Thursday, September 27, 2012

Um...How many days have I been wearing this underwear?

Hey there Bleeps,

Is it possible for your brain to melt?  I am pretty sure that mine did today.

Last night a had a good run. I did five miles and I was happy. I was feeling good after it. And then this morning my knees were a little sore. And then around lunch time my foot started hurting. BAH!  Okay, back to resting it. No running until next week. It was such a good run too.  If I can hold that pace for the full 13 I would knock off 45 minutes from my last time. I don't know that I could keep that up, but it's a goal. Now I just have to be good so that my foot relaxes. ARGH! 

So remember last night I said that it was going to be a stressful day?  Well I had NO idea what was ahead of me. For work I was going to have no back up. Ms. Kerri just bought a new house and needed a day to get things ready.  And our back up is on vacation at the beach (so wish I hid in his luggage). I was prepared for this and knew it was coming. It meant no lunch break, but the good thing is that I get to leave early tomorrow. Bonus!

It wasn't an insane day. It was just very busy. At one point I asked Ms. Barb is she wanted to take a walk.  She had to decline because she was eating her lunch? Wha? What time is it?

Sign Number One that my brain was melting:
Ms. Barb and I took a walk to the ladies room. We were in the middle of a conversation in different stalls when I got very quiet. I was taking a look at my underwear. It's a pair that is a solid color with a star on the side. I cannot tell you the number of times that I have worn them all day and then realized they were inside out. If the star is on the left they are on correctly. The problem with this pair is that I remember having the "which side is it on?" talk with myself VERY recently. Um...was I wearing this pair yesterday? I swear I showered last night. How the heck am I wearing the same pair of underwear two days in a row??? EWWWWW!  No wait, yesterday's was green. I must have washed these Tuesday night. Deep breath. It's okay.

So the day is going smoothly and then Moving stress hits me like a ton of bricks. A problem has come up and my belly just kept dropping all afternoon. I'm hopeful that things will work out.  I'm trying not to stress about how this affects my plans to become a Personal Trainer. For my sanity I cannot take the exam before I move. I just am not Superwoman no matter how hard I try. That pushes it back a little. This stresses me out already. I feel like I'm pushing my dreams away.  And I know that's silly.  I'll get there. It just may take a little longer.

At the end of the day I could not get out of work fast enough. A part of me wanted to just come home and drink my bottle of Swedish Fish flavored Vodka. But, another part of me said "Get your ass to the gym! Work out that stress there!" And of course I'm not gonna lie. There was another thought "What if Gym Crush 1 is there and you miss him?"  So there you have it. That's my motivation for the gym almost every night. Every night when I think that I should skip, the lure of the Gym Crush gets me there. That's probably why I don't actually talk to them. I need to keep them as my motivation.

Tonight was Gym Crush free, but that's okay. I was happy once I got there. I felt much better finishing my upper body workout from the other day. I don't care what it takes to get me to the gym. As long as I get there.

Sign Number Two that my brain is melting
I could not remember the combination for my lock. SLIGHT panic. Okay, BIG panic. What the heck? I have the combo in a note on my phone...but the phone is in the locker...lucky for me I remembered that the combo is in my ipod holder in the bag I carry around with me. Crisis averted.   But what the????

And so I am going to sign off and relax a little. Here's to a better tomorrow.

Have a Blessed Night my friends.

****Please note****

If you feel like you are alone on your journey and you just need some encouragement I am here for you! Shoot me an email and I will do my best to check in on you or give you the words of support you need several times a week. The journey is so much easier if you have support.

Wednesday, September 26, 2012

Woo Woo for Random Wednesday

Can I get a WOO WOO for Random Wednesday!

All day long I would think of things and say "Oh that's going to be tonight's post!" and then five minutes later I said the same thing about something else. So you know what that means: Random Wednesday!

First off, MAJOR props to Ms. Lady Gaga! In case you haven't seen, Lady Gaga has recently been criticized for gaining 20 lbs. She looks beautiful!  So many women would kill to look like her as she is and she was getting slammed for it.  She has also admitted to being anorexic and bulimic since she was 15. So what if she gained 20lbs? Who the heck are these people that they feel they have any right to comment on this?  What is wrong with them???  This made me so furious. Who are these people that have decided that all women should be 20lbs underweight?  First, that's so unattractive. Second, that's so unhealthy both physically and emotionally. Third, SCREW YOU!

Ms. Gaga is leading the body revolution and women all over the world are putting pictures of their bodies out there on twitter. *STANDING OVATION LADIES* 

I am a study-o-holic this week.  I got behind and now I have given myself an incentive. If I can catch up this weekend then I will treat myself to the new Dave Matthews Band CD. Woo Woo!  I haven't given myself an incentive in a while.

Today I was studying about motivating clients. This has been my big fear. No one knows more about this than I do. No matter what I say, if my clients aren't ready then they aren't going to listen.  What if I can't help motivate people? What if I fail them? :-(  I need a new chapter!

So okay, I have a guilty pleasure. I am addicted to Say Yes To the Dress!  I can't help it.  Ironic, since I'm the girl who doesn't plan on getting married. Doesn't mean I don't like to window shop.  It always hurts when a "bigger" girl comes in.  They make a big deal about how they don't make all of the dresses in larger sizes. They even came up with show dedicated to the bigger girls. Well color me happy, we got our own show!

Last week there was a woman on who had lost 70lbs. She wanted to show off her figure. Her mom sat behind her saying that she wasn't thin enough to pull off the dresses that she loved. Her mom said she still had to lose more weight. I was so mad!  This woman lost 70lbs!  She was getting married (again, but that's another story). She was happy.  And here was her mother making comments about her weight..ON TV!  Seriously, it's no wonder that so many girls have eating disorders.

Several times over the last couple of weeks Gym Buddy Lisa has mentioned that going to the gym was easier when she had a gym buddy.  We will be reunited shortly, but it is so true. Knowing that someone else is going keeps me from bailing. I miss her!

It's shout out time!

Happy Weight Watchers Wednesday!  You know who you are!

Happy first day of Half Marathon training day!  WOO WOO

Okay, I still have more to say, but it's past my pumpkin time and I need to get to bed. Tomorrow will be a tad stressful at work so I need to decompress. I got a late start tonight because of the season premiere of Modern Family. Couldn't have any distractions during that. lol.

Have a Blessed Night my friends.

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Tuesday, September 25, 2012

Our Babies will be pretty AND fit...but first I have to introduce myself

Hello Beautiful People,

Last night I attended my first book club meeting.  A recently reunited friend invited me to join and I was simply beside myself with joy.  It's no secret that love to read. LOVE to read. I have been missing my book club since I left Charlotte.  The sweet bonus is that the book for September was Rebecca.  I had read it with my Charlotte book club and loved it. I was so in for this.

I hadn't quite gotten to finish the book this time, so I ran to the mall after work.  Of course.  Actually there was a very good reason for this. First, I would hit up Subway for a $5 footlong (dinner and lunch).  Then I would sit in Starbucks and read as much as I could with a side of Iced Green tea. And then I would pick up a treat to bring.

Now I only knew one of these ladies, but I had a feeling there would be a lot of treats.  So originally my plan was to bring some veggies or fruit. And then I saw it. My fall weakness: Apple Cider.  I know I know. It's sugar sugar sugar. So I only got a half gallon.

When I walked in the first thing I noticed was the table full of treats. Keep Walking Jennifer!  Introductions were made in the kitchen while beverages where consumed.  Soon after the group moved towards the table with the treats. The host asked if we wanted to meet at the table or the couch. My head is screaming COUCH, but I'm new and everyone wants to sit at the table.

I scope out a spot by the vegetables. It's my safe spot. I end up munching on carrots, cucumber, and pistachios all night. But, my eyes do not leave the cupcakes, scones, muffins, cookies, elephant bread, and brie dip all night. We're talking about the book and all I can do is stare at those scones. Oh what's that? I think I drooled a little.

Finally I could take it no more and I got up and reached for one.  Really, it would just be rude not to try them. I mean she went through the trouble of making them and all. They were a nod to the book anyway. I was just being polite.  At least that's what I told myself. Oh it was delicious!  And really, if that's all I cheated with all night I consider it a WIN!

Since I had Book club last night I was skipping the gym.  That was two days since a workout.  Two days to rest my foot. And quite frankly it started to feel ooooooh so good. In fact, it hasn't bothered me at all today. HOLLA!

I was planning on hitting the gym tonight. The plan was a light cardio warm up and then a mega upper body workout. It has been two weeks and my shoulders are getting angry with me. As I was pulling in to the parking lot I did my usual prayer "Dear God, PLEASE let Gym Crush 1 be here. PLEASE! Pretty Pretty Please!  With sugar on top!"  It's been a while since I had seen him, but God answered my prayers tonight. I should have asked for a little more, but let's not be greedy.

I didn't see him until after I had changed. I noticed the treadmill next to him was open and made my quick walk to it glaring at anyone who looked like they were going to get on it. "IT'S MINE!"

I had planned on reading during my light warm up, but no reading with him next to me. There would be no concentrating. I was still planning on the light warm up, but I quickly changed my mind. Completely forgetting that my foot has been a problem I start to run with him after my warm up. I LOVE to watch him run. I'm happy to report that I ran for 30 and my foot didn't bother me at all. YEAH!  In fact, we ended up running on pace with each other. It was cute. He would start to speed up and then fall back in step with me. Dude runs WAY faster than I do so I was pleased at this.

While I was running he got off to do some weights. Now I had to stay on because if I had gotten off like I had planned it would look like I am stalking him, and I am not. I really truly love him!  haha.

