Wednesday, May 28, 2014

Random Wednesday: BBQ, Ice cream, and Tony Stewart on Twitter

Happy Random Wednesday Bleeps!

It's been a while, but it's been a productive week. Sunday I went up to see Former Work Husband Phil and his lovely wife for a BBQ. Monday I loaded up the last of my stuff and brought it to mom's. The past two days I've been purging and organizing all of my stuff. It's been a while since it's all been in one location.


Before I left my uncle's I found a few boxes of mine that had been in the basement for about ten years...they are my missing photos...some Former Fat Girl years...there were some smiles and some tears when I looked through...and some serious winces.


I have tried my best to avoid all news coverage of the Kim and Kanye wedding. I am quite glad it's over because I couldn't take the coverage. However, one thing did catch my eye. There were some headlines that Rob K. had gained weight. Not their biggest fan, but I do feel bad when the headlines are about weight. That should NEVER be a headline no matter who you are. NEVER.


Yesterday at Walmart they had samples of the Magnum ice cream bars...I had two mini dixie cups. Then they gave me coupons...I bought the chocolate on chocolate.


Good marketing means knowing your audience. The past couple of mornings have really annoyed me. I switch between my ESPN shows and Golden Girls (don't judge me) on Lifetime. Do you know how many diet ads there are on Lifetime? At least one every commercial break. Do you know how many there are on ESPN? None.

First, I get irritated at how women are targeted in ads. Second, I get irritated at what people will spend money on when eating right and exercise will do the trick.


 It's hot. Hot and humid. I am drinking my usual water and my body is still swelling...grrr.  On the positive side, I can only imagine how bad it would be if I didn't drink all of the water.


In case you missed it, Tony Stewart is now on life is soooo much better now. It's been worth the wait. Now if only he would CALL ME! 


I got a nice run in the park in on Saturday morning. Sadly, that's the last run I got. Sunday was my rest day and then Monday was moving day. If steps are involved I try to avoid extra stress on my knee.

I have been busy the past couple of days purging, but running is not an option. I'm giving the knees some rest. Hopefully tomorrow is a go though. I miss it.


Okay, I must go to bed. I still have a little more to do tomorrow before I take a carload to Good Will.

Before I do though, I keep getting asked about advising someone on starting a program. The first two things I offer: Drink you water ( 64 ounces a day) and get your steps. Walk as much as you can. Get in a routine and start with 30 minutes consistently. Park farther away from your destination. Just walk as much as you can.

Have a Blessed Night

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Saturday, May 24, 2014

I Can't....No longer in my vocabulary

Happy Saturday Bleeps,

So here we are just over 6 months away from the Marathon. Six months away and my knees hate me. Every night they scream at me "Why are you doing this to us???"

Yesterday I went to Shippensburg University to see cousin Hannah and her 4 x 400 relay team compete in State Championships. We didn't get there until later in the day as hers is the last event. As soon as we sat down I regretted not getting there earlier. I forgot how much I love track and field. I could have stayed all day even if I didn't know anyone competing.

Back in high school I ran one event in track. I ran the 100 and my knee hurt like heck. And so I stopped. It's not surprising as I was completely out of shape. I remember how much I hated the mile in gym class. I was at the end of the pack. I never exercised except for walking to and from school. I wasn't conditioned. So how the heck did I think I could run the 100? hahaha that was funny. But, let's face it, that's the shortest distance and about you could get out of me. I became the track manager for the rest of high school. I loved going to the track every day. Oh how I wanted to be like everyone out there running. But, the Former Fat Girl didn't believe in herself. I Can't. That became her motto. Rather than practice to get better, she got defeated when she couldn't do anything.

I watched these girls yesterday and was in awe. I would give anything to be that fast. I would give anything to be that in shape. I'll get there though...well not that fast. Although I will never be that young again.

The one thing that I always secretly admired and thought was the most amazing thing was a Marathon. The idea of someone putting their body through 26 miles when I could barely walk a mile without feeling defeated was huge.

