Tuesday, December 31, 2013

Did I keep my 2013 Resolutions?

Hello my Beautiful People!

I have missed you so much, but I have also really enjoyed my Christmas Vacation (even though I had to work during some if it).  I have so much to tell you. I will probably spend most of my New Year's Day documenting it for you. So much fun was had. I made some good healthy choices and some not so healthy choices. I stepped on the scale this morning though and I haven't gained anything (which surprised the heck out of me to be frank) so we'll call it a win.

It's that time of year for New Year's Resolutions. For the past couple of years I have documented mine the blog and then I like to go back over and see how I did. Join me for my review of what I wanted to accomplish in 2013:

1. I will get my Personal Trainer Certification!  DONE!!!!

2. I am going to incorporate yoga into my weekly schedule. I throw it in every now and then, and I've talked about adding it regularly, but I have yet to do so. The good news is that I just found a groupon for 10 sessions. - That didn't happen on a regular basis, but more often then not. So it's a good one.

3. I am going to focus on making a new healthy recipe every other week. I need to switch it up and introduce new things into my diet. I was actually thinking of going Vegetarian for a couple of weeks and seeing how that works out for me. But, don't hold me to that last part. I like my chicken too much. - I started off strong here. I did pretty much stick to vegetarian for weekdays. I lost some steam, but I also found a bunch of recipes that I liked and used over and over.

4. I'm going to put it out there. I want that full marathon this year! - Didn't happen this year, but I did get in 3 Halves and 14 5ks.

5. I am going to lose the damn belly! -It's on it's way out.

And for a little fun

6. I am going to get Tony Stewart to call me. I have been thinking of going viral with a "Call Me Maybe" video for him. Haha....sigh I heart him. - That did not happen...however, I can still hold out hope untit Midnight...TONY STEWART CALL ME!

So now let's look forward to 2014. New Year's Resolutions are traditionally for improvements and breaking bad habits. My whole life right now revolves around both of those. So we're going to change things up. I'm not making Resolutions this year, but I am making a 2014 plan.

1. Become a Full-Time Personal Trainer

2. Move back to Charlotte in the Spring

3. Wear a bikini on my Caribbean Cruise.

4. Finish a Full Marathon (As I registered today that plan is in motion!)

5. And because I have been saying this forever, I want to learn how to knit something besides scarves.  Knitting relaxes me...and I need that.

6. And since I will be moving back to Nascar country, I am going to get Tony Stewart to call me!!!

I can't believe how amazing 2013 was for me...on this my 40th year on earth...I can only imagine how much more amazing it's going to be in 2014.

Thank you so much for all of your support and encouragement throughout the years. It has meant more to me than you will ever know. I wish only the best for you and your families this upcoming year.

Have a Blessed Night

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If you feel like you are alone on your journey and you just need some encouragement I am here for you! Shoot me an email and I will do my best to check in on you or give you the words of support you need several times a week. The journey is so much easier if you have support.


Friday, December 20, 2013

160 miles down...1100 to go!

Happy Friday Bleeps,

Well the traveling has begun. I was up late last night packing, but I am ready for Florida. Holla!

 Right now I am in Virginia at Mom's. Tomorrow morning we have breakfast with my Aunt and Grandmom then we are on our way to North Carolina for the night.

My ride down here was SUCKY. The first 2 hours were fine and surprisingly traffic free. With about an hour to go my good knee, which happens to be my driving knee, locked up. It felt like an elephant was standing on it. I have a high pain threshold, but I was hurting. I actually heart myself yelling out in pain a couple times. Started to get a little nervous about the rest of the trip.

There is a section of the DC Beltway that is an express lane. I have an EZ pass, but have refused to use it to pay $1.90 for a couple of miles. Tonight there was no question. I was taking it. The funny thing is that as soon as I got on it the Rocky Theme Song came on. It took my mind off the pain for a little while. And yes, I bypassed a bunch of traffic. Still had to sit in more at my exit, but I think I saved about 10 minutes. $1.90 well spent. I did bring my ice pack for my knee after our day in Disneyworld. Oh and I brought a pedometer. I want to know just how much we walk that day.

I think I'll be fine, I've just been driving so much that it needs a break. And so they are up and elevated right now.

My travel plans for the day included drinking as much water as I could. While I was at work this morning my focus was hydration. I also made sure to eat my lunch before I got on the road.  I stopped and met Heather at Starbucks when I got on my way. I really REALLY wanted a Cranberry Bliss bar, but I opted for a non-skinny drink. I got a white chocolate peppermint Mocha...oh yeah. Better and than a cranberry bliss bar...well not really, but that's ok.

 Tomorrow we have carrots and pretzels for snacks. The plan is to stop at Subway for lunch. Lots of water will be consumed...it will take longer with potty stops, but that's okay. No one needs to be bloated when we get there. Haven't seen my friends in a year, I wants to look good!

Sunday's travel plans include a stop in Savannah...has not been determined if it's for BBQ or not...although I say YES!

Okay kids, it's late and I didn't get too much sleep last night. I gotta get some Z's. Plus this was starting to get rambly.

Have a Blessed Night.

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Thursday, December 19, 2013

The Biggest Loser: Season 15 Episode 10

The Biggest Loser: Season 15 Episode 10

Last week Bobby went home. So we get to catch up with him this week. Sadly, I missed the very beginning. What I did see is that he was able to tell his dad that he is gay. And of course his dad was very supportive and just wants his son to be happy. YEAH!

Bobby is feeling freer and more confident. And he looks AWESOME!  He shaved and his face looks so thin. I cannot wait to see him at the finale!


Back at the Ranch.

It's a challenge right away. There is fire and a table with a sheet over it...intriguing! Ali announces that they are 10 weeks in and now they are going to Singles! Every Man and Woman for themself!  They all get their new colors. Marie says that now it's time for the real competition.

Ali tells them that they are now athletes and has a surprise for them. The final week on the Ranch will include the very first Biggest Loser Triathalon. They need to train to win because the winner will automatically earn a spot in the finale.

Ali tells them from experience that not only will it take training in running, biking, and swimming, but also endurance. And so she introduces the Ring of Fire....ooohh...

Each player has literally a ring of fire. Their challenge will be to hold a metal pole from 20 feet away and keep it from touching the bottom of the ring. To be fair, each player's pole will weigh 20% of their weight. The winner gets a 1 lb advantage.

Chelsea stresses how important 1 lb is. If the Blue team had lost just 1 lb more, than they would not have lost last week and Bobby would still be there.

David is holding 59 lbs.

Jennifer is holding 40 lbs. Her arms start to shake.

They make it to the first 5 minutes.

Then Tanya, who is holding 42 lbs is the first out.

Tumi follows with 47 lbs.

10 minutes. 15 minutes. 20 minutes. Jennifer is out.

Jay is holding 40 lbs. He says that it's getting really hard to change positions.

25 minutes.

Matt is holding 54 lbs.

Marie's legs are burning. She's squatting to use her legs and arms.

Hap is holding 64 lbs. He tried to switch hands and takes his eye off of the bar. He's out.

Rachel is holding 34 lbs.

45 minutes and like dominos they start to fall. Marie is out. Chelsea is out. Matt is out.

Only David, Rachel and Jay are left.  Jay says they are like statues.

75 minutes. 80 minutes. 85 minutes. 90 minutes. David is out.

It's down to Jay and Rachel, the two fiercest competitors.

*I missed how long they were there, but Rachel won. Go girl!

Then Ali announces that there will be a double elimination this week. Two people will fall below the red line.


Back in the Gym.

The trainers are excited that it's down to Singles. Dolvett yells about how he's been dying to get his hands on some of them.

