Sunday, August 27, 2017

Recertified (4 days early) and It feels so Good

Hello My Lovelies and Gents,

Did you hear that loud scream of joy earlier tonight?  That was me! 

Four years ago I became an ACE Certified Personal Trainer. It was not an easy road. I spent 9 months studying for that exam. I was working full-time, commuting 2 hours a day, and still getting my workouts in. So basically I studied every available moment. I spent many lunch hours, late nights, and weekends studying. I suffer from Anxiety and my anxiety over the exam was almost the death of me.

It was a glorious 23 months before the panic set in and I needed to get recertified. I had two years to take the credits and I didn't do it. So that August I spent every available second studying and taking classes. I made it just in time.

This time a year and a half went by and I decided to get an early start on it. There was a deal on a Fitness Nutrition Specialist program. If I passed that program it would count for my recertification. So I ordered it. And then it sat on my shelf for a little while. A few months ago I panicked and pulled it out and started studying. I was also pretty good at procrastination.

Mentally it was exhausting. The stress eater was studying nutrition. It was very hard. I would just finish a chapter and then at the grocery store I would make a stress eating induced impulse purchase...maybe a candy bar...maybe a lunchable with oreos...maybe a microwavable dinner. Then the guilt of the purchase, and subsequent consumption of said purchase, would depress me. It made me feel like poo.

I was at a meeting yesterday and we divided into groups under categories that we struggle the most with. Mine was Self-Control. It's easy for me to control outside things. But, I really struggle with my own self control. That's why routine is so important for me. And my schedule is far from routine. I'm a hot mess most of the time. So basically, while I was learning a lot and feeling very excited about what was to come, I was a basket case.

The Fitness Nutrition Specialty included two textbooks, many online tutorials, and two big exams. A month ago I got the crazy idea to take the first exam on a Friday night starting at 8am. I finished before midnight, but I passed. The month since has been nauseating. It was like I had a split personality. One side of me was having full blown Anxiety attacks over studying. The other side of me was chill and just kept thinking "everything is fine". There was no middle ground.

It's been a crazy busy month, summer, okay year.

My recertification deadline is this upcoming Thursday. Panic set in. My schedule is pretty full. And so this past Friday night I decided to start the final exam. I'm super happy that I had the option to save my answers. I spent 2 hours on 25 out of 70 questions. I was out all day yesterday so I cancelled all plans after church today to finish the exam.

Cut to me running into the grocery store on my way home. I needed bread and vegetables for salads. The bread aisle is also the candy aisle. NOOOOOO!  Oh and it's across from the frozen pizzas and burgers. Just keep walking Jennifer! Seriously, I'm about to take a Fitness NUTRITION exam...I can't buy crap. Okay well I bought a Seagrams Strawberry Daiquiri so celebrate, or commiserate with.

I managed to buy the essentials and get home. After a quick lunch break I got down to business. I put on the Vivaldi station on Pandora and got ready.

Crap. Where is my lucky pen? 

It's okay. It's just a pen.

OMG WHERE IS MY PEN???

Relax, this other pen is fine. It will have absolutely no affect on the outcome.

*Me tearing apart my room looking for my lucky pen*

And four hours later I PASSED!  *I never found my lucky pen.

That was the scream.

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So what does this mean now? What can I do with a Fitness Nutrition Specialty?

I can lead Nutrition Seminars

I can advise athletes on their nutrition during event training

I can lead Grocery store tours

I can do basic meal planning (not including special needs)

I can lead Healthy Cooking lessons

Lucky for you I will be blogging about a lot of what I studied. I should have some extra time now :-)

Have a Blessed Evening
****Please note****


 If you feel like you are alone on your journey and you just need some encouragement I am here for you! Shoot me an email and I will do my best to check in on you or give you the words of support you need several times a week. The journey is so much easier if you have support.

jhendersonfit@gmail.com 
Check out my Facebook Page for Confessions (there are before and work-in-progress pictures):

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Thursday, June 22, 2017

My Two Speeds: Go Go Go and coma

Hello Beautiful People,

I was on such a good streak blogging and then I got sick. Then I went to Washington D.C. for Memorial Day weekend. And then preschool started up again and things got super crazy busy. What's new really?

My brain is on constant overload and there are so many blog posts that I form in my head. I am pretty much waiting for the technology that will take the thoughts from my brain and post them. Is that so hard to want?