I have completed 7 Half Marathons. Can't is no longer in my vocabulary. Now don't get me wrong, I have no intention of finishing more than one Full Marathon. But, I will finish one. I would really like it to be this one because my body hates me. But, I'm doing this because I want to finish. And I want to finish in one piece. I don't want to be carted off. I don't want my body to give out with a mile left. I want to finish. And I will.

Right now that means a lot of distances and a lot of pavement...both are not exactly good for the knee. And so I seem to have a rest day between each run/walk. And that's okay. I really want this to be injury free too.

Today I got up and went to the park. It's a beautiful Saturday morning and the sun was shining. I did 12 miles on Thursday and then was very stiff yesterday. That's what happens when train later in the day. I had a long drive yesterday and then sat on bleachers for 4 hours. It was a bit rough. I would have loved for a longer distance today, but my knee was stiff and I wanted to  keep it light. I got in a little over 5 miles.  I was happy with that.

I am so proud of those girls yesterday. What I wouldn't give to have a Do Over and go back in time and tell myself that I CAN!

Have a Blessed Evening

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Monday, May 19, 2014

Cruise Part 6 - Dolphin Kisses

Hello my Lovelies and Gents, 

Who wants to hear about the Dolphins? I do! I do!

The last full day of the cruise was one of the best days of my life.

Sunrise over Nassau was at 6:26 again.  It was beautiful. Our excursion started at 8:30  so there was a new plan for working out. I was not going to hit the jogging track right after. I would be hitting it later in the day. So this sunrise was in PJs :-)

When we were docking there was one other ship in port. The cool thing was watching 2 others come in after us. After a little bit I ran down to shower so that we could get in a good breakfast before our excursion. This one didn't include lunch and we weren't scheduled to get back to the ship until 1pm. We needed a good breakfast.

It was the usual for me, man I miss those breakfasts. Pancakes, eggs, sausage, some sort of potatoes, melon, cantaloupe, and chocolate milk. No

I remember being the kid that ate cold pizza and watching Saturday morning cartoons. As a kid that totally rocked. As a fit adult I am horrified. I mentioned that the pizza place is open 24 hours. At the table next to us were two tweens and their mom. The kids were eating pizza. I cringed.

When we got to the dock we waited with our group for Balmoral Island. There were three groups: Dolphin Encounter (us), swim with the Dolphins, and Beach day.  We had a little wait and there were lots of people, but it was pretty to hang there.

Soon we were marched to our boat in 2 lines. It felt like we were pre-schoolers on a field trip. haha. Follow the sign. We got on our boat and it was about a half hour ride to the most beautiful island. It was small, but beautiful.

When we got off they ushered the Encounter peeps to the side.  Everyone else was sent to the beach. We went to a small building and put our bags on the shelves. They gave us life jackets to put on. They needed to be tight because when we got in the water they would float up. Little secret: I was super excited at how far I could pull those straps. Of course they squashed my boobs, but that's okay.

We had our little tutorial and then went out to the water. They divided us into 3 groups of 10. The first group was at the bottom of the stairs. We got group 3....all of the way at the other side of the water. Luckily I kept my flip flops on. The ground was very rocky...however, walking in water in flip flops is difficult. It took us a while, but we got there.

It started right away. Instructor's name was Shawn. He was awesome. Our Dolphin's name was Margarita, could that be more perfect for me? We called her Marge for short. Marge is 6 years old and was born in captivity. She is from Honduras and so amazing.

The first group got called out for their pictures and soon it was our turn. We put our hands behind our back and leaned in and March gave us a kiss.

Then we got to hold her face and kiss her smack on the lips.

Then we got to cradle her. She didn't feel like I thought she would. She was like a rubber ball. I expected slime. Girlfriend is smooth. And also I was the shortest person in our group...I was on my tippy tip toes.