He and Matt talk. He tells him that Matt is not the same guy that was on the Ranch on Week 1 and that it's his honor to train him.

Matt says that in Week 1 he felt like everything he was asked to do he couldn't do. Now at Week 10 he pushes "How fast can I do it?" *LOVE LOVE LOVE*

Bob asks if all of his "Athletes" are ready. :-)  He has wanted to work with Rachel forever. She's a Beast!  He's also working with Jay and Jennifer too.

They are doing box jumps and Jennifer is having a hard time. She has a mental block on this and keeps freezing. This feeling ungrounded her and she doesn't like it. She was getting angry with herself for not being able to do it.

Jillian is working with David and Tumi.  During week 1 David couldn't even finish his first workout with Jillian. She asks him what his best mile is. He says 15. She says No. She wants 12. His actual time: 11:03. GO DAVID!

He says that since his first wife died he has been reactionary in life. Everything he has done has been in a defense mode. Jillian says that he always talks about everyone else. She wants to talk about him now. He talks about the pressure on young David when his wife died. He wants to go back in time and tell him that he's free now. 

I love this. Jillian tells him "Don't run at 15 when you are capable of 11".  For the first time in a long time David is looking forward to what is ahead in his life.


After the workout we find Jennifer recovering in the sports medicine room. Today was a very emotional day for her and she was mad at herself.

Bob asks her why she was mad. It's gotta be more than just that she couldn't do the jumps.

She says that she feels like she sabotages herself *I soooooo identify with that*.  Bob reminds her of how far she has come. She says that it's important for her to have these moments because she has to learn out to deal with these emotions.


Jay and David are talking about the challenge and they want a rematch with Rachel at the pool.  She agrees. Loser brings breakfast in bed. The boys were a tad tricky though and jumped in the pool before she is done getting down to her swimwear. Obviously they win and she agrees to bring them breakfast in bed the next day.

It's a great plug for Subway breakfast sandwiches. haha. It's a good thing that I heart Subway!


Last Chance Workout

Hap is worried. His numbers haven't been the greatest. This week he is going to push it. I can see it in his face.

The trainers have Jay running at a 11.0 (11 miles an hour). My goodness his legs are soooo skinny. He wants to get into Onederland sooo bad.

David says now that it's singles this is his week to shine.


Weigh In.

Not only are they in Singles, but they also get to keep their shirts on for the weigh in. It's always a good milestone.

Since Rachel won the Challenge she goes first.

Rachel started at 171 lbs and now weighs 167 lbs for a total of 4 lbs. Plus her 1 lb advantage. 2.92%
Chelsea started at 192 lbs and now weighs 177 lbs for a total of 4 lbs. 2.21%
Jay started at 201 lbs and now weighs 196 lbs for a total of 5 lbs. 2.49%
  -Rachel is safe for the week. Jay has lost a total of 101 lbs on the Ranch.
Marie needs more than 4 lbs. She started at 192 lbs and now weighs 187 lbs for a total of 5 lbs. 2.60%
   -She is safe
Tumi needs more than 5 lbs. She started at 235 lbs and now weighs 226 lbs for a total of 9 lbs. 3.85%
   -She is safe and happy. She hasn't seen that number in a decade.
Before David weighs in Jillian says she afraid that if he doesn't do well that Dolvett will kill her. haha.
David needs more than 7 lbs. He started at 294 lbs and now weighs 282 lbs for a total of 12 lbs. 4.08%
   -He is safe. Dolvett calls him a Warrior.
Tanya needs more than 5 lbs.  She started at 208 lbs and now weighs 201 lbs for a total of 7 lbs.
   - She is safe. Chelsea is starting to get worried.
Hap needs more than 7 lbs. He started at 321 lbs and now weighs 316 lbs for a total of 5 lbs. 1.56%
   -Jay is safe. Bob says that the key is consistancy and that Hap struggles with that.
Jennifer needs more than 4 lbs. She started at 200 lbs and now weighs 195 lbs for a total of 5 lbs. 2.5%
   -Hap is going home. She is safe and in Onderland. It's been 17 years. Her kids have never known
     her at this weight.

Hap has lost 87 lbs and says that there is so much that he can take from this experience. Bob says that he is one of the people that he looked forward to working with.

So now it's down to Matt or Chelsea going home. They are very good friends so it's going to be hard on both of them no matter what happens.

Matt needs more than 5 lbs. He started at 268 lbs and now weighs 263 lbs for a total of 5 lbs. He is going home.  He is so thankful that he was Saved 4 weeks ago. He has lost 93 lbs and is happy with his results. Bob says that he is so glad that he used the Save on him. He deserved it. Matt says that this was worth postponing his wedding and that he held his promise.

Just as he and Hap are getting ready to leave Ali tells them that they aren't going anywhere just yet...she says to say good bye to the trainers and then there is a twist.

All of the eliminated players are back. One of them will have a chance to come back to the Ranch....

But, we won't know who for 3 weeks. SAY WHAT????  Nice cliff hanger Biggest Loser...well played. See you January 7.

Have a Blessed Night

Pledges for the Polar Plunge for Delaware Special Olympics can be made here:


****Please note****

If you feel like you are alone on your journey and you just need some encouragement I am here for you! Shoot me an email and I will do my best to check in on you or give you the words of support you need several times a week. The journey is so much easier if you have support.


Wednesday, December 18, 2013

Random Wednesday: Snow, Cookies, Snow, Cookies, and Snow

Random Wednesday is here again...

I love snow...but I really can't wait for next week to be in Florida. Normally I am happy when it snows, but these past couple of weeks have wreaked havoc on my schedule. It has kept me from my scheduled shopping days, which has pushed back my workouts. Bah.  I want SUN!!!


This past weekend was WONDERFUL. I went up to the mountains to visit with Ms. Carol and the girls. I heart my time with the little ones, but it was nice to get away and have some girl time with Ms. Carol.

We went for a manicure and a pedicure. The special was a Candy Cane bathe pedicure. I'm intrigued....and I LOVE Candy Cane. The soak was peppermint and the scrub was a chocolate scent. It was lovely...and my feet smelled like chocolate for 24 hours. A little weird, but okay.

I also got a gel manicure. It was my first attempt at gel. I generally change my mind several times a week regarding what color I want to wear. But, I am traveling so much in the next week that I just wanted something to last. My nails are a pretty purple. They match my coach bag :-)


Last week I finally treated myself to the Tiffany & Co. ring that I wanted for my birthday. I bought myself a Tiffany & Co. ring for my 30th birthday. Back then I was a size 8. Today, at 40, my fingers are much tinier. I got a size 5.5 Seriously, my fingers have shrunk 2.5 sizes. My fat finger is now a 6. What?  That's crazy. Love it, but crazy!  And honestly, my fingers are a little on the swollen side, so I might actually be a 5.

The ring that I got at 30 was the medium sized band. It was huge and heavy for me. This time I got the small one. I have delicate fingers now.


Since the snow messed with my schedule I had to push back my scheduled workout from Monday. Instead, I opted to run to the mall to finish my shopping. I knew where I needed to go. I could knock this out in a couple hours.

Normally I plot out my shopping for the most efficient routes. This time, however, I went rogue. I took the long way around the mall to get a little extra cardio in.


And speaking of snow, while I was in the mountains we got dumped on. A nice 8 inches of snow fell. Ms. Carol offered to help me dig out my car. I stayed inside with the girls while she took the first shift.  She did a great job and really all I had to do was clear off my car. Sounds easy. Pushing 8 inches of snow off of my car was a great arm workout. And shoulder. My daily routine does not include lifting my arms over my head and pushing. It was a nice workout.


