter how much you weigh, if you fall behind that pace you get picked up. That means skinny people too.

Second of all, shut up!  Someone is out there trying to improve their life and there you sit judging them based on their weight. SHAME ON YOU! 

Anyone who is out there should be applauded not ridiculed. It's even harder for anyone overweight competing because of the extra weight they are carrying. I would like to think that I will be like Flo Jo once I lose the rest of the belly.

Have a Blessed Night my friends.

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Tuesday, November 27, 2012

Cookie Monster!

Hello Beautiful People!

It's Snowing!  I do love me some snow...but I love it more when I don't have to work.

So last night was book club night. The book of the month was "Are you there Vodka? It's me Chelsea." Very funny...very raunchy, but very funny.

Before we discuss the book we always stand around and eat snacks. This is my third meeting and when I started I vowed that I would bring healthy options. I have failed for three meetings. The first one I brought apple cider. The second one I brought unbelievably delicious scones from the food show. And last night I brought frosted sugar cookies.

Now for each meeting I have made sure to go somewhere for dinner before it so that I am not arriving on an empty stomach. I have since learned that they don't eat dinner first because there are so many goodies to choose from.

The problem for me is that even if I arrive full, I still WANT. I see those pastry puffs and melt. I smell that cheesy garlic bread and my mouth waters. I see those chocolate covered oreos and my brain turns to mush.

I try to keep it to portion control. But, I start to go a little nutty. The new fit and healthy me is screaming "Come on!  It's time to move to the seating area to discuss the book. Let's get away from this food."  And then the Former Fat Girl is sitting there like a pig in mud "Oh take your time ladies...I'm just going to enjoy another puff and some of these chips over here."

I can look at bringing my treats two different ways. One, is that I am a total failure. BAH.  The other is that it is a cheat day and if I plan for that it's okay. Normally I would go with the second, but it's hard to look at it that way the monday after Thanksgiving.

I even rationalized it as: well I had to make a quick stop for some food on my way home from the beach. I didn't have time to prepare anything. And that's crap. I could have gotten carrots and hummus. I know there will be plenty of treats there, so why did I have to bring another one that I KNOW that I would take home and finish eating if there were any leftovers?  ARGH! So frustrated with myself on this one.

So what do you think happened? I brought them in to work. I HAD planned on putting them in the kitchen and walking away from them...but that did not happen. Instead I offered them to some coworkers and then hoarded them for myself. I believe I ate 4 today. There is no excuse for that! And on top of that, we are skipping the gym tonight because of the weather. BAH!

Next month our meeting is a cookie themed meeting too. I will NEED to bring some veggies for that one.  And carrot cake cookies don't count.

I get so mad at myself. Other people can lead a normal life and not obsess about this...but, not obessessing about it in the right way is exactly what got me to 200lbs in the first place. As least now I have another side battling the sneak and binge eater.

Right now though I am feeling all sorts of craziness. Holidays. Winter. Race. Travel. Not studying. New Gym. Unpacking. My goal for the rest of the year is not to lose weight, but to just maintain. It's the only sanity I can see.

Before I go, let me just share my fun moment of the day. Today I put on a sweater than I haven't worn in a year, maybe two. When my friend first gave it to me 6 years ago it was skin tight. I thought it was super flattering then. Well I looked at myself in the mirror today and it's way baggy on me now. It doesn't quite have the WOW factor that it used to have. I shall keep it for this winter, but I think it's time to part with it in the Spring. Wow..I never thought I would say that about this sweater. It was one of my favorites.

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Monday, November 26, 2012

You don't have to run, you just have to move!

Happy Monday Bleeps!

So I had totally planned on writing a post when I got home last night, but like the rest of the week other things came up.  Although what happened the rest of the week I am not sure.  I had a lot on my To Do list for my vacation, but got nothing on it done.

My To Do list consisted of: finish my book, finish the scarf I am knitting, start my christmas cards, work on new workout programs for my "unofficial" clients, study, blog, etc. Yeah, well none of that happened.  My vacation consisted of walking, eating, and sleeping.  Throw in a couple of movies and two blog posts. I was unbelievably lothargic on vacation. I don't know if I was still sick or exhausted or even a little meloncholy.  Tonight I had book club so my to do list will remain untouched for yet another night.

I'm a little disappointed in myself over the lack of productivity, but I did make sure to get in exercise and lots of water every day.  And honestly, the walks were knocking me out. I can't explain it, but I was pretty much toast for the rest of the day a few hours after every walk. I'm not going to lie, I'm a tad concerned about the Half in two weeks. If a 5k (which I do that distance every day) can take me out, I'm not sure what chance I hold for this Half.  I had hoped to better my time originally. Then it turned to hoping to at least maintain my time. Now I'm hoping that I just don't drop below my first time.  I can't push myself for this. Not with my Florida trip and Christmas coming up. Someone remind me that I just want to enjoy my time.

I guess I can't be too disappointed in my lack of productivity. I did do a lot of walking.  That is plenty of time that the Former Fat Girl would have used to lay around watching tv.

Saturday morning we had the Huff, Puff, and Race for Pumpkin Pie 5K. I had signed up with my friend Brian and some of his sisters.  I also somehow convinced my "just like a younger sister" pal Cassia to go with me. I'm used to hanging out with my younger cousins over Thanksgiving so she fit right in with me.

She was very excited the day before and was texting me pictures of her Race Day Outfit...oh to be 16 again. Except that I looked nothing like that at 16.  I picked her up the morning of and we headed over. It was COLD out and our drive was 30 minutes so the plan was to blast the heat for the first 10 minutes and then gradually reduce it so that by the time we parked and got out of the car it wasn't a shock to the system.

We had looked at the course map online and thought we knew where it started. So we parked and started walking in that direction...we weren't exactly close, but got excited when we saw the mob of people.  I had preregistered, but she had not so we waited in a couple different lines. I also had to play the role of her guardian as she was uner 18 so I had to sign for her. Sadly, they ran out of shirts for day of sign ups :-(  so she didn't get one.  We had 15 minutes before the start of the race and we still needed to run back to the car to drop some stuff off. Then we figured we would move the car closer to the start line...but we went past the last of the empty spots and had to turn around..we ended up parking 1 block closer to the start, but lost that time driving around. The good news is that we were nice and warmed up when we got there.