So what's been happening in my life? Roller Coasters. Concerts. Zoos. Museums. Studying. Taking on new roles. New kids/more kids in preschool. I'm tired.

Sometimes I wonder how I let myself get so busy. I have my theories, but that's for another time. I have always been a super busy person, but I am really struggling right now. I have been taking steps to free up some time in my life. Sadly that has mean overlapping some obligations and that is making me crazy.   I made a tough decision a few months ago to step away from something and take on something else, but then some other things happened and I couldn't quite remove myself from the first obligation as soon as I would like.  I'm pretty much burning the candle at both ends. I'm doing a good job at everything, but not a great job like I would like to.

How is my foot feeling? I'm glad you asked. It's feeling much better. I still have the issue as soon as I get out of bed, but I'm pretty good the rest of the day. I've had some really big and active days and I've been fine afterwards. That's super encouraging. The only times I've really had issues is after some of the concerts. There was a lot of jumping around and standing on slanted ground. Both are big no no's.  I have gone back to the gym and gotten my  black card again. I really hadn't been there since November, which is horrifying to admit. But, I stopped going for a couple of reasons. The big one was that the renovations they were doing severely irritated my lungs and made me sick. Then My grandmother passed away and I fell into a depression. I'm not even quite sure I'm out of it yet. Anyway, I started going back to the gym initially just for the massages. After the renovations they got the hydro massage beds. HOORAY! That has been great for my legs. And then I got back on the treadmill. It was slow, but it felt great. I think I'm ready to get ready for some 5ks again. YAY. Now I just need to find the time. I have high hopes of really getting my time management under control.

I am definitely more active than I have been in the past couple of years. But, I am not where I used to be. I have been thinking of my marathons and I am not ready to close that door just yet. But, it's not going to happen in the next year at least. Who knows, maybe it's in the cards for my 45th year.

Since I'm not as active, I'm really focusing on my food. I'm doing very well. I lost 5 pounds when I got sick in May. And we all know that you'll just gain it back, which I did. But, I have lost it again. Studying for my Fitness Nutrition courses totally help, but I'm not going to lie. Last Friday, after 2 big study and stress filled days, I went to Panera for book club and got a pick two with grilled cheese and tomato soup. GAH. I am trying not to be so hard on myself. I'm human. With all of the stress and my history of stress eating I'm calling this a win.

I'm excited about all of my studying that I'm doing. And I really have a lot that I want to talk to you about. I feel like I have so much knowledge to share with you and I'm very thankful for this outlet to do it.

On that note, I do need to go make some dinner and get some things ready for the next couple of days...and maybe get a little studying in before bed.



Have a Blessed Evening
****Please note****


 If you feel like you are alone on your journey and you just need some encouragement I am here for you! Shoot me an email and I will do my best to check in on you or give you the words of support you need several times a week. The journey is so much easier if you have support.

jhendersonfit@gmail.com 
Check out my Facebook Page for Confessions (there are before and work-in-progress pictures):

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yeah, sorry, I messed up and the "l" is missing....I need an assistant :-)

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Wednesday, May 10, 2017

Random Wednesday: Birthday Cake, Dehydration, and Tony Stewart

Hello Lovelies and Gents,

I can't believe it's been a week since the last Random Wednesday, but here we are.

I forgot to mention something in my last post. As we were walking around Carowinds I was looking at all of the games. I didn't see anyone manning these booths, but I saw quite a few "Guess Your Weight" booths. Ugh, I shuddered in horror. What's worse: Guessing it right or Guessing it wrong? 

I looked and looked, but I couldn't find a Guess Your Age booth....man I would clean up on that!  No one EVER guesses my age.

*****

The other night I was listening to an interview with Gabourey Sidibe on NPR as I was driving home. She is promoting her book: "This is just my Face: Try not to stare". I was drawn in completely and quickly put her book on my Amazon wishlist.

She is currently starring in Empire. She discussed how much backlash she got for a make-out scene. It's horrifying to think that people have such an issue with a big girl in a consensual love scene, but not with a girl being raped by her father.