Had to bust out my belt this past week. YEAH!  Two pairs of my jeans are in need of a belt. I'll take it!


The big event of the weekend was cookie baking. We kept it to gingerbread and sugar. Basically, we were focusing on the decorations. I don't love all gingerbread so this worked for me. I wasn't really tempted to eat them. I did share one with Miss Olivia, but that's all. The sugar cookies though, dang...they were much harder to resist. I had 3. I'll call that a win.


And speaking of cookies....OMG they are popping up everywhere at work. HELP! I have been very good and not had any, but it gets harder every day to resist.


Before I went away for the weekend I had my long awaited massage...oh I needed it. It was lovely. And I got a massage from another location as a Christmas gift. YEAH!  Get in there and knead that muscle. Don't be afraid to dig deep!


This past month has been crazy busy. It has also included travel. I haven't always been in charge of what food is available to me. The key has been portion control.  BIG KEY.


I got my first flat tire yesterday. It stressed me. I bought a pack of oreos. ARGH. SO mad at myself. Why should I be so proud of not eating the cookies at work if I'm going to cave at Target?


Ms. Carol's husband got her a treat from Sam's Club. He got a box of Gevalia Mocha Latte Keurig cups. They happened to have peppermint syrup. I enjoyed Peppermint Mocha Lattes all weekend. So much so that I went on a search for them. I found them at Target. I don't have a Keurig, but there is one at work and almost everyone I visit has them. YEAH!  Plus, only 80 calories.


On the way back from the mountains I met former Work Husband Phil and his lovely Bride Jen for dinner...at CRACKER BARREL!  HOLLA!  Eggs in a basket!  I was a happy camper.

So I signed up for the Polar Plunge again. I love this weekend so much. Being around all of the Special Olympics athletes that benefit from the Plunge warms my heart. If you wish to give me a Christmas present please consider donating to this wonderful cause for me:


Have a Blessed Night.

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Tuesday, December 17, 2013

The Biggest Loser: Season 15 Episode 9

Welcome to the Biggest Loser Ranch,

Okay, so I'm a week behind. So sorry. Life has gotten crazy busy. I'll have this week's episode shortly. Although I guess there's no hurry since we have 3 weeks til the next episode.

Let's get back to last week's though.

We start with the challenge.  It's a pop challenge. The losing team will have to work in a Diner all week.

Tanya wants to win. She works in the food industry and is still tempted. She doesn't want to be around that.

There are 4 multiple choice questions regarding obesity and the workplace.

1) Approximately what Percentage of Full-time employees are overweight or obese?
     a) 1/3    b)  1/2   c)  2/3

Both the Red and Blue teams selected C.  White picked B.

The answer is C.

2) According to the Huffington Post, what's the number one source of food that people bring into the office?
    a) food from home    b) fast food   c) food from the grocery store

All of the teams selected B. That is correct.

3) From a survey by CNBC, what occupation has the highest percentage of overweight and obese people?
   a) Transportation workers   b) Business owners   c) clerical/office workers

The White and the Blue team selected A. Red picked C.

The answer is A.

If you are keeping track: Blue has 3 points. Red and White have 2.

4) According to USA Today, what percentage of Administrative Assistants have reported gaining weight since beginning their job?
   a) 48%   b) 69%  c) 78%

The Blue and Red team each pick B. The White team selects A.

The correct answer is B. The White team is going to work in the diner all week. Marie is noticeably upset. She wishes just once that the White team could catch a break.


Checking in with Ruben.

When he started at the Biggest Loser Ranch, Ruben weighed 462 lbs. Today he weighs 350 lbs. He is working on an album release for February.  He is always busy, but makes time for working out. He appreciates the opportunity to get his life back. And he hopes to be in the 200's for the Finale.

The White Team

Jillian is sort of freaking out. She has never felt so cursed.

Then we get a glimpse of a day at the diner.  Marie says it's a challenge and a temptation rolled into one. Jay says that it's just another hurdle. Tumi is wondering how they are going to workout with Jillian after spending all day on their feet. They decide to take some treats back to the Ranch for the Red and Blue teams.


Back on the Ranch

Dolvett reminds his team that they could be serving meatloaf.  David reflects on what life will be like waiting at home.

Rachel admits to Dolvett that she is afraid of the unknown. He tells her to use that fear as fuel.

Tanya thanks Dolvett for his wisdom and not sugar coating  it. The thinks about the Real World and is learning about balance. She is blessed to know Dolvett. It's a big giant Red Team Lovefest. Rachel tells Dolvett that they were put with him for a reason. Jennifer tells him that he has changed her life.

*Sigh...I heart Dolvett...he's so dreamy*

Bob talks about his frustration with Hap. His low numbers are driving him crazy.  Thinking about his 2 lb loss makes him "nuts in the head."  He talks to Hap and wants him to document everything he eats. He wants him to cut out the complex carbs. Hap says that if he pulls another  2 lbs then he's not going to be there anymore.

*Let's go back to last week. Hap was very frustrated with his numbers. He was also frustrated because Bobby didn't seem to work out as much and put up big numbers. Just goes to show you that it's not all about how much you workout. Watching what you eat is just as important.*

Bob has the Team working on the mat.  

Bobby is tired.  Bob is worried about him after last week's big number.

On the mats, Bob has them flipping and rolling. Bobby is having a hard time. He cannot do a forward roll. Bob tells him that he saved the Blue team last week. He's waiting for him to take a turn with his confidence.

*Flipping and rolling may not seem like much, but speaking from experience, after being overweight for so long, discovering how flexible you really are and how much easier simple movements are is an amazing thing.*

The White team gets to the gym at 8pm. Jillian says they look exhausted.  She tells them that when you have less time, how you work out matters more. AMEN!


In the kitchen, the Blue team walks in and sees the Diner food that the White team brought back for them. Matt is calculating the calories in his head. Bobby starts throwing it away. Hap says he will go in the trash. So Bobby and Chelsea pour soap on it. LOVE THAT.

The treats weren't just in the kitchen though. There are some cookies on pillows.


Challenge America

Brita has the kid ambassadors and the First Lady at their headquarters. Start small. They challenge you to drink more water.


In a well placed "The More You Know" spot, Bob stresses portion control. He suggests using smaller plates for meals.


Back at the Ranch,

Dolvett pulls Jennifer aside. She has a 9 year old daughter who is 70 lbs overweight. He had a video chat set up. He offers to train her daughter. He wants her to keep a video diary.

His first workout for her can be done during her favorite show. On commercials he wants her to stand up and sit down repeatedly. He also wants her to focus on proteins and greens for her dinner for 3 weeks.

Jennifer tells her "If I can do it you can." She can't wait to get home and show them all that she has learned.


Weigh In

The Blue team is up first.

Hap started at 332 lbs and now weighs 321 lbs for a total of 11 lbs.
   Bob says that this is the week that he finally listened.
Chelsea started at 185 lbs and now weighs 181 lbs for a total of 4 lbs.
Matt started at 277 lbs and now weighs 268 lbs for a total of 9 lbs.
Bobby started at 272 lbs and now weighs 269 lbs for a total of 3 lbs.
27 lbs 2.53%

The Red team is next. They must lose more than 22 lbs.

David started at 299 lbs and now weighs 294 lbs for a total of 5 lbs.
Tanya started at 212 lbs and now weighs 208 lbs for a total of 4 lbs.
Jennifer started at 207 lbs and now weighs 200 lbs for a total of 7 lbs.
Rachel started at 178 lbs and now weighs 171 lbs for a total of 7 lbs.
23 lbs 2.57%

Last up is the White team. They need to lose more than 16 lbs.