I was prepared for the cold. I put on my running pants with my flannel pj bottoms on top.  Then I had my running shirt with my sweathshirt over it. And for my head I had my fleece ear cover from the Polar plunge. I looked adorable. She, however, looked like she stepped out of Seventeen magazine in her leggings, knee socks, and cute top. DOH!

At the very last moment we found Brian and his sisters. YEAH! So we started off together. Joking around we took turns leading. His sisters are veterans at relay walks to raise money for cancer. They rock!  They were telling us about the 46 mile colon cancer walk they do over two days. I totally want to join them next year if I can't find anyone for the 3 Day walk.

So we are walking and we notice that there is a slight change in the course. It was supposed to go up to the water, turn for a block and then wind around the side streets. Instead we went up to the water turned to the boardwalk along the water and then just headed back the same way. SCORE! That's a pretty's also COLD AND WINDY!  But, pretty wins out.

We enjoyed our walk. I jogged a little, but my lungs were not having any of it...and then my foot started to hurt. So I dropped back to a walk for the majority of the race. Miss Cas was so cute "Seeing all of these people run by makes me want to run!"  She's little Miss Lacrosse so I told her to go ahead and run.  I met back up with her at the finish line.  Where I promptly removed my sweatshirt and grossed her out with my sweat stains. ha.

So as we were all walking we were talking about not wanting to be last, but then we all agreed that even when you are last, you are still ahead of everyone not participating :-)  That's why I stress that it's okay to walk it. You don't have to run. You just have to move. You're already ahead of those who are not moving.

My weight loss journey began with walking. I know some some people find it boring, but give yourself a fun playlist and go. OH, and I did not have my music on because we would be talking the whole time...then Brian takes off to run the second half, Miss Cass takes of to run the last mile, and I had targted this group in front of us to pass for my little jog. I MISSED MY MUSIC! But, I kept my pace the whole time...kind of a miracle.

So my advice for starting off is to find a group to walk with. Just get out there a few times a week. You'll feel better and you'll want to add more time. Now, don't go stopping for dunkin donuts on your walk and walk briskly not at a snails pace. If other people hold you back, then put on your ear phones and take off.

The good news is that Miss Cas had so much fun that she's ready to do another one...and her mother informed me last night that she has already picked out her next outfit. haha.

Have a Blessed Night my friends.

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Saturday, November 24, 2012

Turkey Day Temptations

Hello My Lovelies and Gents,

I hope you had a lovely Thanksgiving.  I did.

Thursday morning I woke up at left the house at 6 to meet my friend Brian at the boardwalk for Sunrise.  It was HARD to get up, but well worth it.  It was a little cloudy at first and mighty cold my friends.  But 10 minutes after the  sunrise was expected it poked through above the haze and did not disappoint.  Now for past Sunrise Club moments the family hung out on the deck bundled up drinking hot chocolate.  For this Sunrise club we got mobile. We walked down the board walk as the sun rose.  It was gorgeous.  However, when we reached the end of the boardwalk it was suddenly clear that when we turned around we would have the wind in our face. BRRRRRR.  I had brought a blanket to wrap around me and it felt like I was wearing a 30lb cape for that half mile back.

I am happy to say that there were lots of people out there that morning walking and enjoying the beautiful sunrise...ahhh.

It was cold so we walked down to Dunkin Donuts for some hot chocolate. YUM.  I wanted a bagel or an egg sandwich, but I stuck to my protein bar. And that was fine because when I came home my dad had made breakfast.  So I had some eggs, sausage (the secret spicy kind that brings tears to your eyes 30 seconds after you eat it), and some hashbrowns.  And then a little while later it was nap time.

I woke up from my nap a little before dinner. So when I came down stairs I was informed that I was to sit at the kids table. That's okay. I'm used to it. But, this wasn't actually a table. We were sitting at the bar overlooking the kitchen know the counter with all of the food. BAH!  But, the kids table had the smaller plates. And that worked with my "Use the smaller plate" rule. So I filled my small plate and sat down to eat. I only got up for seconds once and then parked my butt on that chair until the food was removed. I am happy to report that I never entered the Too Stuffed phase of Thanksgiving dinner. A little while later it was time for dessert. I had one serving of apple crumble with vanilla ice cream.

We were sitting around talking for a while and I heard some great stories. My abs hurt from all of the laughing.  I won't divulge too much information and I won't name names.  I will just say that a neighbor's mom was there and told us how back in the day she and a friend created new identities for the summer. She was Veronica Winter and her friend was Victoria Summer. I was practically rolling on the floor for that one.  And then she told use how she had a pen prison!  Okay, it was a detention center, but it sounds better when we say prison.  Go Grandma!

So after dessert the groups divided. There was Football in the living room and Magic Mike in the other room. I pulled out my knitting and hunkered down for some football....for about 30 minutes and then I passed out. I didn't even have that much turkey!  I have to remember that I was still sick.

Friday morning I woke up after another long night of sleep. I just wanted to stay in bed for hours, but I got my butt up and put on my workout clothes. It was a gorgeous day and instead of going to the gym, I decided to walk the neighborhood. Would I try to run? Probably not. I wasn't feeling it.

So I got to walking and got lost in my thoughts. After 30 minutes I thought "maybe I could run a little". So I pulled over to take off my sweatshirt and refill my water bottle. Then I took off.  I had to watch my pace because the speed limit was 22mph. haha. "This is great, I'm feeling good.  I can do this." And then WHAM!  I turn the corner and the wind came in my mouth and up my nose and my lungs started to burn. DOH!  I have to remember that I'm still wheezing a bit. I lasted 7 minutes.  I HURT. And all I was thinking was that I was way across the development from my dad's place with no phone.  I would be crawling back.  But, I just slowed it down.

I wanted to get in a good long distance training before the Half, but my lungs kicked my butt. So I only got 6 in. Oh well, that's better than nothing.

Later in the afternoon and went over to Ms. Cheryl's and picked up her daughter to go to Starbucks. If anyone needed caffeine it was me. When we walked in they had samples of the gingerbread frappacino. OH holy heck that was some delicious goodness!  So we got some grandes....and another sample to go.