I did still get some weights in. It wasn't the super upper body workout that I wanted, but I still hit my back, chest, and shoulders. It's okay though. It was worth it. And one day I will actually talk to him...will make it a little easier to have his beautiful babies if he knows my name.

Have a Blessed night.

****Please note****

If you feel like you are alone on your journey and you just need some encouragement I am here for you! Shoot me an email and I will do my best to check in on you or give you the words of support you need several times a week. The journey is so much easier if you have support.

Sunday, September 23, 2012

Who wants to be a Personal Trainer? I DO! I DO!

Happy Sunday Bleeps!

Are you enjoying the first weekend of the Fall?  It's a beautiful cool crisp fall day.  It's Nascar Race day (Tony Stewart Call Me!!!) and football day. That makes it the perfect chicken chili day...ahhh.  It's cooking in the crockpot as I type.

So the plan today was to go to Church, then Starbucks for an hour of studying, then the gym for a little cardio and a whole lot of upper body weights, and then home to scrapbook the pictures from last weekend. Well I went to church.  And then I went to Starbucks. I got my Venti Iced Green Tea unsweetened (if you ever want to surprise me with a refreshing beverage this is a good choice).  I passed on the pastries even though everyone around me was getting them.  But, yesterday was my cheat day.  So I resisted.  Also, I have my first book club meeting tomorrow and I'm fairly certain there will be some goodies there.

I was on my feet a lot yesterday and my foot really bothered me after a while. I can start the day fine, but as the day goes on I end up limping.  I went for a walk around the neighborhood and it started to strain, but I wasn't exactly limping.  By the time I was walking around Walmart a couple hours later (after Starbucks and the craft store) I was limping and just praying that I could get off of it for the rest of the day.

This stresses me out. I don't want to injure it further, but I don't want to get lazy either. I just have to be smart about this.  I have a ton to do and my body needs rest.  This is my sign to take a few days off.  I will live in fear that I will get lazy, but I will just need to occupy my time smartly, eat right, and get excited for my next scheduled workout: Tuesday. 

So I decided to stay at Starbucks for an extra hour and do some more studying. My mentor says that if I am still loving it after all of this time then it definitely the field for me. I am enjoying it so much and really cannot wait to get certified and help people. It's my passion.  I could talk health and fitness all day if you let me.  I'm so anxious to take this exam and get started.  It's taking longer than I had hoped, but I want to do this right. I also want to make this professional change as soon as possible.

Sometimes it feels like everyone I know loves their job. I mean LOVES it. Well okay, maybe not so much their job, but what they do.  Teachers.  Nurses. Sales. It's what they love to do. Now it's my turn. I love helping people make healthy changes. It's what I'm meant to do. I just need to get my butt in gear and get certified.

A few years ago my buddy Amie was studying for her certification.  We worked together, fellow cube dwellers, and I can remember her saying "I'm not meant to be behind a desk all day."  I had two thoughts.  One-I'm so jealous of what she's about to do.  Two-She's freakin nuts!  It's all I know. Well now I know better.  I am NOT meant to be behind a desk.  I am meant to be outside training people. The only time I plan on being behind a desk is while writing this blog (and generally I am sitting in my chair in my room so that doesn't even count) and when I am putting together workout programs for clients.  *I just got a chill of excitement thinking about that*.

Last weekend I came away with 5 new shirts. I got my race shirt, my purchased race shirt, my free shirt with my Runners Magazine subscription, my breast cancer shirt for a donation (plus the breast cancer 5k shirt), and my purchased finisher shirt. Normally I would flinch.  I mean I am the person who went through her clothes a few months ago and got rid of a bunch.  I am the person who is trying to pack for a move. Why do I need those shirts?  Well first, they are nice.  And second, one day soon they will be my work uniform. :-) I will be my own personal marketing tool. No one is going to want to train with someone wearing beat up old sweats. They are nice and showcase my accomplishments.

One of the chapters I was reading today was about putting together workout programs.  It stresses that one of the biggest problems trainers have is motivating clients. It lists good traits for a trainer to have:

1. Empathy - The ability to climb into the world of the client. *Yep, that's me*
2. Respect - Appreciation for the worth of your client. *Yep, that's me*
3. Warmth - Communicating concern and appropriate affection *Yep, that me*
4. Genuineness - Being freely yourself. *Yep, that's me*
5. Self-disclosure - Revealing about self at the appropriate time. *This one I think I need to work on...Just kidding ;-)  Yep, that's me*

My mentor made a comment to me a few months ago.  He told me one of the reasons why I will do so well is because I have a story to tell.  He wishes he had a story.  My immediate response - No, no you don't! He has been fit his whole life and you can tell. I would trade places with him in a heartbeat.

Whenever I tell people that I want to get certified and become a Personal Trainer the first response is: That's so perfect for you!  It is isn't it :-)  Now it's time to buckle down and make it happen.  I will use this time to rest my foot wisely. It's time to get serious!  Although I will totally put down the studying if Tony Stewart finally calls :-)

Have a Blessed Night my friends.

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Saturday, September 22, 2012

Food triggers: Smells and Emotions

Hello my Lovelies and Gents,

Let's talk food.  This has been the week of "If you buy it you will eat it!"  If it was in my cabinet I would have eaten it this week.  The good news is that it wasn't in the cabinet. The bad news is that I went back hour after hour looking for something to eat.  Willing something to show up that wasn't there an hour ago. I purposely stayed out of the stores because I did not trust myself.

I eat well, but I'm a habit eater. This is why I can't seem to lose my fat belly.  I need to shake it up. Eating the same thing day after day is not good.  It's kind of why I haven't brought this up before.  It's a "do as I say, not as I do" kind of thing.

Part of it is my schedule.  Part of it is my budget.  Part of it is my OCD. I try to shake things up, but that usually happens on cheat day.  Oh and before we go on, today was cheat day. Today I went for a walk with my friend Kristin while her kids were in swim class. Afterwards they were going to lunch. They asked if I wanted to go to Wendy's.  I'm still doing well at my no fast food 2012 thing. It is cheat day, but I was reserving my cheat for later.  So we went to subway.  I got my $5 footlong oven roasted chicken.  I had half for lunch and half for dinner. YEAH!  Tasty and fits the budget. And then it was off to Starbucks. I have my postcard for my free drink.  I have been DYING to try the Salted Caramel Mocha Frappacino. While I was in line I had in my mind "Order it LIGHT! And just get a Grande."  What came out was "Venti!" light. And then I also got the salted caramel cake pop. If I'm going to have a cheat day I'm going to go big!  I've had a rough week. And this was my treat to myself.  Well worth the wait. Can't wait until next week!  But, I will go light and a grande this time.

Okay so I stressed on Thursday.  I had been talking to someone all week who is an emotional trigger for me. At one point on Thursday I jumped up from my desk and ran to the vending machine. I felt like a drug addict looking for a score. The walk over there was like something out of a movie. The noise in the office got fuzzy and my peripheral vision blurred.  The only thing clear was what was right in front of me. I could not get those peanut M&M's out fast enough. I willed myself to make them last, but they were gone within 2 minutes. This is my problem. I cannot savor my treats. How many drug addicts draw out their hits?  No, you go at it immediately for the quick release. *insert sad face* So for the love of God, please don't ever say to me "Just one won't hurt."  You have no idea how much emotion is attached to food for me.

Last night when I was leaving the gym I ran and grabbed a handful of tootsie rolls from the counter. Argh. I need the sugar, but one would be fine.  I don't need the 5 that I took. And then I came home and looked at the sugar-free pudding in my fridge. I love it!  Why isn't it enough to make me happy?

So thank you to Kristin for picking up the Wendy's kids meal and bringing it to Subway. Originally the plan was for me to go to Subway and take it there, but that's so dangerous for me. The smells!  They are triggers.  I did not trust myself with the smell of the fries and burgers. I cannot even guess how many times that I have eaten at Wendy's over the years. It's definitely in the thousands. That dang dollar menu was my salvation. And my downfall.

Seriously, I sat in the booth with my subway while my goddaughter sat across from me with her kids meal. The sweet girl kept offering me some of her fries.  I stayed strong, but I could not stop looking at them. But, I just sat there eating my chicken sandwich dreaming of my Starbucks treats to come.

In an effort to break out of my food rut, I am preparing for my week. I got the goods to make some chicken chili in the crockpot tomorrow. YEAH!  It's delicious and makes my week better.  I won't have it every day, but it's a nice change.

The thing is, I have known for a while that I am not eating enough. I'm not. I would be down to my goal weight if I wasn't working out. I am not eating enough to fuel my workouts. It just means that I'm working harder. So as frustrated as I am at my belly, it's my own fault. But, again I am going at a healthy pace for me.  If I lose it too fast I will stress that I will put it back on just as fast. I'm going slow.  It's frustrating, but I know that I'm getting there.

For the record, I still have not had the candy corn oreos yet....but, if I have another week like this past one I don't know how much longer I can hold out.  Especially since I can't get my usual workouts in because of my foot. ARGH.  Okay deep breaths. I can do this...yes I can!

Have a blessed night my friends.

****Please note****

If you feel like you are alone on your journey and you just need some encouragement I am here for you! Shoot me an email and I will do my best to check in on you or give you the words of support you need several times a week. The journey is so much easier if you have support.

Thursday, September 20, 2012

Exactly how many pounds does the camera add? 10? 20? 50?

Hello Beautiful People,

One more day until the weekend. HOLLA!  It is a seven day weekend right?  That would just about take care of my To-do list.  Alas, I will have to do with only getting a partial amount done.

Alright, so let's talk pictures. I'm hoping to work on my Rock'n'Roll scrapbook this weekend. Between myself and Danielle (2 cameras and a phone) we had about 200 pictures. So you can imagine that it took a bit of time to edit them.  Some pictures were the same just one from each camera.  It was nice to have options to choose from.