She was also a little heavier than I thought. But, I didn't want to give her a complex. After we finished with pictures there were some tricks. She jumped for us. She talked for us. She played with us. Marge is a little camera shy and in between each group of pictures in our group she would swim off and we needed to wait for her to come back. At one point she was photo bombing other groups. I heart her.

Our time was up too soon and it was time to walk back. It was definitely a good leg workout. Those flip flops caused resistance. I realized a little too late that it was easier in deeper water.

We got to see our photos right away and ordered them. We also ordered some shirts. That was an ordeal and we waited a little while for them. Eventually we were walked over to the beach area to wait for them.

O.M.G. the beach...I know a lot of people came off that boat, but we were spread out. There was a pool area. There was a DJ. We got a spot to ourselves. It was heaven.

The water was so clear and amazing. I just sat in it for a while.  I even got a few shells. But, time went too fast and soon we were heading back...on the bluest water EVER.

They dropped us off in the shopping/tourist area of Nassau.  I am so glad that we went to Balmoral Island, because I wasn't a huge fan of Nassau. I mean it doesn't help that before we got off of the ship there was a Safety announcement. The US Embassy has issued a safety warning for American tourists. They wanted us to stick with our excursions and stay in tourist areas.

We looked around and got the usual shot glasses and post cards. I turned into a complete and total American Tourist. My number one question: Where is the Starbucks?  We found it!  I was so happy...and tired. I needed some caffeine. We got our drinks and our location mugs. I usually get the ceramic coffee mugs, but I they still had the travel mugs so I got one.

Even better was that there was a Subway right next door! We didn't go though. Free food on the ship. And speaking of, we needed to get back for that. We needed to use our passports to get back on the ship...still no stamps...grr...

By the time we got to the ship it was 3pm. That's why we got the big breakfast. It would have been easy to go to the grill, but we hit the deli. I got the tomato, mozzarella on a ciabata with arugala. I also got sides of potato salad, pasta with eggplant, salad, fruit, and a pickle.

It was yummy.

There was still time before dinner and before we left port. So I went up to the Serenity Deck. There were ships on both sides so I didn't have a big water view. I opted to look at the other ships and check them out. I didn't see any jogging tracks, but I did see rock walls and basketball courts.

After an hour I went back and started packing for our departure and then get ready for dinner. I was making it a jeans night.  I have this beautiful white top that I love.  It accents my shoulders.

Okay so for my last dinner on the ship I had the heart healthy starter. It was Vine ripe beef steak tomatoes and fresh buffalo mozzarella with basil leaves and virgin olive oil.

My entree was not heart healthy, but it was still yummy. I got the bourbon and honey glazed roasted spring chicken with grilled zucchini and onions, diced potatoes. O.M.G.

I had decided that the last night I would go all out. This dinner was fabulous, but I could barely contain myself waiting for the dessert menu. I got the amaretto was worth it.

We said good bye to our servers and gave them hugs. I really enjoyed getting to know them. Once again: Peter, Christopher, and Abdioko were fabulous and it you are ever on the Carnival Victory tell them I said hello!

It was our last night so we got two songs. They sang a modified version of Leaving on a Jet Plane and then they got down to It's Gonna Be a Good Night.

After dinner I went and changed for the jogging track. I got up there around 8pm. It was dark out. It was a different world than I was used to. It was a little strange, but also pretty damn cool. My only complaint is that I could smell the grill and the pizza. Not fun when I'm exercising.

I got in 4 miles and then took a shower. I was FINALLY going to get to watch a movie on the deck. The Vow would be starting at 10. I was tired, but I was going to stay up. Then there was a technical glitch. There was a horrible George Lopez promo loop for about a half hour. I never want to hear the song Low Rider again. haha. But, I toughed it out and watched the whole movie. They even had popcorn for us.

All in all, it was a good day :-)

Have a Blessed Night

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Sunday, May 18, 2014

Wanted: Someone to Dance it Out With

Happy Sunday Bleeps,

I still have another Cruise post or two to write, but right now I have some other things on my mind.