Then it was time for the movies. I went to see Skyfall with my dad, brother-in-law, and nephew. I just got a diet green tea. YEAH!  No soda for me. We sat down and I wasn't sure if I would like the movie. I can't remember the last James Bond movie that I saw, but I know that it has gotten rave reviews.  Um...Hello!  Daniel Craig is one buff hottie!  Forget the Bond girls...there are PLENTY of shirtless Bond moments.  Dude looks amazing!  I felt fat just sitting there.  I wanted to climb into the center aisle and just drop down for some pushups in the middle of the movie.

After the movie we went out to dinner. It was my place that makes fantastic burgers. I had to!  Felt a little guilty, okay a lot guilty.  This is why I write this blog.  I hate when I have to tell you about my multiple days of bad decisions, but man can you imagine if I didn't do that?  Goodness only knows what I would be eating.

I went to bed early because this morning was the Huff, Puff, and Race for Pumpkin Pie 5K.

So while my food choices weren't the greatest this week, I didn't over do it or do a lot of snacking. Plus I made sure to be very active. I'll have to take the bad with the good.

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Wednesday, November 21, 2012

Beach, Boardwalk, and Pizza

Happy Day Before Thanksgiving Bleeps!

Well it was a beautiful day. I had the day off and it was just delightful. I had originally hoped to meet up with my cousin, who is home from college, for breakfast or Starbucks before I got on the road. She was unable to meet me. On to Plan B. Quick pack and get on the road.

I made plans to meet my friend Brian, who is in from Montana, for lunch at the beach. I haven't seen him in a couple of years. Boy went down for a power nap during my drive and so I just pulled in to Starbucks and read while I waited for him to wake up.

Soon we decided to meet on the boardwalk and go for pizza. Argh!  It's the day before Thanksgiving and I'm having pizza!   Not that this excuses it, but we planned on walking afterwards.  And walk we did. We walked around the boardwalk and the shops for a couple of hours. Sometimes it was straight walking and sometimes it was sauntering through some stores.  But, we were moving. Makes me feel a little less guilty about my choices.

One of the stores we walked in was a chocolate store...mmm...chocolate. They had little chocolate turkeys for the holiday. There was also a wall of jelly beans and a table of fudge. I was strong and didn't get anything. YEAH! GO me! It was chilly though so we did indulge in some hot chocolate.

We walked up to the Running Company store and I saw the poster for the Half marathon for next week. YEAH! There's my Thanksgiving incentive.

So the fun thing is that Brian and I will be doing a 5K on Saturday morning. I'm excited!  I have known him for many years, and our friendship never really included health and fitness activities. He competed in his first Half Marathon this year and we've discussed traveling to someplace cool to do one together.

I'm even more excited because he has recruited a bunch of members from his family to participate on Saturday. YEAH!  The family that walks together lives together :-)

I'm sad that I am not in the Outberbanks for Thanksgiving this year, but I am still at the beach. And if you followed my blog back then, you know that my family had the Sunrise Club. Every morning we would get up and go sit on the deck with hot chocolate and blankets. We would watch the sunrise over the ocean. Well, I'm still going to do it. I convinced Brian to meet me at the boardwalk in the morning for sunrise and then we are going to walk for a couple of miles. I can't think of a better way to start off Thanksgiving.

And on that note, I need to go to bed. Sunrise is coming soon.

Have a Blessed Night my friends.

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Tuesday, November 20, 2012

Gym Buddies are Awesome

Hello Beautiful People!

Well the good news is that I have tomorrow off and will be heading to the beach!  The bad news is that I am still fighting this super nano killer virus! I do not want to gross you out and describe the heinous ick that has been coming out of of my nose.  I was starting to make myself nauseous. So here is my formal apology to Ms. Kerri who has had to sit next to me at work through this ordeal...there was a whole nasal spray incident that we would both like to forget.

I had planned on meeting Gym Buddy Lisa at the new gym last night. I need to scope out new Gym Crushes after all!  I even went to the mall to walk at lunch with Ms. Tracey.  Thank goodness for our lunch walks because I feel like that's all I have gotten to do in the past couple of weeks. So don't be fooled, if you don't have a gym membership you can still exercise!

Well that walk must have been too much for me. By the time I was walking to my car at the end of the night I was out of breath. So I called Gym Buddy Lisa and cancelled. Instead, I went home.  I ate my dinner, took my shower, and got in bed. That's the last I remember. Once again I hit a coma. I passed out long before 9pm. Happily I woke up feeling better. Maybe I can make it to the gym tonight.

Ms. Tracey and I had planned on skipping a walk at the mall and actually go out to lunch. YEAH!  That meant I didn't have to pack my lunch last night and I could reserve my energy for the gym.  She had to cancel on me so I was on my own.  I opted to go to Subway.  I have earned enough points for two free foot long sandwiches. I would get half for lunch and save half for dinner. This would be my first night with the new gym and the new place so I had no idea what my time frame would be.

I'm happy to report that I was feeling better and made it to the new gym in good time. The Good news is that there is always parking available. The bad news is that I parked clear around the back of the building. Glass half full: I get in some cardio even before I start my workout!

The set up is a little different and it takes me a little while to get my bearings. But, Gym Buddy Lisa met me in the locker room and gave me the quick tour. Since I'm still not 100% and I would prefer to be alive on Thanksgiving we were going to keep it light.

We did a warm up on the treadmill and then moved to do some leg weights.  I hadn't really done a good leg weights workout since September because of the sprained ankle.  Ironically, I am putting a halt on the upper body workouts for a few more weeks because of the shoulder problem.

This gym has a different butt machine. It's okay, but we still prefer the other one. So we will plan on leg/butt workouts after church on Sundays at the old gym.

I felt okay on the treadmill, but it was a light jaunt. I have a 5K on Saturday so I don't want to exhaust myself before that either. Right now I feel like I am on the fence. If I push it then I will just relapse.  If I can get a good balance with some rest I may make it out alive.

So it was WONDERFUL to reunite with Gym Buddy Lisa. I'm excited about working out with her again. I did miss Gym Crush 1, but I saw some potentials out there. I wasn't sure how I was feeling about a new gym. It was exciting and stressful at the same time. I am used to my old gym. I know where everything is. I am comfortable. But, I needed to put on my Big Girl pants and jump in.  I am glad I did. Still not giving up on Gym Crush 1 though...I will still go back to see him from time to time. :-)

I just wish I didn't dive into the bowl of candy in the kitchen when I got home. DOH!