Narrowing it down to an acceptable number to print and post took a little while.  For the most part there were a lot of great pictures.  But, as with any person looking there were a whole bunch of "Ewww delete that one.  I look FAT!" ones.  It depended on the angle and the time of day.  The later in the day the more bloated my body was. I was drinking water all along the course and I was sweating.  Although according to my Uncle Tommy he couldn't believe how much I wasn't sweating (it was all happening below the neck...don't you worry). Besides I was carrying it all in my belly.  I looked pregnant in a couple of the shots.

I tried sucking in as much as possible on full body shots, but you can only hold that for so long. And the last thing that I wanted to do was pass out or get lightheaded.

I was really excited about the outfit that I wore. It totally accentuated my arms. And I'll be honest, I'm obsessed with the picture of me eating after the race. It's taken from above and my shoulders look SWEET! My legs look awesome.  I look tiny and cute! I am a little vain about that one.  I seriously can't stop looking at it.

So the top was cut nice. It was good for my arms and a little snug on the belly. That always means I have to go with a looser bottom. The shorts that I wore were a neon yellow mesh. They made my legs look awesome and from the front they were great. But, some shots from the side definitely showed the belly roll. I cried when I saw them.  Some might have watched that and thought I was teary eyed over the day, but that's not the case.  I was teary eyed because I looked horrible.

My new running belt didn't exactly help the situation. It seemed to cut into my protruding belly in some of the pictures. Bah!

Last week at the Turn the Riverfront Pink 5K I asked Severina to take my picture. When I saw her taking a full body shot.  I was horrified and screaming "What are you doing???? Don't you know the rules? From the boobs up woman!!!!"  Now the fact that I actually liked the picture and thought I looked good still didn't mask the "full shot" horror on sunday when I saw Danielle taking the full body shots. It's a good thing I'm wearing sunglasses because you can't see the terror in my eyes.

One day I'm going to be happy with all of my pictures....well a girl can dream can't she?

Alright kids, The Office is coming on in a little bit and I must prepare.

Have a Blessed Night.

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Wednesday, September 19, 2012

Another Random Wednesday

Happy Hump Day Bleeps!

So the good news is that the week is half over!  YEAH!  That's good because I have too many things to do.

Yesterday the East Coast experienced some wild and wacky storms. We lost power at work around 4pm and got to leave early. WOO WOO!  Except that everyone was leaving at the same time and getting out of the parking lot sucked.   My foot was hurting, but I had still planned on heading to the gym for from cycling. But, my apartment complex loses power if a bird flies the wrong way so I figured I needed to get home and take care of dinner and packing my lunch while there was still daylight.  Then the plan was to candlelight if I had to.

The good news is that the power stayed on all night. YEAH!  The bad news is that I was so drained from the day that I turned into a blob in my chair. I couldn't focus. My mind was all over the place. I need to pack for my move. I need to study. I need to read my book for book club.  I want to start my scrapbook. Oh wait look Big Bang Theory is on....let me just watch that. I got one page of studying in and then I called it a night.

I was getting frustrated with myself. I have so much to do, but dang I am so burnt out. I do legitimately have a sore foot. I do need be smart about my workouts, but I'm scared. When I don't get my workouts in I can feel it happening.  I can feel the old lifestyle creeping back in.  First it's making excuses not to go to the gym and then it's running through the drive-thru.

It's extremely frustrating. I had a great weekend. I hate that I have this fear. Will it ever go away?  Most normal people can skip working out for a few days and not worry about.  Most normal people can go out for food. For me it's a constant struggle. But, I guess when you spent as many years as I did embracing my lazy and unhealthy lifestyle I will always be looking over my shoulder.

So today I made sure to study for my full lunch hour. And now I'm on the chapter on Flexibility. YEAH!  Don't forget to stretch people!

Then tonight I stopped at the mall before I hit the gym. I needed to pick up some bananas and another ace bandage. But, I also wanted to go to Subway.  I could use my coupon and get one for dinner and one for lunch. Voila! I didn't have to worry about food once I got home.

I got to the gym and put in 30 minutes on the bike. I got in 11 miles. It felt so good. Perhaps I should have taken it a little slower and tried to get some of my book club reading done, but I was busy watching Sportscenter....besides, I already read the book 5 years ago. haha. I still want to read it again though so I'm going to sign off in a few.  There are just a few things I want to share before I go.

First, I want to give a shout out to my cousin Keeley. She's in her first year in college and left me a voice mail today. Every Wednesday she has an aerobic/weights class.  She loves it and said I'm such an inspiration for her. YEAH!  You go Girl!  Kick that Freshman 15's butt!

Second, I had a voice mail from my dad tonight. He was looking in the newspaper and saw a listing for upcoming 5k's by him.  There's one this Sunday and one in two weeks. I loved this call. I know that I'm a new person, but it's always nice to have some positive reinforcement. Sadly, I cannot make either of these races, but fear not.  I will be back down there soon for one.  Thank you Daddy!!!

Third, I got a card in the mail today. I will never tire of getting cards.  Call me old fashioned, but I love it.  I still try to send one a week to friends.  Anyway, my mom sent me a Proud of You card for Sunday.  It's the little things that make me smile.

Alright kids, I have to at least read one chapter before bed.

Have a Blessed Night.

****Please note****

If you feel like you are alone on your journey and you just need some encouragement I am here for you! Shoot me an email and I will do my best to check in on you or give you the words of support you need several times a week. The journey is so much easier if you have support.

Tuesday, September 18, 2012

2nd Half Marathon is in the Books...Ready for my 3rd!

Hello Beautiful People,

As many of you know, I have been ITCHING for a Rock'n'Roll Marathon ever since I was a cheerleader for cousin Randy at his first Half in DC back in March. If you are looking for a good time these are the races to do.  Music to pump you up. Cheerleaders along the course. Fun! Fun! Fun! I'm telling you right now, I will NOT miss that DC one next year.

So my alarm went off at 4:45am and I shot out of bed like a kid on Christmas morning.  GOOD MORNING WORLD!

Started with some morning prayers, a quick shower, and then it was time to get ready. Got dressed, had some breakfast (bagel with peanut butter and a banana), and drank a bunch of water. Let's GO!

I started to get a little emotional on the way in. SURPRISE. This was it. This is the race that started it all.  It was one year ago that I shared my secret desire to complete a Half Marathon.  I went from being a dreamer to a doer. It's been an awesome year!  I still want that Full Marathon under my belt, but I shall hold off until next year for that...maybe I can train with some clients once I'm certified.  There are many times that I feel the Former Fat Girl trying to come back, but this weekend I could feel her admiration.  I made her dream come true....again.

The ride in was nice and smooth.We hit no traffic and the sunrise over the city was gorgeous.  Luckily I found a great place to park the day before (thank you Wil!) and zipped right in.  We were just a few blocks from the starting area and only $5 a day...woo woo!  On Saturday we parked street level, but on Sunday we ended up on the 5th level of the parking garage...and all I kept thinking was "oh crap I'm going to have to walk up 5 levels after this is over".

Walking to the starting area was relatively relaxing. We met so many people. Lots of them were from out of town. Welcome to Philly!

It was soon obvious that I needed to do something that I really didn't want to do...damn I found a short line and used a porta potty.  Ick.  I didn't get to look for any of my friends that were also racing.  That sucked, but time flew by once we got there. And it's okay. I made new friends. Hi Liz and Julia!

On our way there we passed so many of the race photographers. Your bib number had to be showing for them to take your picture. I was a little disappointed after my first Half that I was not in any of the official pictures. Not this time baby. I had over a dozen. Woo woo!  A little expensive, but I may order one or two. Although let me just say, I do not run pretty.

We found our way towards the Museum steps which is where the finish line is.  Sadly, it's also where my corral was located. Yep, I was starting at the finish line. But, no time to think about that because my peeps were awesome. We were having so much fun back there dancing and getting ready.  My new race peeps were Liz and Julia from New York. We called ourselves Highlighters and a Sharpie (We've already emailed about meeting up next year and moving up a corral or two).  Liz and I both had on neon yellow and Julia was all black.  We were dancing and grooving all of the way to the start line.  But, I kept looking back a the car and sag wagon behind us.  At one point we were the very last people in front of the cars.  Luckily we put some distance in there right before the start.

When it was time for our corral to go we started jogging.  We quickly put hundreds of people behind us.  Sweet!  I should have checked with them about their pace before I started with them.  My plan was to walk then run.  They wanted to run then walk. After the first mile my calves were so tight I had to drop back. I can't just start running. I know this.  My legs are not good if I don't get in a good mile of walking first.  It sucks too because my first mile pace was great.  I'm glad I went back to a walk.  I had wanted to walk the streets of Philly and enjoy that anyway. I figured I would be taking some pictures.  It was a beautiful day. And and I found a bunch of pace people.  There were about 50 of us that kept up with each other taking turns in the lead. I loved all of the matching shirts on people who were walking for a loved one.

So after two miles two things happened. First, I had to pee again.  Second, my foot started to hurt. That blister that I got last weekend reminded me that it hadn't actually gone away.  Plus my stress fracture hasn't completely healed and was making it's presence well known.  I would deal with that after I handled the first issue. I had just passed the porta pottys when I realized that I had to go and I was not turning around.  This would also keep me from running so it was a good thing.

At one point on mile 2 the sag wagon passed us on the side and we had a slight panic.  What the hell?  We were way ahead of the pace it was set for.  So we think it was just heading to a designated spot. 

