Wednesday, July 31, 2013

Random Wednesday: Happy Hour, Shark Week, and Pancakes

Hello Beautiful People,

Okay, all sorts of randomness today...good thing it's Wednesday!

Tomorrow is Boot Camp, but alas it is also Happy Hour. Normally I would skip, but we have been postponing it for weeks and this was finally a date good for 99% of the people and since I am organizing it I really should go. This date was picked before Boot Camp got extended or else I never would have agreed. *insert sad face*

The location has yet to be determined. It has been narrowed down to 3 spots: Plaza Azteca (Margaritas and guacamole), Fox & Hound (good Sangria), and Rock Bottom (home of the ballpark pretzel that makes me weep with joy). Oddly, I am secretly hoping for Fox & Hound because the calorie intake at the others may kill me.

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My neck has been a little sore for the past week. I think it's a strained muscle, although I don't know from what. I didn't pull it that I know of. It's concentrated on the left side so I am hitting it with a heating pad and massager as well as neck stretches. But, I'm not good with these things. Seriously, when I was studying about injuries and illnesses I was constantly like "Oh maybe I have that...on no, I could have that.."  Well this sore neck is now "Oh what if it's meningitis?" Which it is not, but I think it's funny how I can go from Zero to Meningitis and skip over strained muscle.

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So next week is Shark Week!  What are the chances that the gym will change the tv channel for that?  I can think of some awesome cross promotions!  "Run for your life! SHARK!" or "Get strong enough to beat up a Shark!" or "Easiest way to avoid a Shark attack: Stay inside at the gym."

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This morning was Breakfast Club. Last night was a long fast run for me. I knew I was going to be hungry. I was looking forward to a bagel. This morning was not bagels. I thought I died and went to heaven: scrambled eggs, mini pancakes, hash browns, and turkey sausage.

I heart pancakes!

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I have been keeping my hula hoop in my car. I have hopes of getting it at lunch and hooping in the parking lot or showing it to Gym Buddy Lisa after our workouts. Haha I can just see me hooping in the gym parking lot. If there was room in the gym I would take it in there. haha.

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I love wearing anklets. I have a pretty silver change with three linked hearts. It's pretty and dainty. It's also how I keep a check on my legs and feet. In the beginning of the day I can easily slip 2 fingers between the chain and my ankle. Midway through he day I can get one finger. After the gym no fingers.  So if that changes I know I am way short on water for the day. So I drink water and elevate my feet.

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This week while I was listening to ESPN Radio there was discussion regarding a bad call at home plate which led to the inevitable topic of instant replay. I won't get into that discussion right now, but one thing that was brought up was that Fenway still has the seats from when it was built in the early 1900's...back when the general population weighed much less. That could inspire a full post.

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You may have seen this week that Tony Stewart was in an accident during a sprint car race Monday night. His little car flipped 5 times. And this was a tiny cart lacking the safety equipment that his NASCAR cars have.

The good news is that he is okay. YEAH!

This weekend they are racing at Pocono. It is a study weekend and I will not be attending, but if Tony Stewart were to call and invite me to watch the race..well I would be there in a heartbeat!  Tony Stewart CALL ME!

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I have not been sitting on the Exercise ball at work for a while. Will all of my running it is killing my knees. When I am on it they just lock and stiffen up.  I miss it. It still sits by me and it's always fun to see people pull it up to a desk to sit with someone instead of a chair.

Today Mr. Mike sat on it. Dude is tall. He needs a large one. It's like Goldilocks finding the right fit. It's a medium and too big for me. He looks like an adult sitting at a little kids school desk.  'A' for effort Mr. Mike!

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Last night was a big run. Tonight was a light walk, lots of stretching, and a water pressure massage. Thinking of stopping for another one after Happy Hour tomorrow night. Is that allowed?

Have a Blessed Night.


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Tuesday, July 30, 2013

Saturday Recap: Family Celebration

Hello my Lovelies and Gents,

Saturday was a GLORIOUS day. My family was getting together to celebrate the end of Chemo for my cousin Janice. HOLLA!  She still has a major heart surgery to get through, but when one finishes chemo that is a time to get together and be thankful.

I was excited to get dressed for the party because I was planning on wearing my cute little navy blue with white polka dot skirt. It's a little short and flares out. I can't really wear it to work and usually on weekends I'm going pretty casual so I finally had a reason to wear it. YEAH!  I paired it with a form fitting navy blue scoop neck t-shirt. It was my first time wearing it and it felt a little big...hmmm...

I started my day with a selfie mani/pedi. OMG my feet needed it...it was gross how much I scraped off.  Since I was going with the Blue and white skirt I opted for my lollipop red nail polish...feeling a little flirty..although going to a family party so I'm not sure why I did that.

Since we weren't going to be eating for a little while I went to Starbucks for my iced unsweetened green tea and a sandwich. I paid separately and got two treat receipts. Holla!  And then I realized that I was tired so I got a mocha light frap (130 calories) and another treat receipt. haha...Um...I think I probably shouldn't use them.

So the plan was to study in the car on the way over. I was doing it and then 20 minutes into the ride the inevitable happened. "Mom, I have to use the bathroom." There was a pause and then the response "I'm glad you are so good with your Hydration."  And so we stopped for a potty break. woo woo. I studied over to Jersey and then I had to play navigator.

So when we got to the party and the first thing I noticed was the burgers on the grill...I could smell them...mmm..I walked inside and saw the fruit platter and the pasta salads...I was a little happy.

When it was time for me to eat I went with Portion Control as my theme. One burger, one scoop of potato salad, one half of a deviled egg, and two scoops of the macaroni salad (olive oil and tomatoes). My drink of choice was a water.  A little while later my belly was feeling it so I cracked open a sprite to make me burp. I wish it was a bottle, because I only drank a little of the can.

A little while later I was inside looking for drinks and the ice bucket only had soda in it. So I tried leaning over it to get some bottles of water. My very tall cousin had done it. Well umm...I knocked it over. Water and ice everywhere. It's not a party until I make a mess.

So the funny part of the party was my attempt to take a picture with my cousin Alyssa. The backstory here is that we are both pretty photogenic girls, but when we try to take a picture together it's just a disaster. Seriously, this has been going on for YEARS. She was a model and I am the queen of selfies. This should NOT be this hard. After a few failed attempts we resorted to props and silly faces.



My Uncle Barney was at the party and I hadn't seen him in a while. He was down in NC for a few weeks on a job last month. LUCKY!!!!!  And he happened to mention that he brought back some BBQ...Um...HELLO! Actually the story started with Donnie Wahlberg and moved to BBQ.  He has a ton of it in the freezer. My mouth watered on demand. Honestly, I have been thinking about it every day since he mentioned it. I was invited to come over and enjoy some...now I just have to figure out when....mmm BBQ *Cue Drool*

Soon it was time for his family to head out and when my Aunt Sarah was saying goodbye she commented that she still reads the blog all of the time and that it had been a few days. Ooops. Sorry about that. It was a laptop free 3 days...that felt good though.

