Tuesday, January 31, 2012

Tales from the Gym...

Hello my Lovelies,

So tonight was a fun night.  Gym pal Lisa got her membership to the gym today so it was time to celebrate...with a workout!  I walked for an hour at lunch and I'm really trying to hit the cardio hard this week.

I've noticed that if I have a good walk at lunch I am a little slower to get started at night.  I figured there was plenty of time in between, but it still affects me.  Oh well, it's not going to stop me.

The parking lot was completely packed when we pulled in. It was not looking good.  After a quick change I came out and found Lisa on a treadmill in the back.  As I was filling up my water bottle I saw one just a few over from her open up.  I'm on it!

It was in a corner that I was not used hanging in.  I generally like to be in a front row because being behind people is distracting for me.  I end up watching other people's paces and not concentrating on my own. This treadmill was in the back over by the ab area.  So I focused my attention over there so that other paces wouldn't get to me.

There were some people busting it pretty hard and then this lady showed up.  God bless her for trying, but oh honey...what are you doing?  She got down on the mat and looked like a baby laying on her back who just discovered her legs.  I could tell she thought she knew what she was doing, but she was way off.  Even when she was close to an actual ab exercise her form was way off.  I wanted to go talk to her and show her what she was doing wrong, but it's a hard thing to do.  I don't think she would really want to hear what I have to say, but then I feel bad that I'm not helping her.  It's a hard place to be in.

I was on the treadmill for 45 minutes and really wanted a new machine but, it was just plain packed.  I saw something open up by Lisa up front (she moved to the elliptical).  I had no idea what it was, but I wiped down machine and took off.  It was a bike. I was getting ready to get on when I spotted an open elliptical in the next row.  Bonus.  I'm on it!

I did not like my earlier spot because I could not really see if Gym Crush #1 was there. I hadn't seen him since Saturday and was hoping for a little glimpse.  It did not look like he was there tonight.  I was wrong though.  YEAH!  Just as I hit my stride and my braided pony tail was swaying side to side he walked in front of me....sigh...and he shaved!  Bonus night.

So I'm innocently on the elliptical watching the Virginia/Clemson hoops game (I heart college hoops so much).  Then a gentleman comes and gets on the bike in front of me.  I couldn't help it.  I couldn't stop giggling.  His sweatpants were pulling down a little so of course I could see the pattern on his boxers: Chick Magnet (baby chicks and red magnets).  I almost fell over laughing.  Please be aware of your undies at the gym.  That's all I'm saying.  It was funny.

On the TV next to the game was the show on Lifetime: Dance Moms.  Have you seen it?  Do you know what I'm about to say?  I've seen this on the TV at the gym so many nights and one thing keeps running through my mind.  This dance teacher...to put it nicely...well she's not quite fit.  I hate that I even have this opinion, but my whole outlook has changed.  Would you let a fat trainer tell you what to do?  No.  I sort of lose respect and trust in someone who leads an active life or tells people how to lead an active life and yet they are so out of shape.  In this case she is heavy, not just out of shape.  Now I don't watch this show so maybe she doesn't actually have to show the kids moves, but I am still a little skeptical.

The former fat girl in me is mad at me for these thoughts.  She is screaming "You know how it feels to have people feel that way towards you.  Where is your sympathy woman?  Where is your compassion?"  I flip on this all of the time, but the fit girl is winning out. 

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Monday, January 30, 2012

Belly Dancing...I look like a wet noodle

Happy Monday Bleeps!

Well I like to make my life complicated....(didn't I just talk about simplifying your life?).  The Polar Plunge is this weekend and you know that means I need to ramp up the workouts.  Slight panic over the bathing suit issue...you know what I'm talking about.  Naturally it's extremely busy at work right now and they offered me overtime for this week.  BAH.  I could use the money.  Luckily, tonight was Belly Dancing Night.  So I was able to log on for a few hours after the workout tonight and get some extra work in. 

So let's talk about my Belly Dancing Progress.  I'm just going to put it out there.  I'm so glad this is not a video blog.  HaHa.  I AM getting better, but I am no where near good.  There are definitely some hip moves that I get extremely uncoordinated with.  My brain starts thinking and I get even worse.  I'm not giving up though.

I can feel my muscles in my belly when I'm doing it.  It feels good.  It's definitely more fun than crunches.  And I'm a beast at crunches.  This is elongating my muscles though and making them leaner.  *and hopefully taller...haha*

Thank goodness it's a fun workout.  I would have given up long ago if it wasn't. It's hard to stick with something that is difficult and uncomfortable.  It's easy to come up with excuses not to keep up with it.  "Well I didn't feel anything so it must not be working."  or "I'm just not that coordinated so it's not really for me."  These are WEAK excuses.  First of all, if you aren't feeling it, then chances are you aren't doing it right.  So keep at it.  Practice makes perfect.  I'm not about to strap on some ice skates and go out there trying a triple sow cow.  What are the odds that I am going to be perfect on the first shot?  Um...ZERO.  It takes work and practice.  Give it some time before you quit.

Challenge yourself also.  The Belly Dancing dvd has an instructional, a warm up, 3 workouts, and a cool down.  Each week I added a workout.  Tonight I was like a bunch of wet noodles by the time I got to workout 3.  But, I am pretty good at the first now.  I'm getting there on the second.  The third is very hippy and will take some time.  But, I'm up to the challenge.  I plan on giving a special private dance for Tony Stewart one day...Tony Stewart Call Me!  (seriously, I have faith that one day someone he knows will read this :-)

This is workout is completely out of my comfort zone.  I'm a kickboxer.  I'm a runner.  I'm not a dancer.  It's my challenge to myself.  I'm not giving up.  Of course it's a blow to the ego at first.  I've been losing the belly and doing really well with the running...I'm practically invincible!  Well Bam...back to reality.  I'm still learning.

So keep it fresh.  Find something that is outside of your comfort zone and challenge yourself.  You have it in you, you just have to give it some time...and some practice.  You are capable of so much more than you give yourself credit for. 

****Please note****
If you feel like you are alone on your journey and you just need some encouragement I am here for you!  Shoot me an email and I will do my best to check in on you or give you the words of support you need several times a week.  The journey is so much easier if you have support.  jhendersonfit@gmail.com/

Sunday, January 29, 2012

"I'm too busy to exercise"

Hello Wonderful Bleeps!  Happy Sunday.

I love Sunday's so much.  They are my ReCharge Day.  I start the day at Church.  Then I go to Starbucks for an unsweetened Green Tea (don't say Blah just yet...I thought that too, but I honestly can't tell the difference between sweetened and unsweetened now. It's all about adjusting your body.).  I usually read for a little while there and have a sandwich.  And then it's off to the gym. I'll knock out a couple of hours before coming home and preparing my chili for the week.  My roommate LOVES Chili Sunday.  The apartment smells so good.  Big shout out to the inventor of the Crockpot.  I am your humble servant.  Then I head out for a church discussion for a couple of hours and enjoy my pastry for the week (although we all know I just confessed to a cookie yesterday...so I only had a half scone today).  When I get home my body and mind are relaxed and ready to take on the week.

So often I have a bunch of things I want to talk about with you.  I remember back when I first started the blog I wrote two a day I had that much to say.  I still have that much, I just am trying not to drive you crazy.  Or myself.  HaHa.