When is it okay to put yourself first?

I am a helper. I surround myself with helpers. We tend to put other people's needs before our own. For the most part it's a wonderful quality to have. However, the sacrifices we make can be too much. What suffers? Our physical health. Our mental health.  We help so much that putting ourselves first stresses us out.

The Former Fat Girl neglected her physical health. This girl neglects her mental health. All of the changes that I am about to embark on are things that I want. Things that I need. It's finally time to put me first. The problem is that it's very hard to walk away when there are still situations that I want to help with. It's unfinished business. Except that it will never be finished. One will get better and another will pop up. If I wait for it to be the perfect time to leave and make my changes then I will never leave. That's what's kept me here for so many years. That's what's kept me from living the life that I want. I put everyone else first before my own needs.   It's time to be a little selfish.

I have to be selfish. The stress of the guilt of leaving is killing me. I may be running long distances and my belly continues to shrink...but, I also am self sabotaging with some extra unneeded calories for no other reason than I am a freakin stress eater. 

This weekend was a lovely weekend at the beach. I love the beach. I LOVE the beach. The original plan was to be gone long before the summer. This makes it harder. Bah. Makes it easier to think that I should stay and try to keep helping...but, here's a little secret, I can help everywhere I go. So it's time to put on my big girl panties and go where I want.

Do you watch Grey's Anatomy? Do you know how Cristina and Meredith dance it out? On her last episode Cristina couldn't leave. Meredith, who didn't really want her to leave, had to practically put her on a plane and fly her to Switzerland. She couldn't leave. Things were unfinished. I cried and cried and cried. I completely identified. She could finally leave after she and Meredith danced it out one last time. I need someone to dance it out with me!

Have a Blessed Evening

****Please note****

If you feel like you are alone on your journey and you just need some encouragement I am here for you! Shoot me an email and I will do my best to check in on you or give you the words of support you need several times a week. The journey is so much easier if you have support.

Saturday, May 17, 2014

Cruise Part 5 - Half Moon Cay

Hello Bleeps,

Sorry I didn't post yesterday (or the day it is now Saturday). I had a 4 hour gym day and then prepared myself for Cristina's departure on Grey's Anatomy...miss her already!  Anyway, I still have a few posts left from the cruise to go.

Our second island stop was Half Moon Cay (pronounced Key). Sunrise was once again 6:26 and we were scheduled to arrive at 7am. I was completely amazed at the timing. I fully expected every morning to be docked when I walked up to the deck. Nope, we would arrive practically to the minute. And that was cool to watch us arrive.

The sunrise was beautiful.  The sun was rising away from the island so I would run back and forth to see each.   And then I went up to the jogging track for 6 miles.

 Every morning I would run into a few of the same people, but it was exciting when newbies would show up.

Half Moon Cay was a beach day for us. There was no hurry to get to the island except that it was a BEACH DAY for us. I met Aunt Carol for breakfast at 8. We had the best view.  My breakfast was awesome. It was the same as the others, but this time I got some pancakes too. Woo Woo!  Luckily I took an extra banana for the next morning, because that was it. They ran out. No bananas for the final two days. What????

After a quick shower we were ready to go. For this island we weren't at a dock. We had to get on boats to go to the island. Here's my tip for you. When you go on "Fun Ships" get there early. Just sayin...we got there around 9:30 and we had to wait 30 minutes before our boat was called. We arrived on the island around 10. It was a couple of hours before it got super crowded.

Our first stop was to go rent a clam shell. They didn't rent umbrellas and there was no shade. I kid you not, it was a $20 rental. I was shocked at how cheap that was. You could put two chairs in them. The funniest thing was that while we were setting up our chairs there was a rooster walking around.

I was grateful for the shade, but I wanted an oceanfront chair. So I found an open one right towards the front. It was Beautiful.