Jay started at 207 lbs and now weighs 201 lbs for a total of 6 lbs.
Marie started at 198 lbs and now weighs 192 lbs for a total of 6 lbs.
Tumi started at 243 lbs and now weighs 234 lbs for a total of 9 lbs.
21 lbs 3.24

Tumi worked at the diner all week and still won the weigh in. HOLLA!

The Blue team lost. Bobby is going home.  He thanks everyone and says that making it to week 9 has been incredible. He knows he still has a lot of work to do. He thanks Bo for making him stronger physically and mentally. I can see a huge difference in him physically.  He is ready to tell his dad that he is gay. He wants to have a new honest relationship with his family.

Next week: The Fall Finale...we're going to Singles!  HOLLA!  Also...2 people will be going home *insert dramatic music*

Have a Blessed Night

****Please note****

If you feel like you are alone on your journey and you just need some encouragement I am here for you! Shoot me an email and I will do my best to check in on you or give you the words of support you need several times a week. The journey is so much easier if you have support.


Wednesday, December 11, 2013

Random Wednesday: Snow, Amnesia, and Florida

Happy CHILLY Random Wednesday,

Well if you live anywhere near me you have been under a blanket of snow and ice for a few days. This has put me a little behind on my holiday preparations. Basically I lost 3 possible shopping days. BAH!  The bonus is that I worked from home the past two days. While that tends to drive me crazy, it was a blessing. I got to work from my bed with my knee elevated.  I did have to force myself to get up and walk around periodically to get the blood flowing.

It sucked food wise. But, this is a great example of "If you buy it, you will eat it." I am like a caged animal when I am forced to be home. Whether I am hungry or not I tend to want to snack all day long. Luckily I had only essentials. There was no extra snacking.


Also thanks to the snow, I had to reschedule my full massage. BAH. That's okay. It was tonight. Oh man did I need it. I hurt. I got some extra time on my legs and glutes.


I was very close to losing my free Starbucks drink *OH THE HORROR*. My original plan was to use it on a Venti Hot Chocolate after the race on Saturday, but I did not have the energy to walk around the finish line to the Starbucks. So then I decided I would use it on Sunday before I headed home.

I had just gotten it when I got a call from Dad telling me how bad the weather was up home and I should plan to stay the night.  I could have napped, but now I was all caffeined up. oops.

Grande white chocolate mocha with peppermint...HEAVEN


How am I still having a hard time accepting that I fit in Mediums and Smalls. It's been a long time, but I still reach for the Large first. I have at least gotten away from XLs. 

I guess the good news is that I'm always pleasantly surprised when the Mediums and Smalls fit. It's like I have size amnesia.


Watching the Biggest Loser makes me ache right now. Why am I not a Fulltime trainer yet???? I know the answer, but it's starting to feel like I am an animal in the zoo who was promised to be let free. I know it's only a few months til everything changes and all, but ugh I hate sitting behind a desk all day.

Trying not to get too excited...but I begin my journey to Floriday next Friday. HOLLA!  I won't actually get there until Sunday night, but that's okay. I am dreaming of shorts and flip flops...


I have sooooooo much to do before I leave for this weekend and next weekend. I have shopping to do. I have packing to do. I have people to visit. When the heck am I getting to the gym???  This week is out, but if I can get most of my stuff done tomorrow then I have a shot at 2 nights next week. And if I get everything done then I can walk at lunch...I'll brave the holiday shopping crowds. It'll be worth it.

Since I'm so booked the key for the next 10 days is most definitely watching what I eat.


Ms. Bibble is still in the hospital. I am feeling so horrible for her, but totally enjoying all of her selfies with the people taking her to x-ray. :-) She's hurting so please keep her in your thoughts and prayers.

No matter how much my legs and knee bothered me after the race there was no complaining. I have it so easy compared to her.

Have a Blessed Night.

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Tuesday, December 10, 2013

The Biggest Loser Season 15 Episode 8

The Biggest Loser Season 15 Episode 8

Sorry it took so long to get to this. I really did mean to watch and post over the weekend, but eh I was a tad tired.

So last we left the Biggest Loser Ranch Holley had just been sent home and then we got the tease that she wasn't the only one going home that night...oohh...ahhh.

One person would be going home and representing their team at the weigh in. The good news is that they would be taking their trainer with them. So now if that team loses it's still whoever falls below the red line. Sucks if someone falls below because their trainer was away for the week.

Marie is in a panic. She doesn't want to go home and be in that environment, but she also doesn't want to be on the Ranch without Jillian.

Each contestant puts their face on the wheel that will be spun.

Hap is looking at this as an opportunity not a challenge. If he can't do it at home with Bob then he can't do it.

Jay is hopeful. He is very homesick.

Tanya doesn't want to see all of the snacks that she didn't throw out.

The wheel spins and Jay's face wins.  He is happy, but Jillian is worried.  She doesn't want to leave the rest of her team. She's also worried that Jay is so homesick that he will be pre-occupied while they are home.

Tumi says that Jay listerally has the weight of the White team on his shoulders.


Jay lives in Farmington, MO. He is tearing up just waiting to go inside to his Welcome home. (It had me crying). They song that was playing when he walked in to the house had the lyrics "Here I am....Change Me".

His wife couldn't believe the transformation.

Jay tells everyone that he isn't alone. He introduces Jillian. She is happy to see all of the support that he will have at home.

Someone asks him if he always wears the hat. He laughs and says yes. Then someone asks what it smells like. I do NOT want to know.


Holley went home last week and we have her follow up.

She started at the Biggest Loser Ranch weighing 351 lbs. Today she weighs 265 lbs.

In the past she loved being big. She succeeded when she was big. She never felt like she needed to change.  She is currently training for a competition. Her goal is to lift the 225 lbs she did on the Ranch. She wants to see if she can do it when she's smaller.

She snatches 220 lbs  and then has a clean and jerk of 240 lbs. Rock on lady!   She is hoping to medal in the 2016 Olympics.


Back at the Ranch, Dolvett sets up a course similar to an NFL combine. He has them running through tires, pushing giant pads, pulling weights, and running over mini hurdles.   Ruben played football when he was 17. His mom sends Dolvett his jersey. It fits again.

Bob has sort of adopted the rest of the White team.

Marie is worried about working out with Bob, but she realizes just how strong she is.

My favorite quote of the night: Bob says that he is thinking about all of that Jillian on one person. "I mean I'm just lighting a candle for Jay every day." haha.


Back in Missouri

There is no gym. They were working out on a farm outside...in the heat. Jillian says she can give you a huge workout with just your body weight. The key is to step out of your comfort  zone.

She has him jumping over hay stacks.

Jay " Jillian can pick up two rocks in a parking lot and make you wish you were somewhere else."


Back at the Ranch Dolvett takes Rachel to the pool. It is her 1st love. Back in 2006 she had a record in the 100 fly in high school. She was in 3 state  championships. She has not been in a competitive pool in 6 years. She was offered scholarships and instead chose her boyfriend. When they broke up she turned to food.   This is very emotional for her.

Dolvett times her...in just his bathing suit and sneakers...oh hello..

She is disappointed in her time 1:24...she does better the next time.

Back in Missouri

Jay shows Jillian the farm where he grew up. It's an emotional journey.

His parents divorced 6 years ago and shortly after that, the home that his mother designed burnt to the ground. There is nothing left but a gaping hole.

Jillian says that Jay keeps trying to move forward without dealing with the losses. He says that he doesn't know how to deal with it. She tells him to just let it be.


Dolvett says that this week's weigh in will be the Red vs Blue vs Jay.  They need to work twice as hard to beat a guy that puts up great numbers every week.

We are at week 8. It is more than halfway over. Jennifer is very happy to still be there.