So where do I begin tonight?  Well tonight's discussion was about Simplifying Your Life.  Decluttering if you will.  There is a director in Hollywood that got so stressed in his life that one day he up and decided to make things different.  Instead of sitting in the rush hour and getting frustrated he bought a bike and biked to work.  He was able to enjoy that outside and enjoy his ride to work. Then he decided to sell his mansion (where he lived by himself) and bought a trailer.  By getting rid of the things in life that were weighing him down he was able to focus on what is important.

This is what I keep telling people.  I'm so tired of the excuse "I'm too busy to exercise".  That's a load of crap.  You are responsible for your life and your schedule.  You are too busy because you want to be.  Because it is easier to have that as an excuse than to make the changes.  Well here's the thing.  I hate to break it to you, but there is no magic pill.  If you don't make the changes then it's not going to change on it's own.  It's not as if all of a sudden your body is going to go "I'm tired of being fat.  I'm going to be skinny  and healthy now."  It doesn't work that way. 

You have to put in the time and effort to do it.  It's your health for goodness sake.  What the heck is more important than that?  Go ahead. I'm listening.  NOTHING is.  If you have kids and you are shuttling them around to events every night of the week that's great.  But, if the result is that you are taking years off of your life, I'm pretty sure they would rather have that. If you are a work-aholic...well that's gotta end.  Is that really making you happy?  Get out there and enjoy life!

Now I know that when I mention my workout schedule people freak out about how much I go.  "I couldn't possibly do that."  I'm not asking you to.  But you have to make the time.  If you get an hour for lunch every day, TAKE IT.  Walk.  As a family do the Wii fitness games together for an hour a night.  Prepare meals for the week on Sundays so that you aren't calling for pizza or stopping at McDonalds.  You just have to make the effort and step out of your comfort zone.  You got yourself into this mess and you've got to get yourself out. 

When you are treating your body better you have so much more energy.  You feel so much better about yourself.  Why would you not want to do that?  Besides, if you are that stretched thin you need the exercise for stress relief.  It's a win win situation.

Tough Love baby...it sucks.  I'm sorry, but it's gotta be done.  I've said it before and I'll say it again.  I did not get to 200 pounds because of my extremely wise decisions, but I did lose the weight because of it.

Please come back tomorrow.  I promise to be light and funny again. :-)


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Sleeping in throws my whole day off...BAH!

Hello Beautiful People!

Sorry this is so late, but my schedule got way off course today.  On a normal day it's hard for me to get up for work.  Since I've been going to the gym every night it's darn near impossible.    Since I shower at night I can convince myself to sleep in an extra 20 minutes since I don't have to shower.  The downfall there is that I need a shower to wake me up.  So I'm pretty much dragging until lunch time.

Usually I like to get up early on Saturdays and workout.  It gets me moving and then I have the rest of the day to do what I wish.  Plus, when I was going to the track I wanted to make sure I got there early before they needed the field for an event.

Today I had no plans.  So I opted to sleep in.  I woke up around 8 and forced myself back to sleep.  I woke up around noon.  Oh the sleep was good.  Oh how this threw off my whole day.  I like my sleep, but I also felt like I had lost control of my day.  Darn OCD.

The Syracuse game was on at 1.  If it was a channel that the gym showed my day would have been easier.  It wasn't.  So I stayed home to watch.  When it was over it was time to head out.  I needed to run some errands first and I was hungry.  Subway!  First let me say that I got my rewards card.  HOLLA!  I'm on my way to earning a free sub.  YEAH.  I got my normal oven roasted chicken on whole wheat.  There was one which chocolate raspberry cheesecake cookie left.  It was calling my name. 

I was tortured at first.  I had skipped the gym last night in exchange for a Chinese dinner with friends.  You just can't workout after that.  It was delicious, but I felt like I had a brick in my belly all night.  Amazingly, it was a great number on the scale today. So why did I have that dang cookie?  Because I couldn't help it.  It called my name.  If I have a bad number tomorrow you will probably be able to hear my screams.

So after lunch/dinner I couldn't go straight to the gym.  I didn't want to get sick.  So I went to print up some pictures.  I was printing up pictures from Thanksgiving.  I looked good then, but I look even better now...just two months later.  WOW.  Go me!

Eventually I got to the gym at a little before 6.  That is the time to go.  It was empty...luckily Gym Crush #1 was there.  Ahhh....Thank you!  Once again we had a moment at the water fountain...he's so dreamy.

Focus!  I got on the elliptical and pounded out 30 minutes before heading over to the leg weights.  I only like to do the weights on the weekend because it's less crowded.  After the weights I headed back to the cardio area and hit the treadmill for an hour.

Before I left I hit up the massage chair though.  Holla!  I got TWO tokens tonight.  That was 10 minutes.  Well worth it.

I got home around 8:30 and was flipping out.  I needed a shower, but I needed to eat.  And you know how I feel about eating after 8.  I know it wasn't that bad because I ate later for lunch and I would most likely be up past midnight.  So I showered then ate. 

I did enjoy sleeping in and technically I got a lot done today, but my schedule was completely thrown off.  I felt like I couldn't get anything done.  So lesson learned.  Get up early and get your day started!  You can nap later.

PS-did you see the Polar Plunges on the news today?  Mine is in a week.  Rumor has it that the weather will be in the 40's and slight showers...umm...

****Please note****
If you feel like you are alone on your journey and you just need some encouragement I am here for you!  Shoot me an email and I will do my best to check in on you or give you the words of support you need several times a week.  The journey is so much easier if you have support.  jhendersonfit@gmail.com/

Thursday, January 26, 2012

Finding balance through Yoga...at lunch

I love you!  I really really do!  All of your emails and comments make me smile.  I'm so glad I can be here to motivate you.  And vice versa.  SMOOCHES!

So today was a good good day.  My company has offered workout classes in the past.  They were held after work so I wasn't able to stay (my commute home is a nightmare if I don't leave at exactly 5).  Now they are offering a Yoga class during lunch on Thursdays for 10 weeks.  YEAH!  The room was packed. 

We got to the room 5 minutes early and there were barely any spots left.  That meant up front.  I was actually right next to the instructor (a big shout out to Richard...for his awesomeness!).  I have done yoga in the past.  I love yoga, but I have only ever done it with dvds.  This was a new experience.  I also haven't done it in a classroom setting.  It was very nice to have him right next to me.   I was doing really well, until we had to balance on one leg.  I know my left leg is weaker than my right.  My knee sucks.  I had the hardest time balancing on it.  He had to actually hold my arm under mine to keep me upright.  It hurt.  *I had just given myself a pat on the back last night because I haven't had any problems with the knee and running in a little while.  I knew it was too good to be true*

Towards the end when we were stretching on our backs we had our legs bent and then had the option of straightening the leg towards the ceiling.  In the silence I do believe the crackle from the arthritis in my knee echoed throughout the room :-(  I loved this session.  I felt so relaxed after, but my knee hurt.  It was extremely tender for the rest of the day.  DANG IT!

