Thursday, October 30, 2014

Today was a good day

Hello Beautiful People,

Today was a good day. I had great client sessions. I had a light 3 mile walk on the treadmill. My Girls on the Run Girls finally had a great pacing day. I am no longer fearful that they will sprint for the first 30 seconds and then drop and crawl to the finish line. I ran 2 more miles with some of my girls. I did another mile with my client tonight. She has lost an inch in her waist since she started working with me. YEAH!

And, within 4 hours I got two interviews set up for part time positions, a new client consultation set up, and news that there may be another coming soon. It is all good stuff. All of those lady bugs are bringing me luck.

I am so happy with my 6 miles today. That puts me at 92 foot miles for October. I am 8 miles from 100. I got really worried that I might not make it. I have hit 100 miles every month since June. Some months I had 150. I don't know that my ego could accept anything less than 100. I had to remind myself that I also had my first 22 day. I had knee problems. I needed a little rest. But, I cannot accept that. I have challenged myself.

I know I can finish the marathon. It's in less than 6 weeks. I have to adjust my plan. I will not be able to run as much of it as I would have liked. I believe that I could actually do it at the time. What I am worried about is the aftermath. I walked most of the 22 a few weeks ago. And I have paid for that distance. I need my knees. I need to be able to walk. I can live without running for the rest of December, but I can't live with not being able to bend down.

I have to factor that in with my planning now. I still plan on running a little of it, but not nearly as much as I had hoped. So let's all buckle in for a long day. I'm prepared for it. Just 37 days to go. Oh holy crap that sounds so much closer than 5 weeks 2 days. I think I just peed I am a little nervous now.

Have a Blessed Evening

****Please note****

If you feel like you are alone on your journey and you just need some encouragement I am here for you! Shoot me an email and I will do my best to check in on you or give you the words of support you need several times a week. The journey is so much easier if you have support.

jhendersonfit@gmail.com

Wednesday, October 29, 2014

Random Wednesday: Phoebe, GOTR, and Wawa

Happy Random Wednesday,

Well I went for a run yesterday. It was my first run in 10 days. I felt okay. The knee didn't hurt. I struggled a little though. Today I went to the park and met up with new Running Buddy. I ran a little and walked a little. I didn't want to push it. Glad I didn't. Guess what hurts. DANG IT!

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I couple of times this week I haven't gotten my water in completely. They have resulted in headaches.

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The other day one of my favorite episodes of Friends was on. It was the episode where Phoebe and Rachel go running through the park. Phoebe embarrasses Rachel because she runs like a kid flailing her arms. I want to run like that sometimes.

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So I have noticed that a lot of the fast food places are listing their calories on the menu. I applaud this. And I am horrified by their customers. How can you see that something is 1200 calories and still order it?

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I got complimented on my incredibly toned and fit ankles today. haha 

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My Girls are the Run girls are starting to worry me. They don't seem to know the idea of pacing. They run as fast as they can for 30 seconds and then collapse for 2 minutes in exhaustion. They may take a day to complete the 5k in 6 weeks. I should probably ask if there is a time limit.

So one of the sponsors has donated some gently used sneakers for girls that can't afford a new pair.  If we noticed that a girl is in need of a new pair and her family is not in the position to buy a new pair then we should get their size and submit it. The sweet thing is that they suggest that we tell the girl that she won a drawing for a new pair. I could not be prouder to be a member of this organization.

I did submit a girl's size so hopefully they will have her size left.

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I had the best surprise this week. A friend was up north and texted that he was at a Wawa. What could he bring me. HOLLA!  Soft pretzel and krimpets!  Oh I'm a happy camper.


Have a Blessed Evening.

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Monday, October 27, 2014

It's been a funk of a day

Hello Beautiful People,

You know I love you right? It's your love and support that gets me through the tough times. And right now it's a tough time.

I love my clients. But, right now I do not have enough to sustain me full time. It was okay. I still qualified for unemployment. It wasn't a lot, but it was enough to help with my bills. My plan was to keep building my client base and then after the race look for something that would compensate. Well I got the numbers wrong. It ended two weeks ago. So now I'm in a pickle.

I crunched my numbers and if I can take on 8 more sessions a week I would be fine. Ideally I would like 10-12 for a little breathing room. So I started blanketing the area for new clients. My company does marketing for me, but I can look for my own also. I am talking with a couple of people so hopefully I will have a couple sessions added soon. 

I also applied to a bunch more studios and gyms hoping for something part time. I'll be okay. It's almost the holidays and if I have to I will apply for a holiday position until January when the New Year's Resolutions kick in.