Check out her book. I can't wait to read it.

https://www.amazon.com/This-Just-My-Face-Stare-ebook/dp/B01I4FPMV4/ref=sr_1_1_twi_kin_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1494463098&sr=8-1&keywords=gabrielle+sidibe

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Yesterday was my birthday and I was spoiled. My fellow preschool teachers put together a breakfast spread: bagels, egg casserole, greek yogurt with granola, fresh fruit, juice, potatoes (although sadly I didn't see them and they were all gone when I got word), and the most amazing Lemon Blueberry cake that would make you weep.   It didn't end there. I was running late and didn't get to go to Starbucks for my free birthday drink, but it was ok....one magically appeared for me. I love them. They went with a Venti and I quote "We know you like to make everything skinny and non-fat, but we went the opposite. It's your birthday!"  Not arguing there.



The big problem I had yesterday was that I most definitely did not have enough water. I was dehydrated this morning. It was awful. So that was my goal today. I was allowed no coffee until I drank 2 bottles of water.

I was sent home with the leftover cake. I put half in the freezer and half in the fridge. And I have practically chained myself to my bed so that I won't go eat it all...and oh how I want to

*****

I gave myself a step challenge for May. I wanted to hit my 10K goal every day. I was doing really well, but I did not get it on Monday and Tuesday. I'm back today though. Yay.

*****

So I mentioned that I moved. I no longer live a mile from Tony Stewart's garage. I know he retired, but I still have hopes.

Hey Tony Stewart, Call Me!


Have a Blessed Evening
****Please note****


 If you feel like you are alone on your journey and you just need some encouragement I am here for you! Shoot me an email and I will do my best to check in on you or give you the words of support you need several times a week. The journey is so much easier if you have support.

jhendersonfit@gmail.com 
Check out my Facebook Page for Confessions (there are before and work-in-progress pictures):

http://www.
facebook.com/ConfessionsOfAFormerFatGir

yeah, sorry, I messed up and the "l" is missing....I need an assistant :-)

Don't forget to follow me on Twitter: hugsnsmile
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Monday, May 8, 2017

Birthday Month is Upon Us

Hello Beautiful People,

Birthday Month is upon us...that was a fast year. Tomorrow I turn another year older.  I've gotten off track (there's a pun in there, but you don't know it yet) of myself over the past couple years, but I'm taking back 44!

I started birthday month by going to Carowinds Amusement Park on Friday with Ms. Amy. OMG what a wonderful day. I love Roller Coasters. I really do.

We planned on being there all day. I had clients before the day started. Well, I had one and one had to cancel. Ms. Amy wanted to sleep in a little, but I wasn't about to let that happen. LOL. I wanted to go as early as possible.  *Calm down, I let her sleep in a little :-)

We had decided to pack lunch and then buy dinner there. I didn't have too much in the fridge, so I made a peanut butter and banana sandwich. I also packed an apple, carrots, and sweet potato chips. I was pretty pleased....until I walked in and smelled fried something at every turn. Ugh...I just wanted to gorge myself on fried dough of some kind.

We picked a Friday early in May figuring that it wouldn't be too crowded. As we pulled up we noticed the parking lot full of school buses. CRAP on a stick!  It was education day. There were kids everywhere. Now don't get me wrong, I love kids. But, I'm not a giant fan of tons of kids with very little adult supervision. I groaned a little thinking of the lines we would have to stand in now.

So obviously we walked straight into Starbucks as soon as we got there. I had a coffee in the morning and really needed to drink more water, but I was tired and it was a little chilly. Don't ask me how my brain somehow decided that a Blueberry Acai energy drink was an okay alternative, but it did. I also decided to buy a kind bar to keep in my bag in case I got hungry...I picked blueberry. Sensing a theme?

We walked around for about an hour racking up steps for my fitbit challenge with myself. Then I snapped at Ms. Amy to hurry and finish her coffee because I wanted to get in line!  I wanted to ride a Roller Coaster Damn It! 

Our first stop was the Afterburn. It used to be called Top Gun and is my favorite ride. It did not disappoint. I felt the need for speed and it delivered. Ahh...and then it was time to head towards the wooden coasters. We got in line for the Carolina Gold Rusher. It's a smaller wooden coaster. It's not much of a thrill ride, but there are a few bumps and jerks. The thing to note for this is that it's the oldest Roller Coaster in the park....and therefore the smallest seats. Now I'll admit that my booty has gotten a little bigger, but it's not that big. It was snug as a bug in that front seat. Ugh.

Up next was another bigger wooden coaster: the Hurler...oh yeah!  Now we're talking. I have a sweet sweet spot for wooden coasters. For most coasters there is a longer line to get in the front row (which I will almost always do...almost). For the Hurler the sweet row is the last row...challenge accepted. We whipped around like crazy. It was AWESOME!  Ms. Amy didn't love it, but I could ride that all day long.