**Side note, oh yeah..totally loved walking around the office in my yoga pants...my butt looks AWESOME in them :-) **

It would have been extremely easy to talk myself out of the gym tonight.  EXTREMELY easy.  I didn't have a buddy scheduled.  My knee was sore.  I had already put in a workout.  NO EXCUSES.  I went.  Quite honestly I was hoping one of my gym crushes were going to be there (I have two...although one wears those aqua toe shoes and I'm still on the fence about that haha).  I have no shame.  They weren't.  Oh well, I'm there for my health, not for them.

Recognizing my knee I decided on an hour on the treadmill.  I was not going to run.  And I didn't.  I got out my book and read.  I had a moderate pace and I was happy with that.  I still sweated it up don't worry.

The big excitement of the night was that the gentleman on the treadmill next to me fell off.  It was terrible.  I saw it happening in slow motion.  I was able to reach over and turn off his machine while a bunch of gentleman gathered around to help him up.  He smashed his knee on the machine before the ground.  He was a trooper though and got back on.  I showed him the emergency pull and told him to yank on it any time he felt like it was getting too fast.  It will stop the machine.  He thanked me and told me it was his second time on the treadmill.  I was going to go buy him a bottle of water because he didn't seem to have any.  He didn't stay much longer though.  I did see him when I was leaving.  He was waiting for his wife.  I checked in with him to see how he was doing.  He said he skinned his leg (I am sure it was painful).  He said he was more embarrassed than anything else.  It's totally understandable, but don't be embarrassed.  You aren't the first that I've seen fall this year, and you won't be the last.  I loved that he got up and immediately got back on.

In addition to not having water he also had a problem with his wedding ring. I was very tight.  It always take my rings off before a workout.  Your fingers will swell.  It's how your body reacts.  My fingers swell whether or not I drink water, but they are definitely much worse if I don't drink.  So advice A-take off your rings and advice B-drink water during your workout.  I see so many people without water and their faces are unbelievably red.  Sweating is good, but water is better.  The water will cool your temperature.  I will replenish your body.  

I am going to replenish mine with sleep now.   Have a wonderful night Bleeps (for those of you new to the blog I have decided that if Twitter can have Tweeps and anyone can have Peeps, then my Blog followers are Bleeps :-)

Oh and PS...today is January 26...do you know what happens in one month?  My Tony Stewart is racing in the Daytona 500...WOO WOO...TONY STEWART CALL ME!

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Wednesday, January 25, 2012

My biggest frustration...."half-assing it"

Happy Hump Day My Lovelies!

So yesterday I told you about how good it makes me feel knowing that people are looking to me for advice and motivation.  Better than good actually...I'm not quite sure there is a word for it, so I will make it up Fan-Fit-Tastic!

Today I want to talk to you about the frustrations I feel.  The Renew Seminar I went to last week talked about the "Disconnect" that people have.  I see this every stinking day.  It's soooooo frustrating.  I feel like beating my head against a wall.  I have talked about my "A-Ha" moment.  That moment when it finally hit me just how badly I abused my body.  It is a SUCKY moment.  It is a heartbreaking moment.  It is a gut wrenching moment.  I always knew what I was doing was wrong, but my denial and low self-esteem kept me from acknowledging it. 

Until that "A-Ha" moment you could have talked to me until you were blue in the face about how crappy I was doing, but I would Never EVER listen to you.  I would actually get mad and hurt and push myself further into the deep end.  "They don't know what they are talking about.  I am perfectly fine.  That's a load of crap.  They don't KNOW me."  *insert oreo cookie*

I needed to be ready to face it. I needed to be ready to accept responsibility.  I needed to make the first step.  No one could push me into a change.  I had to do it myself.

So here I am watching people make the same mistakes I made day after day.  No matter what I say, they don't care.  They don't listen.  They are not ready.  I don't want to push and have them hate me.  I want them to see the light.  I want them to realize they are slowing killing themselves needlessly.  I want them to know there is hope.  But they aren't ready.

So here's the "Disconnect".  I like to call it "Half-Assing" it.  Bringing a cheeseburger to a healthy eating seminar.  Going out for pizza right before a Yoga class.  Drinking Coke while eating a salad.  Stopping for fried chicken on the way home from the gym.  Don't ask me for advice and then provide a list of excuses when I ask how you about your progress. Are you seeing my frustration?

I see people complaining about how tight their pants are getting.  Well put down the cookie and go for a walk.  I have family members on High Blood Pressure medication.  I don't want that to be me.  The doctors will tell you that proper nutrition and exercise will help reduce high blood pressure.  I do not want to rely on that medication for the rest of my life.  Think of the money I can save!  I'm going to Hawaii!  Tony Stewart Call Me!  Meet me there.

So I don't want to become the overly aggressive Health Nazi and have people hate me and push me away.  I just want the people I love to live a healthy life.  It's that simple.  I even want the people I don't know to live a healthy life.  *Ironically I have the Coca-cola song running through my head right now... I'd like to teach the world to sing...in perfect harmony...Only I would make it "I'd like to teach the world to eat and just be healthy"*

So if you get an email, text, phone call, or in your face yell of  "NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO" it's because I care :-)


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If you feel like you are alone on your journey and you just need some encouragement I am here for you!  Shoot me an email and I will do my best to check in on you or give you the words of support you need several times a week.  The journey is so much easier if you have support.  jhendersonfit@gmail.com

Biggest Loser - Week 4

Welcome to Week 4 on the Biggest Loser Ranch.

This week's episode was only one hour because of the State of the Union.  Does anyone remember when it was only one hour many seasons ago?  How did I survive with only 60 minutes?

The episode started with a challenge.  At stake: access to the gym.  This week's excuse was: no gym.  So one team would be outside of the gym with no equipment.   The challenge was physical and educational.  They had a log type thing that they had to carry through a mud path.  They would reach a station with at A & B question.  If they got the right answer they would go right through to the next path.  If they got it wrong they needed to back up and go the other way.  The red team won.

That put Bob outside.  He was not a happy camper.  They did a lot of running and exercising with chairs.  There was a moment when Chris locked herself in the bathroom and said she wanted to go home.  Her husband, Santa, talked to her and she found her focus again.

Inside the gym things got heated between Dolvett and Conda.  She said some pretty nasty things and he kicked her out of the gym.  She eventually came back.

Cut to the weigh in.  The Black team was up first.  They has some pretty amazing numbers.  Especially since they weren't in the gym.  Go Black team.  *I was really pulling for them to win to show that 'no gym' is not an excuse. VERY proud of their numbers...several double digits*

The Red team weighed in and it came down to Conda.  She needed to lose 2lbs for them to win.  She pulled a 10.  My jaw dropped.  How the heck did that happen?

So who will go home on the Black team?  It came down to Chris, because she expressed the interested in going home earlier, and Gail, Bob's toughest challenge.  Gail went home.  She did pretty well.  She's walking 4 hours a day (I am a big cheerleader on this).  She is in a lot of pain and found out that she has tendonitis in her hips though.  Gotta be careful about that.

Preview for next week - The Aqua team weighs in....will they be back?

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Tuesday, January 24, 2012

I'm not a professional, but I do write a blog.

Happy Tuesday Bleeps!

Today was such a great day!  SOOOO much better than yesterday.  Thank you God!  The sleep helped that's for sure. Well I did wake up to find Marky Mark on Letterman...ahhh...Now that's some Good Vibrations!