One of the bands on mile 3 was the Eagles band. They were all wearing Eagles jerseys and singing the fight songs. Very cool.  But even cooler, there were porta pottys right after them.  The first one I went in made me want to vomit. I came running out screaming.  There was crap all over the seat. Literally CRAP.  And i'm not kidding about that. I was ready to go home. I jumped into the next one and it was crap free so I was good. Sorry, but it happened and just added to my extreme dislike of having to use them.  ICK.

So mile 4 had us heading back towards the museum.  It's very depressing to see the winners walking around with their medals on knowing that I still have 9 miles to go. But, that's not the point. The point is to have a great time and finish.  I had picked up my pace and was walking and jogging every mile.  More accurately: walking, taking pictures, then running to make up the time it took to take the picture.

On mile 5 the cheerleaders were the Pink Ladies. I even pulled over and took my picture with them. It took everything I had not to stay and do Grease Lightning with them.  haha. But, I got back on the road and jogged back up to my group.

I was having a hard time deciding when to run. I would be ready to go and then I would get a dry spot on my throat. Saturday's hydration, or lack thereof, was coming back to bite me big time. I couldn't run when I had that spot.  Then there were times that I would be ready to go, but then I would be coming up on a water station. The ground was wet and there were discarded cups everywhere.  Couldn't run til I passed them. So I got in the rhythm of running after each water station.

I loved the signs along the way:"Worst Parade Ever!", "Those shorts make your ass look fast!", "Justin (Bieber) wants you to keep running", "You're still faster than me sitting here", "Only 4.4 miles til Beer time".

So in addition to the dry spot, I has having other dehydration issues. I wasn't pumping my hands as much as I should and they were swelling. I had man hands.  So I would shake them out and walk with them over my head to let the blood flow out of them.

I was keeping my mile pace and getting pretty excited. I was going to finish with a better time than my first one. And I was being good about keeping that pace for the whole race.  I wasn't super fast in the beginning and super slow at the end. I was consistent with my times.  That's what I wanted. I hadn't gotten my full training in and I was worried that I would drop off after mile 8.  I credit my pace to my playlist.  I had fine tuned it over the past two weeks. I took the best songs from each sub list and created a masterpiece. These songs had the fastest beats and each one picked me up.

As I was getting closer to the turn around point at mile 9 I was conflicted. I was happy to turn back and head towards the finish line, but I was also sad. I was enjoying myself and could go all day.  Well except for the blister that was screaming at me all day.

A few things happened on mile 9.  First, my left foot slipped on a discarded up at the water station.  I didn't fall, but it threw me off. Second, Chariots of Fire came on my playlist.  I had added it since cousin Randy had asked if I had it at my first race. Running across that bridge with that song playing was pretty freakin sweet.  Third, I somehow passed my entire group and I was now in with a whole new crowd of people.

From what I gathered, many of these new people had run first and then walked.  This is one of the reasons why I didn't want to do that. My pace drops below my average when I do that. I was passing more people.  I found a few people that seemed to have my pace and we pushed each other.

When I passed the mile 10 marker I started to run.  My plan was to run the last 3 miles if I was feeling up to it. Even with the blister I was ready.  Then something happened.  I had never felt this before. I pulled my achilles tendon. I think it happened when I slipped on the cup. I don't know how to describe it.  Several people asked if I heard a pop.  I had my headphones on so I heard nothing.

This put me back to walking. If it went away I would try running the last mile. On mile 11 there was a shirtless drummer playing for us.  I went over and took his picture.  *raise your hand if you doubted I would*.

So mile 12 comes and you could see everyone start to shift. People were pulling over to stretch for the for the final stretch. Come on kids!  Let's get ready!  We totally picked up the pace and then with hit the final water stop.  That was a mess. And these kids were having too much fun.  They were pouring water all over each other.  The ground was so wet and messy.  But then right past it that road tilting. It wasn't a hill.  It was a tilt. no matter where you were your right foot was lower than your left. My blister was flipping out on me. FLIPPING out. I could feel it pulling and getting bigger every second.

My achilles felt better though so I decided to run after I took a picture of Boat House row...and then the Museum.  I had never been so happy to see it before. I took my pictures and took off. I saw the sign that my friend had made at the expo that was posted on the course close to the finish line *Thank you Danielle*.  And I saw the lady in a wheel chair in the middle of the course.  She was there at mile 4 with her sign "I am a stranger to you, but I'm so proud of you".  She made me cry both times. Thank you!  I passed her and rounded the corner. And up the hill. Who the hell thought it would be funny to include that?  Ha...I didn't stop me!

I see the finish line!  And I see two women carrying their friend across the line. I started to cry watching that. That's what the day is about. All of the love and support is incredible. I bolted across that line and was ready to collapse. My feet were killing me. Blister and stress fracture on the right and pulled achilles on the left.

The good news is that I finished 15 minutes faster than my first Half Marathon. And that was with the injuries, the picture taking, and the traumatic potty break. I am fairly confident that I could knock another 15 off for my next one. 

I put my medal on and went over for some food.  But first I stopped for my finishing picture. I held up my medal, stuck out my tongue, and made my Rock On gesture. The photographer said I was the best all day. Come on people!  ROCK ON!

I got my food and limped over to our appointed meeting area.  I'm happy to report that I was even able to catch the end of the Headliner concert. She was really good.  But, I could not find Danielle. Then I saw my text.  She was handing out medals at the finish line. LOL.  After the race started she volunteered and was handing out medals all day.  Sadly, she somehow missed me crossing the finish line.

I took off my sneakers immediately and surveyed the damage.  It was not good. The blister is at the base of my toe on the bottom of my foot.  It also spread to in between my toes. It's basically the size of my big toe. I waited for Danielle patiently.  Once the sneakers were off they were not going back on and she had my Nike slides to change in to.

It was worth the wait though, because as a volunteer she had access to real food (not just pretzels and fruit). She brought me a chicken taco and a big hug....and a second gatorade. While I was eating, the shirtless drummer came walking by with his dog.  His name is Mike and numbers were exchanged. lol. There were some texts later in the day.  That was a nice bonus.

After a little while we headed towards the car. I contemplated stopping at the medical tent, but I really just wanted to get to the car and head home. I had ice there for my knees (which were the least of my concerns funnily enough).  It was a long long walk (much shorter on the way in haha).

No surprise, we took the elevator up to the car. Before we got on the road we got out the ice and my frozen bottle of gatorade. I iced up and relaxed.  And that's when my achilles started to feel pulled again. Argh. I should have gone to the medical tent just to check it out.

After I iced we got on the road.  I was HUNGRY.  I wanted a Cheeseburger so bad.  Plus, I had gotten the text from cousin Randy to go get one (it's what we did after the first one). The problem is that I didn't feel that I would be up to going back out once I got home and I just felt dirty and wanted a shower. So we decided on stopping at the Five Guys in the parking lot of my gym.  Danielle would go in and get it while I waited in the car.

I practically flew into the shower and then I sat down to eat. It was a damn fine burger!

The next step: feet up! 

It was a great day!  It was fantastic!  I want to thank everyone for all of their support and love.  The texts, facebook messages, emails, and phone calls were awesome.  A special shout out to the Deer Park Elementary fan club haha.

I love how many of you want to do a Half now.  I'm so here for you!  I will do it with you if you want. Just say when! You can do this! In fact, I have 3 people signed up for next year with me. I'm happy to pace them and keep them dancing.

Have a blessed night my friends...

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Monday, September 17, 2012

Prepping for the Half Marathon

Hello My Lovelies and Gents,

Well it's been a wild awesome weekend.  But, it's been awhile and there's lots to catch up on.

Thursday night was the Turn the Riverfront Pink Breast Cancer 5K in Wilmington. My pal Severina had signed up to do it with me.  We were both heading over early to warm up. But, alas I could not find her in the sea of pink until it was time to head to the starting line.

I stayed in one spot hoping to see her and got out my Anatomy app on my phone to do a little studying.  I was getting choked up seeing all of the survivors and those going through chemo with their scarves on their heads. It's a fun night for a serious cause.

Sev and I found each other just as the mass of pink started heading to the start line...well pink and blue. The shirts for the night were blue with pink...haven't figured that out.  Nor the red lipstick and nail polish in our goodie bags. We'll let it go though.

It was a gorgeous night and Ms. Sev was itching to get started. We hadn't done a 5k since that fateful HOT HOT day in July.  You know, the one that made me swear off events in July and August for the rest of my life.  She's been walking and jogging since then and was ready to go.

We had only done 5ks there during the morning.  It's a happening riverfront on Thursday nights. Lots of bars with outside happy hours.  I just wanted to make it a light walk since I had the Half coming up on Sunday, but I said we could run on the boardwalk. Right before we were getting ready to run we saw the was a women only 5k and our cheerleaders were shirtless men with pink bow ties. That was awesome.  And they got cuter closer to the finish line.

So we ran for a little bit, but then we were on the sidewalk soon and my rule is "No Running on the Sidewalk".  It's the worst surface for your knees.  So we were walking.  But, Sev started jogging next to me which made me walk faster. It's all good.

During the last stretch I promised her that I would run.  It wasn't hard as the stretch came with some garbage stench..ick. So we kicked it into high gear and tore off for the finish line. And then right to the food table.

Big shout out to Sev for besting her time. We finished 10 minutes faster than her last one.

It was a lot of fun hanging out and dancing with all of the ladies, but I had to get home and shower. Luckily I had already planned to go to Subway for lunch with FCANR the next day. So I didn't have to worry about packing my lunch.