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Monday, November 19, 2012

Love/Hate relationship with Thanksgiving

Hello my Lovelies and Gents,

Does anyone else have a Love/Hate relationship with Thanksgiving?  Right now is about when I start to panic. I start dreaming of Thanksgiving dinner and get a little too excited over it. Most people just see Thanksgiving as a day to indulge in food. I see it as a nightmare.

I have my tricks to try to hold myself responsible, but I can't control my brain. So let's start with the good stuff. Here are my tips to help make Thanksgiving Dinner easier for you.  Well, not exactly easier, but hopefully you won't be rolling around on the floor afterwards because your belly feels like it's going to explode.

1. Do not burn food scented candles. This only makes you hungry when you really aren't.
2. Make sure to wear clothes with a waist for dinner. When your clothes start feeling snug it is time to stop.
3. Don't forget to eat before your meal. Don't skip lunch in anticipation. Or if you are having an early dinner, make sure to have a late morning snack. If you go into the meal hungry, chances are you won't make good decisions.
4. If you are a guest and are bringing a dish, make it a salad or side vegetable. That way you at least have control of a healthy option.
5. Drink lots of water. Stay hydrated!
6. Fill your plate with vegetables and salad. Finish them first before hitting the starches. That way you know that no matter what happens, you at least got your veggies in.
7. Go for a walk after dinner. Just get up and move.
8. Pack up left overs right after dinner and put them in the fridge. Don't leave them out to pick at all night. It lessens the temptations.
9. If you do not have room for pie, do not have a piece. No matter how much you want one. That could be what pushes you over the edge.
10. Use a smaller size plate. I always fill my large plate to the brim and then I'm stuffed before I finish.

So in theory I have good ideas to help me. And I have had some fairly successful Thanksgiving dinners in the past. Heck, I started South Beach a week before Thanksgiving several years ago. That was my most successful Thanksgiving ever. I actually lost weight that week. Mentally, it was my toughest week ever though.

One meal is not going to hurt.

Come on. It's a special occasion.

I don't make this all of the time.


Have you heard those before? Me too. And you know what? One meal is not going to kill me. But, when is Thanksgiving ever just ONE meal?  I am always away for Thanksgiving. It's not like I am going home right after dinner. This food is in my face for days. Oh my gosh, when we were going to the Outerbanks for Thanksgiving it was encouraged to finish all of the food before we left so that we wouldn't have to drive it home. In theory, that's great when there are 10-12 people that can share in that eating. In my mind, that was license to just have at it.

I am like a stealth attack ninja eater over Thanksgiving. Quick! No one is looking. Grab that pie. No one saw me eat that sandwich so I will just sit with Family Member 1 here and pretend like this is my first lunch of the day. Score, no one is in the room and no one will notice those cookies are gone.

I can feel the Former Fat Girl stirring and getting MIGHTY excited. She's just hoping there's enough mashed potatoes for everyone (because she would consume a giant mixer bowl full all on her own if allowed). This makes me NERVOUS. It's normally tough to control myself over Thanksgiving, but I have been through so much stress these past few months that I fully anticipate a Total Turkey meltdown.

Let me just leave you with this. I have always been one to volunteer to clean up after dinner. It's not because I am a nice person with OCD. Although I am. It's basically because if leftovers don't fit nicely into a container, I would volunteer to eat the overflow. I'm telling you, that Former Fat Girl is sneaky! 

Have a Blessed Night my friends.

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Sunday, November 18, 2012

It was supposed to get easier after the move...

Happy Sunday Bleeps!

So life was supposed to get easier once the move was over. haha. I've barely been home the past two weekends. But it's okay. Lots of good stuff happening.

Friday was a good and a sad day.  I still wasn't feeling 100%, but I had to get my butt into the office. It was the last day for a gentleman that I have worked with for 5+ years. I had plans to go out to lunch with him and another of our work buddies. I asked where he wanted to go and his first suggestion was Hooters. NOT FUNNY TOM!  But, then he got wise and suggested Baja Fresh. You seriously never have to ask me twice. I'm in!

My belly felt like it was the size of a pea after barely eating for two days so I was not eager to get anything big.  My head wanted to get a naked salad, but that would have been too much food and just a waste. So I opted for two plain chicken soft tacos...and my side of chips/salsa.

Before I left work for the day plans were made to meet my usual Friday night crew for dinner. It would going back in the direction of the old place, but it would be worth it. They originally picked Q'doba, but then changed it to Mesa Grill. I sat in sooooo much traffic that I was ready to eat my car by the time I got there. The only problem is that I didn't see two mexican meals as a good option. And then my twisted brain got involved. This place also sells burgers. And for some reason, the first thing I always crave when I am feeling better after being sick is a big juicy burger.  So I got one...with fries.

Now, it was not the healthiest of days, but after the day before, I needed some calories. A horrible justification I know, but that's how my brain works.

Saturday I really wanted to sleep in. I had planned on going to the park for a walk and then I needed to unpack. But, former work husband was going to be in the area sort of and wanted to meet for breakfast. I hadn't seen him since August so I hauled my butt out of bed early and headed back towards the old place...yet again. I should mention that it's 45 minutes away.  Since I was going to be in the area I decided to go to the gym for my long distance training. I had hoped for at least 2 hours originally. That was before I got sick. I wasn't even sure I was going to make it after 30 minutes. My legs were sore. My breathing was horrible. I stupidly wanted to see if I could run. I could not.

There is no way I will be able to run any of the Half.  Let's think about what the past couple of months have included: Stress Fracture, Sprained ankle, half of the gym time as usual, super killer nano virus...My body doesn't have it in me. I COULD push it, but that's stupid. I have to drive to Florida for Christmas. I need to have use of my feet.  I have had a total of 2 training days since May that my feet haven't been a problem. They aren't good odds. Once again I will just kick back and enjoy the time alone with my brain.

I did get some unpacking done last night. YEAH!  And then I had to head back towards the old place again this morning because choir was singing in church today. If we weren't, I would have gone to a church closer to the new place.  But, the plan was to hit the old gym with gym buddy Lisa after church. The problem: all of the singing (practice, church service, and then another practice) was hell on my lungs. I had nothing in me. It's pretty bad when singing keeps you from the gym.