So today there were some really great moments for me.  First, a friend emailed me to tell me what she ate today and how she's changing the food in hers and her son's lives.  Lots more veggies and protein.  Love it.  I also had an email from a friend who has seen my blog posts on facebook and asked my advice on what she should focus on if she only has 45 minutes in the gym.  This makes me feel sooooo good.  This is exactly why I am writing this blog.

I did not go to school for nutrition.  I am not a certified trainer.  But, I was just like you.  I was overweight.  I ate like crap and I did not exercise.  I had my a-ha moment and I changed my life.  And I've done it on my own.  I did not join any programs.  I did not use a trainer.  I educated myself  and found my focus.   Now I'm not saying that my ways are perfect.  I am most certain that I could be a lot further along in my journey if I had a program or a trainer.  But, there is something to be said about the self confidence you get from knowing that you did it all on your own.  I DID THIS. ME.  The former fat girl got off her ass and changed her life.

Work Husband is on day two of a cleansing program.  He's a hurting pup.  He is going through severe caffeine withdrawal.  He's super tired and experiencing headaches.  I was able to talk to him about this.  I know his pain. I used to drink diet coke the moment I got up until I went to bed.  It was okay though because it was Diet. Denial!!!!  I cringe when I think about the damage I did to my insides for 20 years.  CRINGE.  I would tell myself it was okay because I didn't drink coffee and this was how I got my caffeine.  I justified it because there were no calories.  I was sooooo stupid.  I had developed a tolerance to the caffeine, but it still affected my sleep.  Four years ago I started the South Beach Diet and weaned myself off of caffeine.  I maybe have one cup of soda a week.  I can make a 20oz diet coke last a week.  I think I am most proud of this accomplishment.  The addiction is gone.  And I can sleep like a baby every night.

My favorite part of the day was walking in in my former "skinny jeans".  Lety made a comment about how hot my butt looked in those jeans. *insert giant grin*  Someone asked if they were my size 6 jeans.  I have not tried on a pair yet.  That is this weekend....fingers crossed!

So today was a beautiful day.  Barb and I were planning on walking at lunch.  It was so nice that we walked outside in the parking lot. Go Barb!  There was one section that was in the shade and it was a little windy so we looped back around and skipped that section.  We had a great discussion about healthy lifestyles.  I love walks like that.  The best part is that when I told her that I had Bible Study at lunch tomorrow she immediately went looking for another walking partner. 

Tonight I hit no traffic on my way to the gym.  I got there early and hit up the cardio before Gym Buddy Lisa got there.  I wanted to text her to let her know that it was stinkin hot in the gym.  I knocked out some time on the treadmill waiting for her and then we stayed on for a little while.  Knowing that people were asking me for help kicked me into overdrive.  I ran. I ran hard.  I was a puddle of sweat and was drinking water like there was no tomorrow.  I had to walk my last mile because I was so full of water that I was a little nauseous.  lol.  Live and learn.  Anyway, I push it hard at the gym because I want to be that person that others look to and say "I want to be able to do that".  I want to be a good example.

So thank you for pushing me and motivating me.  I hope I am doing you proud.  Have a wonderful night Bleeps!

****Please note****
If you feel like you are alone on your journey and you just need some encouragement I am here for you!  Shoot me an email and I will do my best to check in on you or give you the words of support you need several times a week.  The journey is so much easier if you have support.  jhendersonfit@gmail.com

Monday, January 23, 2012

Who has a case of the Mondays? I DO! I DO!

Raise your hand if you had a case of the Mondays today *two hands raised*


Thank goodness the day is over.  Is it Friday yet?  Yep, it was one of those kinds of days.  I am mad at myself for letting some hurt turn to anger today.  That upset my whole day.  The pipes above me were dripping on me and my desk all day (dangerously close to my laptop).  My walking buddy had to work through lunch so I stayed in and read instead of going to the mall and walk by myself.  I wasn't paying attention on a communication and it looked like I was complaining about someone when I was really  making a comment about someone else.  Yep, it was one of those days.

And to top it off, I was so tired on my way home that my eyes were getting way too heavy.  It's belly dancing night, but I made the mistake of laying down for a moment to gather myself to together and fell asleep.  I took that as my sign to take the night off and just chill out.  Working out is great for stress relief, but I also need some down time.  So tonight I am going to my happy place.  Right now I have the Hawaii Music playing and my beach candle burning....ahhh. Tony Stewart Call Me!  Meet me in Honolulu :-)

The good news is that this is how I am dealing with a frustrating day now.  The former Fat Girl would have stopped at Wendy's for a burger, fries, and a frosty.  Or she would have talked me into an ice cream dinner.  There's always that quick stop for a chocolate bar or a pint of Ben and Jerry's (Chunky Monkey actually calls my name). Oh how many times I have done that.  Sadly the urge is still there.  It really is, but I am getting better at squashing it.  It's taken a long time, but it's getting easier.

Tonight I knew that I had some fabulous chili and a spinach salad waiting for me.  So yummy.  For my chocolate fix I can either indulge in that banana fudge supreme pudding or the new whipped chocolate almond South Beach bar.  I am choosing the bar...yeah! 


If I had the energy I would fill the tub for a nice long bubble bath.  I used to love them.  I still do, I just haven't had one in forever.  I loved them, but they also stressed me out.  It was hard to enjoy something when your belly is bulging over the bubbles.  I would gather the bubbles as much as I could to cover my belly, but it was still there mocking me.  I would spend five minutes laying there before I would get annoyed and jump out long before I was completely relaxed.  I think it would be much better now, but there's still that bubble bath stigma.

I'm going to call it a night and enjoy my happy place.  Have a great night and I'll catch you after the gym tomorrow.  Oh dang it, I have to come up with my new incentive.  I still need to earn that Maroon 5 cd...and the New Dierks Bentley is coming out in a couple of weeks...any ideas?

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Sunday, January 22, 2012

To go to the gym or not to go to the gym...that is the question

Happy Sunday my Lovelies,

Today I was very tired.  I had to talk myself into going to the gym.  I know you're surprised, but this happens often.  I have lots of items on my To Do list.  Lots.  It would have been soooo easy to skip it.  After church I was this close to running to lunch first.  I did not, because I knew that I would talk myself out of working out if I did.  Instead I went straight to the gym.

I was planning on Wednesday as my day of rest.  I was supposed to have a book discussion for church that night.  But, we learned today that the books have not come in so we will not.  Then today is a good day to skip the gym.  You have soooo much to do.  Come on, you deserve a day off.

That was the former fat girl talking.  The newer fit girl argued back.  It's Sunday and you can get more time in at the gym than you can on a week night.  You can still take Wednesday off.  Or use tomorrow's Belly Dancing night as your day off.  Get your ass to the gym and quit stalling.

I put in two hours.  Treadmill.  Leg weights. Treadmill.  I will tell you about one observation.  I do applaud everyone for going to the gym, but if you aren't working out properly it's only going to harm you.  An overweight couple came in and hit the weights for 35 minutes and then left.  They did not do any stretching before or after.  There was no cardio.  I know what they are thinking.  They feel stronger on the weights and the cardio is a reminder of how out of shape they are.  I did that many a time when I started.  I still forced myself on the treadmill to stretch when I learned the importance, but I kept it at a minimal at the very beginning.  Don't forget the stretch!  Don't forget the cardio.  The cardio will burn the fat.  It's gonna suck at first.  I'm not gonna lie.  But, if you are consistent and push yourself, it will get better.  I promise.