David has gotten to 100 lbs, but now he can break into the 200's this week.

Dolvett says that for his size, Ruben should be putting up tremendous numbers on the scale.


Jillian has Jay boxing and jumping rope.


Weigh in

Ali welcomes Jay and Jillian back. Jillian tells everyone that Jay worked his butt off.

Red team goes first.

Ruben started at 394 lbs and now weighs 392 lbs for a total of 2 lbs.
Jennifer started at 211 lbs and now weighs 207 lbs for a total of 4 lbs.
Tanya started at 216 lbs and now weighs 212 lbs for a total of 4 lbs.
David started at 306 lbs and now weighs 299 lbs for a total of 7 lbs.
   he got some applause
Rachel started at 183 lbs and now weighs 178 lbs for a total of 5 lbs.
22 lbs 1.68%

Blue goes next. They need to lose more than 18 lbs.

Hap started at 334 lbs and now weighs 332 lbs for a total of 2 lbs.
Matt started at 281 lbs and now weighs 277 lbs for a total of 4 lbs.
Chelsea started at 191 lbs and now weighs 185 lbs for a total of 6 lbs.
Bobby started at 284 lbs and now weighs 272 lbs for a total of 12 lbs.
  Hap says the loves Bobby for saving them, but hates him because he doesn't work as hard.
  *Haps comments about Bobby this week annoy the crap out of me. Maybe he isn't working out as hard, but clearly he is doing something right.
24 lbs 2.2 %

It's White's turn.

Marie started at 203 lbs and now weighs 198 lbs for a total of 5 lbs.
   Someone is in One-derland!
Tumi started at 250 lbs and now weighs 243 lbs for a total of 7 lbs.

Jay needs to lose more than 3 lbs.
Jay started at 219 lbs and now weighs 207 lbs for a total of 12 lbs.
   Jillian loves him. She says that he has her heart.

The Red team loses. Ruben is going home.

Dolvett tells him that he came there unhealthy, but he is leaving healthier than he has ever been.  He has lost 70 lbs. Ruben says that he will be the "baddest, finest, freshest person in the theater at the finale."

"America, the next time you see me I will still be your Velvet Teddy Bear, but without all of the stuffing." LOVE THAT!

Have a Blessed Night

****Please note****

If you feel like you are alone on your journey and you just need some encouragement I am here for you! Shoot me an email and I will do my best to check in on you or give you the words of support you need several times a week. The journey is so much easier if you have support.


Monday, December 9, 2013

Race Weekend Part 1 - Go Time!

Hello Beautiful People!

Let me just start by saying that it was a wonderful wonderful weekend. I'm sorry that it's taken so long to recap it. I hope it's worth the wait for you.

Has it really only been 2 years since my first Half Marathon? The Former Fat Girl never thought she would complete a 5K let alone go for a 6th Half Marathon in two years. Thank you for joining me on this journey.


Friday afternoon I was in a panic. It was raining and I had just broken in new sneakers the weekend before. Was I seriously about to ruin brand new sneakers? Argh. I could wear an older pair, but if the roads were wet then I wanted that peace of mind that I had good traction. I risk nothing with my knee.

So as I was pulling into town I was a little early. What is a girl to do? I ran to the Reebok outlet again. The same sale was on. HOLLA!  So I picked up two new pairs. So now if I ruined my sneakers in the mud I would be okay. More than okay. I'm good for my next couple of Halves. Woo Woo!  I also picked up some more of the compression running socks that I fell in love with. I don't mess around with my feet. I also picked up some spray to water proof my sneakers. Mine are all mostly mesh. Which is great for expansion, but not great when it rains.

I also stopped at the Under Armour outlet.  I had a long sleeve shirt to wear, but I wanted to see what other options there were. I tried on about 6 shirts. Without even realizing it, I had 3 neon yellow shirts and 3 teal. They were all long sleeve. Some with hoods. I really really liked this  neon yellow turtleneck one. The turtleneck had a mesh area so you could cover your mouth and nose to keep the cold out. It also had built in mittens. Oh heck yeah!  I loved the yellow, but after last week's wardrobe malfunction with my new white sportsbra I would be wearing a hot pink bra for the race. Could you see it through the yellow? I wasn't willing to take that chance. They didn't have a medium in this beautiful purple one so I got a large. I was happy though.

Dear Santa, I would take any color in a medium:


And then it was time to pick up my bib and shirt at the race tent. This is my third year at this race and I have loved watching it grow. This time there were a bunch of venders in addition to the packet pick ups in the tent. They had also added more spots for the race. It sells out every year.

I happily picked up my shirt and took a look at the shirts and sweatshirts. I love that they sell the previous year's shirts for a few bucks. I love last year's and wear it all of the time in the cold. I picked up another one ( a small unisex) and looked at the sweatshirts. I was in LOVE with a purple one. They had one left and it was a medium. Honestly, I needed a small, but I loved the purple. Oh yeah, I got one. Of course it didn't hurt that it was cold and rainy at the time. I'm an easy sell at that point.

Since I was using a card I had to go into the store to pay for it. I was on my way in when I saw the stand with the compression sleeves. I have wanted a good pair forever. And after September's strange calf cramps I opted to treat myself. Merry Christmas to me. I could not wait to get home and put them on.

I LOVE walking up and down Rehoboth Avenue at night during the Holidays. Race weekend is electric!  Pun intended :-)

I drove by Mr. Brian's and my new favorite Hot Chocolate cafe, but alas they are closed for the season. *Insert sad face* No matter, it was time to get to dad's and let the Carb Loading begin!  It was dad's birthday and he picked a favorite of ours for dinner. We went for italian so that I could feast on pasta ...I heart Carb Loading night! (I started the day with a soft pretzel at lunch). My plate of angel hair pasta with marinara sauce and meatballs was too much. I had to get some to go. But it was yummy!

When we got home I put on the compression sleeves and got ready for bed. We needed to leave at 6 am. Race time is 7 am. I was tired, but I was also excited.  The facebook group page for the marathon was lighting up. People were asking questions: What time is everyone getting there?  Where can I get socks? Does anyone want to pace with me? etc.

*On a side note, social media has really made this journey great. I only knew one other person running this race personally, and I had only met him last weekend, but I knew of so many others because of Facebook, Twitter, and Instagram.

When it was time to get up I shot out of bed. Race mornings seem to be the only mornings that I never hit Snooze. haha. I should have a race every day!  NOT. I got ready with my new shirt, running leggings, and my running cap. And for a moment I didn't even recognize the woman in the mirror looking back at me. Who is that? She's so skinny...with some rockin boobs!

Dad was driving me and we left on time. As we got close it was hard to find a parking spot. What's the preference? Park close to the start or the finish?  I've done both. Last year we were closer to the start, but it was such a long walk back to the car after it was over...remember my hypothermia? So Dad dropped me off and went to park. I wasn't sure if I was going to see him before the start.

I headed to the boardwalk and got ready. I needed to put on my running belt, put my phone in it, and get my ipod ready. And I was cold. COLD. It was a balmy 39 degrees. It didn't seem to be raining any more, but it was still cold. Luckily I had brought one of my previous silver wraps from the finish line. It traps the heat in. I just couldn't seem to hold it on while I was trying to get my water bottle ready. Doh.

My race plan for the day was originally: Run 5, walk 1, run 5, walk 1, run 1.1. Since my previous races this year involved tight hamstrings and the most bizarre calf cramps known to mankind, I needed to make sure the muscles got a little rest.