I think the next stop was The Carolina Cyclone. We actually ran into Ms. Becky, who we both worked with eons ago. She was there with her daughter. This is a good ride, lots of loops.



At this point we left the park to go to the car and eat. It sprinkled a little bit, but nothing big. We made the plan that we would come back and take on the biggies: The Intimidator and the Fury 325. I should mention that if you are familiar with this park you know that there are 2 other big coasters. I don't like to ride standing up. I'm short and it never feels comfortable.

Alright, so The Intimidator and The Fury 325 are giga coasters. They aren't full of loops. They have giant drops and speed. Did I mention that I have a paralyzing fear of heights? My belly dropped just thinking about them, but I came to ride and ride I must!



My heart was pounding and I wasn't sure I could do the front row of the Intimidator. We got in the 4th row. It was awesome!  But, do you know what I remember most about it? It is right next to a food hall and while we were climbing up to the first drop, all I could smell were hamburgers.



It was awesome, but our hearts were pounding after so we got on a slow moving ride. Ahh...and then it was time to take on The Fury. Look it up. It's crazy. So first of all, you don't get to choose your row. What??? That's what I was most scared of. I was sure that if I was in the first row I would just plan pass out on the descent. We lucked out and got the last row...which is the 2nd choice for most people...ugh. No, I thought it was great. I don't prefer giga coasters to roller coasters, but I like the speed.

Our reward was dinner. I wanted a burger!  I saw turkey burgers on the menu and decided I would choose that as the healthier option. Nope, it wasn't great. It was salty and the bun was horrible. If it's a sucky bun, it doesn't matter what's in between. You can quote me on that. haha.

I found a water fountain there and it was the first I had seen. So my plan for the next visit is to take a water bottle to fill. I only saw 2 fountains in the whole park though...I'm sure there are more, but they weren't marked on the map.

There was no line for the Intimidator when we came out of lunch so we jumped in line. Nascar nerds that we are, we got in the 3rd row (that was Dale Earnhardt, Sr's number...He was the Intimidator). We loved it so much that we jumped on a 3rd time. I had a crazy idea of going 3 times in a row for 3, but it started to get cold and the line got longer. And by cold I mean that when you are that high up on the ride it was COLD.  



We started to make our way back to Afterburn, but first we stopped at the Flying Cobra. It hadn't appealed to me earlier. It looked kind of dinky, but a video playing during lunch intrigued me. There was no line when we got there. I swear, it was like we were the pied pipers. Lines formed after us. Ms. Amy says I'm a trendsetter. haha. Okay, so the Flying Cobra goes forward and backwards. It's a good one. It was a snug little seat though. Actually I think we stopped in a store first. I saw a sign for fudge and well...I love fudge.

We ended the day riding Afterburn back to back in the front row...OH BABY!  Again, there was no line. WHAT?  I mean NO LINE.



It was SOOOO COOL. I mean I could do that all day. Except that I think a small line is needed. My brain needed a little time to stop shaking between rides. It was time to call it a night.

My favorite area of the park is Snoopy Land. I had to take some selfies.



We had been riding roller coasters for 8 hours and it was cold. Naturally we stopped at Starbucks for the ride home. My throat was a tad sore from screaming all day so I got a small chai tea latte. So let's talk about the screaming. It's a GREAT stress reliever. My birthday money was spent on a season pass so that I can go back all of the time.  I'm looking for Roller Coaster buddies so just let me know if you want to go.

We walked all day long. My step count was over 19,000. My only issue is that I didn't drink enough water, but I will plan better next time.
*****

Before I go, I mentioned in the last post that I went to see Poison last weekend. My teenage crush, Bret Michaels, still looked Fine as Hell!  He can Dirty To Me anytime...



Have a Blessed Evening
****Please note****


 If you feel like you are alone on your journey and you just need some encouragement I am here for you! Shoot me an email and I will do my best to check in on you or give you the words of support you need several times a week. The journey is so much easier if you have support.

jhendersonfit@gmail.com 
Check out my Facebook Page for Confessions (there are before and work-in-progress pictures):

http://www.
facebook.com/ConfessionsOfAFormerFatGir

yeah, sorry, I messed up and the "l" is missing....I need an assistant :-)

Don't forget to follow me on Twitter: hugsnsmile
Instagram: Jennie5973

Wednesday, May 3, 2017

The Return of Random Wednesday

Hello My Lovelies and Gents,

It feels like every time I write I seem to apologize for it being such a long time since the last post. When I looked back and saw that the last post was during the Olympics I almost cried. I know I keep saying the life is busy, but it really is. 