So here's the bonus.  I had a little under four hours when I got home before I had to go out again.  I killed it.  I knocked of 5 things off of my To Do list.  GO ME!  Time management is key.  So I got my workout in and I got some stuff on my list done.  It's a good day.

While I was knocking off my To Do list I was also prepping dinner.  I love Chili Sundays.  I toss everything in the crockpot and let it cook while I'm doing things.  I also make plenty so that I can freeze it for the rest of the week.  I used my new Morning Star crumbles for my "meat".  No cooking necessary.  Love it.  One less step.  It was delicious.  Yum Yum YUM!

Sunday nights we have a church event at a local coffee bar.  They offer us the leftover pastries for free and I've been using that as my sweets splurge for the week.  I also discovered their mint hot chocolate. Oh heck yeah, that's what I'm talking about!  Last week I got a large.  It was way too rich and I didn't have any water with me.  So tonight I brought a water bottle and got a small.  I was quite happy.  And my pastry splurge: White Chocolate Coconut Scone....Well worth the wait.

I know I promised my notes from the Renew Restore Resolve seminar.  I haven't forgotten.  I have just misplaced my notes.  DOH.  I will find them and tell you all about it this week.  I promise!

So before I go I want to share my giggle for the weekend.  Yes, the gym is full of young studs. I'm old enough to be a lot of their mothers, but they don't know that.  One young stud at the desk was flirting with me on Friday and was checking me out yesterday and today.  I'm not gonna lie, it was sweet.  Still too young for me, but definitely made me feel good :-)

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Saturday, January 21, 2012

Snow...Memorial Service...Dinner Party...Get me to a Gym!

Hello my wonderful Bleeps,

Sorry it's been a couple days, it's just been a little hectic.  They predicted snow and icy rain for last night and this morning. That meant I was definitely hitting the gym last night.  I put the call out and Lisa rose to the challenge.  It was great.  I am so hitting the gym every friday now.  It was still busy, but not overly crowded.

We were able to find machines next to each other and hit the elliptical for a while.  I had not been successful on the elliptical in the past few years.  I felt a lot of pressure on my knees whenever I spent any time on it.  Not last night.  I knocked out 45 minutes and was unbelievably happy.  Then we moved over to the bikes for 30 minutes.  We finished up with a 5 minute stretch on the treadmill.  It was so weird only spending 5 minutes on it, but I'm trying to jump start the system and focus on weight loss.  My body has acclimated to the treadmill.  I need a shock to the system.  It's working.  :-)

It still wasn't snowing when we left so we went to the grocery store to pick up some things. Just as we were walking in the Girl Scouts were packing up and heading out.  Dang cookies.  Luckily they were closed up so I didn't buy any guilt cookies.

The Bonus is that as soon as we got in the door all of the Vegetable sales were jumping out at me.  $1 bags of spinach.  Oh heck yeah.  I grabbed a bag, a cucumber, and some cherry tomatoes. Boom. Instant salad (I have the dressing and craisins already at home).  I had come for the staples for turkey chili, but I found some other items also.

I had some ground chicken ready to go, but Lisa introduced me to the Morning Star Crumbles.   Instead of using ground beef, I'm testing out this soy based product.  I love their burgers and veggie patties so why not.  I also found some garden veggie pasta.

I did treat myself and found some sugar free pudding...banana fudge supreme.  Oh heck yeah, that was awesome.  Of course I had some when I got home.  And speaking of that, when I got in the car I had a mini panic attack.  It was 9:30 and I had not eaten dinner yet.  I don't like to eat after 8pm.  What was I going to do?  I made a small bowl of the new pasta (delicious), had a glass of V8, and celebrated with a little pudding.  I knew I was going to be hungry in the morning, but I did not want to make myself sick with a big dinner that late.

This morning I had a Memorial Service at church.  I had packed a gym bag and was planning on going after the service.  Silly me.  I forgot that there is usually food served.  This one was catered and I was hungry. In the real world I did not eat that much.  But, for me and my belly I did.  I had one piece of chicken, one giant meatball, one stuffed shell, green beans, and a small salad.  I passed on the desserts.

I was nauseous after this.  There was no way I was going to be able to exercise right away.  I went to the store for a little bit and got a bubbly drink to help make me burp.  I was hoping it would help. It did, but only a little.

The bonus for the gym is that I get free massage chair time. Before I hit the machines I got my massage...ahhh.  Very nice. 

With the combo of Saturday afternoon and snow there were not a lot of people at the gym.  I started on the elliptical.  Then I moved to the bike.  And then I hit up the Cybex Arc trainer.  This is a cross between an elliptical and a stairmaster.  It's very cool though. I ended with a stretch on the treadmill.

It was a good workout, but there was a big big problem.  All of the heavy food in my belly was threatening to make a come back.  I was having throw up burps for an hour.  There was a slight panic going on.  I made it home without getting sick, but it was touch and go.

**So if you don't feel well when you are working out, think about what you ate before.  Fill your meal with protein and vegetables.  That will fuel your body rather than fill it.**

When I got home I had to quickly shower before heading out to a dinner party.  Honestly, I was nervous.  This reaction to my lunch made me want to crawl in bed with toast and soft boiled eggs.  I just wanted something bland in my belly for dinner. I wanted a little control over what I would eat.  My desire for a nice evening out won though.

When I arrived the salads were being prepared.  Oh they looked awesome: spring mix, onions, cherry tomatoes, craisins, pecans, goat cheese, and vinaigrette. YEAH!  Before we sat down though another plate popped up on the table.  Someone had brought a little something.  Cheese, tomatoes, and basil on pizza dough.  I couldn't stop staring.  I had two small pieces.  Then I ate my salad.

Dinner was delicious and funny.  There were three options: Veggie chili, pulled pork sandwiches, and pumpkin lasagna made in a crock pot.  I had small portions of each.  My belly was full and comfortable.  Well done Jennifer.  We remained around the table talking and laughing for a while.  My eyes got distracted though.  I kept eying up the plate of the pizza-type appetizer in the middle of the table.  WHY?  I was full. If I had a bit it would push me over the edge.  I kept looking at it though.  I wanted more.  I really wanted more.  I held strong though...dessert was coming.  Chocolate chip pound cake.  Yes please! 

Before I left a chocolate cake was delivered.  I am fairly certain I drooled a bit.  I passed.  I wanted some soooo bad.  It was offered as a piece to take home, but I stayed strong.  Today was my splurge day.  Tomorrow we are back on track.


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Thursday, January 19, 2012

I drank lettuce today...and I liked it

Hello my Lovelies,

Well first let me say, I should not blog when I'm tired.  I forgot so much last night that I wanted to mention. lol.

I forgot to mention that I always keep a protein bar in my gym bag in case I get super hungry or feel like my blood sugar has dropped.  I was a Girl Scout.  I am always prepared.