Okay so there was also a veggie tray that came out later and so I was hitting that up pretty good...that and the pepperoni/cheese tray. But, I was not allowed to hit that tray unless I got a bunch of veggies in.

In the Dining Room was the dessert table...umm...little brownie bites, vanilla cupcakes with the most frosting I have ever seen, Angel food cake, pineapple upside down cake...I felt dizzy.  I hit up a couple of the brownie bites and could not resist a cupcake. I have no shame. When we were cleaning up I dove in for a slice of Angel Food. I can't help it. Grandmom made it and she makes the BEST cake. Ugh...belly hurts.

At some point in the night someone found the giant bag of tootsie rolls.  My family went CRAZY. It was hilarious. It was like liquid gold. People were coming out of the wood work for them. The cutest was cousin Masha who is just plumb adorable. I was joking that she was storing them in her pockets. We practically had to wrestle them away from her.



Maybe it was the Tootsie Rolls talking, but at one point Aunt Kathy asked if I wanted to go to Atlantic City for the night. We could stop at Wal-mart and pick up toiletries for me and matching bikinis. We could take a dip in the ocean before heading up to Reading for the next family party the following day. I thought about it. But, more family bonding happened and then it just got too late. See!  I'm not the only crazy one in my family. I'm surrounded by them. :-)

At the end of the night food was being packed up and sent home with people. I ended up with the veggie tray (which I was told was purchased because I was going to be there haha), some cans of diet soda (this will last me through Christmas), and some of the macaroni salad.

I almost took some Yoo Hoo...oh yeah...



So guess what came on before we left...SHARKNADO!  HOLLA!  We didn't stay for the whole thing, just long enough to get my #Sharknado fix. :-)

The party was so much fun and I was so happy to see Janice looking so well. This is her in the pashmina standing with Aunt Kathy. Doesn't she look fabulous! I heart my family!



Have a Blessed Night.

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Monday, July 29, 2013

Spending the Day with Miss Cassidy

Hello Beautiful People,

Okay so now it's time to recap my weekend. We're going to start with Thursday night. The plan for Thursday was to go to Boot Camp after work then come sponge bath myself and change clothes before getting on the road. I was driving to Cousin Kim's to spend Friday with her and Miss Cassidy.

Well during the afternoon we got the email that Alex was not able to make it for class. Immediately someone suggested that I run the class. That would be cool, but I would need a little time to plan something out and I was swamped that afternoon since I had the next day off. I was a little excited at the thought though. haha. So then I thought I would take a run to the gym and shower there after a quick run. I might even get to see one of Headband Hotties. And then two things happened: 1-I remembered that it's a 90 minute ride after and I would not get in til late and 2-I got a call from Girl Power Teammate Ms. Carol that some of the ladies in HR were going to be doing a Tabata workout on the front lawn and I was invited to join.

And do after work I met up with the ladies and we began. Sergent Gina took the lead. She looked up the workout and put the app on her phone. If you've never heard of it, this is a series of intervals. You do a certain exercise hard for 20 seconds. Then rest for 10 seconds. You do 8 reps and then take a minute break before moving on to the next set exercise. It's full body and it's tough.

I really liked it, but I was also very aware of how much I have to stretch my chest and shoulders. They are not very flexible. I had to cut it short, but I put in about 30 minutes. I needed to get on the road. I had a baby to go see!

She is so stinkin cute!  SO cute!  I could have stayed up all night looking at her, but Kim had dimmed the lights and we turned on the nature sounds to help Cassidy fall asleep. Well someone fell asleep...but it wasn't Miss Cassidy. Yep, it was me.

We had plans for 11 am. So I set my alarm for 8. I would allow myself to sleep in a little, but still get up early. I had thought about going for a run, but I wanted to see how I was feeling. I was out. And I mean OUT. I hit snooze until I heard movement downstairs.  I decided that if it was meant to be, we would go for a walk around the neighborhood with the stroller.

So we got ready and headed out. My role for the day: Carry Miss Cassidy in her car seat. I'm on it! Who needs the gym when I can just walk around carrying this little peanut? The appointment was on the second floor and the stairs were narrow, but I got her up there safe and sound. And then back down when it was over. Hooray!


After the appointment it was lunch time.  We had another errand to run, but we needed to eat. Miss Cassidy was asleep and Kim said it would be easiest if we went through a drive-thru. I'm not about to argue. And so the streak is over. We went through the Wendy's drive-thru. I got a grilled chicken wrap, junior french fries, and a strawberry iced tea. I didn't want to order the fries, but I knew that one wrap was not enough for me. By getting the smallest size I figured it would work.  It was good and now we are back on the countdown: I have not had fast food for 3 days. Woo woo!

Okay so our errand was a trip to Toys R Us/Babies R Us for presents for the party on Sunday.  I was walking around in my cushy flip flops and my knee was really feeling it. I was not getting the support I needed and it started to swell.  My hips also started to hurt. Argh. I could have worn my nike slides, but they didn't go with the outfit. I know better than that. Never again! I could not wait to get back and put my brace on.



While we were walking around we found the best bib!  Hey Tony Stewart, CALL ME!  The bib says it all.

So I know what you're thinking. Miss Cassidy is my cousin's daughter. That doesn't make me her Aunt. Well we decided that since she doesn't have an Aunt I will fill that roll. Every girl should have an Aunt that will spoil her and do anything for her. I happen to have 7 wonderful Aunts and she deserves the same. Aunt Jennie Hearts Miss Cassidy!

We had some things on our list to take care of when we got home and got to it right after I put the brace on.  For dinner we grilled burgers and chicken and had a lot of veggies to go with it. Okay, well, Kim grilled. I got the food out and called her a baby hog so I got to sit and snuggle with the little Peanut while dinner was prepared. It was the best hour of the day!





I was doing a load of laundry for them before I left and noticed the biggest hula hoop I have ever seen in my life in the basement. I asked about it hoping I could find one similar. She said that friends made it and offered it to me if I really wanted to use it. HELLO! YES!  I heart it. It's so awesome. I am a hoop machine I tell you!  I could hula hoop all day long with this hoop. Thank you darlin!

So I didn't get to talk about Mr. Brad a.k.a. Miss Cassidy's daddy because he was at work all day, but I have to just say watching him with Miss Cassidy is just too cute. That little girl has her daddy wrapped around her finger.  Love you both!  And just know that Aunt Jennie is all in for babysitting!

I didn't get to study while I was there, but I did watch a video and take a quiz when I got home at midnight.


Have a Blessed Night.