I'm not sure why I didn't take Friday off. I was so tired from the night before and so pumped for the weekend to come. We decided to go to the mall a little early for lunch and hit the sporting goods store before Subway.  FCANR needed to get a shirt for Sunday's race. And I had a $20 reward certificate to use. When I signed up for the rewards card 5 years ago I just assumed that I would use it on a Phillies shirt or Eagles hat or something. But, the new me used it on some running clothes. I found a cute top and bottom on sale for $10 each.  I even found a top that would match my shorts for Sunday in case I decided not to go with the tank top. The new sports bra that I got is purple and that would show under the white tank top that I would be wearing under the grey tank.  FCANR found his sleeveless shirt and we were off to Subway.

I had the buy one get one free coupons. Mr. Thing eats a footlong subway for lunch so he just got his two 6 inches for lunch.  I got one for lunch and the other for dinner. 1-Turkey, honey mustard, spinach, tomato and cucumber. 2- Grilled chicken, honey mustard, spinach, tomato and cucumber.

As we were walking away he asked me what I got on mine. When I said I had honey mustard he said that he thought it was Ranch and he was ready to give me a bunch of crap for it. haha. Give me credit mister!

Shout out to FCANR who had his fasted 5k time earlier in the week. 

I somehow made it through the rest of the afternoon and soon it was time to head to the gym.  I hit a lot of traffic and got there really late.  I wasn't planning on much since I was super tired and I didn't want to overdo it. So I walked for thirty minutes. Then I went over to the stretching area and stretched for 15 minutes.  Before I left I hit the massage chair for 10 minutes.  Ahhh....

I wanted to go home and just relax, but I wanted to make a quick stop. So I ran to Walmart for a throw away shirt. I was worried about being chilly in the morning if I was wearing a tank top so I needed to grab something that I could wear and throw off (they collect the clothes on the course, clean them, and give them to shelters).

So Saturday rolled around and I had a plan: head in to the Expo to pick up my race packet, Hydrate, Nap, and carb load.  That was the plan.

Sev and her boyfriend wanted to come in to the Expo and then hang out in Philly for the day. Plus my friend Danielle wanted to come in to.  So I would pick her up and then meet them there.  Sounds good.

We got there and picked up my packet and then it was time to shop and hit the vendors.  I found a long sleeve shirt that I fell in love with so I treated myself (future uniform for work :-)  and a pair of socks.  So we're walking around trying to find Severina and it's practically impossible. We came in at different entrances and it's a maze of people and booths...and there's a delay between texts. haha. 

I signed up for Women's Runner magazine. It's full of great tips and recipes.  Plus I got a free Brooks shirt. I was starving and Danielle went over to some yogurt give away while I was signing up. She brought me a pretty large sample of yogurt and granola. YEAH!  It's a start.  Next to the Magazine set up was the Larabar exhibit. Free samples! YEAH!  Then right next to that was an organic cereal table. Free samples. YEAH!  And right next to that was a rice chip table. Free samples. YEAH!

There was a large exhibit for the Rock'n'Roll series. You could sign up for any race around the world and get a discount. If I had the money I would have paid for my DC race next March and next year's Philly. I did get to spin the wheel and win some beads...woo woo...and I didn't even need to show my boobs! Next up was the rock'n'roll picture.  You could dress up like a rock star and get your picture taken. Cute.

And then I found Severina! WOO WOO. They were at a table for a heating pad type thing. Pretty cool, but I have plenty of stuff like that. I saw some shirts and headed over. Lots of cute phrases. I found the new sticker for my car "Will Run for Margaritas".  I also got "You don't have to go fast, you just have to go."  But, the big find there was the running fanny pack that I have been looking for.  I needed something for my phone, keys, ID, and chapstick. Not all of the packs are big enough.  And some are way too big. This was perfect and only $20. YEAH.

On my way back to find everyone I heard "Jennifer Henderson!" When I turned around it was my friend Melissa from high school. What an expected surprise!  We swapped numbers, corral numbers, and took a picture. YEAH!  Loved that.

Soon I was starting to lose it. My sugar was so low and I was way off schedule. I had not had any water in two hours and I was overdo for lunch. You know I can't make decisions when I'm hungry. Right across from the Convention Center is the Reading Terminal.  It's a giant market with lots of places to eat. I can't think when I'm in that environment. I wanted to start carb loading and I couldn't think.  I just wanted food.  I eventually found a Dutch place for french toast and turkey bacon. I inhaled my food. Seriously, I'm not sure I even chewed.

I needed to take Danielle home and then get back to my place. Dinner was cancelled and I needed to get ready. I made a little pasta and started drinking water like there was no tomorrow. I got my outfit ready, packed my bag for the car and put away all of my new finds from the day.

Danielle came over and massaged my calves and feet.  Little tip: if you are going to have a cheerleader, make sure she's a massage therapist :-)  My legs were tight and she wanted to relax me without relieving all of the tension. It was nice.

Now the problem was that when I was laying down for bed I had to pee all night. BAH!  So I only got 4 hours of sleep in before my alarm went off in the morning.

My prepping plan got all thrown off. I'm okay with it. My friends are all motivated for healthy changes. Well worth the sacrifice. 

****Please note****

If you feel like you are alone on your journey and you just need some encouragement I am here for you! Shoot me an email and I will do my best to check in on you or give you the words of support you need several times a week. The journey is so much easier if you have support.

Thursday, September 13, 2012


Hello Beautiful People,

So yesterday the big news broke that McDonalds is going to start listing it's calories on the menu.  And it's getting appauded for this. I'm sitting here scratching my head over this.

Some people are saying that this is brave of them.  That if they list the calories people might stop going.

I would like to think that this is the case. The odds are that that won't really happen. Instead of getting the Big Mac they will just get a chicken wrap...or two.  That's what the Former Fat Girl did. Shoot, up until two years ago that's what she still did.

The reason that I don't think that this is all a postive thing is because Former Fat Girl would have been all over it.  See!  McDonalds IS healthy!  It would have been a pat on the back that she was indeed making good decisions.  The fact that the fat never went anywhere (and in fact seemed to increase) would OBVIOUSLY have been because of some other strange factor.

In addition to listing the calories, McDonalds was all over their "Under 400 Calories" menu.  This made me vomit. They broke down this menu into 4 categories: Under 400, Under 300, Under 200, and Under 100.

Under 400:
Angus Snack wrap
3 piece chicken selects
Medium Fries
Premium Chicken Sandwich Ranch BLT (Grilled)
Sausage McMuffin
Premium Chicken Sandwich Classic (Grilled)
Crispy Chicken Ranch Snack Wrap
Oreo McFlurry (snack size)
Hot Fudge Sundae

Under 300:
Egg McMuffin
Sausage Burrito
Fruit & maple Oatmeal
Premium Southwest Salad (grilled chicken excludes dressing)
Strawberry Sundae
6 piece Chicken McNuggets
Grilled Chicken Ranch Snack Wrap
Strawberry Banana Real Fruit Smoothie (medium)
Apple Pie
Caramel Mocha nonfat milk (medium)
Small Fries
Fruit and Walnuts

Under 200:
Iced Coffee (medium)
Premium Caesar Salad (grilled chicken excludes dressing)
Vanilla Cone
Chocolate chip cookie
Fruit'n'yogurt Parfait
Hash Browns
Chocolate milk - fat free

Under 100:
Milk 1% Low-fat
Latte nonfat milk (small)
Iced Latte nonfat milk (medium)
Side Salad (excludes dressing)
Apple Slices
Diet Soft Drink
Premium Roast Coffee

The idea sounds good, but looking at what's on it is still a problem.  Fried Fish is not healthy.  The Flurry is still over 300 calories in a "snack" size. The salads are "excluding dressing".  Medium fries are still over 300 calories...and who is buying just medium fries? They are generally in addition to something else. 

So there is Calories and there is nutritional values.  Just because something is under 400 calories does not mean that it is healthy. What's the calories from fat?  How much sodium?  How much sugar? How much butter?  What are they frying things in?  Where are the vegetables?  And do not say potatoes count.

Let's repeat: How is anything fried healthy?

I hate the idea that people might go to McDonalds thinking it's a Healthy choice....argh.

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Wednesday, September 12, 2012

Wednesday Randomness

Happy Hump Day Bleeps!

Raise your hand if you have a sweet tooth! *two hands and both feet are up*

So yesterday I read the most glorious thing EVER. Oreo, you know my most favorite of all cookies, is coming out with a special Candy Corn Oreo.  It's coming out Monday in Targets only.

My first response was quite Pavlovian...I drooled. Not kidding.  Second response: my heart started racing.  Then I got pissed. I can't wait until Monday!  COME ON!  And then I got excited. I have Monday off. I can be one of those crazy stalkers and park my chair outside waiting for them to open. Two of my most favorite sweets are getting married!  I really should be there to celebrate.  I mean I am in a Half Marathon the day before...

Argh.  This is how I get myself in trouble.  Could they sell them in packs of 2?  If I buy a whole bag I think we all know that I will have polished it off before noon.  I will start with 2 and walk away.  And then I will talk myself into two more. And before you know it the thought process is: Well if I finish it off today then I can't be tempted tomorrow. Seriously, if I had a nickel for every time I thought that, I would have enough money for my certification exam...Not kidding.

It's easy right now to say that I won't go buy them.  But, goodness only knows what's going to happen. I will have something during the Half and I have a very hard time resisting at that time. Yep, it's coming...I've got two giant pimples to prove it. One is on my neck and driving me crazy.  I was telling Ms. Barb about it and she said "Go ahead and pop it."  But I told her I can't.  It's being mean and won't pop. So we have nicknamed it "The Grinch".

Okay, so you know I don't like to use porta potties. I HATE them.  So yeah, I will have my period and only access to porta potties Sunday....kill me now. I'm going to need to bring baby wipes with me.  I will be too skeeved out.  I'm a little nervous. I'm less bloated and crampy if I eat right and workout.  But, I am keeping saturday open for my day of rest...let's hope the rest of the week is enough to keep it cool.