Oh dang it, and speaking off....Got the email today that someone's sister is selling Girl Scout Cookies.  We can order and he will bring them in tomorrow.  SHOOT ME NOW!  Girl Scout cookies are like my Kryptonite.

I must have sensed that was coming because I woke up with a very very sore neck.  Actually, I'm blaming this one on Harry Connick Jr.  He is on Law & Order: SVU now and last night was his first episode.  I propped myself up in bed ready to watch and totally passed out.  I woke up at 4:30 am with my glasses still on and my neck in a very odd position.  It hurt all morning.

I decided this was God's way of telling me that this will be my day of rest.   Instead of the gym I would go get my much needed oil change and come home for a nice evening with my heating pad.  Now, there is a gym by the Pep Boys that I can use.  And originally the plan was to go there for my gym night while I wait. But, I have my work laptop and I can't leave that in the car and I'm not comfortable putting it in the locker at the gym.  You are probably asking yourself "But Jennifer why didn't you leave it at work?"...yeah, that's a good question.  I needed the night off though.

I did not walk at lunch because I attended a presentation at work: Resolve Restore & Renew.  It was a presentation on taking steps to include wholesome and clean food into your life.   I loved it.  I took lots of notes and I will share with you this weekend.  The whole time I was just smiling like crazy.  I felt like I should have a  gold star.  I did not go to school for nutrition.  I have not gone through an eating program.  The decisions I make on eating come from educating myself...and guess what: Common Sense.

At the end of the presentation it was sample time.  There was a "Serenity Stew" to taste.  Simply put, it was made of vegetables and water.  It was delicious.  The different vegetables played off each other and it was just plain good.  You can add seasonings, but that's a personal preference.  I'm going to say that if you are used to processed or greasy foods it may be hard to take.  I'm very sure that 5 years ago I would have thought it was bland and gross.  Oh how my life has changed.  I would have eaten several bowl fulls if I could.

There was also a Fruity Green Smoothie.  Okay, so I watched it being made and even I was extremely skeptical.  The blender was full of spring mix.  How the heck is liquid spring mix going to be good?  Liquid leaves?  um....But it was!  There was also an apple, banana, and frozen organic blueberries.  She forgot the lemon, but that's ok.  It was stinkin good!

The lady who gave the presentation is a "Health & Lifestyle Coach".  Ladies and Gentlemen I have found my calling.  This is what I want to do with my life.  I just have to figure out how.

Oh before I go I know you are dying to know about Day 2 on the Exercise Ball.  Still Love it!  I am finding myself slouching, but very quickly correcting my posture.  So it's a good thing. 

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Wednesday, January 18, 2012

Why must there be so many fast food joints by gyms?

Hello Beautiful People!

I think I'm going to need to cut my hair soon.  I sure as heck better be able to get into those size 6 jeans this weekend.  Why you ask?  Well since I am showering at night after the gym my hair is a mess in the morning.  I use a spray bottle, but it doesn't do the job right. Argh.

Don't get me wrong.  I love going to the gym, but there are adjustments to make.  Right now my hair just might be a casualty.  I was checking out hairstyles while I was on the treadmill and bike tonight.  It has to be long enough for tiny pig tails at least.  I can't have sweaty hair on my neck.  Ick.

So I know you are dying to know.  Well yes, as I write this I am listening to the new Adele cd.  I killed it on the treadmill again.  YEAH.  I was on fire for 10 miles.  I stopped and could barely get started again for my cool down mile.  That mile was sad.  It was twice as long as the others.  It felt good though.

I was feeling sick on the bike though.  It was a hunger sick.  I know I've been burning way more calories and I need to eat more.  Sounds crazy right, but in order to lose weight I actually need to eat more. My food yesterday threw me off.  That free salad pushed my sandwich to my dinner.  It wasn't enough.  So I was feeling sick on the bike.  I was going to do 15 minutes on the elliptical before I left, but I was super hungry.

The drive home is the worst part of the night.  Let me tell you what I must pass on the way home: Five Guys Burgers, Boston Market, Arby's, Taco Bell, Denny's, McDonalds, Burger King, and Wawa.  And that is only first 3 blocks.  And yes, I'm hot and sweaty so the windows are cracked.  I just don't see these former places of pleasure, but I smell them too.  Tonight the tantalizing aroma of hamburgers almost made my knees weak.  ARGH.  Why isn't there a subway in there????

This weekend I need to make some more chili or grill some chicken to make sure I have great options for dinner next week.

Before I go, I promised to tell you how it went with the Exercise Ball at work today.  Well, I didn't get it until 3:30 so I only had 90 minutes with it. I LOVE IT.  I will be sharing custody with Barb for a little while, but as soon as we can request ones for ourselves I am so doing it.  I thought I was going to miss leaning back, but I didn't. 

Alright I must make this short.  I'm a tired pup people.  I need to figure out my rest day soon :-)
 
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Biggest Loser - Week 3 (Face Off)

The Biggest Loser Week 3

Wow!  Where do I begin?

Okay so this week is Face Off Week. That means that one person from each team will be paired off against one person on the other team.  They will weigh in together.  Whoever has the higher weight loss percentage will earn a point for their team.  The team with the most points wins.

How do they decide who chooses?  With a temptation challenge of course.  Each team was brought into a room full of food.  The person who ate the most calories would make the decisions.  The Red team stayed strong.  They ate nothing.  The Black team decided to eat a fortune cookie.  Then they decided to eat a second in case the Red team only ate one.   So Cassandra from the Black team was able to create the teams.  She also gets a 2lb advantage that she can use any way she likes.

Well it’s not long after the teams are decided that one of the members of the black team decides he misses his family too much and wants to go home.  They kept saying that this has never happened before, but that’s not true.  Rulan (sp?) quit a couple of seasons ago.  I guess the difference is that he had already lost 100lbs.  He went home because the competitor in himself realized that it was about himself and not winning this time.  Mad respect there Mister.

So I think this guy’s name is Joe (I am still learning everyone’s names).  His brother went home last week.  And he is leaving this week.  Bob was PISSED.  He called him at home.  It didn’t make a difference.

Later Bob went to visit the Aqua team at home.  They have one more week before they come back to weigh in.  Bob loves them.  They WANT to be on the Ranch.  He hopes they make it back.  And I gotta say, they looked pretty good.  Fingers Crossed.

There was another team challenge.  I missed what it was, but the Red team won.  They won video chats with home.  I’m calling foul on Biggest Loser for that one.  You already split the families into two teams and now only one of the two could talk with home.  That’s just mean. 

Naturally some of the video chats were given to the other team.  That’s the spirit of the Biggest Loser that I love.

There were mini challenges in the gym among the Face Off teams.  That was kind of fun.  Things got a little tense between Cassandra and Conda.  Cassandra won their mini challenge and Conda accused her of cheating.  So they had a rematch during last chance workout.  Cassandra won again.

So now it was time to weigh in.  I’ll skip to the end.  It came down to the final weigh in.  Black team was up by 1.  If the Red team won then there would be a tie and the higher weight loss percentage would win.  The final weigh in was Cassandra and Conda.  Conda just did not pull her weight.  And then she started to argue with Dolvett when he said she isn’t working hard enough.  Honey, do not argue with Dolvett.