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Sunday, July 28, 2013

Stress + Family Parties = Way too many Temptations

Happy Sunday Bleeps,

Well It's been a while. My life is always busy, but this past week was supercharged. Lots of good. Lots of temptations. Lots of family time. I have so much to tell, but it's late and I want to recap the days as best that I can. So I will make my notes and detail them this week.

Right now I want to talk about how I did overall and how I felt that I did.  I have been disappointed in my decisions. The reality is that once again, compared to what the Former Fat Girl used to eat this was nothing. My cheat days were still minimal compared the old days. Notice how I did not say the 'Good old days'.  That still doesn't make me feel better though.

I'm stressed. You know that. Stress plus family parties equal way too much temptation for my liking.  I knew it was going to be tough. I tried my best plans: I made sure that I drank plenty of water before the parties. I made sure to eat before I arrived so that I would not arrive hungry. I tried to spend minimal time away from the 'food areas'. I bought diet ginger ale knowing that my belly would probably be a little on the upset side.

When it came to my eating I kept my portions down. So while the food choices were not my ideal, my portions were small. Sometimes that's the best option.  When I did find myself munching I tried to stick to the veggies/hummus and chips/fruit. The occasional chip snuck in there...possibly a few bite sized brownies...and a little more soda than I cared to admit. It was diet and the sole purpose was to help me burp, but that doesn't make me feel better.

The parties were celebrations...there was cake. Lots of cake. Argh. How did I do?  Well I didn't fall into a diabetic coma...but, I'm 100% sure my sugar levels were way off.

And to be honest, there were a few moments during the past weekend that I thought "Oh I wish I could just throw up and feel better." I would never do that. I need to take responsibility for my actions.  That means living with the ickiness and trying to rectify the situation. Thank goodness tomorrow is Make Amends Monday!

So on top of everything else, I have not had an official workout since Thursday. WHAT?  I had all of these great plans for workouts. But, sleep took over sometimes...hectic schedules took over others...and quite frankly, because I ate crap I have felt like crap.  It's not a good feeling. I can't believe that I am actually looking forward to getting the week started so that I can get back into my food and workout routine.

I'll leave you with some teasers for upcoming posts this week:

*Boot Camp was cancelled...but, we still got a workout in
*Baby Cassidy Time! ...and a photo or two if you are good
*Return of the HulaHoop
*A streak has been broken
*Tony Stewart...has he called?...ha just kidding, no he hasn't :-(

Have a Blessed Night.

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Wednesday, July 24, 2013

Random Wednesday: Gummy Bears, dehydration, and Massages

Happy Random Wednesday Y'all!

Alright kids, the week is half over. Thank goodness. It's been busy. I have not gotten a chance to study all week. ARGH!  Luckily tomorrow is my Friday. WOO WOO. I will be leaving right after Boot Camp and heading to cousin Kim's to have a little Baby Cassidy day on friday. YEAH!

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So I forgot to mention something yesterday regarding my jeans. It has been so long since I put them on I was hoping that miraculously they would be hanging off of me. Sadly, they were not. They were not tighter though. So we'll take that.

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Yesterday was Mr. Wil's birthday.  He received a 3lb bag of gummy bears. um...you had me a gummy bear. I have been pilfering his gummy bear village. Not much, just a half of a handful to make me happy. And yes, with my OCD I separate them by color and then eat them.

I happened to notice that I always get way more red then any other color...turns out Mr. Wil doesn't eat the red. Will you Marry Me Wil? I will eat your red gummy bears!

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This weekend is going to be busy. I have a family party in Jersey on Saturday and then a family party in Reading on Sunday.  Originally I was going to skip the party on Sunday and study. But, it went from being a birthday party to a birthday party/graduation party. I need to celebrate for Aunt Kathy. She has been one of my biggest supporters.  So I called mom and told her that I need her to be my chauffeur. I will ride in the backseat and study. That's at least 4 hours of study time. 

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So there another little hottie at the gym wearing headbands. I can't believe I'm going to say this, but dang if that isn't a turn on now. WHAT?  Did I just say that.

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Tonight I couldn't figure out what to do at the gym. Last night was a distance night and tomorrow is boot camp. I thought about doing legs, but then I decided that I would just keep it to a light walk and then get a massage. Ms. Tracey and I walked at lunch so I got 4 miles in today.

That massage is my savior. I kept it on my calves and oh how happy it made me.

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This weekend I had a little scare. Mom-Mom was severely dehydrated. While I was making us lunch I noticed that she was leaning to the side and seemed very vacant. I asked if she was okay and she wasn't responding. So I dropped everything and ran over to her. She said she didn't know what I was saying and I pulled a chair over and guided her into it. I ran and got her water and a banana and in a little while she was back to normal. Scared the CRAP out of me though.

This is why I am constantly asking everyone if they have had enough water each day.

HYDRATE! HYDRATE! HYDRATE!

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So tonight I had a lot to do when I got home. I considered not showering because I wasn't that sweaty, and then I remembered that I had to shave. I can't wait until winter.

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Sending a Happy Birthday Shout Out to Heather!  Love ya darlin!

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Today it was my day for Breakfast Club. I finally brought my Make Your Own Yogurt Parfait Bar. I had two different yogurts, fresh blueberries, fresh strawberries, and granola with almonds.  I loved it. It was a nice summer treat. It wasn't as popular as the bagel days though.

Oh well...more for me. I went back for a second cup of fruit.

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Today I saw a headline: Miracle Diet-Lose 27lbs.

Little tip: if it says "miracle" in the title...it's probably really bad for you...and most likely doesn't work.

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Congratulations to William and Kate on their beautiful bundle of joy. They looked so beautiful and happy stepping out with Prince George. I was so happy and excited for them. And mortified when I heard there were articles on how she can lose the baby weight. Are you serious?  What is wrong with people?

On a more positive note, my obsession has been noted and I was invited to join a panel for a discussion group on America's Obsession with the Royal Family. I so wish I could take off tomorrow and participate, but alas, I must work.

And on that note, I'm sleepy and ready for bed.


Have a Blessed Night.


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Tuesday, July 23, 2013

Split my pants and my skinny feet

Hello Beautiful People,

So today something happened that I knew would....my jeans split. I swear this better happen to other people!  It split right in the thigh area. The jeans are only a year old, but they were the washed look so they were soft when I got them. I guess all of those thighs rubbing together in them was too much.

I had been planning on getting some patches and ironing them on the inside before it happened. But, I danced with the devil today and lost. Dang it.

I would love to say that this is the first time that this happened. Unfortunately it has brought back bad memories. I've mentioned before that the Former Fat Girl did not own many pairs of jeans. In fact, the jeans that she did in fact own didn't even fit right. MUFFIN TOP!  She practically burst her spleen trying to keep the jeans buttoned.

And so when her jeans would split she would do just about anything to keep from going to buy new ones. ANYTHING. That included patch after patch after patch.

