Wednesday, August 27, 2014

Random Wednesday: Fall is around the corner

Happy Random Wednesday,

Wow, how did it get to be Wednesday already. ?

So did you know that Subway now has multi-grain flatbread?  I am so excited. I mean REALLY excited...probably too excited.


I am heading to Charlotte this week. I start the training position on Monday. I will be taking Summer stuff, but I started going through my Fall clothes. I am glad that I am going south. I don't want to cover up my body so much.


Pumpkin Spice comes out next week...just sayin...someone has a free drink waiting for her at Starbucks...I wonder what she's waiting to use it on...


Sometimes I want to run away and become a chocolatier. Possibly a dream job. But, I would probably eat it all.


Scales are tough. It's important to know your range. It's important to face it when you've avoided it for years (decades). Do you remember when I talked about stepping on the scale for the work weight loss challenge. I didn't look. I had not been on a scale in 15 years. I had absolutely no idea how much I weighed. I was guessing. The lady who charted our progress was the only one who knew. I told her I would look at the number when I lost 20 lbs. I was happy to hit that mark. And then I cried when I found out how much I weighed. Even after losing 20 pounds I was still heavier than I thought I was all of those years.

The scale is going down slowly. What it says is not important. I have noticed something lately. My Medium shirts are getting big. It's weird to think because I still have big boobs. How can big boobs fit in small shirts? Well the rest of me is small too.


I applied to volunteer with the Girls on the Run program in Charlotte. I was very excited that they wanted to talk to me about a coaching position. Then I learned that the 5K at the end of the program is the day of the Marathon. I was so sad.

After a little more discussion I can be an Assistant Coach this season. It will kill me to miss their 5K, but I will enjoy the 10 weeks prior. :-)


I am CRAVING guacamole. CRAVING it!


This week I had the job of writing my bio and selecting my photos for the Training Website. The photos were a little tough. How do I choose? If it was just me I would be fine, but the other trainers with their amazing bodies are on there too.  Gah it was stressful.

While I was looking through the pictures I found lots with long hair and I missed it. I also saw lots of pictures of really short hair and I missed it. I am a hair mess. 


Trainer's Tip

Many people neglect working their lower back. It's extremely important, especially if you lift heavy items regularly (grocery bags, kids, etc).

  1. Lie face down on a mat, with your arms fully extended above your head and your legs fully extended behind you.
  2. Lift your chest, arms and legs off the floor by arching your back. Only the tops of your quads and your lower abdomen should be in contact with the floor.
  3. Hold for a count of 2 while squeezing your abdominals and obliques.
  4. Return to the starting position for a count of one, then repeat.

Have a Blessed Night

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Tuesday, August 26, 2014

The stigma of Personal Trainers

Hello Beautiful People,

It's been a little while. Last week mom and I drove to Pittsburgh to help my brother and sister-in-law with their move. Someone needed to take care of nephew when the movers came and everything got unpacked.

There is much to tell you about from it, but today was Distance Day and I'm beat. I had a good run today (13 miles). So I will recap the whole thing tomorrow. Spoiler: Lots of eating out.

While I was away I was reading the book The Vacationers. It was one of the hot reads for the summer. The story follows the Post family as they spend 2 weeks on an island in Spain. I won't ruin the book in case you want to read it. But, there was something that bothered me.

The son brought his girlfriend of 6 years on the trip. He is 28 and she is 40. They live in Miami and she is a Personal Trainer.

The way she was portrayed was hard for me. She was constantly wearing spandex and lycra. When she wasn't dressed like she was going to the gym, which was 95% of the time, she was dressed um...very provocatively. Now that could be chalked up to the Miami thing

The family didn't like her. There could be a number of reasons: the age difference or the fact that she didn't interact with them much. I could handle that. But, there were moments when it was mentioned that she wasn't good enough for their family because of what she does. Ironically the person that said this had gained 30 pounds and turned to food for comfort.

There can be a stigma with being a Personal Trainer. There is an image that people have. All spandex and muscle. For the record, I only wear my workout clothes when I'm working out. I don't spend all day in spandex, even though my butt looks great in it!