The problem is that it feels like I am giving up on my dream and that's extremely depressing. It's not giving up. It's doing what I have to to get where I want to be. But, there's a little part of me that feels like a failure. I have only been down here for two months. It just feels like I am letting myself down.

Another problem is that I can work around training sessions for marathon training. It might get a little hectic with a part time job. Plus I have to work a part time job around my training sessions. Okay, starting to stress again.

A couple of weeks ago I bought the most beautiful bedspread on clearance at Bed Bath and Beyond (with my 20% off coupon). It's going to hurt, but I think I have to take it back. Unless something really good happens in the next week it's going back :-(

So needless to say I was in a bit of a funk today. I got a lot done though and I am meeting with someone at a studio tomorrow so it hasn't been a wash of a day, but I also didn't get a run in. My knee hasn't bothered me all day so hopefully I am good to go tomorrow.

Keep me in your prayers right now please :-)

On the positive side, there are 3 lady bugs that have been flying around me all day. That's good luck right? 

Have a Blessed Evening

****Please note****

If you feel like you are alone on your journey and you just need some encouragement I am here for you! Shoot me an email and I will do my best to check in on you or give you the words of support you need several times a week. The journey is so much easier if you have support.

jhendersonfit@gmail.com

Sunday, October 26, 2014

It's been a Mentally Crappy Week

Hello My Lovelies and Gents,

Well quite simply, it's been a mentally crappy week for me. 

My knee has been bothering me all week. I have barely been able to get in any miles since my big distance of 22 over a week ago. I can't run 10 feet without feeling pain. This is my life though.  This is why I have been taking such a long time to train. I need more time than most people. I won't let it stop me, but it's not always easy to keep my head in the game.

When you finish a huge distance you should take time off to recover. I am doing that. But, I can't even get in smaller runs just to stay loose. I can walk, but I start to feel it if I walk too fast or go too long. And so I wait.

I'm trying not to get down on it, but I am. My brain is getting angry and depressed. It feels like I am wasting time. It feels like I am giving up. It feels like I am getting lazy.

I can't do the bike right now because that just tightens up my legs more (and they really need to loosen more) and it hurts the knee. I can't do much yoga because it is hurting the knee. This leaves me upper body and core work. I'm doing that, but it is not what I need. I need more miles! I only have 6 weeks to go.

My knee doesn't hurt all of the time. It's tricky. Just when I think I am ok I cross my legs and it hurts. This is why my distances take so long. This is why it takes me so long to train for them. I can't just follow regular plans. I have to factor in the knee. I've been pretty lucky up until now, but this week it reminded me just who is boss. It is not me.

This has been the perfect week for the Former Fat Girl to get in my head. She is on fire.

See, you can't do this. Let's drown our sorrows in food.

CHOCOLATE! CHOCOLATE!  CHOCOLATE!

Who told you that you could ever finish a marathon? That was a dream, not reality.

Your body wasn't made for this. Have a cookie.

It is taking everything I have not to listen to her. Now in full confession mode, chocolate was purchased and brought into the house (not by me). I have been dipping into it a lot more than I would like. My big consolation is that I have not fallen off the wagon with my food.

My saving grace has been my time with Girls on the Run and with my clients. Motivating and helping others is what I live for. I've just been struggling with it for myself lately.

And now I hit a financial snag. I need to take on more clients sooner than I had anticipated. I was hoping to get past the race before I had to give up more time. That is not the case. So now there is the stress of finding more clients and losing my own training time. Awesome! This is going to be fun!

I am strong enough to do this. I know it. I will get past this setback. I will prevail. I wouldn't be human if I didn't have a crappy day or week. Let's just hope it doesn't last a month.

On the bright side, I got my new sneakers!  YEAH!  Pretty excited about that.  Can't wait to USE them!  Right now I am breaking them in with daily wear. Okay, I am going to sign off and take some deep breaths. Namaste everyone.

Have a Blessed Evening.

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Wednesday, October 22, 2014

Random Wednesday: sneakers, halloween, and butter

Happy Random Wednesday,

So yesterday I said that I was feeling the love. And I am.

This weekend I came home to find that I received a very generous gift certificate in the mail for the running store. I can get new sneakers for the marathon. I can get the GOOOOOOD sneakers.

I love the last ones I got. I love them so much that I broke my rule. I wear them even when I'm not training. I don't like to do that because it puts extra wear on them. But, the gels help my feet so much that I can't help it.

I am making a run to the store tomorrow to check it out. So excited.

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I have recently been introduced to almond milk. I have been drinking skim for so long that it is actually too thick and sweet for me. It's practically like a milkshake.