A few minutes after 7 we were off and running. I am not fast so I always hang towards the back at the start. I'm in this for me and I'm not about to hold someone up. I moved to the left in case I would see dad on my way down the street. About two blocks in I saw him on the curb. YAY! *My first song of the race was the Rocky Theme song...this is a good sign*

So we're running down Rehoboth Avenue away from the boardwalk and I'm trying to decided when I want to shed my wrap.  I have my mouth and nose covered with my shirt and I have my throw away bright orange gloves on. It wasn't easy to run and hold it on, but I had done this course two other times. I knew that we were running away from the beach now, but in a little over a mile we would be heading back towards it. No matter how warm I was starting to get, it was staying on until I passed the beach.

At mile one I checked my time and I was doing well. I was at my training pace. Woo woo. Only 12 more to go!  We ran up towards the beach and I did feel a tad cooler. Mile 2 was parallel with the ocean and would then turn towards it down towards a state park. That's also the area where I saw the leaders starting to head back. They were finishing up mile 4.

I was warm and I threw off the wrap at the first water stop right by mile 2. I still had my gloves on. I also dropped the shirt from my face. I was suddenly aware that my nose had been running and it was smack dab right in there. eww.  But, it kept me from a dry throat and tight lungs. I'll make that trade any day.

Okay, this is really one of my least favorite parts of the race. This stretch before you get to turn around and head back is awful. Why? Do you know what it's like to have a couple thousand people running toward you? When you aren't fast it SUCKS. I try not to let it get to me. After all, I'm getting faster. My knee is a mess. I'm not going to get that fast over night. Two years ago for my first race I walked the whole thing. This time I am running most of it. Progress!  It's just a good thing that there are so many good looking gents running towards me. :-)

I got to the turn around and started heading back on mile 3. Ahhh...feeling good and still holding pace. And more importantly I was encouraging all of those that I passed in the other direction. That always means so much to me when people I don't know help to pump me up.

I shed my gloves at the next water stop on mile 4. I was getting warm. I also noticed something. I had found my pace group. I don't run well with others. I have to go at my own pace, but I seemed to find about 10 people that stuck together for the last couple of miles. Some were running the Half and some were running the Full. The ladies in front of me were wearing jackets that said they were running marathons in all 50 states. AWESOME!

When we approached mile 5 I saw my first good sign of the day "Making this sign wasn't easy either". Ha. I gave him a thumbs up. When I got to the water stop at mile 5 I cringed. This is where everything changed last year. This is when I slowed down in my shorts and it got colder. I couldn't quite recover. My muscles tightened and it was a painful painful painful remaining 8 miles.

Forget that. I was feeling good. But now, what do I do? My plan was to start walking now, but I know that I will probably be running in mud in 2 miles. New race plan: Run til I hit mud, then walk til the mud is gone. Repeat.

I was on mile 6 when I saw the leader heading back towards the finish line. At least I was further along this time!  I also noticed some pretty funny signs at this time. It appeared that there were two friends racing each other in the Full. Some of the signs were a tad raunchy, and I hope they made them laugh. "If Marathon's were easy they would be called Jen *****". Nice.

Since I was starting to see racers coming at me I started to look at their shoes. Were they muddy? It didn't appear that they looked too bad. Hmm...So at this time I reached under my shirt to adjust my race belt and pull up my pants. I could feel that my phone was now in the crook of my back. That's fine. I'm not getting it out, but I could also feel my belly. It was ice cold. The area between the top of the pants and the bottom of the sports bra was completely numb. I could feel it with my warm hands, but my belly did not feel my hands at all. Well crap, that can't be good.

I was also noticing that my belt was now cutting off my body in another area...I was starting to look like the michelin man under my spandex...um...not my best look.

Okay, so we finished mile 6 and headed into the trails. I'm still with my pace group. Holla!  When we got to the muddy areas I was pleasantly surprised that they weren't as bad as I anticipated. They weren't great, but they weren't that bad. I was still forced to slow down and walk around them, but there were large areas in between them.

So now what do I do? Do I run? Do I walk? I'm now off of my race plan. My body said go for it and my brain was screaming "This is how you get into trouble!  You need to rest the muscles a little bit! LISTEN TO ME!"  What you need to know is that right then Ricky Martin started yelling at me through my ipod "Do You Really Want It???"  HELL YES I DO!

So my new plan was: walk through the mud spots and run the rest. I chose to listen to my body again and not my brain. Let's hope this time it doesn't backfire...again!  I think I saw Mr. Brian's friend pass me the other way on this mile (knowing his time now I'm fairly certain it was him). And soon I was at the end of mile 8 at the next water stop.  I was feeling good. Really good. My time was great. It fell off a little in the mud, but I was much further than I had expected.

Towards the end of mile 9 is the turn around. Full marathoners keep going. Half marathoners turn around. This is the first time that I was still hanging with some marathoners. I cheered them on as they went on their way and that was really the first time that I thought "I think I am ready...I can do that next year!".  Just try to wipe the smile off of my face!

So now there were just over 4 miles to go. I felt good. I felt great. I saw a pregnant lady heading towards me on the way back. She had a great walking pace. Loved it!  And I saw many many people just plugging along. You Got This!

When I got to the end of mile 10 I forced myself to walk a little. I started to panic about cramps. It wasn't the full mile though because the more I walked the cooler my muscles got. My hamstrings and glutes started to tighten up. OH NO WAY!  I will not be taken down by a frozen butt!  So I made it a light run. At this point I was still heading for a Personal Record even if I walked the rest. I was happy.

I was never so happy to get out of the trail though. Just a mile and a half to go. The trail blocks the wind and I felt the cold as soon as I came out. It slowed me down. On the last mile I passed a gentleman with a walker. It looked like his parents and maybe a brother were with him. I cheered him on and wiped away the tears. #Inspiring.

*I have since learned via Facebook that this gentleman broke his neck over a year ago in a diving accident. He walked 2.6 miles during the race with his family as his brother ran the Full Marathon. This was his longest walk since the accident.

At the next corner I opted to walk for the next -part. I know that I was so close to the finish, but I also knew I needed to tap into my reserve. The last thing I wanted to do was cramp up on the final stretch. That might possibly kill me. I was also enjoying some more signs. I don't know Noreen, but her son was leaving some good messages along the way. In one he asked her to pick up some more beer on the way to the finish line since he drank it all. When I passed the cop at that last big intersection I asked if he wanted to carry me the rest of the way, he said he would be happy to. haha. Just kidding, it was time to take off.

Amazingly I was still with most of my pace group. We were a little more spread out, but everyone was in sight. We sort of got into rhythm with each other.  As we passed the 26 mile marker for the Full marathoners I kicked it into gear. Usually I sprint the last .1 but this time I sprinted the last .2 miles. And that's when I saw my dad standing on the corner. I was so excited.

And then I saw my time. I did it!  I met my goal.  And in all honesty, I felt like I could go another 5miles easily. Not only did I get a Personal Record, but I smashed my course record by 30 minutes...and more importantly: I WAS INJURY FREE! HOLLA!!!  OMG that alone was the greatest feeling ever. So great that I decided right then and there to begin my training for my first full marathon on 1/1. I am going to do this!

They gave me my new heat wrap and medal and I went in search for Dad. My chest hurt though...good lord it's the biggest medal. I feel like Flava Flav carrying a clock around my neck. haha. As I was looking for dad one of the ladies in my pace group stopped me and thanked me for pacing her. We hugged. It was magical. And then I found my dad and got my big hug. Ahhh...it was over.


I've never been in the tent with so many people before. It was wall to wall people. Luckily my body knew were to go...it had honed in on the pancakes and the mac'n'cheese....and I got a burger.