What gets missed is that a good certified Trainer is a Health Professional. It's not all about getting a six-pack. It's not all about spending every free moment working out. It's more than just lifting weights. It's not just Fitness. It's Health and Fitness. Every body is different. And not everybody can design a program for all needs (injuries, body types, goals, diseases, etc). There was a lot of studying involved. A LOT of studying.

For the most part I have received a tremendous amount of support about being a Trainer. It hurts though when some people don't take me seriously. They think it's all about jumping jacks and running. They don't think it's a respectable career. But, I can't think of a better career. Helping people gain confidence. Helping people lower their blood pressure. Helping people get more energy. Helping people manage time. Helping people put their health first. Nope, there's nothing better.

Have a Blessed Evening

****Please note****

If you feel like you are alone on your journey and you just need some encouragement I am here for you! Shoot me an email and I will do my best to check in on you or give you the words of support you need several times a week. The journey is so much easier if you have support.

Monday, August 18, 2014

I feel like a Bottomless Pit

Hello Beautiful People,

Friday night I carb loaded. And then I didn't run on Saturday. Yesterday was a rest day. And today was to be a distance day. I ate accordingly. Today I was going to help my mom set up her classroom until noon and then go to the fitness center for my distance.

All morning I felt like a bottomless pit. I had eggs for breakfast, but I was still starving. There was a lot of work to be done so I decided to stay until 3 and make it a shorter distance night. I needed to get lunch since I didn't bring anything.  I had a free iced tea from Dunkin Donuts so I thought I would get a bagel. That should hold me over a little. Nope. When I got back to school Mom said that another teacher ordered pizza and we were invited. I shouldn't. I really shouldn't. It's all I could think about all afternoon. I wanted it. I didn't want it. I wanted it. I didn't want it.

I left at 4 and didn't have any pizza.

On my first mile my foot HURT. It hurt like hell. I didn't think I would finish. After the first mile it felt better. I got in 5 miles today. After, it still hurt. I have been massaging it all night. It's going to need to be a light week.  I really hope I feel better soon.

Am I this hungry because of my metabolism? Am I this hungry because of anxiety? Am I this hungry because I'm frustrated from this setback?  I tend to think that it's all 3.

I am a stress eater. Sometimes it really sucks to get out of bed.

Have a Blessed Night

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Sunday, August 17, 2014

The Human Body is Amazing

Happy Sunday Bleeps!

The human body is a complex and amazing thing. When you stop to think about how it all works it's simply magnificent. It's all so interconnected.

Muscle memory is so awesome. I cut back on the weights for a little while. All it took was two days this week and things have tightened back up. I love that.

One of my favorite things about running is that when I am completely focused and in the zone I can feel just about every muscle being used. It's the best feeling.

Friday I did 10 miles. I felt fine during. Then when I was done the pain started. My foot. It's the same thing again. My foot felt jammed. That's the best way to explain it. There was slight swelling, but much, but I could see it in the ankle.  More importantly, the arch is tighter.

I hurt laying in bed Friday. when I woke up I felt a little better, but once I got up and was moving around it bothered me again. So I opted to just hit the weights. Later in the day I soaked my feet in epsom salt, massaged my feet and calves, and rolled my foot over a tennis ball.

I felt okay, but I was walking around barefoot. In retrospect, even though I was in the house, I should have been walking around in sneakers. This morning I was feeling better. I still kept it as a planned Rest Day. Tomorrow is distance day so I don't want to aggravate anything.

I ran some errands today. I wore my sneakers all day. ALL day. One of my errands was running to Good Will to look for gym equipment. I didn't find anything, but I did score an unopened tube of tennis balls for $1.96. SCORE! They are my best friend. I take them everywhere to massage muscles.

I feel much better tonight. I am planning on a distance tomorrow. I will be cautious. I will be careful. It will be a slow slow distance. I am taking no chances. 

I don't tell you that I'm not Fast to make excuses. I tell you that because even though I am not that fast I still keep going. I don't let it hold me back.