I know in my head that there is a legitimate reason why they ripped today. They were so worn when I bought them that they were bound to rip sooner or later, but that doesn't keep the flashbacks from coming. RIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIP. Great...nice going Thunder Thighs!

***For those of you who are SpongeBob fans...remember that episode when he splits his pants and gets laughs so he starts doing it on purpose? "Oh no, I think I've Split MY Pants" *insert laughter* It gives me nightmares. haha.

So the irony is that tonight at the gym I was on schedule for a long distance run. I didn't pack shorts that I normally like to run in. I was wearing a pair that generally rides up in the crotcheral area. All I could think of was that I was going to end up with chub rub. MASSIVE chub rub. Good news: I did not!  WOO WOO.  8 miles and no rub. HOLLA!  I was a NASTY sweaty mess though.

Along with my pants issue, I have also been paying attention to my feet lately. They are skinny feet! What? Who do they belong to? Surely not I?  I have short wide feet with barely any toes. It's a miracle that I can walk.

The Former Fat Girl always thought she had skinny feet...she was wrong. I love that my shoe size has gone down since I lost the weight, but more importantly my feet down look swollen all of the time. I can actually tell the difference between my normal feet and my swollen feet.

I am doing my best to treat them right: pedicures (mostly by me), soakings, lotions, elevations, etc. And they are rewarding me. They are looking nice and slim in some of my ballet flats and just plumb adorable in my flip flops. *Please note: this is not a request for those with a foot fetish to contact me lol*

Alright kids, it was a good run tonight and I am beat. Sweet dreams. OH I will share one more thing...last night I had a dream about THE Bob Harper. We were training people together. It was *in a sing song voice* Awesome!  Would love to make that happen.  I think we could be BFFs.

Have a Blessed Night.

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****Please note****

If you feel like you are alone on your journey and you just need some encouragement I am here for you! Shoot me an email and I will do my best to check in on you or give you the words of support you need several times a week. The journey is so much easier if you have support.

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Monday, July 22, 2013

My Royal Family Obsession

Hello my Lovlies and Gents,

Wow so I wasn't planning on taking the whole weekend off from the Blog and now I have so many topics that I have thought about and want to talk about.  What to choose...what to choose...

Well actually the decision was made for me today. Congratulations to William and Kate on their baby boy!  Yes...I'm a Royal watcher. I am fascinated by them.  I was trying to figure out today why that is. I was never this fascinated with Diana. She was lovely and I fully admire all of the good will work that she has done.  I just wasn't obsessed. Actually I was a little Kennedy obsessed at that time.   I guess I have just transferred my obsession overseas.

Yes, okay. I am obsessed with the Royals now. I think the reason is because there is a lot of bad stuff in the news.   And there are also a lot of self-obsessed people forcing themselves into the public. And here are two beautiful people who are clearly in love and doing good work in this world. Of course I am excited for them.

And yes, The Duchess of Cambridge is my style icon.  She looks amazing in everything that she wears. Her arms and legs are amazing.  In fact, for most of her pregnancy had the cutest smallest little belly.  You just know that from behind you couldn't tell that she was pregnant.

I thoroughly enjoyed my computer free weekend, but I was going crazy. Would someone text me if she had the baby? Quick, check CNN for an update. Text Maci to see if she heard anything. For the love of God SOMEONE TELL ME IF SHE HAD THE BABY????

So this morning when I woke up to the news that Kate was in labor I was delighted. Yes, my first text went out at 6:30. When I got to work the IMs and emails were flying. Luckily Ms. Tracey and Ms. Carol are also Royal obsessed. Ms. Tracey and I went out for a little bit at lunch and yes, we were a little worried that we would miss the announcment.

We were overjoyed at the news. You never saw texts and IMs move so fast. We were so excited. If we had champagne and were allowed to drink at work we would have been toasting.

While I was at the gym I was watching the coverage and one of the headlines mentioned that when Kate makes her first appearance she will not have the fit body that we are used to. OMG!  ARE YOU SERIOUS?  This is what's on the news?  First of all, imagine being one of the most photographed people in the world. I cannot even imagine that pressure. She appears to handle it well. I would lose it.

The woman just gave birth. Her hormones are going to be a little off. She's beautiful. There is literally no reason to bring that up. How many celebrities make an appearance within days of giving birth? Umm..about none. It's an intimate time for the new family. There is no need to subject oneself to public scrutiny over her body. If I had a nerf gun I would have nailed the TV. SHAME ON YOU!


Have a Blessed Night.


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Thursday, July 18, 2013

Sharks, Exams, and a Sweaty Boot Camp

Happy Thursday Bleeps!

Have you watched Sharknado???  Are you prepared?  Do you know what to do in the event that a tornado full of sharks hits land?  Stick with me!  I'm on it!  Tonight was Boot Camp and I was in a rush to get home because Sharknado was on at 7. A big shout out to my mom who gave me the play by play of the first 15 minutes as I was driving. Seriously, she was good...it was hilarious!

ps...17 days til Shark Week!

Alright, down to the real stuff. Guess what I did today!  Go ahead...guess...I scheduled my Personal Trainer Certification Exam! HOLLA!!!  I had to factor in a few things. I have some plans coming up and there are vacation days for others at work being used next month. If we are shorthanded then I will be busy and Ms. Liz will be out for a week. That is most definitely not a good time for me.

I also have training for the Philly Rock'n'Roll to think about. But, I've done it before so I can do it again. And...my knee is sore so....

I am not going to say when the exam is, only that it is scheduled before Labor Day. As I said before, I have always suffered from text anxiety and this is no exception. When we were out to dinner Sunday Aunt Kathy was talking about an exam that she took and I practically vomited on the spot...and it wasn't even my test.  If I didn't have to request off of work I may not have told anyone when it was and quite frankly I didn't have to tell them why I wanted off...dang it... I will let you know when I have taken it whether I pass or fail. But, hopefully I pass :-)

So after I scheduled the exam we made the decision to move Boot Camp inside. My response: horrible news for my knee, but it's what's best for humanity.  I polled the usual suspects and wasn't getting a lot of people saying they were coming. :-(  I counted 4 people including myself.

But, by the time we started we had 7. HOLLA!  The floor is solid and doesn't give. I was not going to be jumping. My knee hadn't bothered me since the gym, but just standing there I could see that it was really swollen and I couldn't put my full weight on it. Crap! When I was talking with Trainer Alex he said it sounded like a torn Meniscus. Awesome...just what I wanted to hear...NOT!

The first thing we did was lateral jumps then squats over hurdles. Umm...I stepped over gently and didn't quite get a full squat. I did kill on the double tap scissor crunches though. We did some push ups and more abs. Then it was time for Bulgarian lunges. Basically, you put one foot up on a chair behind you. Then you lean forward on a bent knee to touch the ground. Nothing about that sounded good for my knee. I went and got ice for it instead (a little bribery).  Then we had some more upper body and core.