I met dad outside of the tent and found a picnic table to sit and eat...and put my feet up. Then I got a little starstruck. I follow a lot of runners on Twitter and Instagram. I've seen before that we've run the same races, but I've never seen anyone in person. I happened to see one of my favorite follows walking by. I yelled out her instagram name and she came over to say hi. Sadly her sons had been sick that week and she got really sick on mile 13 of her Full. She had to pull out. She's so amazing. I was giddy to take my picture with her...even though I look like an elf. My running cap was no longer covering my ears and I look a little silly. Don't care. Follow: nycrunningmama

After I ate we headed towards the van to go home. I was happy and feeling good, but my body was shutting down and ready for rest...and a shower.

I inspected my sneakers and they didn't fair too bad. I think they will be fine with a wash.  I kicked them off though for my slides and eased into the seats...the heated seats. ahhh...New Rule: Anyone who drives me to a race MUST have heated seats.

When we got home I took the hottest shower ever. Seriously, I didn't feel it. And then I looked down and my whole body was pink. I think I was a tad cold. Naturally I was home when I realized that I had packed the little heat packs to hold when the race was over. DOH!

After my shower I put on the compression sleeves and got out my ice packs for  my knees. I definitely needed some recovery time...but not too much, I was getting hungry again!

Stay tuned for Part 2: Eat Anything I Want On Race Weekend

Have a Blessed Night.

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Thursday, December 5, 2013

Tomorrow is Carb Loading Day! The Greatest of ALL Days

Hello my Lovelies and Gents,

I still have not gotten to watch The Biggest Loser. I'll try to do that this weekend.

So we are two days away from the next Half Marathon. It's been two years since my first one. What an amazing two years.

Tomorrow I am working from home until noon and then heading down to the beach to pick up my packet. Tomorrow begins my favorite parts of the weekend...CARB LOADING! I want to carb load EVERY day. I love the Rock'n'Roll races, but they do not put on a post race spread like Rehoboth...HOLLA!  Mac'n'cheese. Burgers. Pancakes. All of my favorites.  NOW I'm excited!

I'm excited to test and push myself again, but I'll be honest. I'm looking forward to it being over and I can relax. My body is TIRED. I have had the hardest time getting up the last couple of days.  And I didn't even workout the past two days.

I was nervous about taking two days off this week, but my body needs the rest. BADLY. I'm no good Saturday if I'm exhausted.  I needed this rest for another reason. It wouldn't be race time without an injury. GAH!  Why can't I have ONE without one???  My Achilles tendon has been bothering me for a few weeks. I don't always feel it, but with all of the additional mileage I am putting on in my car and on my feet it's not going away. Grrr

It felt super tender on Monday during my massage. It was really bothering me today, but it wasn't as tender during the massage tonight.  I did some exercises to help it so hopefully that help.

So now I have my new compression running socks on and my feet are up.

Oh crap. Gotta go. Scandal is on!

Have a Blessed Night

****Please note****

If you feel like you are alone on your journey and you just need some encouragement I am here for you! Shoot me an email and I will do my best to check in on you or give you the words of support you need several times a week. The journey is so much easier if you have support.


Wednesday, December 4, 2013

Ho Ho Ho It's Random Wednesday!

Ho Ho Ho It's Random Wednesday!

Today was mammogram day at work. Gotta love when they come to you.  And so I went and had my yearly today. Nothing like whipping off your shirt in a conference room. haha. It was the same lady from last year and she was very nice. She squashed my boobs and was able to tell me that nothing abnormal showed up. But, it still needs to be compared to last year. I'm good with that.

I did feel bad because it's bagel day and I accidentally had a jalapeno bagel. I meant to take mouthwash with me to the ladies room, but I forgot. Oops.

So last night I met a friend for dinner so I missed Biggest Loser. I will have to watch it On Demand. So don't anyone say what happened. Please.


Do you remember how excited I was for my new jeans?  Well I must have still been bloated from Thanksgiving when I tried them on. They are loose. I had considered ordering a new smaller pair on Cyber Monday, but I decided to hold off. One of two things are going to happen: I am either going to continue to lose weight or once the race is over I may actually gain a couple pounds back if I'm not running so much. So I shall buy a belt and wait until after Christmas. Plus, I have a Florida trip to pay for.


A couple of weeks ago I mentioned that I went to visit Ms. Bibble because she had broken her ankle. Well things weren't healing properly and she ended up back in the hospital right before Thanksgiving. She was later transferred to another hospital and had surgery yesterday to replace the screws.

I cannot even begin to imagine what she's going through. The physical pain. The emotional pain.  She is a trooper though and I am so proud of her.

Right now my life is sooooooo active. If I had a setback such as a broken ankle or worse I just don't know what I would do. The Former Fat Girl would have almost enjoyed it. It would have been the perfect excuse not to be active and of course the perfect excuse for treats.


Monday night I went to the gym figuring on a light upper body workout and a massage. I needed to at least walk a mile on the treadmill to loosen up my legs, but that's all I had planned to do on it.

The gym was packed!  I guess a lot of people were making up for Thanksgiving. The treadmills were available, but the machines and mats were all taken. And so after my mile I stalked one ab machine and then called it a night. Honestly, I was still tired from the weekend. And so I got my massage.

When it was running over my calves I practically leapt off of the table. They were soooooo tender. :-(  I hope they are better by Saturday.


I was talking with someone about online dating recently. He asked if I was on any sites. I said no. He said it's interesting, but the rejections are hard to take. Doesn't matter who you are, there will be online rejections.

It doesn't appeal to me, but yeah, that's something I don't want to deal with. That's an emotional trigger to eat for me. Plus, I get upset when I lose a twitter follower so I'll pass thanks.

Alright so last night when we met for dinner I selected Rock Bottom Brewery. I picked it because we could watch the Syracuse hoops game and....well they have those Soft Pretzels that I dream about. So you can imagine my joy when the arrived at the table!  It was an appetizer night. We ordered the soft pretzels and the mini pork tacos that I liked last time.

That's right. I had a soft pretzel for dinner!  Now in all fairness, it was to be a carb load for a distance night for tonight. Things changed on that front though.


I am going to lose my mind. Everywhere I turn I see Peppermint bark!


So the forecast for this weekend ain't so hot. In fact, Friday is supposed to rain all day. And then Saturday is cold with showers. Not cool.  And the bigger problem is that I just bought new sneakers for the race...and well half of it is on a trail..that means mud. I could wear an older pair, but I want to make sure I have traction on the wet asphalt.

Who wants to buy me new sneakers after Saturday?


My right quad has been bothering me. And I figured it out that it's all of the running and driving. argh. I need a driver.


When we were deciding where to meet last night it was suggested that I wait by a certain mall entrance.  There just happens to be a Gertrude Hawk store there. Seriously? You're gonna make me wait by a chocolate store?

When we were leaving my friend bought me some chocolate. We got a couple pieces of dark chocolate salted caramels to split. MARRY ME!  They were YUMMY!

I know that goes against my No Treats except that when a boy buys you your most favorite chocolate you eat it! Right there.  Two pieces. #Moderation


So tonight's distance walk was cancelled. Instead a friend went with me to visit Ms. Bibble in the hospital. I am squeamish and it was not pretty. There are rods going through her leg in all sorts of directions. I seriously had to fight the urge to throw up at least 5 times. The leg looked better than it did before, but that doesn't mean I can handle it...or all of the medical talk. Ugh.  That was my workout tonight.

Ms. Bibble, I love you and you are doing so well!  You amaze me!


Time to update your playlists! YEAH. I need something new. This is perfect timing.