My body knows it is hurt. It compensates without me directing it. It compensates and puts stress on other parts. That's what happened with my iliotibial band. In order to not put stress on my hamstring and opposite knee I have stressed my band. 

My spine is crooked. My hip is a mess. My knee is full of arthritis. It's painful. I hurt every day. But, I'm learning to manage the pain. I'm conditioning my body. I would rather hurt as a result of being active than from being sedentary and not using my muscles. The Former Fat Girl hurt all of the time. Her muscles weren't conditioned for activity. The extra weight on her joints made moving painful. So if the choice is pain from being unconditioned or pain from LIVING, I'll take LIVING!

I hurt every day and yet I have never felt more alive!

Have a Blessed Evening

****Please note****

If you feel like you are alone on your journey and you just need some encouragement I am here for you! Shoot me an email and I will do my best to check in on you or give you the words of support you need several times a week. The journey is so much easier if you have support.

Thursday, August 14, 2014

I don't know if you've heard, but it's The Year of Jennie

Hello Beautiful People,

Once again I will fall behind on my posts...but it's a good reason :-)

Today I heard from the Group that I interviewed with last week. I got the position :-)  I am beyond excited.

I have worked with clients on my own. I have designed countless programs for people. This is what I love. This is what I breathe. This is what I live for. I had a really good feeling about this Group. The more research I did the more I loved them. My interview was 2 hours and it went by in a blink. I felt like I had known this chick my whole life. I wanted this. I was a little nervous though. I would by far have the least experience. But, I also have a lot to offer.  I have a story to tell. It's a Success Story.  :-)

The Group is for at home personal training. The trainers have a certain territory. But, if they have a specialty then they may be asked to go to another area. Well it turns out that the Running Specialist left. So hopefully I can help others with that too.

Back in June I had another interview. I would have taken it, but I was hesitant about it. I liked some things about it, but wasn't really excited about other things. I would have taken it to move and get started. I was sad when I didn't hear, but that was really because for a little while I felt like I wasn't good enough. And then I decided that it was just because it wasn't the right position for me. I didn't want to take it for the wrong reasons. It would have been a lot of work for very little reward. When I got back home I immediately contacted this Group.  It took a while to get things moving, but once we started talking I felt more and more sure that this was the right fit for me. Good things come to those who wait.

And in the meantime, I have gotten a buttload of mileage in. I was happy with my July numbers and my August numbers are even better.  Yesterday I had 12 miles. That would have normally made today a light day. I would have been sore. Today I did an hour of weights, 5 miles, and then 5 miles on the bike. My endurance training is paying off. So even if I just get in a 5 mile day and I'm upset with that, my body is responding. So this summer has been a giant blessing. Every day I feel more and more confident that I will cross that finish line.

I can't wait to get started, but first I have a trip to see nephew in Pittsburgh next week.

I was in Wal-mart when I got the news. Yes, I teared up a little. I always get emotional when I think about how far I have come. I know I always fear the return of the Former Fat Girl, but today I think she gave me a standing ovation.

It's almost Fantasy Football draft time. I am the commissioner and the only girl. Back when we started it I painted a Football gold as the roaming trophy. This year someone mentioned getting a Championship Belt, a la WWE. I said I wanted a Tiara!  So I was told that if I won (and it was stressed IF) then I would get a tiara. To which I responded "I don't know if you've heard, but it's The Year of Jennie!" It sure as heck is!

Have a Blessed Night

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Wednesday, August 13, 2014

Random Wednesday: Shark Week, Travel, and Playlist

Happy Random Wednesday Shark Bait!

It's my favorite week of the year. It's also the anniversary of my big fall. I mentioned it in a previous post. Three years ago I took a nasty spill. It was dark and I was wearing flip flops and a skirt. I tripped on a concrete step and went down hard on my knees. It took the skin off of both of them. I was able to walk, but barely. My grandmom with her walker looked like Speedy Gonzalez compared to me. I could only wear skirts because it was too painful to lift my legs to put them in pants. I would have gone without underwear if I could have.