Class was great, but we had some issues...we were all pretty slick and our plank/pushups were a little difficult to stick. I had already doubled up on my mats so that my knee would have a cushion. I felt like the Princess in the Pea though because by the time class was over I had another mat on there. It was easier to grip. Thank goodness.  It was a gross ride home...just sayin.

Okay so my original plan for tomorrow was to go to the gym after work, then come home, shower, pack the car (with my dirty clothes to take down for laundry), and get on the road. But, I changed my mind. I did all of my laundry tonight and packed a bag to take to the gym. I shall shower at the gym and get on the road.  Let's hope it's a good plan.  If I'm lucky, Hottie Headband will be there and I won't stink when I leave the gym this time. haha.

Have a Blessed Night.

I signed up with Run for Autism again :-)

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If you feel like you are alone on your journey and you just need some encouragement I am here for you! Shoot me an email and I will do my best to check in on you or give you the words of support you need several times a week. The journey is so much easier if you have support.

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Wednesday, July 17, 2013

Random Wednesday: Panera, Movies, and ABBA

Happy Random Wednesday Bleeps!

Alright kids. I took today off to get some things done and spend some time with my mom and grandmom. I let myself sleep in just a little (not too much because I wanted to be able to go to bed tonight). Then I did my nails and then I went and got my oil changed. Truly exciting I know.

But then I went to pick up mom and grandmom and we were off to meet up with a dear (she likes to classify us as "old" friends...no no no!) friend Jen and her kids. We were meeting up at Panera before a quick visit before movie time.

Earlier Jen had texted me about the Panera "Hidden Menu"....DID YOU KNOW ABOUT THIS???  How did I not know?  There is a hidden menu with Power breakfasts and salads.

http://mypanera.panerabread.com/articlestips/article/access-into-paneras-hidden-menu/

I got the Power Mediterranean Chicken Salad: All-natural, Antibiotic-free chicken, baby spinach, romaine, tomatoes, apple-wood smoked bacon, diced eggs, fresh squeezed lemon juice, and extra virgin olive oil.

All I am saying is that I have GOT to try their breakfasts!

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I read an article today about a school principle that proposed that the school sells trash bags instead of candy for a fund raiser. Everyone uses trash bags and doesn't need candy. At first people laughed, but they raise over $20,000 every year. All of the families and the local businesses buy their trash bags from the school.

I Love it.  That gets a Woo Woo!

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Update on my knee: Hasn't bothered me at all today. HOLLA!

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So I am ready to schedule my exam.  :-)  I need to check on some PTO days at work, but I'm hoping for end of next month.

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 I made an investment this week. I've been considering going the tea route for a while. I like tea and I enjoy when I make it, but I don't always have the fun stuff. Have you been to Teavana? It scared me at first. Looked too fancy. Plus, I didn't always love the samples they had. Well I have been tasting some samples the I like a lot. At first the tea seems expensive, but I spend more on Starbucks. And so I pulled the trigger.

I bought a pretty tumbler with a tea filter and then I bought two teas to mix. It makes a FANTASTIC iced tea. I haven't had it hot yet.

I don't put sweetener in it and so I have a nice sugar free milk free soothing drink.  So if you are ever at a loss at what to get me, a Teavana gift card will do :-)

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Today we went to see Despicable Me 2. First off, big stinkin shout out to the Brandywine Regal Theater. It's were I go to see most movies (even when there was a theater 2 miles from me for the past 5 years).

They offer the special headphones for those hard of hearing. Well now they offer special glasses for Closed Captioning.  Technology amazes me.

I asked Grandmom what the closed captioning said for the Minions. It said "Speaking Gibberish". hahahaha.

Loved this movie. Go see it!  Although it made me hungry for chips and guacamole.

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So I'll be going to the beach again Friday after the gym. I am determined to play mini-golf this summer if it kills me. I wonder if I can convince Mom-Mom to play with me this weekend. Maybe if I promise frozen custard after she may be in.

If anyone is at the Delaware/Maryland beach this weekend and wants to play, hit me up!

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Boot Camp is tomorrow night...I looked at the weather and it appears that the earth will in fact be a million miles closer to the sun and in fact our faces may melt off of our heads when we step outside. But, I'll be there. Plan is to drink a billion gallons of water all day. I have bottle of gatorade for the car ride home after. Should be interesting.

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hmm...not I can't stop thinking of frozen custard...

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The other day at work Mr. Mike was telling me that he can't get the song and dance of ABBA's 'Waterloo' out of his head. I laughed and said I do the dance all of the time. He challenged me and I was about to do it, but he was a way from his desk. Tonight I put a "how to" video on his FB page...he has no idea that I am the person who sings and dances in my car, on the treadmill, in Target...I don't care who sees or hears. 

Let your guard down and bust out into song in public. Go ahead, you'll feel good :-)

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Have a Blessed Night.


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Tuesday, July 16, 2013

Hot enough for ya?

Hello my Lovelies and Gents,

I'm just going to say it: It is hot as HELL out there.  Hot and humid.  It takes me an hour to pick out what to wear to work every morning. Jeans are a big giant NO NO. I am afraid I would spontaneously combust walking to the car. I swear to you that I am at the point where I would go to work naked if it was allowed.  I read a tweet the other day that said "If you live alone and you are home more than 15 minutes before you are naked, then you are doing it wrong." I am feeling that.

Seriously, right now you could not pay me to wear pants. I break out into a sweat just thinking about it. Skirts and dresses only thank you.  I used to get into an argument with a friend who didn't think it was fair that Ladies got to wear short skirts to work and he was forced to wear pants. Really? You don't want to get in that argument with me if you have a penis. Boys, you can legally go outside without a shirt on. NEVER EVER complain that ladies can wear skirts. Someone decided to make boobs sexual instead of necessary in the circle of life and therefore I HAVE to wear a shirt everywhere. If I ever find out who is responsible for that!

It's Hot. I'm bloated. I'm about to get my period. I'm doubly bloated. It's Hot. I'm cranky. I'm about to get my period. I'm doubly cranky. I feel like as soon as the temps break back into the 80's I will lose about 4 inches to my waist and about 90 pounds of water weight. I drink water all of the time, but I am only peeing about half of the time that I usually do...ugh.

It is so hot that I get sweaty walking from the office to the car. I am already sweaty when I walk into the gym. COME ON!  I have no chance. Tonight was a distance night. But, as I was leaving work I was really thinking that it would be a shorter distance. I couldn't handle sitting in my car all nasty and hot.  I got to the gym and jumped on my treadmill. I seem to get the same one almost all of the time. It's in front of the ESPN tv with Closed captioning so THANK you everyone who go elsewhere.  I started my run and was feeling great. Okay, maybe I'll stay on a little longer. OH so here's something new. I went HEAVY on my chest workout last night. So all of my running made me feel like my boobs were going to fall off at any moment tonight. During mile 4 I kicked it up. And then I had this horrible pain shoot through my knee. EFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF!