So I decided to stop for some vegetable soup on my way home. They were out, but I got a tomato soup instead. YUM. Then I needed to stop and pick up some groceries for the next couple of days. I would then have about an hour at home to do a little more unpacking and vacuum before heading out to meet a friend at Starbucks. Today was the last day for the buy one holiday drink get the second free from 2-5pm. I got my tall skinny peppermint mocha...YUM....of course I also got it at 4pm so I will be up all night now. But, we spent 3+ hours sitting and talking. We hadn't seen each other since August. 

So I got home a couple of hours ago. I have so much to do and I'm going to be gone for 5 days during Thanksgiving, but I'm exhausted and I don't want to get sick again.  So I am watching the Ravens game and doing my nails tonight. ahhh...Maybe someday I will be able to relax. Although the good news is that while we were at Starbucks we planned some study dates. YEAH!  I can start studying again!

Before I go I just want to make one last plea to Tony Stewart to CALL ME! The season ended today.  I hope he enjoys his off season.  Please note that I will be standing by waiting for that call.  Can't wait 3 months until Daytona!

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Thursday, November 15, 2012

5 hours is not a's a coma

Hello my Lovelies and Gents,

I am back to join the living!  I told you I wasn't feeling too well on Tuesday, well yesterday I really was feeling out of it when I got to work. I couldn't function and actually felt like my brain was melting. 

I left work at lunch time. I needed to pick up a book for book club that came in at the library and close to the library is chick fil-a. They have their peppermint chocolate chip milkshake right now and NOTHING would feel better on my throat.  So I went through the drive thru and got a large and a small order of chicken nuggets. I broke my rule, but I still had a 45 minute drive home and I needed to eat something.  The shake did not last long.  It was gone in 10 minutes. But, OH how good it was.

I came home and put a dvd in.  It was around 2pm. The next thing I know I am waking up and it is 7pm. What the?  I thought I just needed a little nap.  5 hours is not a little nap. Well I needed to have something to eat, but my belly was not feeling great because of all of the mucus swirling around in there (I know it's gross).  So I just had a peanut butter sandwich.  I went back up to bed and put in another dvd. The next thing I know it is time to get up in the morning. I slept for 17 hours. WOW. I would say I was definitely fighting off some sort of sickness.

So here's the thing. I barely ate, but I also barely drank water. Little Miss Pee's Every Hour has barely had to pee in the last 48 hours. I am dehydrated on top of everything else. Bah!

I felt much better today, but physically I was pretty weak. It took a lot of energy just to walk into the kitchen to get water. The good news is that I have slowly been hydrating myself and I have peed several times today.  The bad news is that thre is a big bowl of candy just sitting in the kitchen...and a new pan of homemade brownies.  I would be lying if I said that I didn't hit the bowl of candy. There were a couple milk duds consumed. I don't know what it is when I am sick, but I always want chocolate.  I am wondering if it's that the taste of chocolate covers the icky sicky taste.  I have not touched the brownies yet, but I'm not ruling it out.

For me not to be active (even just walking around the house) is very hard. It's very easy to fall in to a lazy day. And that is fine.  Everyone deserves one. I just always worry that one will multiple.  I have watched more day tv in the past two weeks thanks to the Hurricane and being sick. A lot of shows that I like come on in the 5-7o'clock range. However, that's gym time. I can't get sucked back in to it.

Tonight was supposed to be my first night back with Gym Buddy Lisa at the new gym and I missed the chance to see Gym Crush 1 last night at the gym :-(  Oh well, I'll try again.

I need rest completely. I need to get in some long distance training this weekend and I have to be in good shape for it. The Race is only 3 weeks away. Let's hope that I can suck it up and get healthy.

Have a Blessed Night my friends.

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Tuesday, November 13, 2012

Brain Overload

Hello my Lovelies and Gents,

Well it has finally body is breaking down. I have been running on empty for too long.  Today I walked in to work and immediately my nose got stuffy. Ms. Tracey and I went to the mall at lunch to walk and I could breathe just fine. And then I came back to the office and spent the afternoon wishing I could just stick a tissue up my nose. BAH!

Today was a planned day of rest and it would have become one anyway. My body is so stinkin tired. I need to get some running in, but I will be no good to anyone if I fall off the treadmill. My legs hurt. My back hurts. My shoulders hurt. I'm a sore pup. I need a nap!  I'm sore and my brain can't seem to slow down.

So let's take a peek inside my brain for a little bit. It ain't pretty.  I have lists galore going on in there. Usually working out is good for me, but the last few weeks my mind has been way too occupied. First it was: what do I still need to pack? Now it's: what do I need to unpack next?

So I have OCD, but I also have ADD. This is pretty much how my brain is thinking. It's extremely distracting right now-

Okay, I need to get in at least 5 miles tonight. There are only a few weeks left til the Half Marathon.

Where are my other towels?

When was my last 8 mile run?

I can put that other George Foreman grill in the pile for the yard sale.

My shoulders are still sore so I shouldn't do an upper body workout tonight.

Okay so tonight I want to move those boxes and suitcases down into the basement.

How many more days can I get a long run in before the race?

I really need to do my nails, but it's pointless until I'm done unpacking.

What am I going to do for dinner? I could stop for a turkey hoagie or I could make the whole wheat pasta I have at the house.

If I walk at lunch tomorrow I can skip the gym.

Where is the box with my candles?

If I walk at lunch and hit the treadmill I can make it a 7 or 8 mile day.

When can I start studying again?

Oh I could stop and pick up some clearance Halloween candy.

I could go back to the old gym and see if Gym Crush 1 is there. I could use the butt machine as my reason to go.

I really need to go to bed early.

I should go to the park for a 10 mile run saturday. It's my last day for a 10 miler before the race.

Hmmm I wonder what pies were are having on Thanksgiving.

What if I am not better tomorrow?  Will I be able to go the gym?

If I only had soup for dinner am I allowed some chocolate too?

Maybe I can dedicate one night a week to a yoga dvd.

How much water have I had today?

How am I going to pay for the certification exam?

When was my last blog post?

Crap I still need to follow up with my "unofficial clients" and work on their new workout plans.

I miss Gym Crush 1.

I'm tired.

Why hasn't Tony Stewart called yet???

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Monday, November 12, 2012

I'm Baaaaaaaack!

What a week it has been Bleeps!

Much has happened since my last post. I would be up all night if I gave a recap on everything. I'll give the cliff notes version tonight and go in to detail later.