It was a slow and painful recovery. It's hard to grow skin over your knees when they bend and break all of the progress. This was before my Blog. It was before my desires for my first Half Marathon. But, it was during my summer walking time. I had to take 3 weeks off before I could get out there again. When I did I was slow and so cautious it wasn't funny.

I still see the scars on my knees. I am told that they aren't that noticeable, but I see them. I will have them forever. I almost kind of like them now. They are a reminder of things that I have overcome.

I tried to find pictures of them. I know I had a bunch. I took progress pictures to send people regularly, but I can't find any. They were several phones ago. I'm not sure that I downloaded them. If I find them I will post them later.


The other day my aunt made mint brownies. I cannot handle it. They are the best thing EVER. So my rule is: any day that I log 10 miles or more I can have one. I'm kicking butt!


Between my Charlotte trip, my day in DC, and my Pittsburgh trip next week I have had to rearrange my schedule. Rest days and Distance Days have been rescheduled.  It's throwing me off, but I'm making it work. It's actually a really good thing for me. It's a nice challenge. I like routine, but I know that life throws you challenges. So I'm dealing with it.


Okay, new eating plan. Just watch Shark Week 24/7 (available on dvd and netflix now). You will never eat again!


Good news!  I checked and there's a Planet Fitness a mile from my brother's new house in Pittsburgh. Say what you want about them, but for $20 a month I can go to the gym pretty much everywhere I travel. That is a nice bonus. Because I travel A LOT!


My heart is literally breaking every day for Tony Stewart. I hope and pray for him and for the family of the driver involved in the accident.

I have been grilling up zucchini and squash and mixing it with my cheese ravioli. It's ridiculously delicious.


 Yesterday was a bonus rest day. I know that my mileage is getting up there. I know that I need more rest days now. Yesterday was unplanned. I had a Rest day on Saturday because I was driving all day, but my calves were killing me yesterday. I may not have run on Saturday, but they got an 8 hour workout.

I listened to my body and I rested. I do enjoy them, but I still struggle with them. Rest Days are contagious. When I have one I seem to want another one right away. I don't like it. It makes me feel like the Former Fat Girl again.

Today I had a distance planned. It's two days later than normal which means that it's 2 days closer to the next one. So I didn't want to have a super long one. I thought I would get in 12. It took me a long time to get my head in the right place. For a little while I thought I would only get in 10. My calves were still sore on the first 3 miles. I'm always tight for the first 3. So I never make any decision on changing distances until I'm past 3 miles. If I'm still hurting then I will re-evaluate. I generally make it through and keep to my planned distance.

Who is ready to update their playlist?  Here is the list that gets mailed to me every month:

On the whole, this playlist compiles a healthy mix of new tunes, fresh takes on recent favorites, and a few curve balls. So, there should be plenty of songs here to keep you moving and a few to keep you guessing.
Here's the full list, according to votes placed at Run Hundred--the web's most popular workout music blog.
DJ Snake, Lil Jon, Juicy J, 2 Chainz & French Montana - Turn Down for What (Remix) - 100 BPM
The Black Keys - Fever - 128 BPM
Florida Georgia Line, Luke Bryan & Jason Derulo - This is How We Roll (Remix) - 132 BPM
Billy Currington - We Are Tonight - 128 BPM
Royksopp & Robyn - Do It Again - 125 BPM
Katy Perry - Birthday (Cash Cash Remix) - 128 BPM
Lady GaGa - G.U.Y. (KDrew Remix) - 125 BPM
Cash Cash & Bebe Rexha - Take Me Home - 127 BPM
Dada Life & Sebastian Bach - Born to Rage - 128 BPM
Tiesto & Matthew Koma - Wasted - 112 BPM
To find more workout songs, folks can check out the free database at Visitors can browse the song selections there by genre, tempo, and era—to find the music that best fits with their particular workout routine.

Have a Blessed Evening

****Please note****

If you feel like you are alone on your journey and you just need some encouragement I am here for you! Shoot me an email and I will do my best to check in on you or give you the words of support you need several times a week. The journey is so much easier if you have support. 