I honestly thought she was going home this week. They focused on her so much during the episode.  I was completely shocked when Lauren went home.  She is a former college athlete.  She hasn’t been pulling her numbers.  I hadn’t really gotten to know her, but I adore her now!

In her follow-up, she did a Half Marathon.  Her goal was to finish under 3 hours.  She nailed it at 2:51. You know the tears were flowing for me on that one.  GO LAUREN!  Her goal is to finish a full marathon before the finale and to be down to 130.  I LOVE HER!
 
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Tuesday, January 17, 2012

A walking buddy and gym buddy in the same day! IT'S A GOOD DAY!


Hi there Bleeps.

It’s been a great day. GREAT I tell you.   Yesterday I a couple of the ladies at work had decided that they wanted to start walking with me at lunch.  YEAH!  I have Bible Study tomorrow and a Wellness event for work on Thursday.  So we are only walking today and Friday. 

Sadly Robin was not able to join us today, but she will next week.  Trying to get Barb out the door was a tad comical.  It only took 45 minutes to get her out, but it happened.  We opted for the mall because it had rained all morning and the parking lot was too slick for me.  Both Barb and Robin were worried that they wouldn’t be able to keep up with me.  No need to worry.  Barb is this tiny little thing that I was always one step behind.

She was so funny.  As soon as we got out there and started walking she kept saying “This feels so good.  I should do this more often.” DUH!  That’s what I’ve been telling her. 

Before we even went to the mall there was a nice surprise for me.  They were testing out some new food products for the vending machines at work.  We do have some vending machines that have salads and sandwiches in it, but they are looking to expand and offer other things too.  I am so excited.  Those vending machines kill me.  I have been pretty good about just getting animal crackers if I go in there, but now I will have even more options.

I was a lucky recipient of an email inviting me to come test out some of the food.  YEAH!  I got a Chicken Caesar salad.  I was very happy.  There was plenty of chicken and the lettuce was fresh.  I also tried the lowfat yogurt parfait.  I liked it.  I had two snacks too: a luna bar and dried tropical fruit.  I cannot wait until this is offered daily.  YEAH!

There are some giant exercise balls going around the office.  People are testing them out as their chairs.  This is great for your core. The one that came to my area is ginormous.  Lety has been trying to get me to try it out for a couple of days, but quite frankly my legs are not long enough for it.  So I hunted around and found a medium one to test out.  I shall let you know how it goes tomorrow.

So it was a good day at work, but the day was not over.  Before I left work I put a Gym Buddy wanted ad on my Facebook status.  Just as I was pulling into the gym I got a text asking if I was going tonight.  COME ON DOWN!  YEAH!  I got a gym buddy. And by the time I left the gym I had another one lined up for tomorrow :-)

My pal Lisa met me there.  It was busy and we could not find machines next to each other, but that’s okay.  Just knowing she was there was good enough.  We started off on treadmills.  I walked for .5 miles then ran for .5 miles.  I did this for two miles.  I had already done two at lunch so I was good with 4 today.  It wasn’t much for my Maroon 5 total, but I was sweating  and having a hard time drinking water while I was running. 

It was time to switch things up.  Lisa moved to the elliptical.  I found a bike.  I did the math wrong.  I thought I had 3 days to cycle 20 miles for the Adele cd.  I only had 2.  Time to step it up.  I cycled like I was at the Daytona 500 following Tony Stewart.  I kicked it up big time.  When I started cycling on Thursday I was averaging 5 minute miles.  I had done 6 miles in 30 minutes.  Tonight I did 10 miles in 35 minutes.  I want that cd!!! Ha Ha.  I just have to hit 10 miles tomorrow too and then I can come home and download it.

So my legs were on fire on that bike.  I was smoking everyone next to me.  And the whole time I kept thinking “I would kill in the Biggest Loser Bike challenges right now.  Put me in coach!”.  This of course let to visions of Bob…sigh…I now have a little Bob Harper on my shoulder.  Oh he kicked the former Fat girl sitting on my shoulder.   She’s gone now.   I’m much happier this way.  So Bob kept screaming at me on the bike:  “WHAT DO YOU WANT?”  I want that size 6! (and the CD)

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Monday, January 16, 2012

Hair- Part Deux

Hello Bleeps!

Let me start by saying that tonight was Belly Dancing Monday.  Good News: I was WAY better at it today than last week.  WOO WOO.  Can't wait til next week.  There are three workouts.  I'm pretty decent at the first.  Getting comfortable with the second.  Really gotta work on the third though.  And yes, I turned my fan on.  I was getting quite warm and broke a sweat.

So after I posted last night about my Hair issues I had some revelations.

Why did I always have long hair when short hair is supposedly more flattering for a fat face?  I came up with two reasons.

First, quite simply: Denial.  I still can't explain how I knew how fat I was and yet lived in this denial that I was.  Survival I guess.

Second, Long blonde hair on black clothes will draw attention away from the fat body.  Go ahead and laugh.  I did when I figured this out.  It's not like I was Rapunzel and completely hiding my body.

So today I was looking at pictures of hairstyles.  I think I know why I want to cut it so bad.  I see the big Makeover Week on the Biggest Loser and see how they feel when they get their new look.  I think that's what I'm looking for.  I want that big WOW moment.

I have found a few cuts that I want.  The one I keep coming back to is the Jenny McCarthy angled bob.  She doesn't have bangs though so I'm not sure how it would look on me.  Well actually I do.  Sending a big shout out to Maci who had her husband photoshop it on me.  lol.  I am so NOT posting that picture. haha.  I still want to try it though.  I used a Nicole Ritchie picture the last time I got it chopped.  It didn't quite look like that so I don't know what to expect.

I have come up with a plan though.  I'm using my hair as my next big reward.  I have some small rewards lined up, but this is my next big one.  I will allow the cut when I can button a pair of size 6 jeans.  This may take the couple of months I need to grow my hair longer.  Or it could be this weekend.  I haven't tried it yet.  It's been on my things to do list since christmas, but I've been a bit busy.

My small rewards are: when I can log 25 miles on the treadmill in one week I can get the Maroon 5 cd.  The next reward is logging 40 miles on the bike and I can get the Adele cd.  They aren't big rewards, but I want them and I appreciate them just that much more when I have earned them.

Now those are strictly in the gym.  They aren't including my lunch walks. Normally that 25 would be easy, but since I'm incorporating weights and the bike it's cutting down my miles.  That 40 miles I think is very doable.  I'm already halfway there and I have until Friday to get the rest.  Heck, I want that cd so I might just knock it out in two nights.  Since tonight was belly dancing I'm going to need to step it up a bit though.  I also have my day off to be determined.  Weather is a factor this week.  I don't mind the cold and rain, but there is a little ice in the forecast.  Ice means more Belly Dancing :-)

Have a wonderful night.

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Sunday, January 15, 2012

Fat Girls and Hair

Happy Sunday Bleeps!

I am struggling right now.  My hair is very long.  I am itching to cut it.  And I mean CUT it.  Many time I have tried to grow my hair long enough for Locks of Love and many times I have chopped it with 2 inches to go.

You need 8 inches to donate.  I have that right now, but that cut would be wicked short.  I'm not going that short though.  I was watching a show with Ali Vincent (the first female winner from the Biggest Loser) and thought maybe I want her cut.  I would need another inch or so.