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My knee has been conditioned so well that I almost forgot about it. Well not this week. It is still pissed at me for the big distance (and that was only walking). I ran two laps with Girls on the Run yesterday and I wanted to cry the whole time. So I took today off too.  This is why my training is taking longer than the usual program.

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Halloween is coming up. I haven't gotten any candy. I'm super proud of myself.

So my tip to surviving is that if you are going to buy candy to give out, then buy stuff you won't eat. But, if you want to be super cool, buy pretzels and bubbles to give out.

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Tonight I was starting to get a headache. And then I realized that I fell seriously short in the water intake for the day.  Totally makes a difference people!

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In addition to the gift certificate, Heather send me a care package. New headphones. Running magazines. Salted Caramel gel packs. Protein bars. It's a Runner's dream package!

THANK YOU HEATHER!

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I was recently given leftovers of spaghetti squash. I have about 4 servings. I couldn't stop eating it. When I asked what was in it: "butter".  Of course it was good. Good lord, it's like giving crack to someone in rehab.

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Mommie already has a substitute lined up so that she can come to the Marathon. Holla!


Have a Blessed Evening

****Please note****

If you feel like you are alone on your journey and you just need some encouragement I am here for you! Shoot me an email and I will do my best to check in on you or give you the words of support you need several times a week. The journey is so much easier if you have support.

jhendersonfit@gmail.com

Tuesday, October 21, 2014

The road to 22 miles

Hello Beautiful People,

So it's been a little while since my last post. I got an angry text from someone that it's been a week and she didn't have anything to read during her lunch hour today, but I would like to point out that it's only been 4 days. :-)

I have a lot of things to talk about, but it will take all week. Basically I completed 22 miles on Friday and it has taken a while to recover. I was exhausted when I finished. Then Saturday and Sunday were busy. Yesterday my body started screaming for rest. It wasn't just my body, but my mind too.

Friday was amazing. I planned to walk the whole 22. I just wanted to make sure that I could do it. I wasn't sure where I was going to do it. I wanted to go to the park, but it was going to be warm. I wanted to go to the gym, but that was a little bit of a drive if something went wrong. But, let's face it, the big factor was where would I go for a burger when I finished? I got a text from my new running buddy asking if  I was at the park. I told her my dilemma. She offered that there is a burger place just up the street from the park. SOLD!  So I packed up and headed over.

Packing up involved packing a cooler with lots of water. I packed my gel packs. I packed my protein bars. It was a warm one out so I had on shorts and a t-shirt.

The park has a 1.1 mile loop. So 10 laps is 11 miles. I was in for 20 laps. The OCD in me wanted to see the laps. So I dipped into my Girls on the Run bands that I bought the girls. I pulled out 20 little rubber bands that I put on the fingers on my left hand. After every lap I would transfer one to my right hand. That way I could visually see my progress.

As I said, my plan was walking only. But, I got antsy so I ran a little. Not a lot, but a half mile here and there. For those laps I put the rubber band on my index finger.

I was doing really well. My legs were tighter than I would have liked. Actually when I woke up that morning I didn't know what to do. My calves were TIGHT. I knew this would be a tough day, but I had carb loaded like a maniac on Thursday so I had no choice. haha. I knew I was going to be hurting, but I had to do it. That's what Marathon training is about.  Now in full disclosure, I also got my lady gift a day early on Friday....$(*%*($!!!!!!!  I want all women out there to agree that it is like I did 44 miles. Day one of lady gift is draining and icky.

I was getting texts all day from my new Running Buddy, Cari. She was on her treadmill at home, but lives right by the park. She offered to bring me anything I needed and gave me encouraging words all day. It was such a blessing.

I decided to stop after every 5 laps and get fresh water and fuel at the car. I walked right past it so it wasn't out of the way. I was feeling pretty good after 10 laps (11 miles). I was hot, but okay. I felt good knowing that I was halfway. My butt was feeling it though.

Now when I would finish previous halves I would think "If I could just double this time I would be fine." That's good in theory, but that's not reality. I have done a lot of training. A LOT. But, this has been about me training to last that long. My body can do it, but it gets tired. During my halves I would have a great first 8 miles, and then lose time on the last 5. Well imagine how this is going with 22 miles. My legs tightened up BIG TIME on mile 15. The last 7 miles I lost on an hour on. My pace didn't feel like it lost anything, but my legs were not as flexible. They weren't giving me the range they did earlier. It's frustrating. Very frustrating, but this is why I train.