Let's see...last Thursday we had our make up Book Club discussion. We finally discussed the Stephen King novel. Lots of good tasty treats.

Friday was move day. It got moved up a day. So I took a half day then came home and finished packing and cleaning. The original plan was to pick up dinner after we arrived, but we didn't get there until after 9pm.  I pulled over to Wawa on the way for a chicken wrap and a snack of grapes and cheese.

Since we moved Move Day we also lost our help. So it was just myself and my buddy Mike. I had my car loaded before he arrived, but we still needed to load his truck with my bed and dresser. I started to have a minor anxiety attack before he got there that we would not be able to carry the dresser down the stair and lift it into his truck.

I need not worry. It was awkward carrying it down the stairs, but it was remarkably easy to carry it and lift it in to the truck. Just call me Muscles!  Of course that was only half of the trip. We still had to carry it in the house and up the stairs of the new place. Piece of cake!

Saturday morning I woke up and finished reading the next book club book. ahhh...I love my Saturday mornings laying in bed and reading. But, in all fairness, I was sooooooo sore from Friday that I could hardly move.

But I had to get up soon because it was a big day. We were finally having our Elementary School Reunion.  I've mentioned it before, but I cannot stress how close we were with each other. Our parents worked at the school. It was a teaching school so we were with each other all of the time. It really sucked when we moved and eventually lost touch with everyone. We hadn't seen most of these people in 25 years.

I made it a point to bring a pile of pictures from those days. I had intended to put it all in a scrapbook before the reunion, but I ran out of time. It was okay though, it was fun to sort through the piles of pictures. For the record, I was the queen of white knee socks and short shorts. haha. Of course that was back in the skinny days.

Sunday I had church and then choir practice. Then I had to go back to the apartment for the last of my things. I filled my car and then went straight to Bed Bath and Beyond. I desperately needed to get one of the homedic massagers for my back. I hurt soooooo much. Then it was time for lunch before another quick stop at Target for some groceries. Although I'm not sure how I fit any of it in my already full car.

On my way to the new place I talked to mom and she hadn't left to go home yet so we met up at Starbucks and then went to Saladworks for dinner. I didn't get home until 5:30. And then I still had to unload my car.

Okay, so what's the point of all of this?  I had not been to the gym since Wednesday. But, I was constantly moving.  I went up about a billion stairs and I lifted things all day long.  The former fat girl would never have been able to do all of this. She just plain would not have had the energy. Now, I didn't always make the best food choices this weekend, but it's time to make amends. I went to the gym tonight (the old gym crushes though :-(  I needed to get in a good run. I have been very lax in that lately and the Rehoboth Half Marathon is less than a month away. I tried running, but in all honesty, I should have taken the night off. My body is beyond exhausted. So tomorrow I am coming home after work.

The good news is that neither of my feet bothered me during my walk/run.  The bad news is that my shoulder has been sore for a week now. And this move did not help. In fact, I'm surprised it hasn't fallen off.  And on that note, I need to go so that I can use the massager on it.

I will go into greater detail this week, but I didn't want you to think that I forgot about you.   I have missed you more than you will ever know.

Have a Blessed Night my friends.

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Wednesday, November 7, 2012

What? It's Random Wednesday Already?

It's that time again Bleeps!  It's Random Wednesday!

Snow!  It's Snowing!  There is no accumulation right now, but we are expecting a couple of inches over night. Oh joy!  Snow makes me want to eat.  I want to go get a bread bowl of soup from Panera.  I want to hunker down with some hot cider and ginger snaps. Oh I used to love dipping my ginger snaps in my hot cider...mmm.

Ms. Tracey and I walked at the mall again today. I am missing my studying, but I am very much enjoying getting back to walking at lunch. It's a little too cold to do that outside, so we are heading to the mall. It made me think about last year. By this time last year I had a case of candles and lotions from Bath & Body Works for Christmas presents. Since I have been going to the gym and night and skipping the mall at lunch I am behind on my Christmas presents.

Today when we were walking we noticed the colorful pants in the Old Navy window. Upon closer inspection, they were corduroy pants. Ugh. That made me cringe. Corduroy are not a Fat Girl's best friend. I had horrible flashbacks to the light grey pair that I used to own. Corduroy pants make enough sound for skinny people, but they are a constant reminder when you have fat legs. I swear I felt like I was going to start a fire just walking across the room.

So the move is this weekend. Do you know what the means?  It means that I will be reunited with Gym Buddy Lisa as early as next week!  YEAH!  I miss my gym buddy. It's almost worth it to give up my Gym Crushes. haha.  Almost. Gym Crush One is sooooo hot!

It's getting colder out there.  And that means that I find myself drinking a couple warm drinks a day. That is slowing down my water intake. This is throwing off the schedule. I'm surprised that I was able to run the other night because I had only had 20ounces of water during the day. I was afraid that I would be too dehydrated for the run. So not only are the warm drinks slowing me down, but it gets harder to drink cold water when I'm cold.  Bah!  I find myself wearing my scarves at work all day trying to help bring my body temperature up to make it easier to drink cold water.

And because it's cold I am back to wearing my pants at the gym. And this is making me hotter. I am trying to get treadmills directly under the fan because within 5 minutes I will be soaking wet. I swear I use deodorant. I even use sports deodorant. I am just one hot sweaty mess!

Let's stick with this cold. I am having a problem. I'm going to need to start bringing my sports bra in to work or sport the una-boob all day. There is nothing worse than putting on a cold bra. It is sitting in my car all day just getting colder and colder. The nipples just can't handle that. 

So I went to the gym tonight and was rewarded with Gym Crush 1. Tonight might be my last chance to see him and I was determined to talk to him. When I walked in I saw him on the treadmill. It's my Lucky Day!  So I ran in and got changed. And then I prettied myself up and apparently took too long. When I came out he was gone. DOH!  So I got on my treadmill and started to run. I was going to keep it light. I wanted to hit the Butt machine (Gym Buddy Lisa says they have a different machine at the new gym) and then some abs. Whoa hold the phones!  He didn't leave. He walked by me and hit the chest machine in front of me. Sigh...How am I going to survive without ever seeing him again?  We never ended up in the same area at the same time tonight. :-(  But, we watched each other and that pleases me. I have decided that I will need to go see him every other week until I get a chance to talk to him.