So tomorrow night is the Turn The Riverfront Pink 5K.  I checked and there are currently 454 women signed up to walk for Breast Cancer. I can't wait. I hope to have some pictures for you.  That is, if I can lift my arms to do that.

I haven't lifted for two weeks so tonight I had planned on an upper body workout. It felt so good that I went at it.  I was on fire. Well okay, let me confess that I'm planning on wearing a tank top for the race and I wanted to make sure I got in a big arms workout...must impress. I became a little obsessed with looking at my triceps.  I kept bending and straightening my arms and looking that the muscle just pop out....I really am blonde. haha.

Today I finally sat down and studied at lunch before my Bible Study.  I was loving it and then I realized that I was only 4 pages away from the end of the chapter right before it was time for my Bible Study. I contemplated skipping and just finishing up, but that was ridiculous. I could finish tonight. And I will because the next chapter is about designing strength programs and I am simply beside myself with joy.  I cannot WAIT to get started on that.

And on that note...

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Tuesday, September 11, 2012

My Top 50

Happy 20,000 Hits Day!

Wow...20,000 hits on the blog in just over a year. I seriously never expected this when I started it last year. I guess this means you like me.  You really really like me!  Lol. Well the feeling is mutual.

To celebrate the day I wanted to do a recap of my favorite tricks that I've used to help me on this journey.  I hope they help.

1. Just get out there and walk. Almost everyone can do that. It's a great start.
2. Plan out your workouts and meals for the week. That includes your cheat day and day(s) of rest.
3. Keep a journal of what you're eating. You may be surprised when you see the calories total.
4. Go ahead and face the scale. It's gonna suck.  It's gonna hurt. But, you have to face it. Besides it makes it all that more exciting when you lose.
5. Drop the soda. Even the diet soda.
6. Hydrate!  Hydrate!  Hydrate!
7. Keep a bag in your car with sneakers, a water bottle, and baby wipes (for the sweat).
8. Chew some sugar-free gum when you feel hungry.
9. If you are going out to eat then check out the menu/nutrition online before you go.
10. Go out to lunch for a nice salad when it's pizza day at work.
11. Invest in a good pair of sneakers.
12. Get your workouts in early on the weekend. Less chance to put it off.
13. Make your list for the grocery store. Stick to the outside aisles.  Remember: If you buy it, you will eat it. And to the "candy-free" check out aisles.
14. Keep a protein bar in your bag in case you are hungry.
15. No eating meals in the car!  If you can get it through a drive-thru then you can't get it.
16. Pack healthy snacks for traveling. Put the temptations in the trunk.
17. Update your playlists frequently. If it doesn't make you move then take it off.
18. Get on treadmills around people that have a faster pace than you.  They may push you to go a little faster.
19. Invite a friend to workout with you. Chances are someone you know really wants to, but they just need that extra nudge.
20. Reward yourself with small presents (not food related) when you reach milestones. CDs. Earrings. Shoes.
21. Do not sit down when you get home. Start your dinner and pack your lunch before you rest. It's harder to get back up when you sit.
22. Cook extra for the next night so that you don't have to worry about dinner every night.
23. Park far away from the mall. The extra walking will be good for you.  And take extra trips to the car during holiday time.
24. Sugar-free is good!  If there is a sugar-free option then take it. When you purge your system of sugar you crave it less.
25. Put down the People and Us Weekly.  Pick up a Shape or Fitness.
26. Look at your naked self.
27. Wear clothes with a waist. It will help you realize when you are full and you will notice the weight gain.
28. Exercise on commercials: crunches, bicep curls, jumping jacks.
29. Offer to bring the salad when going to a dinner party.
30. Leave the office when it's potluck time.
31. Salads are good, but be careful when eating them in restaurants. Just because the fried chicken is in a salad does not make it good for you.
32. Do NOT forget to stretch after a workout. Cannot stress this enough.
33. Get your sleep. Your body needs it more than you know.
34. Ladies: Get a GOOOOOOD sports bra.  Strap those puppies down!  It will make your workout so much easier.
35. Keep a journal of your workouts. Be detailed. That way you can check your progress.
36. Sign up for an event.  It will give you a motivation.
37. Find the workout for you. I LOVE weights and yoga. But, you may love water aerobics, cycling, tai chi, zumba, or hiking.
38. If you need to have an alcoholic beverage...make it a skinny or a light (Shout out to Skinny Margaritas!)
39. Get a pedometer. Lots of people think they walk a lot more than they actually do.
40. Get a step and use it during your favorite show.
41. Make sure you have a rainy day alternative (walk at the mall, dvd workout, gym).
42. If you go to the mall for a walk leave your wallet at home. No time to stop and shop.
43. Walk the upper levels of the mall (less kiosks with people trying to stop you to try out whatever they are sellng).
44. Veggies Veggies Veggies!  Make sure to eat your greens.
45. Don't push it when you are sick or injured.  You don't want to get sicker or more hurt.
46. Don't skip breakfast. And pop tarts do NOT count. 
47. Buy nice workout clothes. They will make you feel better.
48. If your hair is long, pull it up.
49. Don't wear dark clothes if you are working out outside (it draws the heat).
50. Keep reading my blog :-)

Have a Blessed Evening.

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Monday, September 10, 2012

Calgon Take Me Away

Hello my Lovelies and Gents,

I'm just going to get right down to it.  Today was one of those days when I felt like my brain was melting. Ever have one of them?  Everything just felt like it was caving in on me.

I'm plain old stressed. I'm trying to get everything in.  Work. Gym. Blog. Study. Travel. Family. Friends. Packing.  Oh yeah, I'm moving.  I'm mostly really excited about it, but it's not exactly the best timing for me.  I would really like for it to be after I get certified. Instead I feel like I'm just short of certifiable right now.

As if my life wasn't busy enough I am packing one bin/box/bag per night.   I'm trying to make this as smooth as possible. It's a good thing, but it's a stressful thing.  I'm moving about an hour away.  That means my bad commute is about to get even worse.  It means I have to switch gyms and most likely churches. It's a lot of change. And for someone who needs routine and structure, it's freaking me out. I've moved plenty of times. But, I've never been this close to my goal before.

This weekend I was talking with my future roomie and I finally let out all of my fears.  What if I can't find my routine? What if I start to gain the weight?  The extra commute is not exactly helpful. I'm going to need to be extra efficient on sundays with my meal planning. I am most definitely going to need to add that second day of rest just for my sanity. I'm also going to need to cut back on the blog a little for the next couple of months. And that scares me. It's how I hold myself accountable. I try to give myself 1 day off a week and I know the last couple of weekends have been blog-free, but that's not usual.  I"m going to need to add another day off.  Five a week should be fine I suppose.

Tonight I felt like I was buried under my to do list. And even though yesterday was my day of rest, I had to make today one too.  Besides, pizza night got moved to tonight because of the holiday last week. Up until I was two miles from the gym I was still planning to go.  Then I thought of that pizza and my stress and I did not trust myself.  So instead I pulled over and did my quick grocery shopping that I desperately needed to do this week.

It's sort of a miracle that I didn't fill my cart with chocolate. Instead, I treated myself to another new sports bra...I know right!  It's so exciting.  I tried to run a few more errands, but they were failed missions so I'll have to scatter them throughout the week.

Tonight my goal was to get some packing done and give myself a mani/pedi.  I needed some relaxation time.  I needed some deep breathing.  I needed some ME time.

I didn't get to study like I wanted last night.  I'm getting aggravated with myself.  I WANT this so bad, but I seem to find reasons not to study at every corner. I mean I haven't exactly figured out how I'm paying for this exam yet, so I suppose there's no hurry, but I want to be ready!  I want to help people!  That's a whole different stress...getting started. But, I'll deal with that later. One thing at a time.

So Fitness Competition Arch Nemesis Ryan (FCANR) and I were talking about the Half Marathon coming up on Sunday.  We were putting together our training schedules for the week. We also compared corrals and Mr. Thing will probably be home on the couch before I cross the finish line. That's okay though. My knee got busted up last week and my blister is still really bothering me. I'm not even going to try and run.  I thought about it long and hard on Saturday.  I don't really get into Philly that often, so I'm going to just kick back and relax and enjoy my walking tour.  I am even going to try and take pictures with my phone. It's one thing I wish I had done for the last one.  I'm not competing with anyone. I'm not competing with myself.  I just want to enjoy the day.  Hopefully I can just clear my mind and enjoy the moment. That's what it's all about. It's a 13 mile party. I just want to have some fun with it.

I had people that were going to run with me, but I'm on my own.  I may be on my own driving in and driving out so I really do need to keep it to a walk.  I need to be able to walk back to my car after. I have Monday off and I'm planning on going back to that new Pedicure place and letting them have at it massaging my legs...and then I can study.

Okay, my feet are requiring my attention so I'm going to sign off and pretty them up. I'm going to with pink since Heather and I are doing the Turn The Riverfront Pink Breast Cancer 5K in Wilmington on Thursday night...oh I got myself a pretty neon pink shirt just for the occasion...and now my nails need to match.

Have a blessed night.

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Sunday, September 9, 2012

Get out the Tums. It's going to be a long night.

Happy Football Season! WOO WOO

I hope you all had a wonderful weekend. I went down to my dad's to hang with Grandmom for the weekend. So lots to talk about.

No surprise, but I got stuck in a bunch of rush hour traffic leaving the office on Friday.  So my 3 hour ride got significantly longer. I stopped around 7pm to pick up a few things for the weekend (protein bars and crystal light packets).  The plan was to go to the Subway around the corner for dinner, but I was really tired and just wanted to get back on the road. There was a Dunkin Donuts there and I thought I would check. They still had an eggwhite and turkey sausage flatbread sandwich.  It's not my ideal dinner (where are the veggies???), but it worked in a pinch.