I am very aware that I may take the full 7 hours to finish. I am 100% okay with that. Of course I would like to do better than that, but the key word there is FINISH. Friday was the first day that I felt like I can really do this.

When I was on mile 16 Running Buddy Cari told me to text her after every lap. She was cheering me on as she drove past the park.

I finished. I was slower, but I felt like I could have finished 26. It was an amazing feeling.

And then it was time for my burger!  So this was my first time trying to leave the park at rush hour. I couldn't make a left turn. Cars kept coming. I was freaking out. I WAS SO HUNGRY. Oh I went all out. I got a double cheeseburger with crinkle fries. I got it to go, but I should have stayed. I sat in more traffic trying to get home. I am only 5 minutes away, but it took 15. At that time it felt like an hour.

I showered before I ate. Even though I was starving, I knew that if I sat down to eat I might never get up...and we were losing time on how much energy I had left to take my clothes off.

My feet went up and I was done for the night. I was stiff and sore, but mostly my feet were hurting. That's to be expected though. When I am done a long distance my feet get elevated for the rest of the day. Between my feet and knee it is essential for me to do this if I want to move the next day.

I was surprisingly mobile the next day. I wasn't as flexible as normal, but that was about it. This is why I train. :-)

So now I am 6.5 weeks away. I feel good. I am also feeling the love. I will share more about that tomorrow.

Have a Blessed Evening.

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Wednesday, October 15, 2014

Random Wednesday: Dairy, BBQ, and

Happy Random Wednesday Bleeps!

I have repeatedly forgotten to pick up something at the store. I mean I am talking about Weeks I have forgotten. I need Baby Wipes. I keep them in my car in case I get sweaty in the park (which pretty much happens EVERY time I am in the park). Someone remind me to pick them up this week please :-)

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I have consciously tried to cut back on my dairy intake. So far so good.  It's not eliminated completely, but it is limited. I am no longer purchasing cheese. SAY WHAT?

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I went to my mom's this weekend so there are several traveling randomnesses to tell you about.

While I was there Cousin Randy and I took Mom-Mom out to dinner. We went to a Diner. Now originally I was scared,  even though it was me who suggested it, since diners aren't exactly known for their healthy food. Luckily this one was. They buy fresh and local.

When we walked in I saw a fantastic picture of a sandwich on the wall. Upon closer inspection I saw lots of brussel sprouts. Not really my thing. When I was looking at the menu I was looking at gluten free coconut pancakes, a chipotle grilled chicken sandwich, a bison burger, and a turkey chili. But, I kept coming back to this grilled vegetable sandwich. So I ordered it. Grilled asparagus, roasted red pepper, mushrooms, and brussel sprouts with pesto. It also came with a citrus salad.

I can't believe how much I enjoyed it.

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Last week I got back into my weights. I was all excited. But, I noticed something. I was having a severe pain in my left hand as pressed down on it. I was fine lifting anything. This got a little difficult demonstrating push up positions for my clients. I am not taking a little break from it. I think it's better, but I will give it a little rest.

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When I packed to go up I didn't pack too much. I still had some sweatshirts and jackets there so if I needed any I would just use them. I needed some. Specifically, I had an Eagles sweatshirt that I figured I would wear. Except in my head it was super big. I wasn't really excited about it.

Good news!  It was smaller than I had remembered. It was my normal size. It's weird how I have bought so many super big sweatshirts over the years that I just assumed that it was super big too.

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My big treat over the weekend was going to my BBQ place for lunch. I haven't had BBQ in two months. That has to be a record. It was worth the wait.

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On my drive home I stopped for gas and a bathroom break. I also wanted some caffeine so I went to the soda machine. All sizes were $0.89. I picked the smallest size. I just wanted a little. Sometimes the best bargain is not the best choice.

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This week my workout schedule is off. I was not going to workout yesterday. While I was at my client's house my phone alerted me that it is bagel day at the gym. Hmm...go home and back to bed or get a free bagel?  I went to the gym. I was dressed for it. So I put in 3 miles and took my bagel home. Clearly, I would do anything for a free bagel. 

Have a Blessed Evening

****Please note****

If you feel like you are alone on your journey and you just need some encouragement I am here for you! Shoot me an email and I will do my best to check in on you or give you the words of support you need several times a week. The journey is so much easier if you have support.

jhendersonfit@gmail.com

Tuesday, October 14, 2014

Walk to end Hunger

Happy Tuesday Bleeps,

This weekend Ms. Amy and I will participating in the Crop Walk to end hunger with my church.I am proud to be a part of this.