Yes, we went into the water. We even have pictures from it, but they were with my disposable camera so I have to scan them. The water was unbelievable. It was cool and crystal clear that I could see the white fish by my feet. Did I freak out? Not totally, but I couldn't not look down the whole time. haha.

Okay it was 10 am and the servers were walking around with the drinks...a little too early for me. Luckily I brought my cup with ice and two bottles of water. Hydration Bleeps!  It was hot, but the water cooled me down. I was able to relax for a couple of hours and then as more and more people came it got really loud. Some people came and moved chairs from behind me to in front of me and blasted their music. I was a little annoyed, but I also felt like I was completely sunburnt. I was hungry and figured we could eat and and then hang in the clam shell.

We headed over to the island BBQ. It was a pretty walk, but I couldn't enjoy it because I was hungry. When we got in line I started with a scoop of german potato salad, cous cous zucchini, and roasted veggies. We had to wait a little while for the rest, but eventually we got a cheeseburger and a piece of jerk chicken. But, I was most excited about the fruit...O.M.G. Pineapple, Watermelon, cantaloupe. I also grabbed a couple of small cookies. Don't get excited. I'm pretty sure they were chips ahoy.

I was excited about the roasted veggies, but they were okay. I LOVED the cous cous with zucchini though.

Now that we had food in our bellies we could order a drink. It was hot and I wanted to enjoy myself. We got Miami Vices. Swirls of pina colada's and strawberry daiquiris.

Aunt Carol went back to the ship first. I stayed a little longer. I still felt like I was burning so I just relaxed in the shade and read a little. After a little while I felt like it was time to go. I wanted to get back on the ship before everyone was trying to get on.

The bonus is that I was not burnt at all. The sun down there is hot, but I was really good with lotion and I don't think it's as strong as it is by us...thank you so much pollution! This was a huge relief. I didn't want to burn, and I especially didn't want to the day before Dolphin Day!

We showered and got ready for dinner, but first we wanted to go to the Harry Potter Trivia. I loved Harry Potter. I read every book immediately. One of my things to do was to re-read them. It's been a while, but I thought I would be okay.  I was wrong. The group was very eclectic. People of all ages and races. Most of us were sitting there in a daze feeling stupid, but there were a handful who knew just about every answer. I knew 1 out of 20. But, let me share some sample questions:

* What was Voldemort's mother's name?
* What was Hermione's petronus?

Even though I didn't know most of the answers, it was still hilarious.   It also took 15 minutes so we had a little time before dinner. We went back down to the lobby area where I liked to sit and read.

Guess what!  It's dinner time!  On the menu was an enchilada, but I didn't get it. My starter was the heart healthy green bean  and roma tomatoes.  It was okay, but not my favorite of the cruise. Aunt Carol got the frog legs, I didn't try them. haha.

My entree was a little surprising for me. I'm not a blackened chicken person, but I ordered the heart healthy blackened supreme of spring chicken. It was marinated with cajun spices and herbs. I also ordered a side of steamed vegetables. This was hard for me because there was a bacon mac'n'cheese with chicken. But, my dinner was spectacular.

For dessert I got the tropical fruit and a side of sugar free vanilla. Yum.

In addition to another show, we also got private demonstrations from our servers on how to fold the napkins.

The entertainment afterwards was a little gangnam style. haha. I love it. After dinner we went to see the two comedians. We didn't love the first guy, but it was worth it to sit through because the second guy was hilarious. Maybe I'm old, but I did have a complaint. They were "family friendly" shows. The definition of that is no foul language. But, that doesn't mean that the content is family friendly. If I had a kid and I was in the first show I would have walked out....and some did.

The next morning was dolphin day! So that meant going to bed early. I was still getting up early for sunrise so I needed rest.

Before I go I will include some of my favorite pix from Half Moon Cay. Enjoy.

Have a Blessed Evening

****Please note****

If you feel like you are alone on your journey and you just need some encouragement I am here for you! Shoot me an email and I will do my best to check in on you or give you the words of support you need several times a week. The journey is so much easier if you have support.