I walked a little just to see how it was doing. I could walk. I was limping at first, but eventually I felt comfortable enough to walk at a faster pace. After 15 minutes I decided to see if I could jog. Pain with the first step. DANG IT.  Back to walking. So I was okay with the walking and I thought I would just do 90 minutes. But, then I was able to get my walking pace up ridiculously high and so I figured as long as I was able to walk I would go the full 2 hours. I have tomorrow off and Gym Crush Headband is working at the gym tonight...so um...I'll do it. My new walk pace is insane. It's my old jogging pace. HOLLA!  So the new plan is that with less than 2 months to go, I will alternate working on my run pace and my walk pace.

When I was done I was a slick slick mess. I was like a greased pig. Soaking wet. I don't even want to think about what I smelled like. And of course as I am limping out Gym Crush Headband (although Hottie Headband may be more appropriate) said "Good Night". I mumbled out a "Night" because I was focusing on not falling and yet moving fast enough that my sweat smell didn't make him sick. What I really wanted to say was "I will pay you a million dollars if you would carry me to my car." OMG that was the LONGEST walk ever.

Fear not, it's been iced and elevated. No leg work tomorrow.  Will need to think about what to do for Boot Camp Thursday. Hopefully I'll be good for a little run at the gym Friday before I head to the beach for the weekend.

Okay, so where was I?  Oh yeah, the heat. I had the AC on full blast my whole ride home and I was still a little on the moist side when I pulled in to park. EWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW.

SO how is my hair doing? I'm glad you asked. It's long enough to put in pigtails for the gym, but not long enough for a decent pony tail for every day. I want to scream. ARGH!  I can't cut it. I'll lose my mind. I NEED to be able to pull it off of my neck.

Last night I stopped for a few groceries and was in the ice cream section. I wanted to get one of the little dollar ice cream things. They are like an ounce or something. OMG the calories for 4 stinking spoonfuls is over 200 calories. Um...so I passed. Then I saw the sugar free klondike bars that were 150 calories each. Okay. I'm in.

I had one last night and it was little on the melted side. It was unsatisfying. So I had a second. DAMN IT. I know in my head that the consistency of the ice cream center in no way affects how many calories are in it, but the Former Fat Girl can rationalize anything if you let her.

I don't know why I bought them. I have a box full of tropical sugar free popsicles in the freezer to cool me off. YUMMY!  Pineapple. Coconut. Strawberry (I think)  Good stuff.

So tomorrow I have a day off of work. I shall get my oil changed in the morning (and study while I wait) and then we will keep cool by going to the movies.

Keep it  cool Bleeps and stay safe.  Drink your water!

Have a Blessed Night.

I signed up with Run for Autism again :-)

http://www.firstgiving.com/fundraiser/jennifer-henderson-6/RNRPhilly13


****Please note****

If you feel like you are alone on your journey and you just need some encouragement I am here for you! Shoot me an email and I will do my best to check in on you or give you the words of support you need several times a week. The journey is so much easier if you have support.

jhendersonfit@gmail.com

Monday, July 15, 2013

Run for Autism - Please help me reach my goal



Dear ­­Bleeps,
I am eager to share with you a huge personal challenge I've recently committed to. I am currently training to run my fifth marathon. That's right, the whole 13.1 miles! On September 15th, I will run the Rock'N'Roll Half Marathon in Philadelphia with the RUN FOR AUTISM, a charity running team for the Organization for Autism Research. Running a marathon has been a goal of mine for some time now and this organization has given me the opportunity to achieve this goal for a reason bigger than myself. 
I am running the Half Marathon for a couple of reasons.  First, I run in honor of several children of dear friends. The second reason is for my own personal growth.  I've been blessed with good health and participated in sports for most of my life. RUN FOR AUTISM gives me the opportunity to overcome my own obstacles as well as honor and support those whose daily lives are impacted by autism.
As you may or may not know, 1 in 110 children are born with autism, which directly affects the way a person interacts with people and their environment. Autism is a lifelong challenge for the individuals diagnosed, and a life-changing challenge for their families. While the cause is unknown and a cure is not yet on the horizon, research provides hope and the promise of a better quality of life for those affected by autism.

All proceeds will go to the Organization for Autism Research, a national non-profit organization that funds research and resources for individuals diagnosed with autism and their families. My goal (besides making it through 13.1 miles in one piece) is to raise $600 by September 1. While running the Half Marathon this September, I know that each mile will symbolize another step on the road a better quality of life for those affected by autism, and with your help, I will raise the money needed to fund essential research and invaluable resources. Every donation, no matter how big, makes a difference. Donations can be sent by check to the address below or pledged with a credit card at http://www.firstgiving.com/fundraiser/jennifer-henderson-6/RNRPhilly13. 

 I truly appreciate your willingness to help, and again, thank you for your generosity.
 If you have enjoyed my blog please share my link.  If everyone who reads this donates even just $5 it will make such a difference.  This is my second race with Run For Autism and I could not be more honored to be an advocate for those who can benefit from this research.
Thank you So much for your time,
Jennie Henderson

ps-The color of the tutu for this race has yet to be determined...I will poll all of those who make a pledge :-)

Have a Blessed Night.


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Sunday, July 14, 2013

Baby Cassidy has arrived!

Happy Sunday Beautiful People,

First let me say...3 weeks til Shark week! HOLLA!!!!  And now for the good stuff. Little Miss Cassidy has arrived. 

The plan for the day was to go to church, then run to Walmart to get a card and some treats for the family, and then head to Starbucks to study while I wait for mom to get here so that we could head to the hospital.  As I was getting ready I decided to go to Starbucks before church and grab breakfast and a drink.  I was thinking I would get a multigrain bagel and an unsweetened iced green tea. And then I was running out of time so I figured I would just get a pastry. And I finally saw the calories listed. I wanted to cry. I don't get pastries that often and I know that it's a treat when I do. I know that the lemon pound cake that I like is not on the 'light' side. I didn't think it was 500 calories a slice though. Dang it. I got a reduced fat berry crumb cake. Still not that low in calories, but it was the better option.

Church was delightful. I'm so excited that I have a new place to worship. I was really worried about finding a new church. And afterwards I ran to Walmart. I found some sweet little socks and hand covers for little Cassidy. I also wanted to pick up something for the new Mom. I got her some lip balm and tic-tacs. I thought about a big chocolate bar or something fun like that, but opted against it.

I went back to Starbucks to wait for mom and go a second iced green tea. I was saving my free drink for the ride. I had planned on getting something pumped full of caffeine and bad for me. When I got in line I saw something new: Iced Peach Green Tea Lemonade....ok, let's try it. OMG it was like a flavor explosion in my mouth. It was soooo yummy and refreshing. Yes Please!