I work very hard these days to pay attention to my portion sizes. It's obscene how much the Former Fat Girl used to eat. She seriously could have fed a village from her daily portions. When I throw out food, it feels like such a waste. People all over the world go to bed hungry. I abused food and my body. It's time to give back.

In some countries women walk 3 hours to dig for water. Then they have to carry it back home. These days can last 11 hours. Young girls are pulled from school to help.  The water is so limited that they sacrifice sanitation. They can't clean themselves properly.  When young ladies get their lady gift they must stay home from school because they can't clean themselves.

We take so many things for granted. How can we live in a world where everything is Instant and yet people still live like this?

This makes me physically ill to think about.  Amazingly $6000 will build a wall that will help these women collect water right near their village in 30 minutes.  Their quality of life will greatly improve. They will be able to plant a vegetable garden. Young girls will not need to miss school.

It's just plain crazy to think that it will take 30 minutes to collect water for the day. We have such access to it. It makes me very aware of just how much water I use throughout the day.

So here is my challenge to you: Think about the meals you ate last week. If you finished a meal and felt so full that you wanted to unbutton your pants, then please make a pledge of $5 to the cause

http://hunger.cwsglobal.org/site/TR/2014FallCROPHungerWalk/TR-Fall2014?px=1867435&pg=personal&fr_id=19864

Have a Blessed Evening.

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Thursday, October 9, 2014

My Country Playlist

Hello Beautiful People,

It is no secret that I live for my playlists.  I will highlight some of my favorite playlists for you every week. This one is for you Ms. Amy.

This is from my Country Playlist

Some Days you Gotta Dance - Dixie Chicks
Nothin' to Lose - Josh Gracin
Wildflower - The JaneDear Girls
Boots On - Randy Houser
Swingin - Leann Rimes
5-1-5-0 - Dierks Bentley
Kerosene - Miranda Lambert
Pickin' Wildflowers - Keith Anderson
Eight Second Ride - Jake Owen
Gunpowder and Lead - Miranda Lambert
Rough & Ready - Trace Adkins
Redneck Woman - Gretchen Wilson
Off the Hillbilly Hook - Trailer Choir
Holler back - The Lost Trailers
The Booze Cruise - Blackjack Billy
Save a Horse, Ride a Cowboy - Big & Rich
Good Girl - Carrie Underwood
Giddy On Up - Laura Bell Bundy
Feel Like a Rock Star - Kenny Chesney
All I Want to Do - Sugarland
Kickin'Up Mud - The Lacs
Put you in a Song - Keith Urban
Sin Wagon - Dixie Chicks
Wild at Heart - Gloriana
Country Girl - Luke Bryan
Ready to Run - Dixie Chicks
Cowboy Casanova - Carrie Underwood
Stuck Like Glue - Sugarland
Good as Gone - Little Big Town
Nothin' Better to Do - LeAnn Rimes
Faster Car - Keith Urban
Better Life - Keith Urban

If you have any suggestions for me I would LOVE to hear them!

Playlists keep me moving. They occupy my mind and my body responds.

Have a Blessed Evening

****Please note****

If you feel like you are alone on your journey and you just need some encouragement I am here for you! Shoot me an email and I will do my best to check in on you or give you the words of support you need several times a week. The journey is so much easier if you have support.

jhendersonfit@gmail.com

Wednesday, October 8, 2014

Random Wednesday: GOTR, Shirtless football, and a new friend

Happy Random Wednesday Y'All,

Have I mentioned how much I love being a part of Girls on the Run?  This week we talked about our emotions and tomorrow we talk about healthy options including nutrition. I couldn't be more excited. They are mighty energetic let me tell ya.


 
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I was with one of my client's yesterday. We have had 11 sessions together. I asked her if she's seen any changes in her body yet. I can see an amazing transformation in her progress. She said she hadn't yet, but she is about to start Weight Watchers to help.

She HAS seen other changes though. The simple act of bending down to pet her dog doesn't require leaning on something for balance. She has more energy. She can walk a lot more. She doesn't hurt bending over anymore. Her daily life has drastically improved with just 3 hours a week.

It's Amazing what a little activity will do for a person :-)

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The other day I was in line at the checkout. There were two magazine headlines that caught my attention:

Shake off 55 lbs - energy boosting shakes

Drop 10 lbs FAST!

I have a headline for ya: Fast and Easy are not the way to go!

But I suppose you won't sell any magazines with the headline: Eating Proper Nutrition and working out regularly will lead to a better life.

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I picked up a really cute workout top at Walmart. They carry Danskin. Cute and reasonably priced.