So much has happened since my last post that it's hard to choose where to begin. It is Wednesday so it feels like a great time to bring back Random Wednesday. I am going to try to elaborate on some of the topics at later dates....this year, hopefully.

*****

My lingering plantar fasciitis is still an issue. It's not nearly as bad as it was, but it can still take me out on occasion.  It has kept me from running. I can't even remember the last time I went for a run.

I had been doing well with managing my pain and flare ups.  This past Saturday I went to a concert. Teenage Jennie was in her glory. I was 13 rows away from Bret Michaels and the rest of Poison. There was a lot of jumping up and down. That night I was awake until 2 am with foot pain. It was tight the next day, but it's been okay since.  It's been a struggle though. In general I wear sneakers all day every day. It's not easy to find the right supportive shoes that I can wear otherwise.   A couple of weeks ago I wore slight wedge heels for a couple of hours to a Celebration of Life Service and I couldn't sleep then either.

*****

The holiday season was extremely sad and heart wrenching for me. Just days after Thanksgiving my grandmother had a stroke. I spent the better part of December travelling to Virginia to sit by her bedside and hold her hand. I honestly don't know how I coped. It's sort of a blur...I know there was lots of comfort food involved though. LOTS of comfort food.

Mom-mom passed right before the new year and I'm still grieving.



*****

I moved a couple of months ago. I'm still in the Charlotte area, but I'm a little further into the country. It's beautiful and relaxing. I have cows for neighbors. The only problem is that it's a little further from most of my obligations. The bonus is that is that I don't pass any options to stop for a quick meal on the way home. It's really forced me to focus on planning my meals out. I was good at it before, but I would always have that option if it wanted it. 

My schedule lightened up a little when Room in the Inn and Lenten services ended. I'm really hoping to be able to actually enjoy my views. There is a pond in the back yard of the new place.  I look forward to spending  lots of time on the deck.  I'm dealing with a lot of stress and I'm trying hard to focus on relaxation tools. I've spent some time knitting for fun and enjoying books for leisure. It feels good.

*****

For Lent I did the impossible. I gave up chocolate. I mean I even avoided Mocha coffee. It was not pretty let me tell you.

After the first week it was pretty easy to avoid chocolate at the store. I was just fine. If I didn't buy it, then I wasn't tempted at home. However, all of the offers of all things chocolate just about drove me over the edge.

I stood tall and didn't falter. And then came Easter Sunday....when no man was safe if he came between me and chocolate. No lie, I made myself physically sick that day.

*****

It's that time again. It's time for me to get recertified for Personal Training. Instead of taking multiple course credits I decided to get my credits through a Sports Nutritionist Specialist program. I'm very excited. I really need to get back to studying, it's been a couple of weeks, but I will.

*****

While I was home for Easter my mom gave me pictures from both of my marathons. And then the Boston Marathon was on Monday. I will never make it to Boston, but the dream to go for Number 3 is not dead.  I know some people don't want to hear that...and right now it's not physically possible...but that dream is there and it will spur me on.

*****

My birthday is next week. That's right, Birthday Month is upon us. I'm really trying hard to take my life back and get control of my schedule. I'm really working on putting myself first. And so my first step is to focus on my Fitbit daily Step goal. For May my goal is to hit my step goal every day. So far I'm in good shape, but it's still early. I need these steps for my heart health and my mental health. It will also, hopefully, help with curbing my Birthday Month Celebration sweets.

*****

I have missed you so much and really want to get back into blogging. I miss interacting with all of you. And it really helps me to hold myself accountable to you. We're all in this journey together.


Have a Blessed Evening
****Please note****


 If you feel like you are alone on your journey and you just need some encouragement I am here for you! Shoot me an email and I will do my best to check in on you or give you the words of support you need several times a week. The journey is so much easier if you have support.

jhendersonfit@gmail.com 
Check out my Facebook Page for Confessions (there are before and work-in-progress pictures):

http://www.
facebook.com/ConfessionsOfAFormerFatGir

yeah, sorry, I messed up and the "l" is missing....I need an assistant :-)

Don't forget to follow me on Twitter: hugsnsmile
Instagram: Jennie5973