I'm not gonna lie.  I don't think I will ever get tired of hearing the S word.  As soon as I walked in the door my dad said "Look who's here.  It's Skinny!"  YEAH.  I heart my daddy.

My plan was to get up and head out for a 12 mile walk at 7am.  Well that was the plan.  When my alarm went off at 6am I heard the rain and thunder. Back to sleep for me. I had another internal battle. My body wanted to sleep, but my brain wanted me up and started.  That resulted in a three hour Snooze button fest. bah!

By the time I got up and out it was 9:30.  I wanted an outside walk to condition my body for the asphalt and humidity. I got 45 minutes in and then it started to pour.  Luckily I was right next to the Fitness Center so I ran in.  I was a big giant sweaty mess.  Did I mention that it was humid?  By the time I got on the treadmill I could barely see outside of the window.  It was a sheet of water.  Okay, looks like I'm finishing my day in the fitness center.

Since I slept in so much I couldn't get my full 12 miles in.  I needed to get back to hang with Grandmom while Dad ran out for a bit. But, I did get 8 miles in. I was feeling good. I was also feeling the beginning of a blister on the bottom of my foot.  BAH!  I can no longer say that I am Blister Free in 2012.  Oh well, it's been about ten months so that's a fairly good run.

After my shower I brought my bag down to study. But, we know the rule. I can study before a long training session, but I can't study after.  I'm just tired.  Saturday was so humid it took a lot out of me.  I also hadn't had the breakfast and water I needed before I got started since I snoozed so much.  So instead, I just did my nails and hung with grandmom...watching the Food Channel.

I can only handle it for an hour or two depending on the show.  We watched Cupcake Wars.  My initial reaction: Kill me now.  Then I saw what the theme was.  They were making cupcakes for the America's they had to used sea related items in their challenge.  Cupcakes made out of fish, seaweed, and Oysters are pretty much enough to turn me off of cupcakes for the rest of my life.  So we watched (in horror) the full episode.

The next show that came on was a show reality show about food trucks. Teams compete with each other in different cities and challenges.  Whoever makes the most money is the winner each week.  Whoever makes the least goes home.  This one was a little harder to watch.  Meatballs. Burgers. Tacos. Pizza. Waffles. It was a lot to take in.

I was about to call it a day with that channel and then Restaurant Impossible came on.  I have heard about this, but never watched it. This guy comes in and looks into why a restaurant is failing: food, staff, decor...then he attempts to fix it. It was interesting. But, since it wasn't centered around making the food I could handle it.

Except that dinner was cooking during this.  My pal Heather had come down and we were joking that the television had smellovision. The neighbors were coming over and we were having meatloaf, mashed potatoes, green beans, salad, and a little extras from the night before. I had one serving and was done.  The former fat girl would have gone back and polished off those mashed potatoes. But, I'm happy to report my extreme restraint.  I sat at the table and waited for my belly to catch up.  It only took about 5 minutes and I'm glad I waited it out.  To many times in the past I would have gotten up for seconds immediately and then feel sick before I was even done eating.  Not that it would have stopped me from eating.

So today is NFL of the greatest days of the year. The Eagles game was not on the local TV channel so we had to make alternative plans. Normally we would go to our favorite sports bar on the Bay, Harpoon Hannah's.  However, we had grandmom with us and it was extremely crowded.  So we went Italian instead. We went to an Italian restaurant, Mio Fratello's, and sat in the bar area. They had an all you can eat buffett, but that's just not going to happen again in my lifetime. So we got menus. It was a little odd to be ordering italian food for football.  There should be a burger, hoagie or pizza in front of me.

I was looking all over the menu, but my eyes kept coming back to one item in the appetizers: The stuffed eggplant (Lightly breaded with prosciutto, asparagus, and ricotta cheese, topped with mozzarella and a hint of marinara sauce).  I asked about the serving size and it could be a meal. Now let me say, that I had only had a banana and protein bar for breakfast and it was now past my usual lunch time.  I was HUNGRY!  And all I could smell was the sauce...mmm....gimme!  So that's what I ordered.

It was delicious.  I love all things eggplant. And I practically licked my plate clean.  Daddy asked if I wanted to get another one to take home for dinner. The quickest internal debate ever happened. My brain was starting to say No, but my belly bitch slapped it and yelled "YES PLEASE!".  There are many things wrong with this scenario.  First, I may never get to sleep tonight because of the marinara heartburn I am experiencing). Second, I don't even want to think about the calories. Third, I had a three hour car ride ahead of me in the car is going to smell like this for days now.   But, it was worth it.  It was even better for dinner. 

Don't worry, as soon as I finished I packed my lunch for tomorrow and even pulled out some turkey burgers to defrost.  I will cook them for my next couple of dinners. My cheat time is over.

I had brought my bathing suit down hoping for some pool time, but everyone on the east coast knows how yesterday's weather went. Ick.  So when I was leaving today naturally it was nice and sunny. I decided to make a pit stop at the ocean for a few moments.  Just breathing it in relaxes me. And I'm happy to report that I passed on the boardwalk fries and ice cream. The smells were assaulting me as I walked to the beach.  I was still full from lunch though so it was easy to walk away.

Alright kids, It's almost half time and I NEED to get some studying done.  It just didn't happen this weekend so now I'm really behind.

Have a Blessed Night.

Oh and PS: Happy Birthday Mommie!

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Thursday, September 6, 2012

Rockin New Playlist Time!

Happy Thursday Bleeps!

Well the Rock'N'Roll Half is 10 days away.  It's time to freshen up that playlist!  This month we are going with my Rock Playlist.

Hard to Handle - Black Crowes
Go That Far - Brett Michaels
Rock You Like a Hurricane - Def Leopard
Pour Some Sugar on Me - Def Leopard
Welcome to the Jungle - Guns N Roses
Been Caught Stealing - Jane's Addiction
Bawitdaba - Kid Rock
Kiss Me Deadly - Lita Ford
Enter Sandman - Metallica
I Melt With You - Modern English
Nothin' But a Good Time - Poison
I Want Action - Poison
Talk Dirty To Me - Poison
Unskinny Bop - Poison
Rock & Roll All Nite - Poison
Mony Mony - Billy Idol
Panama - Van Halen
Unbelievable - EMF
You Shook Me All Night Long
Crazy Train - Ozzy Osbourne
Come on Feel the Noise - Twisted Sister
I Wanna Rock - Twisted Sister

And as always, here are the songs that were sent to me as the hottest new Workout Songs.  And you know that I've added a couple already:

Nicki Minaj - Pound the Alarm - 125 BPM
Chris Brown - Don't Wake Me Up - 128 BPM
Carrie Underwood - Blown Away - 138 BPM
Outasight - Now or Never - 126 BPM
Rihanna - Where Have You Been (Vice Club Mix) - 127 BPM
Train - 50 Ways to Say Goodbye - 139 BPM
Karmin - Brokenhearted (Razor N Guido Remix) - 128 BPM
Havana Brown & Pitbull - We Run the Night - 136 BPM
David Guetta & Usher - Without You (R3HAB's XS Remix) - 128 BPM
Ellie Goulding - Lights (MK Charlee Dub) - 125 BPM

To find more workout songs, folks can check out the free database at Visitors can browse the song selections there by genre, tempo, and era—to find the music that best fits with their particular workout routine.

Alright kids, I have to pack. Heading down to Dad's for the weekend...PLEASE SUN COME OUT AND LET ME HAVE A NICE BEACH WEEKEND!

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If you feel like you are alone on your journey and you just need some encouragement I am here for you! Shoot me an email and I will do my best to check in on you or give you the words of support you need several times a week. The journey is so much easier if you have support.

Wednesday, September 5, 2012

Where did the summer go????


Happy Hump Day Bleeps!  Although technically we had a holiday so...Happy Only Two Days Left Until The Weekend Day!

So let's just put it out there. Today was CRAPPY. I walked in to work to find Ms. Kerri's computer imploding. It pretty much decided to stop working today. The good news is that's what back ups are for. Unfortunately, I am her back up and the beginning of the month is my busiest part of the month. Bah.  We made it through the day though. And I took some aggression out at the gym.

Ahhh...the gym!  I hate that it had been so long since I had been there.  I had last Friday as a travel day. Saturday I was only there for 45 minutes and I had to force myself into it. Sunday I didn't hit the gym, but I was moving a lot with the organizing.  Monday I had planned on going when I got home, but I got a late start on the road and the gym was closing early. Tuesday was one of my Fantasy Football drafts.  Things come up, but I was aching to get back.

I know me.  I know how easy it is to talk myself out of working out and eating right. Seriously, it's not that hard. Once I get in the habit of not going it makes it that much easier to talk myself out of it later.

But, the Rock'n'Roll half is next Sunday and I am way behind in my training. WAY!  Where the heck did the summer go?  How did I lose this training time?  Now don't get me wrong, I have been training some, but not nearly as much as I did for my first half. Is it because I know I can do it?  Is it because I was in denial about how close it was? Is it because I couldn't give up my weights?  Who knows.  But, it's almost upon us and goodness only knows how I will do.

I HAD to go to the gym tonight. I had no choice. Friday is another travel day. So that's today and tomorrow at the gym. BAH!  Not enough. My plan is to go for a long distance on Saturday, but who knows what will happen.  My back up plan is to take next Tuesday off for a training day.  