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So I haven't watched The Biggest Loser this year. How is it?  I miss Bob and Dolvett.  I will try and catch up, but I have no idea when.

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Last week I was in the park when the most glorious thing happened. After my first lap I noticed the soccer field was filling up with these incredibly built and good looking guys. On the second lap a football game broke out...shirts vs. Skins! WHAT?  I think God was rewarding me because I didn't want to be there, but I went anyway.

On my last lap they disappeared. I started to wonder if it was a mirage. Was I dehydrated and hallucinating?

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I made a new friend today! No, it wasn't Tony Stewart...I would still like for a call though :-)

I met a woman at the park today. She was so excited that she was running that she had to share. It had been years since she ran. She went out yesterday and ran .5 miles. Today she finished 2.5. I ran a lap with her and we got to talking.

She used to be very active and then she had kids.  Her youngest kid is 3 now and she hasn't gotten back on track. She didn't care how long it was taking her, she was just super happy that she was doing it. I was practically crying I was so happy for her.

She took my number and we made tentative plans to meet up there on Friday.

Have a Blessed Evening.

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Tuesday, October 7, 2014

The Naked Truth

Hello my Lovelies and Gents,

How often do you look at your body?  I mean REALLY look at your body.  I spend a lot of time looking at mine. Probably more than is healthy.  It makes me laugh considering that the Former Fat Girl did everything she could to avoid the mirror.

Every day I look at and examine myself from a bunch of different angles. I look at my belly. I look at my butt. I look at my shoulders. I look at my butt. I look at my legs. I look at my back. I look at it all.

Some days I'm really excited. I see my progress. Some days I am sad at how much further I need to go.

My belly frustrates me. But, the reality is that it IS getting smaller. It doesn't feel like it. But, what I keep reminding myself is that I am comparing it against my legs. The proportions are still the same. And the size is smaller. My legs are getting so small. Therefore my belly is getting smaller. I'm starting to feel like I just have a little inner tube around my lower belly. It feels like gravity is pulling it all down. I'll take that though. I used to have a tire around there.

Marathon training is exhausting. As I get closer to the big day my workouts completely change. I have drastically cut back on my weights and legs days. I'm physically exhausted from my mileage. My legs are tight enough. I don't want legs days to make it any worse.

The casualty in all of this has been my arms. I miss my muscular arms. I am not making Tuesday and Thursday weights days. I did some today and it was painful. Painful to my ego. I had to drop my weights.  It's temporary and once the race is done I will hit them up again. So right now we tone.

The rewards of my Naked truth far outweigh the negatives. It's a wonderful time in my life.

Have a Blessed Evening

****Please note****

If you feel like you are alone on your journey and you just need some encouragement I am here for you! Shoot me an email and I will do my best to check in on you or give you the words of support you need several times a week. The journey is so much easier if you have support.

jhendersonfit@gmail.com

Monday, October 6, 2014

Feel your Boobies Ladies!

Happy Monday Bleeps,

I hope you had a lovely weekend. Saturday was simply Pinkalicious for me!  Ms. Amy and I signed up for the Race for the Cure. It was such a wonderful day.

I needed to leave at 6:30am so that meant going to bed early the night before. Hahaha. Too bad I didn't. Gah!  That darn photoshoot went to my head.

They were expecting a very very large crowd so Ms. Amy went and picked up our packets on Wednesday. When I arrived she was wearing her pink wig and her Race shirt. She looked so cute. Soon we were off and headed towards uptown.

It was early in the morning and there were people dressed head to toe in pink swarming all over. It was glorious. We just followed the pink to the start line.

They announced that there were 17,000 people participating. I believed them. It was fabulous. And just as fabulous was the support on the sidewalks.



Before I forget, you all know how much I love football. Well I am not a Carolina Panthers fan. I just am not. One of the emcees for the event was DeAngelo Williams who is a Running Back for the Panthers. He has a team walking in support of his mom and sister. Crap...I like him now. I still don't like the team though.



There were two races that morning. The timed one started at 7:15. We were in the Recreational one at 7:50. This one was full of everyone just out there to show support and for the survivors. It was like a giant mob of 17,000 people dressed head to toe in Pink walking through the streets of Charlotte. No, that's exactly what it was. There were some people trying to run on the sidewalks, but it was very difficult to move through this mass of AWESOME!  I wouldn't change a thing.

It wasn't just people getting in on the action. It was the pups too!


Along the route there were people handing out carnations to survivors.

There were store windows showing support.

There were selfie stations.


There were cheerleaders along the way. There was a drumline from the Panthers. It was a fantastic day. There was even a huge clog at the finish line as everyone turned around to take selfies with it behind them...shhh...yeah we did.