Tuesday, August 12, 2014

A Day in DC: The National Archives and National Harbor

Hello my Lovelies and Gents,

So yesterday was a fun fun day. I had been invited to head in to DC and hang out with Cousin Randy and his friend Dustin, who is visiting from Missouri. Mondays are usually my Distance Day and I was hesitant at first because I didn't really want to change my schedule. But, I am here to spend time with family and since I don't get these opportunities that often. So I rearranged my schedule.

I love my family. When we were planning the day I asked what time we would be meeting I was told "How about in the afternoon, that way you can still get a run in in the morning?" Love my family!

So I got up and headed out for 5 miles. I didn't push it because I knew I would  be putting in more miles in the afternoon. I got my miles in and headed in for a shower. I didn't have to leave until noon so I also made sure to have lunch before I left. I had a turkey sandwich, carrots, and half of a sweet potato (leftover from the night before...yum).

I had been trying to decide about whether or not to take a backpack. I could bring snacks and water. I could bring a sweater. It would be on my back. It would be fine. But, I would also have to carry it around all day. It's really funny. As a kid I couldn't wait until I was adult. I would be able to take trips and buy the fun food whenever I wanted. No more packing snacks. I could get the chips, ice cream, and hot dogs any time I wanted. And now, that thought horrifies me. I need to pack my own snacks.

I packed my backpack and I put on my sneakers. It was time to go. Because I got to the Metro Station later in the day I had to park on the top level of the parking garage. The good news is that it was more steps for me. I love that it's good news now.

I met the boys at L'Enfant Plaza. Considering we were going to the National Archives it wasn't the closest stop. But, they could park and we got some some walking in. So we walked across the National Mall. On the way we saw dozens of Food Trucks. If you wanted chicken on a stick you could have it. You could have pizza. You could have falafals. You could have BBQ. You could have chips. You could have ice cream. It's all right there. Anything you wanted. Except for me. It was nothing I wanted. Hello New Me!

I wish we could have taken pictures in the National Archives. I understand why we can't, but there was so much I want to share. When we first walk in you see the Magna Carta. Right there!  I was a little taken a back. We didn't have to stand in line for it at all.

On a whole, we tend to forget as a country how recent changes happened. We saw lots of documentation from Segregation and Women's Rights. I was completely surprised to learn that even in the 70's married women could not apply for credit under their own name. Tennis Legend Billie Jean King was married and the sole support of her family. She was a world champion and couldn't get a credit card in her name. That was in my lifetime.

I spent a lot of time in that section. I came across a pamphlet that used to "Help Supervise Women". Oh yeah. They recommended being very patient. They emphasized focusing on safety. And it is very important to encourage and recognize good work. I have good news Ladies. According to the last page, we can be trained to do ALMOST any job a man can. Isn't that great!

After that we went upstairs and saw the Declaration of Independence. I didn't get to get too close to it, but I saw it. Sort of gave me chills. Then we visited the Public records and got to listen to recorded conversations with the Presidents. We went to the Signature gallery. I got a replicated John Hancock signature from a signature machine. Pretty cool. We really enjoyed it and learned a lot.

We were also happy to leave because we were parched. Luckily I had water in my backpack. We had some water and then walked through some gardens.

On our way back to the car I was happy to see so many people running and riding bikes. People were active!

We stopped at Starbucks before getting to the car. I needed some caffeine. I got a tall Mocha Cookie Crumble frappucinno as light as possible. While we were there I was allowed to ask Dustin about my ITB injury. He is a physical therapist and gave me some stretches to do. YEAH!

Soon we were heading towards the National Harbor. The only glitch is that we had to drive past the Ballpark and One Direction was in concert that night. It was still early, but those girls wanted to get there early.

Frequent hydrator that I am, I of course had to use the ladies room when we got there. I didn't see the public ones and went into a restaurant to use theirs. I was the only one in the restaurant so I grabbed a bottle of water and a cookie. much for my snacks. Oatmeal Chocolate Chip. I couldn't resist. They said they were 100 calories. I am not sure about that.