The ride to the hospital was about an hour. And when we got there I was simply amazed. This hospital is wonderful. If I ever have a kid I am moving to Lancaster so that I can deliver there. So the right thing to say is that when I walked in the room the first thing I noticed was the baby. But, she was the second thing. There was a scrumptious looking slice of pie right next to the bed. I am in a hospital right? Don't you usually get pudding or jello?

Once I got past the pie I saw the little peanut. OMG she is so stinkin cute. SO cute. Her mother is gorgeous and dad is doing well. I love my family!  We only stayed for a little over an hour. Everyone needed rest, but it was so wonderful to be there.  Kim offered me a bit of her pie and I declined. She said "Be sure to blog about how you turned down this delicious dessert haha." I wanted to cave, but woman just gave birth, she can have the whole slice.

Aunt Kathy also came to the hospital and so the three of us decided to go out to dinner to celebrate. The hospital is right down the street from the mall and about 15 minutes from the outlets with lots of options for food.  We opted to go to the mall. When we got there we looked at the directory and just decided to go to TGIFridays...as it was close to where we parked and the mall directory was weird.

Looking at the menu I wanted a burger. I could smell burgers. I wanted a burger. But, I wanted to be good too. I still had to blog tonight.  We opted to split a flatbread appetizer that was under 750 calories. I wanted that burger sooooo bad, but I opted for an entree that was also under 750 calories: The Dragonfire Chicken: Fire-grilled chicken breast glazed in a Kung Pao sauce. Served over jasmine rice pilaf with pineapple pico de gallo, mandarin oranges and fresh steamed broccoli.

When it came out I still wanted a burger, but my food was delicious and was satisfied when I was done. I wasn't stuffed. I didn't feel greasy. I wasn't burping up onion rings. I was happy. I felt good with my choice.

So all in all...it was a good day!  Welcome to the World Cassidy! 

Have a Blessed Night.

I signed up with Run for Autism again :-)

http://www.firstgiving.com/fundraiser/jennifer-henderson-6/RNRPhilly13


****Please note****

If you feel like you are alone on your journey and you just need some encouragement I am here for you! Shoot me an email and I will do my best to check in on you or give you the words of support you need several times a week. The journey is so much easier if you have support.

jhendersonfit@gmail.com

Saturday, July 13, 2013

Day of Rest: Study and read the worst short story EVER

Hello my Lovelies and Gents,

Today was my day to rest and regroup. I had nothing officially planned...ahhh.  I knew I was going to study and had hoped to get in a run or something.  But, I had nothing official going on.

I plan ahead. I have to. My life is too crazy busy. I know when my Rest days are.  But, sometimes they need to happen unplanned.   Thursday was my planned rest day. I made sure to do my Final Assessment the day before and I had the Memorial service after work. That was a rest day, but it was not a Day of Rest. There is a difference.

I went to the gym last night and planned on studying when I got home, but opted to do my nails instead. I was having a hard time staying awake all day and I wasn't sure that I would comprehend anything that I studied. And so I decided to let myself sleep in this morning.

So the question of the day was: Do I do yoga, go for a run in the park, or go to the gym?  I wanted to do one of them because Sunday is a planned rest day. I may not have worked out on Thursday, but it most definitely was not restful. So I'm good with 2 rest days. Plus, we have been on baby watch for baby Cassidy.

*Side bar: Cassidy has arrived! YEAH!!! Congratulations Kim and Brad. I cannot wait to meet her tomorrow!*

So I woke up this morning and I was very much enjoying my bed. I didn't have that much left of the book that I was reading so I opted for that. Then I would decide what to do. Eh...it was good the first 80% of it and then the ending kind of let me down.  Argh.

The weather was iffy and I didn't feel like taking the 40 minute drive to the gym and I decided that my body was super tired. Let's rest.  Besides, my foot has been bothering me.  I can study in bed or in the chair, but I am going to rest. I've earned it. So for all of you who say I do too much, this day was for you.

I studied and studied. I also watched a little Rosanne and Golden Girls...I go Old School and I love it. They were fantastic shows and so ahead of their times. Thank you LogoTV for my marathons.

And on that note, I always had a little crush on John Goodman.  Just sayin. There's a post in there about how funny fat guys can be sexy so why not funny fat ladies?  But, that's for another time.

So I finished my chapters and took my quiz. I got a 70. DANG IT. As soon as I saw how specific the questions were I knew I wouldn't pass, but if I got close I would be happy.  There were two questions that I went back and forth on and had I went the other way I would have passed. Oh well. Now I know what to focus on.

By then it was dinner time. I had figured I would go out at some point today and I really just wanted to get out of the house so I headed off to Saladworks to grab something to eat. I was happy to pick my salad. I got the Autumn Harvest and substituted spinach for romaine lettuce. And I got a half of a sandwich. I do not have a lot of options within the immediate area if I want to go grab something to eat compared to where I used to live. But, I am super happy to have this as an option. Veggies are a good thing.

I opted to finish reading a short story on my Kindle. I love the author and have been reading it on my phone while I get massages at the gym. It said I was 45% of the way through. I could read a little then head back. Well um..I don't know how to put this...but that was the worst ending to a short story ever. EVER!  It was so awful that I have to share...kind of like Sharknado (which I missed, but i'm planning on watching next thursday during the repeat!).

Summary:
Girl is walking tiny dog in park when a big "evil" dog comes and attacks it. She's screaming when a handsome man comes and pulls the big dog off.  And then she sees the deep wound in the dog and passes out. She wakes up in a house that is not familiar and soon realizes that it's the home of the evil dog (who belongs to the crazy eccentric lady in town). Before you know it the man is there and they are flirting. He has patched up the dog. No, he's not a vet, just a screenwriter who shadowed a vet for a movie he wrote...of course..and they are planning a date. She comes back for the date and wanders into a bedroom and discovers the body of the eccentric old lady in bed next to a bunch of medical instruments. She lets out a scream. He explains by saying that his grandmother planned her funeral to the T and wanted to be embalmed at home by the best. But, the best was in LA and hasn't been able to get to the house (it's been 8 days). He shows her the will to prove he's not crazy...um....and then they decide to go for a walk in the park (she has no appetite now).

Pardon me, but WTF!  I was eating and lost my appetite at this. How is this published and I couldn't get an agent for my novel years ago?  You wanna know what happened? I finished eating my salad and went up and got a cookie. I was pissed.

Alright, I want to study a little more before bed. Plus I need to find a new good book to start that won't let me down.

Have a Blessed Night.

I signed up with Run for Autism again :-)

http://www.firstgiving.com/fundraiser/jennifer-henderson-6/RNRPhilly13



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Thursday, July 11, 2013

Today McSucked!

Hello Beautiful People,

Well today was a rough one. There were lots of good things that I can't wait to share, but tonight was tough. I skipped Boot Camp tonight because I went to a memorial service for a friend. My brain isn't quite all focusing tonight, but there are a few things that I wanted to share.