I know I will finish.  I do.  But, I have done more leg weights this year. I haven't necessarily put in the cardio time needed. I had hoped to shave 30 minutes off of my time. I'll be happy to shave 15 at this point.  And here's my incentive. Today we got the email about the time limit. There is a four hour time limit and there will be a vehicle bringing up the rear. If you drop off pace they will drive you to the 4 hour pace.  There is NO WAY I should be even close to that...unless I run too much and hurt my knee. That could drop my walking pace considerably.  I really should be way ahead of that vehicle, but now I'm worried.  I had a monster charlie horse (calf cramp) last night and my foot has been hurting since my run tonight.  Think anyone will notice if I do it in roller skates?

I had hoped to put in 7 miles tonight, but I stopped at 6.5.  Time wise I had to get out of there. I had a lot to do when I got home. Tomorrow night I should do a weights night, but I think I will just go cardio again.  Instead of distance I will focus on incline...I love how it makes my butt feel.  haha.

So let's go back to my non-gym weekend. Monday night when I got home there was no parking out front.  I was forced to park behind the apartment. No biggie. Except that my car was loaded and there was a knocked down tree on the walkway.  So I could either walk the long way around the building or take the short way and take the stairs.  My initial thought was "What can stay in the car until tomorrow?"  But, after two trips I decided to make it my workout.  I took the long way for some and the stairs for others. It took thirty minutes and I was sweating when I was done.  My heart rate was up and I had been lifting.  So that counts :-)

Before I go, I want to recommend a book for you beginners. Right now I am reading Claire Cook's The Wildwater Walking Club.  It's cute and light. These three strangers start walking together.  They give each other incentives and the support that each other needs.  It's sweet and has a lot of good ideas (adding up the miles they walk and taking a trip as far as those miles).

Oh I almost forgot. You'll be happy to know that I finally got a new sports bra. *The clouds part, the sun comes out, and the people shout "AMEN!"*

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Tuesday, September 4, 2012

Back to School

Hello Beautiful People,

It's back to school time. Do you remember that Staples commercial with the parents riding on the shopping carts dancing and happily putting items in the cart?  The kids are standing there with a sad look on their faces and "It's the most wonderful time of the year" is playing.  haha  I just loved that commercial.

Anyway,  I've been planning on writing this post for a while, but I figured that I would wait until it was timely.  Two of my cousins started college a couple of weeks ago.  I was so excited for them. It's such a fun time. I loved my time at Syracuse University. LOVED it.

But, if I were to choose a school today would I go back?  I'm not so sure. It has nothing to do with the school at all.  Not at all. It's a wonderful institution.  It's everything I could want...and if it were in a warmer place there would be no hesitation.

When I was looking at colleges I had three criteria: 1- an academic program that was stellar 2- An athletic program that I could follow no matter where I lived in the country 3- someplace cold.

That third one sounds odd right?  Well, I did not want to be on a campus with girls walking around in tight shorts and tank tops. Give me oversized sweatshirts and I was happy.  I cringed at the thought of going somewhere in Florida or the Carolinas.  If I could have gone to Alaska I might have done that.

This makes me so sad for so many reasons.  The first, I was not as heavy as I thought I was. Not even close to the image I had in my head.  The second, I didn't foresee a future where I would be active and could lose the weight.  The third, I actually created a situation where I could gain more weight happily.

Remember, the big bulky sweatshirts could "hide" the fat...but they also made it easier to ignore the weight gain.  Wearing clothes two sizes too big is a bad bad idea.  I justified it by wearing turtlenecks under them.  Because you know how big and bulky they can get. Argh. The turtlenecks also helped "cover up" the neck as it got fatter.

If I were to pick a school today, it would be the opposite.  I would want someplace warm.  Tank tops are just fine now. Take a look at my arms!  I'm not shy.  They are nice and muscular. Shorts?  Heck yeah, I got some killer legs.

Since I lost the weight I get colder faster. I have lost that protective layer of fat I had back then. I don't know that I could survive another Syracuse Winter. And frankly, the eating would kill me. When the snow is up to your waist for 6 months of the year, it's a little hard to be active outside. And so I would eat. And eat. And eat.

If I were to pick a school today I would look for a place with hiking trails and workout facilities.  Now Syracuse had them. In fact, there was a gym in the basement of one of the residence halls that I lived in. It was free. And I can count on one finger the number of times I went there. One (if you missed that). Argh.  Time wasted I tell you.

I don't regret my decision to go to Syracuse at all, but I am terribly ashamed that the "cold" was a reason why I looked at it in the first place.

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Monday, September 3, 2012

Eating out all was stressful

Happy Labor Day Bleeps!

Did you labor today?  I sure as heck did. Sorry that I've been M.I.A. this weekend, but it's been a busy one.  Let me tell you about it :-)

Next weekend is my mom's birthday.  I usually go down to visit her, but I'm going to the beach instead to visit with my grandmom at my dad's place.  So I decided to take some extra time and head down to mom's this weekend. The plan was to help clean out the storage closet (we had an anti-freeze spill in there when we were looking for photos two weeks ago), get some pool time in, and study. Ha.  That was the plan anyway.

I left work at noon on Friday and got on the road. She lives just outside of D.C. so it's always a fun drive. I figured that I would get stuck in traffic and I was right.  So I had packed my lunch and ate before I got on the road.  Not falling for the fast food temptation on the ride. I packed my protein bar as a snack in case I got hungry. 

When I got down there I was asked "Do you want to come see my classroom and then we'll go out to dinner?"  Sure.  Ha.  I know better.  Two hours later (after I stapled a bunch of things and got roped into hanging some posters) I was chomping at the bit.  I was hungry!  I ate my protein bar and that soothed the savage beast a little.

We decided to go to Applebees.  And this time I was determined to stick to the 550 and under menu.  Bah!  I hate going out to eat when I'm so hungry.  Everything looks good. I flipped all over the place.  I had the calories to spare.  I COULD get something else.  I used my calories on the appetizer.  We love the spinach and artichoke dip.  I would bathe in it if you let me.  So I had to stick to the 550 menu.  I ordered the Sizzlin' Chili Lime Chicken. It comes with veggies and rice. It was very good. I still left wanting a cheeseburger, but I was happy with my meal.

Saturday morning I had my cheerios and then headed over to the fitness center.  My time was short because I needed to be somewhere soon.  But, 45 minutes was better than nothing. My plans for the morning got off pace and I actually could have stayed later, but that's okay, I had a long day ahead of me.

We had some errands to run and it was lunch time. One of my favorite places is over by two of the stores that we were going to...Red, Hot, and Blues. If you are in the D.C. area and like your BBQ then this is a place to go. I love love LOVE their pulled pork sandwich.  And the potato salad is to die for.  The portion is small, but sooo good. My big splurge for the day was my sweet tea.  But, it was my cheat day. And I would do it again...oh I heart this food!

We ran our errands.  We went to Target, the used book store, Barnes and Noble (because the used book store did not have a specific book I was looking for), Office Depot (where I saw Tony Stewart...well a likeness anyway. Tony Stewart CALL ME), and then Michael's Craft store. We were sitting in the car trying to figure out where to go for dinner and it was painful.  Once again we were hungry and that makes it hard to make a healthy choice.   We chose Tropical Smoothie for some Thai wraps.  It's a light meal and it's good. AND you can have a banana for a side instead of french fries.  I totally did not trust myself for this meal.

When we got home we got down to work. In four hours we pulled everything out of the storage closet and had a pile of trash to fill two cars outside of the door.  We organized. We cleaned. We kicked butt. Now give me an aleve because I am tired.

Sunday after church we asked Mom-Mom if she wanted to go out to dinner. Her favorite is Panera. So of course we went.  Now the wild card for the day is that we were going to go out for dinner to celebrate mom's birthday.  But, we still had not decided where to go. So I had to be good.  I got the pick two and had the Mediterranean sandwich and the tomato soup...yum.  Mom-mom really wanted to go to Sweetwater for dinner (steak and seafood). Okay, it's done.

We cleaned and organized some more before we went to dinner and I was starving by the time we got there. Bah. This is a nice restaurant.  They do not have a "light" menu.  This would be on me to get it right. I'm allergic to seafood so that knocks out half of the menu.  Some of the chickens I saw were cooked in a butter sauce.  Next. I opted for the chicken fajitas. They are south beach friendly and I have control over what I put in it as I build. I didn't put in all of the rice and sour cream.  I kept it to chicken, salsa, onions, and a little guacamole. YUM.  Now in full disclosure, I caved and had a frozen prickly pear margarita...but, OH it was good and I worked my butt off all weekend.

So this morning we were supposed to meet a friend for breakfast and it turned into lunch instead.  But, we kept the original destination: IHOP (International House of Pancakes). First thought: Yippy!  Second thought: Crap.

I was hungry when we got our menus and my eyes were all over the place. Oh an omlet sounds good. Red Velvet pancakes?  You had me at Red. No, I saw the Simple & Fit Whole Wheat French toast combo.  It comes with egg substitute and turkey bacon. So I put my finger on it and stopped looking.  I was happy to find this, but for the owners of IHOP might I suggest having a Simple & Fit section in the menu, not having the items mixed in with everything else?

It was a busy weekend.  I haven't eaten out this much in ages.  But, we were busy and we had plans.  It happens.  You can't always control it.  And you know how much I plan ahead.  Heck, it wasn't too long ago that I was eating every meal out on weekends.  And they were NOT healthy choices back then.

I indulged a little, but I also was able to make some pretty good choices.  Everything was delicious and the only time I felt sick was right after the Chicken Fajitas...but that was nothing a little tums couldn't help.

I'm proud of myself all things considered. And now it's time to get back on schedule.  I had my kashi dinner and my lunch is packed for tomorrow. Go me! 

Sadly, the sun only came out after I waited and waited and waited and finally went out for the errands.  And I did not get to this is my time to sign off and get studying.

Have a Blessed Night.

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