Afterwards we visited the village for bananas and water. We got mini smoothie king samples. I got a cute hat (pictures later cause I love it!).

On our way to the car we passed a pink fire engine. It totally warms my heart how supportive people are. It's a shame that it is generally only in October.

Okay so what did we gather from this? These events are so much fun and they are for such a good cause. It's not always about who is fastest. It's about the experience. We did not walk at a super fast pace. But, we enjoyed ourselves and we started the day making a difference and exercising.  And I'm not going to lie, seeing all of those men supporting women they love by wearing pink (tutus included) was a bit sexy.



I did wear my tutu to my client's afterwards. She got a kick out of it. I did take it off for the session though. haha.

As soon as I was done with my client I stopped for food. And then I passed out on the couch for the rest of the afternoon. All of that excitement was just too much.

So Ladies, Feel your boobies!


Have a Blessed Evening.

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Sunday, October 5, 2014

My new Ambition: America's Next Top Model

Happy Sunday Bleeps,

Friday was a relaxing day for me. My calves had been super tight so I went for a spa pedicure. It was lovely. The massage on my calves and feet were delicious.  It was so needed. I shall treat myself every month until the Marathon.

Immediately after I headed over to Ms. Marisol's. She needed to be home for some things and wanted to test out some settings on her camera. I was to play the role of Model for the day. Oh boy. I was equally excited and terrified.

Ms. Marisol is a fantastic photographer. I have enjoyed seeing her photos over the years. I couldn't wait to see what she could do with me, but I was also a little scared. I love taking my picture. I love seeing the new me. But, generally I have control of that situation.

Sadly it had started to rain right after I arrived. Denied!

 We took a few shots standing on her doorstep. When I looked at them I was amazed at how small I looked. Now I was super sad at the rain. Booo...go away!

For the next couple of hours we sat on her couch talking and drinking warm beverages while she took picture after picture of me talking and drinking coffee.  They were just to play around with settings and for the most part I hated most of them. Generally I was in my sentence and they just weren't flattering. Plus I was sitting with my knees in my chest.  We did like this one though.





First off, you can see my new manicure too. I got a nice pink for my Race for the Cure in the morning. Now as you can see, I am wearing some workout clothes. I thought we were just working with lighting. I didn't hear Ms. Marisol say "Do it up Pretty!".

After a little while we were free to head outside for some more photos. So we raided a closet. We found a pretty top and headed out. Now let me also say that along with my workout clothes I was also wearing a sports bra. So it made it a little difficult.

Our first stop was this awesome little tree lined side road. We were having some fun. But, you know how you think you are looking awesome and then you see yourself and you are not that great? Well that was how it went. My "sexy" looks weren't that sexy. I was trying to hard. They were forced.

It was hard to take when she was upset with a picture. Even though the cause was that the lighting was wrong or I was blurry, I was always nervous that it was me that was wrong.

I also kept hearing "Your pants are killing me!".  The top we picked was a black with a black and tan ruffle. I was wearing black yoga pants. I knew they weren't fantastic, but I didn't think they were that bad. It wasn't until we went to our next location and I saw one of the pictures that I saw what she was talking about. I had completely forgotten that the top band of the pants were yellow.  Oops.



It just reminded me of the Former Fat Girl pictures...that yellow band was her fat. She forgot about it until she looked at the pictures. That's how the failed "sexy" pictures were too. I thought I was looking sexy for very model like in these pictures. Instead they were epic fails. The Former Fat Girl thought she looked good when posing for photos. She didn't.



Some of my favorite pictures were candid ones. I definitely liked my smile and laughing pictures better than my serious. There's a deep thought in there somewhere.


When we started to lose the sun and I had been bitten about a hundred times by mosquitoes we headed back to the house. The side of the house is brick and another great spot for some close ups.

The first one was for me to press my butt and shoulders against the brick and push my chest out...I think I pulled a muscle. I have a much shorter torso that most people so I couldn't quite pull this off. I will work on it though.

Luckily my shoulder looks nice...but there is that pesky bra strap. Once again my favorite picture here was me laughing. I cannot get enough of pictures where I am super happy.


In all we took 175 photos. We deleted 125 of them. There was a whole bunch of "UGH DELETE!" when we were going through them. That's never a good thing, but that happens in professional shoots with real models too. It was all worth it when we could land on a picture that I loved.