I wish I could see him tomorrow, but we have our make up Book Club meeting for that dang Stephen King novel. BAH!  Well that's assuming that we aren't snowed in.  I allowed myself to buy something to bring to the meeting at the food show. But, I couldn't make up my mind. I had so many things that I wanted to choose from.  In the end, I decided to bring the scones I bought for myself. There are 6 small Raspberry White Chocolate scones and 4 medium Rosemary Cheddar scones. Let's face it, I could knock them out in one night if I keep them around.

Okay, it's new playlist time.  My life has been so crazy lately that I haven't really updated my playlists. But, I did get my monthly email.

Justin Bieber & Nicki Minaj - Beauty and a Beat - 129 BPM
Tegan & Sara - Closer - 138 BPM
Kelly Clarkson - Catch My Breath - 125 BPM
The Ready Set - Give Me Your Hand (Best Song Ever) - 125 BPM
One Direction - Live While We're Young - 125 BPM
Bruno Mars - Locked out of Heaven - 146 BPM
Alex Clare - Too Close - 126 BPM
Swedish House Mafia & John Martin - Don't You Worry Child (Radio Edit) - 128 BPM
Ne-Yo - Let Me Love You (Until You Learn to Love Yourself) - 125 BPM
Ke$ha - Die Young - 128 BPM
To find more workout songs, folks can check out the free database at Visitors can browse the song selections there by genre, tempo, and era—to find the music that best fits with their particular workout routine.

****Please note****

If you feel like you are alone on your journey and you just need some encouragement I am here for you! Shoot me an email and I will do my best to check in on you or give you the words of support you need several times a week. The journey is so much easier if you have support. 

Tuesday, November 6, 2012

When life gets disrupted

Hello Beautiful People!

Well it goes without saying that this past month has been a little busy. I'm slightly going crazy. I should be at full crazy by Christmas. haha. And it feels like everyone I talk to lately is feeling the same way. Workout and eating schedules are getting thrown in to turmoil.

For me the biggest problems have been the move, injuries, the Hurricane, Halloween, and travelling.  I've been fortunate enough not to get sick like others have, but it's only a matter of time. My adrenaline can only hold me for so long.

I have been taking a car load of stuff to the new place each day over the weekend for the past month (with the exception of last weekend). Because that required a lot of lifting and stairs I cut back on my upper body workouts. I also cut back on my legs workouts because of my sprained foot. I still managed to get in lots of walking, but I saw more and more days off pop up. In reality, that's fine. And a normal person could handle that. Me?  Not so much. I enjoy my days off a little too much.  Now don't get me wrong, I love my workouts. But, I do enjoy vegging out and doing nothing too. The Former Fat Girl LOVED her days off. Of course, for her they were every day. And that's what I fear. That she might get ahold of me and try to make a comeback.

So even though I have been lifting heavy bins and carrying them, I haven't been focusing on my shoulders. Remember how much I loved showing my shoulders during the marathon? Well they are still defined, but not as defined. Bah!  I have some work to do.  But, I don't want to risk hurting them until everything is moved.

Actually, I did an upper body workout last Friday and I pulled out my notebook.  It had been a month since my last official one and my weights had dropped. I had to cut back on every machine by 10-20lbs. And that's why you need to be consistant with your workouts!  It doesn't take much to start to lose it.

The injury has been a big giant PAIN! For someone like me, having a foot injury is one of the worst things for me. Since I used "walking" as my catalyst to lose the weight, having limited use of the foot is physically and emotionally draining. I couldn't get in the regular walking/running that I wanted. And unlike the knee and stress fracture injuries, using an eliptical and bike is just as painful. They are "low impact" for the others, but when it's the ankle there's little you can do.

And so this leads me to wallow. "This is it. I'm going to gain it all back. There is nothing I can do besides rest it. And the holidays are coming and that means food. Just go ahead and go buy the fat pants again. You'll never be able to lose the weight again.  You're finished."  I know this is the Former Fat Girl talking and I want to flick her in the nose. If I am smart I can do this. I know I can!

Besides the foot I have also pulled muscles in my neck and back with the move. I'm very very sore.  
I am aching for a massage, but it's pointless to get one before the move is over. Bah!  One week to go!

Okay, so the Hurricane came and went. I really could only use it for an excuse for so long.  First it was that I couldn't leave the apartment. Then it was "well I couldn't get anything done for those days so I have to skip the gym and do it all now!".  Oh, and most of my stuff was at the new place during the storm, but I did still have my free weights and barbell. I could have lifted if I really wanted to.  I could have pulled up yoga on youtube. I could have worked out. But, it was much easier to blame it on the Hurricane.

And then we had Halloween. All things considered I did better than most year, but I could have done better. There is no excuse for that. Just my pure weakness.

Then I went away this past weekend.  I had Friday off and started the day at the gym. My eating this weekend will be detailed later. There was some cheating, but there were some good choices too.  I love visiting family, but that definitely throws me off of my routine. And can we say STARBUCKS?  I had it every day this weekend...although I went with the 100 calorie tall skinny peppermint mocha.

And so yesterday was Make Amends Monday!  No time like the present to get back on track. I got back to eating right. I walked two miles at the mall at lunch and then I ran 5 miles last night at the gym. Ahhh..I was one hot sweaty mess, but it felt good. And of course that was when Gym Crush 2 decided to make his appearance for the first time since early August. BAH!  No matter. It was pizza night at the gym and I was strong enough to walk away from it. I had my single serving of whole wheat pasta and my soy chicken pattie. Oh and don't forget my greenbeans.

I still have to get through this week for the move, but I am going to do it by golly! 

Have a Blessed Night my friends.

PS - I'm now on instagram: Jennie5973

Check out my Facebook Page for Confessions (there are before and work-in-progress pictures):

yeah, sorry, I messed up and the "l" is missing....I need an assistant :-)

Monday, November 5, 2012

Happy Halloween...5 days later

What day is it Bleeps?

Oh I am so sorry for taking so long between posts. I knew things were going to get hectic this past month, but I never wanted my workouts and posts to suffer. It didn't quite work out that way though.  Only one more week until the move is over and hopefully things will calm down...and then comes the Holidays. BAH!

So I have a lot to catch up on.  It's going to take a few posts to do that. So let's go back to Halloween.

Once again I took the afternoon off from work. My Halloween tradition is to dress up and hand out candy with my friend's husband (in the decked out garage) while she takes the kids Trick'or'Treating. We order inside-out pizzas for dinner and sneak pieces of candy all night long.