Now I don't even know if I really can donate.  The Pantene site says no color treated hair can be donated.  My roommate donated hers though and it was.  So...I'm trying to stick it out and really do this.

The problem is that it is taking forever to blow dry.  I need a trim, but the last time I went in for a trim she cut off 2 inches.  I'll never make it at that rate.  BAH.

So anyway, I have almost always had long hair.  Which is ironic because long hair does not flatter fat faces or short people.  So many times I hear people say how the short cut frames the face and flatters the round shape.  I never did that though.  And here I am getting skinnier and wanting to chop my hair.  haha.  I'm so backwards.  I've just always loved long hair. 

I have cut it a couple of times and really liked it when it was short, but it never held for long.   There was actually a long period of time where I didn't actually go to a hair dresser.  I simply cut my own hair.  Why? Because of the fat face in the mirror. 

I could walk in to the salon feeling pretty good about myself.  I could have make up on and be wearing nice clothes.  But, the minute they would wheel me around to see myself in the mirror with my wet hair slicked back and the black drape over me I would be hit in the face with reality.  I was Fat!  A nice new haircut should make you feel fresh and happy.  Mine would just make me feel sick.

Maybe that's why I'm itching for a cut.  Maybe it's because I'm anxious to see that face looking back at me.  I don't think I would mind so much this time.

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Saturday, January 14, 2012

Altering my Workouts...and a little Soap Box Time

Happy New Laptop Saturday Bleeps!

YEAH!!!!  I got my overtime from right before Christmas and I went shopping today :-)  I got the laptop that I really wanted and I'm so excited. 

Before I went shopping though I had to go to the gym.  I slept in a little and had to modify the workout.  I could only put 2 hours in, not the 3 I had anticipated.  Oh well, sleep is good.

So I should start of and share that the DC Rock'N'Roll is sold out.  BOOOOO.  I did not get registered in time...was planning on it yesterday, but I was two days too late.  I was sad, but really this is my opportunity to cheer on Randy.  I'm even looking into volunteering for it, but you have to be there at 6am and I need to work that out. 

I have been looking for a replacement race.  There is one in Charlotte the week after DC that I would LOVE to do, but I am going to Jersey to cheer on my friend Ariana as she competes in her first Full Marathon.  She's been such a big supporter of mine and this is just too awesome to miss.  Oh yeah, I'm making a sign for her.

I am looking into the Broad Street Run in Philly in May.  So that gives me a little longer to train for.  It's only 10 miles, but it's also approximately 25,000 people.  I think it will be fun.

So the point of all of that is that I am altering my workouts. I am not focusing solely on training right now.  Now it's about weight loss.  My treadmill time is starting to differ.  Today I started on the treadmill for 30 minutes. I needed to stretch my legs before I did anything else (that is the stretch by the way). 

Then I headed over to the weights.  I worked my legs and butt for 30 minutes.  Oh and my abs for a bit.  I HEART the butt machine :-)

Next up was 45 minutes on the bike.  I was increasing my time and finishing my book.  I forgot to mention that my ipod was not fully charged when I started the day...doh.  It's okay though, I made it work.

My legs were super tight when I got off so I ended the morning back on the treadmill for a light 15 minutes.  Stretching it again.

I was very happy with the morning.  Tomorrow I need to work my arms though.  Since you aren't supposed to work the same muscles two days in a row I always like to alternate between arms and legs. 

Soap Box Time:

I mentioned before about the variety of tv channels at the gym.  Well I'm sending a big SHAME ON YOU to Lifetime.  I have noticed that on Saturday mornings they have paid programming on Weight Loss pills.  NO.  Do not do this. 

I do not even want to get into how wrong it is that they are targeting women on this.  What I will say is: If it says "No surgery, no exercise, and you don't have to alter what you eat" It's INSANE.  It's a drug.  You will have to rely on that drug forever to keep the weight off.  And you'll probably build up an immunity to it eventually.  Then you will gain it all back.  Did you learn anything? No.  I have lost the weight the natural and sensible way: Eating Right and Exercising.  That's the real Magic Pill.


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Friday, January 13, 2012

Breakfast at Tiffany's...well more like lunch

 Hi there Bleeps!

Many moons ago I celebrated my 30th Birthday *those who knew me at that time are laughing hysterically at that and will tell you that I did not enter this stage willingly*.  I decided to treat myself and I bought myself a Tiffany ring.  I loved it.  I still do.  The problem is that I have not really been able to wear it for a while...many many many months actually.  " "Why?" you ask. Well it's simple.  My fingers have gotten skinny.

Oh yeah, I even transferred it to my "fat" hand.  And it's still too big. Can I get a Holla?  HaHa.  I will eventually get it sized.  I miss wearing it every day.  It is very heavy and took a lot of getting used to.  It's been so long that I'll probably give myself a black eye trying it on again.

So as much as I hate to think about it, that dreaded 40 is not that far off...It's not this year, but it's coming.  My plan for that year is to go down to Key West and swim with the Dolphins.  :-)

I wanted to celebrate the new healthy/fit me now though.  And what better way than to go back to Tiffany and Co?  I didn't want to get another ring though.  I didn't want something that I could get too small for.  te he.  So I decided on a necklace.

Then the question was: How am I going to finance this purchase?  The answer: sell some rings I don't wear and use that money.  It was a hard decision though.  I had held on to my class ring and another ring forever because my Pop-Pop had gotten them for me.  I have not worn them since high school though. Someone mentioned that he would rather me buy something I would wear all of the time then let the rings get dusty. I still have my college class ring to hold on to so I made the decision to go forward.

That was the errand I was running earlier in the week.  My pal Barb went with me at lunch to one place and we both just got a bad feeling from the "smarmy" sales chick.  She was too slick.  So I went somewhere else after work and he showed me everything he was doing and offered me more money.  It was more than enough to cover the necklace I was looking at. YEAH.

Yesterday at lunch Miss Lety and I went to Tiffany and Co to see if they had it.  I was interested in a simple circle charm with the initial J in the middle.  They had two: one the size of a nickel and one the size of an M&M.  I thought I wanted the first one.  But, when I put them on, it just looked too big.  I fell in love with the dainty little one.

Here's the kicker.  I'm smaller now.  I can wear smaller necklaces without feeling like they are getting swallowed up by my huge boobs.  :-)  I could not be happier.

They offered to let me wear it out of the store, but Lety wanted it boxed and wrapped.  She wanted me to wait until I got home after the gym and unwrap it. It was a symbol of all of my hard work.  It was killing me all afternoon not to open it. Ha Ha.  But, I did it.  And I'm glad.  I was bubbling with excitement when I unwrapped it. 

I love rewarding myself for my hard work.  It helps motivate me. As long as I'm not rewarding myself with food, then I'm in good shape. Positive reinforcement is a good way to go.

Before I leave for the night, I wanted to share why I chose the initial necklace.  I am a huge Sex and the City fan.  I always loved Carrie's "Carrie" necklace. I almost got a "Jennie" one :-)  Anyway,  I feel like I channel my inner Carrie when I write this Blog.  So this is just my little tribute to her.  She's one of my writing inspirations...hmmm...maybe Tony Stewart is my Mr. Big...wishful thinking.
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