I can't thank Ms. Marisol enough for this. I totally volunteered for another shoot. Don't worry, I've spent hours in front of the mirror this weekend working on my faces and poses. :-)


Have a Blessed Evening

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If you feel like you are alone on your journey and you just need some encouragement I am here for you! Shoot me an email and I will do my best to check in on you or give you the words of support you need several times a week. The journey is so much easier if you have support.

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Thursday, October 2, 2014

We could all learn from the Girls on the Run lessons

Hello my Lovelies and Gents,

So we have now met for 4 sessions of Girls on the Run. 15 girls. 2 coaches. 75 minutes of confidence building and running. I am having a blast. And I am proud to note, I know all of the girls' names.

After the second session I happily took the lead. I have a little more time to prepare and I am happy to do so.

This is not a running program. It is a program designed to build confidence in young girls. It is a program designed to help young girls be themselves. It is a programed designed to help young girls make healthy and positive choices.  It is a program that women of all ages could use.

Tuesday's lesson was about the Star Within. We talked about how our inner star makes us feel and ways that we can make it shine. I loved this lesson. It made me think about every finish line I have ever crossed and how that has made me feel. That star within is burning BRIGHT.

Today's lesson was about Negative and Positive talk. We talked about those thoughts and words that we say about ourselves that are negative. I am can't do that. I don't like my body. I am not good at that.

We need to get rid of the negative. Make everything positive. All afternoon I kept thinking of the Toys R Us commercials "Turn that frown upside down."

How many times had I told myself over the years that I wasn't good enough at something? Too many to count. That was pretty much a permanent thought in my brain. It was practically tattooed on my brain.

Today those thoughts still rent space in there, but I'm getting better and better at evicting them. I totally have Girls on the Run Spirit!

Before I go, here is my cute GOTRism for the day. This is also courtesy of Miss McKenzie (age 8).

Miss McKenzie: My mom packed me an apple for my snack. It was so delicious (clasping her hands and throwing her head back in delight). They are honey crisp apples. We got a bunch of them. OMG!  What if she makes a pie???? (she was literally jumping up and down covering her mouth with excitement).

For her sake, I hope her mom does. She's too cute.

Have a Blessed Evening.

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Wednesday, October 1, 2014

Random Wednesday: Stolen thighs, Showers, and Playlist


Happy Random Wednesday!

I got out there for 3 miles today. I could have easily stayed in bed all day, but it was important to get out there and stretch my legs. They are TIGHT after Monday, but they make me feel amazing.

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Ms. Amy got a pink wig for Saturday's race. I feel my work here is done. hahaha. 

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I haven't worn a watch in years. But, I have felt compelled to get one of late. There is no clock for Girls On the Run and I don't want to use my phone. I had been looking at some at Target that tracked laps. I looked at them today. I didn't get one of them. I did get a cheaper version that is still as cute and has a stop watch. I can track laps that way.

I like it. I brought it out when I stopped for dinner. It took me forever to figure out how to set it. I felt like a genius once I got it right. And then when I as in Bible Study tonight my fitbit kept pushing it's buttons and it kept timing the study. lol. I will get used to it. 

And of course when I got home the alarm went off. I had no idea I had turned it on. I'll probably be waking up all night long because of it.

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I don't want to alarm anyone, but someone has stolen my thighs! It's been hot for the past couple of days. Today I was wearing my shorts. It's only been two weeks since last I wore them. I was completely struck by how thin my thighs have gotten. I almost don't recognize them.

HOLLA!

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Due to my schedule I am doing a lot of showering at the gym. This is a big deal for me. I'm not strutting around naked in the locker room, but that curtain doesn't always close all of the way. I am seriously amused by this. I was the girl in gym class that would hide when it was time to change for gym. Or at least I would change out my top first and then my shorts. I was never unclothed.

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I simply adore my Girls on the Run Girls. I am having the best time. I will be blogging about it later. For now I will leave you with the cutest exchange I had with Miss McKenzie (age 8).

Miss McKenzie: I don't run a lot. I only run when I'm being chased by bears.

Me: Does this happen often?

Miss McKenzie: No. So I don't run a lot.

This girls make me smile constantly!

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It's time to update your playlist. Here is the monthly list that gets sent to me.

Here's the full list, according to votes placed at Run Hundred--the web's most popular workout music blog.
To find more workout songs, folks can check out the free database at RunHundred.com. Visitors can browse the song selections there by genre, tempo, and era—to find the music that best fits with their particular workout routine.


Have a Blessed Evening

****Please note****

If you feel like you are alone on your journey and you just need some encouragement I am here for you! Shoot me an email and I will do my best to check in on you or give you the words of support you need several times a week. The journey is so much easier if you have support.

jhendersonfit@gmail.com