My first stop after work was to go to Target. I needed to pick up some groceries, hair color, and extra candy to give out (reeces peanut butter cups).  In the spirit of Halloween I picked up some pumpkin ravioli for lunch.

I had been cooped up for days because of the storm so I used my time off to do as much as I could. I had considered going to the gym, but I had things to do. Library. Color my hair. Get hair cut. Drop off at Good Will. And then it was time to head over for dinner.

I knew I was in trouble when my stomach was grumbling on the way over. I had lived on Chicken, green beans, and peanut butter sandwiches during the storm. I was hungry.  I had no snacks in the house because I knew I would have eaten them all.  I had even considered stopping at Starbucks on my way over, but then I thought about the candy I would probably consume and that felt like a dumb idea.

So I arrived with my crystal light (and hot chocolate).  I ate my one inside out pizza. That may not sound good, but I used to eat two so this is a victory.  I split a mozzarella stick with my Godson and had a couple fries. This was a planned cheat day.

I had brought my costume to change into, but dang it it was cold. I put it on and stepped outside for a full 3 minutes before I came running back inside to change back into my jeans and sweatshirt.  This turned out to be good. I also put on my gloves.  The gloves made sneaking pieces of candy very difficult. It was very hard to open the wrapper with gloves on. I only had 4 pieces of candy and one oreo.  This was a huge victory for me. Of course I also came home with a small bag of candy, but I am happy to report that is is now 5 days later and there is still candy left! Go me!

So let's go back to the Reeces Peanut Butter Cups (my FAVORITE!).  Did you know that one of the medium cups is 100 calories?  ONE!  I used to eat them like they were popcorn.  I could have easily eaten 1000 calories in one sitting.  Why wasn't the Former Fat Girl looking at calories?  Well in all honesty, she did NOT want to know.

I was a little pissed at myself for not going to the gym, but I made sure to get my butt there the next night.  I didn't quite burn off the calories that I consumed on Halloween, but again, it's only a fraction of what I used to steps!  One year I will give out baby carrots! 

Have a Blessed Night my Friends.

****Please note****

If you feel like you are alone on your journey and you just need some encouragement I am here for you! Shoot me an email and I will do my best to check in on you or give you the words of support you need several times a week. The journey is so much easier if you have support.

Thursday, November 1, 2012

Get to know me - the Liebster Award

I was nominated for a Liebster Award by Stephanie at Wannabe Mama. She's got a great blog. The Liebster Award an award for bloggers from bloggers. Kind of cool really.
The rules, should you be nominated:
1. If you were nominated, post 11 things about yourselves
2. Then answer the 11 questions the person who nominated you created
3. Create 11 more questions to ask the bloggers you decided to nominate
4. Choose 11 bloggers to nominate with less than 200 followers
5. Make sure and let these people know you nominated them! No tag backs, so don't nominate someone who nominated you.
I take my nomination seriously Bleeps!  It's kind of like those "Get to Know You" emails.  So here it goes.
11 Things about myself
1. My favorite movie is Some Like It Hot
2. I love Love LOVE the smell of fresh Tar
3. Back in college my picture was in Time Magazine (The Clintons campaigned on Campus)
4. I have every season of Sex and the City on DVD
5. I used to work for the Philadelphia Phillies and often swept 3rd base for Scott Rolen during the 5th inning.
6. My Guilty Pleasure: the Disney channel (I don't have kids)
7. I prefer my actual dayplanner to an electronic one
8. I like to knit, but I only knit scarves because I only know 2 stitches
9. I sing with the radio All of the time.
10. I actually do stop and smell the roses when I pass by them.
11. I prefer the multicolor christmas lights to the solid strands

11 Questions from Stephanie

1. What is your favorite television sitcom? Big Bang Theory/The Office (every day I have an "Office Quote" email with some former coworkers)
2. What is your favorite drink at Starbucks? Peppermint Mocha
3. What are the three things you would need to not go insane on a deserted island? a watch (although I don't know why), my Bible, and Sunglasses (may sound vain, but my eyes are extremely sensitive to light...well that and I like to look good)
4. What is your favorite season and why? Fall - Football and Basketball

5. What is your favorite grocery store? Wegmans
6. If you could make out with any actor/actress, who would it be? Jake Gyllyenhaal...mmm...Jake
7. What is your dream ice cream flavor? Mint Chocolate Chip (I'm old school)
8. What is your favorite cardio workout? walking/running
9. If you could go anywhere in the world, where would you go? Australia
10. What is your favorite animal? Panda Bear
11. How has blogging changed your life?  In addition to sharing embarrassing and shameful moments, I have also shared my dreams and have started to make them come true.
My 11 Questions for the Nominees
1. What was your favorite Halloween costume as a kid?
2. What would the Title of your Autobiography be?
3. If your pet could talk, would you tell anyone?
4. What was your favorite blog post about?
5. What design is on your shower curtain?
6. What is your favorite form of exercise?
7. If you could only have music from one band/singer who would it be?
8. What do you do to relieve stress?
9. What is your greatest achievement?
10. What is your favorite Thanksgiving dish?
11. Where did you go on your favorite vacation?
So I have to tell you, coming up with questions was hard. So many of the ones that popped into my head were food related: What pizza toppings do you like? Do you prefer cake, cookies, or pie? What do you put on your hamburger? What was your favorite candy to get from trick-or-treating?  It was tough to make them non food related.

Anyway, here are my nominees (I wasn't sure about the 200 followers on some of these, I am sure they have many more than that, but since I enjoy reading them I am switching it up) :

1. Joy at
2.Michelle at
3. V and A at
4. Elizabeth at
5. Tina at
6. Stephanie at (I KNOW she has way more than 200, but she's just freakin awesome) at
7. Toni at
8. Sandra, Eric, Gus & Bea at
9. Merkel at
10. Julie at
11. Bobbie at

Alright kids, I promise you a blog post with my Halloween Confessions, but I am heading to Virginia tomorrow to go to the DC Food Show this weekend. I gotsta get ready.

Have a Blessed Night my friends.

****Please note****

If you feel like you are alone on your journey and you just need some encouragement I am here for you! Shoot me an email and I will do my best to check in on you or give you the words of support you need several times a week. The journey is so much easier if you have support.