This morning as I was driving to work I heard one of my favorite love songs. Now I have a long commute and I usually like upbeat music that makes me move for my ride in. It takes a lot to wake me up. But, I love this song so I listened to it: "Amazed" by Lonestar. It made me wistful.
I miss having the dreamly lovey dovey feeling over someone. Gym crushes are nice, but they are just that. I miss the butterflies. I miss the smiles. I miss the giggles. I miss the anticipation. I miss having someone to think about during these songs. Does this mean I'm ready to start dating again? My head and my heart are seriously disagreeing on this.
Brain: NO!! Get Certified and then date all you want! We don't have time right now.
Heart: Just a little fun, we deserve this.
Brain: Do not lose focus!
Heart: Come on...just ONE!
Brain: It's like pringles, you can't stop at one!
Heart: Mmm...did you just say pringles?
Brain: See you are already losing focus. Think about the food. If you date right now you will stress about eating.
Heart: I can make it my cheat day!
Heart: But I wanna!
Brain: And what if you fall for some guy and he breaks your heart? Are you strong enough to handle that? Are you willing to risk all of your progress?
Heart: I might be okay.
Brain: Might ain't good enough. We have worked so hard. Let's just get certified and then you can date all over the place.
Heart: I want to be courted.
Brain: See, that's more than just dating. NO TIME!
Heart: But what if I find a guy that will workout with me and help me study? Can I date him?
Brain: Where are you going to find him?
Heart: I don't know, I haven't gotten that far yet. One step at a time.
Brain: Fine, if you find him and he respects your food choices and woos you then you can date him!
Heart: WOO WOO!!!
So there you have it Universe...if you want me to start dating my head and heart have agreed somewhat...so if you have someone in mind I can make the time for him.
And on that note, here is a recap of an email conversation with Heather yesterday:
Heather: What's the link for this weekend's 5K?
Me: Here ya go.
Heather: Got it. Signed up :-)
Me: Sweet! Let's take lots of pictures of the Cherry Blossoms and Find Me a Man!
Me: But preferably not one dressed up in a bunny costume.
Alright kids, less than 5 minutes to go in the Syracuse game. It's time to focus. Happy March Madness everyone!
Have a Blessed Night.
If you feel like you are alone on your journey and you just need some encouragement I am here for you! Shoot me an email and I will do my best to check in on you or give you the words of support you need several times a week. The journey is so much easier if you have support.