The National Harbor is pretty cool. There is a huge ferris wheel. There are sculptures and a ginormous sandbox for kids. There is a pier with kayaks and paddle boats. There is a sitting area facing a large screen that even had Shark Week on. Shark Week is everywhere! :-)

The weather was a little cloudy and cool, but we got on the Ferris Wheel anyway. It was pretty cool. I think it would be amazing on a clear day.

Then we found a nice restaurant for dinner. We got outdoor seating that was covered. We were right across from the bar and it had Shark Week on there too. *Huge Grin*. The menu was nice and most things were really out of my budget. The budget tends to lead me towards the burgers. And the burger looked pretty good. Although it had bacon and BBQ sauce. As much as I like BBQ, I don't really like bacon on my burger. They had flatbread appetizers that I was thinking about, but I saw something else. I asked the waitress if the fondue appetizer was big enough for an entree. It had jerk chicken, croutons, grapes, and apples in a gouda fondue. That's what I got. I was venturing out. It was so delicious.

Spearing your dinner slows you down and takes time.

We were asked if we wanted dessert. Yes, but not a lot. So we all split the chocolate cake..O...M...G!

It was so rich. We couldn't even finish it.

So after dinner we walked around for a little while. It had started to rain. We went in to the Peeps store. A whole store devoted to Peeps. It was pretty much shirts and candy. It smelled good though.

We also found a Tervis store. OMG a whole store!  I had to go in. For the most part it was stuff that I had already seen and even owned. But, I found a 26.2 cup.  I got it. It's in the pile for after the race :-)

We took a few more pictures. The lights had come on on the ferris wheel and with the clouds behind it...well for a photo junky it was awesome.

I was getting tired and my sugar rush was ending. So they dropped me off at the Metro and I headed back to my car. I could have taken the elevator, but I did the stairs. Good for me! When I got to my car I checked my fitbit. I had walked another 5+ miles. That was 10+ for the day.  It was a good good day.

Have a Blessed Night

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Sunday, August 10, 2014

Grrr...Poor choices out of habit and learned behaviors

Hello My Lovelies and Gents,

Well okay it's been a little while. I know this, but I especially know this as I was called out by Ms. Amy at lunch last week. She reads my blog on her lunch hours and didn't have anything to read all week. haha. I'm sorry Amy! I will try to do better.

So I have a lot to talk about. It's been a little busy, but in a good way. And it's going to continue. I still owe you a post on my beach trip with Miss Olivia and I want to tell you all about this last week (I spent a few days in Charlotte and I want to spend some time on that post), but I have a couple of things to talk about today first. They are Charlotte related, but it's almost like I'm telling you the ending before I tell you the story. Don't worry, there's no spoiler here.

The first thing is that while I was in Charlotte my smart phone app alerted me that my Lady Gift is on it's way. I had forgotten to pack supplies for the trip so Ms. Crystal and I made a stop on our way home from dinner one night to pick some up. I had just eaten a good dinner. I was full. I did not want anything else. And then as I was shopping for Lady Gift Supplies I suddenly felt the pull into the chocolate aisle. I am like Pavlov's dog. A box of tampons makes me crave chocolate. Learned behavior? Habit?  Association? No matter what, I fought it and didn't get any chocolate...until the next day when I inhaled a pack of Rolos.



The second thing is that I made pretty good choices food wise last week. I ate out for almost every meal, which could be a challenge, but I am happy with my choices. I am unhappy with my ride back to Virginia though. It was raining. It was full of traffic accidents and construction. I was sad to leave. It was the perfect trifecta for poor decisions.

I had planned on stopping at Subway. And generally they are everywhere. But, I was not moving and it was an hour past lunch time. I had to eat. I was happy to see a Five Guys, but instead I chose Arby's. The Former Fat Girl LOVED Arby's. LOVED it. I think I can count on one hand the number of times that I have gone there in the last 7 years. I figured I would get a Beef'n'Cheddar. It's my favorite there. I didn't want fries, but for some reason my mouth ordered the combo. I didn't even realize I did it until I got my order. Fine. I just won't eat them.

As I was eating my sandwich I felt sick. My face felt greasy. My belly warned me it wasn't a good idea. I was reading while I was eating and before I knew it I had fries in my mouth. What the hell just happened?  It was habit.