My friend who passed was sick. Only I didn't know.  We worked together many moons ago and he was more like a big brother to me than a coworker. Was very supportive of my decision to move to North Carolina when I did and I will be forever grateful.

We kept in touch and were able to meet up for a couple of happy hours since I moved back. But, a couple of happy hours in 6 years is not enough. Funnily enough we just linked up on Linked In last month. I immediately thought "Hey, I should call him for another happy hour soon."  I didn't get a chance before I got the sad news.

So lesson one from tonight: Don't wait for tomorrow. You don't know what can happen.

After the final assessments were over this afternoon I was offered an oreo cupcake. Now, I normally would have thought about it and tried to resist. But not today. There was NO resisting. In fact it took tremendous restraint to limit it to one.

I think we all know that I am an emotional person. Shocking right?  Well perhaps because I haven't seen him in a while I didn't quite register my emotions until tonight. I was a little jumpy all day. Really just dreading saying good bye.

My plan was to quick head to Subway for some food and maybe a little studying. hahahaha...did I seriously think that could happen.  The Funeral home was 3.1 miles from work. I started sobbing on mile .1...only 3 to go.  I still stopped at Subway.  I needed to eat. I wasn't planning on staying for the whole night, but there's no telling what would happen and I couldn't risk staying late and then missing dinner.

It was tough when I first got there. I've seen a few people within the last 6 years, but a lot of these people I haven't seen in almost 9 years.  I was nervous about walking in and not recognizing anyone. I needn't worry. They all looked exactly the same. I immediately relaxed. And then I remembered where I was and got in line to pay my respects.  OMG I lost it. Why did I not bring a bottle of water with me? I hydrated all day in anticipation of the crying, but I lost a lot of water tonight.

As much as I loved seeing my boys (I worked with a lot of mechanics and engineers) it was weird having them see me. They all looked at me and did a double take. "The face looks familiar....is that you Jen?"  It's been 9 years. A lot has changed. I don't quite look the same as I did 9 years ago. So that was my bonus for the night.

When I was driving home I had an uncontrollable urge. I wanted a candy bar something awful. I would have done just about anything for a Three Musketeer bar. A king size. I mean it was horrible. That's literally all I thought about for 15 minutes. I don't know where the strength was not to pull over, but I was determined to come home.  

What the heck? Will I EVER be able to have an emotional time when I don't crave chocolate to help soothe me?  It's very frustrating. I was strong this time, but I am not always this strong. This is definitely a lifelong battle. Emotional eating is my mortal enemy.

Lesson two from the tonight: As with any addiction, it's a day by day battle.

Alright kids, hug your loved ones tonight and don't put making plans with someone you care about.

Have a Blessed Night.

I signed up with Run for Autism again :-)

http://www.firstgiving.com/fundraiser/jennifer-henderson-6/RNRPhilly13


****Please note****

If you feel like you are alone on your journey and you just need some encouragement I am here for you! Shoot me an email and I will do my best to check in on you or give you the words of support you need several times a week. The journey is so much easier if you have support.

jhendersonfit@gmail.com

Wednesday, July 10, 2013

Random Wednesday: Tony Stewart, Nipples, and Gym Goggles

Happy Random Wednesday Bleeps!

So if you've been watching Nascar lately, as you should, there is a commercial with Tony Stewart for Mobil 1 in which he and another driver perform some stretches. Eventually Tony does a split to the amazement of everyone involved. Haha. It's funny..And then a little weird. Don't care though. I still watch it.

The interesting part is that Tony has never made his distaste for exercise a secret. This would be our biggest obstacle when he finally calls me. But, I think I can get him to come and see the light. haha. Tony Stewart Call Me!

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So last night was my 10 mile distance training. I did really well and I was very proud. It was much better than the 8 miles I did a couple weeks ago. MUCH better. It would have been even better if I didn't have to stop every 15-30 minutes to blow my nose. Ick.


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The other night when I was changing for the gym I was not excited about putting a sports bra on. My back was still burnt and it made me cry. So I decided that I would just wear my regular bra. It was legs night. I wasn't going to be jumping up and down or anything.

Um...So I've mentioned before that I have to wear a jacket at work to cover up my nipples. Well I was a little embarrassed at the gym. Dang it. I think I covered it okay and once I was warmed up I was fine. But initially it's cold in there.

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It's Final Assessment time for the Health and Fitness challenge at work. We are having them today and tomorrow. I ran last night and my knees were killing me today. It took me about 30 minutes to walk down the steps today. :-( So ideally I should do the assessment tomorrow. But, I have a memorial service to go to after work and quite frankly I don't want to get sweaty during the day and then go to a service before I can shower. And so I did my assessment today.

Details to follow.

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Haha...every day a friend at work asks if I put him in my blog yet. I told him that I will one day. Today he pointed out that he sends me good stuff all of the time. Hey You...it's coming. Just stay tuned and keep reading Mister. hahaha.

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Alright, let's just say it. I think I have gym goggles. I haven't seen Gym Crush Young Stud in a little while. Basically, I haven't seen him since colleges ended for the summer. NO!  I mean I know he was young, but I can't handle it if he's that young. I never envisioned anything more than just admiring his hard work, but still. I feel dirty.

Actually, I suspect all of my gym crushes are on the younger side. I think I'm a giant walking hormone. I may need to lift the ban on dating soon.

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Today we had a bridal shower for Ms. Erica at work today. YEAH!  Surprise!!!!!  And she was. I heart her. She's so awesome. And you know every shower should have treats. 

As I sat there opening her gifts I kept eying up the table behind her. Chocolate covered pretzels. Brownies. Sugar cookies.

I resisted. I did indulge in a glass of sparkling grape juice and then I saw a container of treats...they were chocolate....and homemade. Turns out they were bake-less chocolate peanut butter oatmeal cookies. Hello!!!!

I had one. And I was not disappointed.

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Since last night was distance night it was very hard to stay awake today. Throw in the final assessment and I have no idea how I was standing upright. So it was a two starbucks day. I had one of their drinks that you can get at the store in the morning. The mocha light is 130 calories. And then later Ms. Liz went to an official store and got me a tall mocha light frap. Ahhh...Much needed. And in total: 230 calories for both. I can live with that.

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So I was drenched after my assessment and I still had to work for the rest of the afternoon. What to do with my hair????  Since it was wet I decided to go with headbands.  Normally I like thick ones to pull back the bangs. But, since the hair was wet I went with two of the thinner ones.

While I was pulling them away from my face to clear my nose I literally let  go and thwacked myself in the eye. Thank goodness I had my contacts in because otherwise I might be blind. As it was you may have heard my screams. It was not pretty. 

I wonder if Gym Crush Headband Dude has this problem?

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Have a Blessed Night.

I signed up with Run for Autism again :-)

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