I felt gross immediately. I wanted to wash my face. I wanted to brush my teeth. I wanted to take a nap and make the icky feeling go away. If you made me go for a run afterwards I would have thrown up. I felt like crap. Seriously, this food had been in my system for 5 minutes.

This is what's it's like. The Former Fat Girl felt like this all of the time. She just didn't know any better. She didn't realize that you shouldn't feel like that. It makes me sick to eat greasy and fried foods both physically and mentally. It makes me sick to think that the Former Fat Girl used to eat like this practically every day. No wonder she was Fat and miserable.

I hate that I made that food choice yesterday. And yet sometimes I am glad. It's a huge reminder. It helps make the decision Not to do that again much easier.

I hate the my body responds to situations without consulting my brain. I work hard to make positive changes to my body. I work hard to retrain my brain. The body is a funny thing...It's not perfect.

The important thing is that I won't let this set me back. It happens. I just need to keep moving forward.

Have a Blessed Evening

****Please note****

If you feel like you are alone on your journey and you just need some encouragement I am here for you! Shoot me an email and I will do my best to check in on you or give you the words of support you need several times a week. The journey is so much easier if you have support.

Tuesday, August 5, 2014

Wedding weekend..spoiler: There was Cake!

Happy Tuesday Bleeps,

 This weekend we went to a wedding. Mom is a teacher with the Groom's mom, Eileen. And we have gone to some Keith Urban concerts with his parents in the past. haha. I love his parents. I only met the groom once, but I was really looking forward to this.

I am a non-conventional person and this was most definitely a non-traditional wedding. The bride and groom met in Art School and pretty much the entire wedding party went there too. They are artistic and performers. All I knew going into this was that the bride was weaving her own dress. I couldn't wait.

The ceremony and reception were being held at and arboretum. So you know it was going to be pretty.

On the creative side I loved the hand painted wood signs. I loved the flowers. The plants. the centerpieces were little bonsai trees with votive candles. Simple. Appropriate. Pretty.

Before the wedding I went for a 6 mile run. Then we had a 90 minute drive to get there. I wore a pretty dress that I got in Savannah (without trying it on and I have never worn it before). In full disclosure, I did wear some "help" under it. After the run and the water, I was a little swollen around the middle. For the first time that I had worn it, I didn't feel it the whole time. I actually forgot I was wearing it, even when I was sitting down.

I also wore my flip-flop sandals with the dress. They were pretty. But, I knew they were going to be a problem, but they were pretty. They just wouldn't provide any support.

We arrived a little late, thanks to traffic and GPS errors. It's okay though because the ceremony started a little late.

It was awesome! The bridal dress wasn't a dress at all. She weaved a top and pants for both her and the groom. And a cape for the groom!  I saw abs!  It was like watching Aladdin and Jasmine getting married. Note to self: Bare abs if I get married!

The ceremony was sweet. There were poems and specially written songs by the groom. It was lovely. And soon we were ushered upstairs for the receiving line and for Cocktail hour. There were some puff pastries out. One was like a little biscuit with pasta sauce in the middle. I was starting to get hungry so I had a few.

There was seating outside so we grabbed a couple chairs. I'm glad we did. Cocktail hour was over two hours and my knee was sore from the run, drive, and sandals. Oh I almost forgot. There was also champagne. It was served by a guy who I think thought he was Antonio Bandaras. haha. He was cute, but no Antonio.

Finally we were seated. It was an Italian theme and there were appetizers on every table. We had two plates. One was a muscles dish. I passed. But, I was all over the assorted vegetables. It was called Verdure Grigliate: Grilled Eggplant, zucchini and peppers marinated in a pesto sauce.  It was YUMMY.

There were a couple of dishes listed that I was interested in. We did eventually get the Mixed Plate of Prosciutto, sopressata, Bresaola with scarola, olives and cheese. That plate was huge and was literally passed around our table 3 times before we cleared it. I really wanted to try the Involtini di Melanzane alla Mediterranea: grilled eggplants stuffed with a mix of fresh tomatoes, olives, mozzarella cheese, basil, and extra virgin olive oil. We didn't get it though.

There were a lot of tables, but we were seated with relatives of the groom's mom so we got picked fairly early.

I started with some salad. And just as I was moving to the entrees they brought out the eggplant dish I wanted to try. YEAH! So I grabbed one. I got the hand made cheese ravioli with a couple of beef meetballs and a side of roasted potatoes. I um...also got a small plate with desserts. They were there staring at me! Calling me!  I like the fruit pastries. I like them A LOT!

My food was good, but it was very heavy in my stomach. I couldn't burp enough. I was starting to feel uncomfortable.

So here's something. I always always ALWAYS think I will like cannoli. And I always take one bite and then stop. I just can't do it. They had little regular ones and little chocolate ones. I didn't finish the regular and I didn't really like the chocolate one. Luckily I was looking forward to the cake.

After dinner there was dancing. LOTS of dancing. So much dancing. I love to dance, but I couldn't. First, my knee would not survive. Second, my belly was really not feeling well. Bah.

There was a little break in the was cake time!  YEAH CAKE!

It was a vanilla with strawberries in it and it was delicious. While we were on our way to get a slice, the groom's mother noticed a new plate of desserts on the dessert table. I didn't take a picture and I don't know how to describe it, except that there was gooey caramel oozing on this chocolate delight. The three of us split one small slice. Savages that we were we skipped the plate, silverware, and napkin. It was messy and my fingers were sticky forever...and O...M...G!!!  Soooooo heaven in my mouth.

It was such a wonderful event. I loved every moment. I loved the people. Half of the guests were artsy and the other half were Kennedy-esqe. OH yeah, it was Awesome!  A once in a lifetime wedding.

My knee did hurt the next day. I had considered putting in a few miles even though it was my rest day, but I opted to rest the knee. It was worth it though.

Have a Blessed Night

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Friday, August 1, 2014

Random Wednesday so Random it's Friday

Happy Random Wednesday Bleeps,

So this is it's Friday.  I spent the last few days at the beach with Miss Olivia and Miss Sophia. The time was short so I spent every minute with them that I could. I will tell you all about it later.


I am just going to say what we are all thinking...there is nothing sadder than a stale oreo


Today was the last day of my second Push Up program. I was scheduled for 270.  I finished with 285 today. HOLLA!

Girlfriend has some Sexy Arms!


I have a funny story for you.

Last Friday I went to the pool. It was a beautiful day and I was surprised there weren't more people there. It was pretty much just me at first. Then a few more ladies came. And a few more.

One lady came with two younger girls. They went to the area on the lower level by the lake and then came back a little while later. I was reading so I wasn't paying attention, but a little while later some other ladies and the life guards were talking to them. Then things got quiet and about 10 minutes later two hunky hunky maintenance men came in.

It was like something out of a movie. It seemed to move in slow motion. The hunky hunky maintenance guys strutting around the pool area and all of the ladies sitting up and shifting their boobs in the air.

Turns out there was a beehive. I know this because the hunky hunky maintenance guys disturbed it and then were running away from it waving their hands in the air. haha. They left and things returned to normal...until they returned a few minutes later. And then the boob shifting happened again.

They sprayed a can at it and practically got a standing ovation when they left. haha.


All of this running is killing my legs. I lay in bed every night with sore muscles no matter how much I stretch. I thought it was Restless Leg Syndrome, but that is neurological. I don't think it's that. Grr...I'm pretty sure it just has to do with the increase in mileage, but grr...I like my sleep.

I've also has 3 nights where I have woken up completely parched in the middle of the night. I know I am plenty hydrated before going to bed. This used to happen to me every night, but that was before I was drinking my 64 oz of water a day.


Today is a the first of August. That means July is over. I had hoped for 150 foot miles, but I only got in 142. So I am aiming high for 175 this month. I got 8 in today. I am going to make August my Bitch!  Haha.


Yes, I have a special playlist on my ipod for booty music...because I heart my booty!

Have a Blessed Evening

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