Whatever your tastes, there should be something in here that'll make you want to break a sweat.
Here's the full list, according to votes placed at Run Hundred--the web's most popular workout music blog.
Gavin DeGraw - Best I Ever Had - 136 BPM
Demi Lovato - Neon Lights (Betty Who Remix) - 126 BPM
Zendaya - Replay (Riddler Remix) - 130 BPM
Zedd & Hayley Williams - Stay the Night (Henry Fong Remix) - 129 BPM
The Fray - Love Don't Die - 116 BPM
One Direction - Best Song Ever (Kat Krazy Remix) - 127 BPM
Eminem & Rihanna - The Monster - 111 BPM
Ellie Goulding - Burn (Magic Man Remix) - 87 BPM
Flo Rida - How I Feel - 128 BPM
Avicii - Wake Me Up (Avicii Speed Remix) - 126 BPM

To find more workout songs, folks can check out the free database at RunHundred.com. Visitors can browse the song selections there by genre, tempo, and era—to find the music that best fits with their particular workout routine.

Have a Blessed Night.

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Tuesday, December 3, 2013

Thanksgiving Part 2

Happy Monday Bleeps! (Ha clearly I started this yesterday)

OMG why did I get up for sunrise for 3 days on my mini vacation? Oh yeah, cause it was BEAUTIFUL...but I paid dearly today. Know what I mean?

Okay so where were we?  Oh yeah, when last I left you I was getting ready to go for the Christmas Tree Lighting. YEAH! I headed over a little early. We had gotten an email that they had sold out and then extended the registration. They encouraged anyone who could to stop by and pick up their bib and shirt the day before. They ran out of shirts previously and well I wanted to make sure I got mine.  So I pulled in right before they closed and got my neon green shirt...gotta say LOVE IT!  I still don't understand how the girl who used to LOVE the slimming/hiding the fat black clothes will now sport neon that just scream "LOOK AT MY BODY!"

The beach was mobbed. I was there 90 minutes early and could barely find a spot. If I didn't know any better I would have thought that it was July.  But, I did find a special hidden parking area and headed towards the tree. Since I was early and it was cold I stopped by our new favorite cafe for my second cup of Hot Chocolate for the day. This time I got a peppermint Hot Chocolate...it did NOT disappoint.

When I made it over to the tree I was just bubbling up with excitement. They handed me a book with all of the songs and a glow necklace to wear. The only problem was that I was a little hungry and all I could smell was pizza and french fries. I wanted to go get some soooo bad. But, we were having dinner after. I could hold out...I think.

While I was waiting for Mr. Brian and his family to arrive I was looking around and the first thing that came to my mind was "I watch too many Hallmark Christmas movies because this could be one. This is exactly how it would go meeting Mr. Right." So I immediately started looking around at my prospects. haha. Nothing happened...but I haven't given up hope for my Hallmark moment!
So we found each other and the singing began. I was in Christmas heaven. We sang Christmas Caroles for 30 minutes and then Santa lit the tree...after some technical difficulties. It was glorious. And then it was time to move on. We were all going back to the house for dinner and family time. But, we were still cold...so there was another quick trip for some Hot Chocolate.

Hello my name is Jennie and I'm addicted to Hot Chocolate. I didn't eat my calories over Thanksgiving. I drank them.

They were out of the traditional HoCho, but they did have Azteca Hot Chocolate...with cinnamon, almond, and vanilla. O.M.G. It was out of this world. Unbelievably amazing. I did not feel guilty at all.

Okay, so we were walking back to my car when we passed a candy story. They are all over the boardwalks, but this one was not one of the chains. It was smaller. The picture in the window had: Peppermint Stick Fudge...HELLO!  I had to go look. Sadly, they were all out. I felt like a little kid who accidentally let go of her balloon. I can see it...but I can't touch it. I will be going back this weekend. As it is my "Eat ANYTHING I want after a Race Weekend." I WANT THAT FUDGE!

So back at the house there was pizza, salad, and desserts. I had one slice of pizza and salad. I held off on the desserts as I already had 3 Hot Chocolates that day. Eventually the boys and I went down into the newly finished mancave basement. They enjoyed some beers and I hit the water. The new fancy water cooler had three options: Hot, room temperature, and Cold. Cold please!  I cannot drink room temperature water. I just can't.

I literally lost count of how many glasses I had, but I'm good with that. I drank a lot of Hot Chocolate instead of water that day. The boys started playing darts and I was suddenly aware that I had been up since before sunrise...and we were planning on getting for sunrise again before our race. So I crashed on the recliner and enjoyed watching a Bon Jovi concert...mmmm Jon Bon Jovi!  He's still so dang sexy!

I could no longer stay awake and went up to bed. I passed out immediately and before I knew it my alarm was going off. The good news is that we were closer to the boardwalk and I wasn't going to shower first since we had the race at 9. I got some extra sleep, but not much.

So I got up and put on my running tights and the new race shirt. I think this is the first time that I've actually worn the shirt for the actual race. Although I usually am dressed for the race when I pick them up.  I also put on my new neon yellow jacket. Awesome! Neon yellow and green. No chance on losing me!  My running tights weren't going to cut it, so I put my plaid flannel pj pants on over top.  There we go!  And off we went.

Another Beautiful Sunrise...this time it was 1 degree warmer, however the wind was a plenty. It felt like it was 20 degrees colder. Big shout out to Heather who gave me my Christmas present early specifically for the weekend. She gave me a running cap with a ponytail hole. It was specifically to keep my head warm. And it worked!  Still figuring out how to wear it, but It worked!

After sunrise we still had some time to kill before the race so we went to Starbucks for a bagel and something warm to drink. We split a bagel and I don't want to shock you, but I did not get a Hot Chocolate. I got the Caramel Apple Spice instead. YUM!  I couldn't deal with milk in my belly before a run.

After that we went over to get the shirts for Mr. Brian and his family. I saw the porta-potties and thought there was no way. I would run back to Starbucks and go there, but there were actual bathrooms at the park too so I was okay. We went back to my car to get ready. There had been talk of walking it. In which case I wanted to keep on an extra layer, but if there was any chance of running I had to lose one because I would overheat. The decision was made and  I stripped down to my tights, shirt, and just the running jacket. I lost the pj bottoms and two jackets.

We met up with Ms. Chrissy and her young'in Mr. Ian. He is 10 and this was his first race. I'll spare you the suspense and tell you now that he left us all in the dust. Oh the energy of a 10 year old. There was no pacing. No music to push. Just pure energy.

Before the race started they let us know that there was a young man in a wheelchair that would be participating. He was in a special chair that was being powered by another man in a wheelchair behind him. They were going to start early to get ahead of everyone. How awesome!

The race started and we started running. We were doing good and I told Mr. Brian we would go at his pace. It has been a while since his last run so we slowed down when he wanted to. We were keeping a good pace and ran into the young man in the wheelchair on mile 2. Shhh...I cried tears of joy after I screamed encouragement for him. It also might have been tears of pain because just moments before that I whacked my elbow on the metal parking meter. *Still have a bruise*

As we moved onto the boardwalk I realized that I had a problem...my left boob was popping out of my new sports bra. WHAT?  I have the same bra in a different color and this has never happened. So I stuck my hand in and shoved it back in...only to have it pop out again. COME ON!  I don't even want to think about what I look like in some people's pictures.  So basically I ran the second half of the race with my hand down my bra.

We finished strong and were ready for some pie!  I forgot to mention that this was no ordinary Turkey Trot. No, this was the: Huff, Puff, & Race for Pumpkin Pie. Yep, pie at the finish line. We stretched and got in the long line. I'm not a Pumpkin pie fan. It's sort of my least favorite pie, but I was all over getting a bagel or something. They didn't have any bagels, but they did have Apple Pie!  Yes please!  We ate and then we started to feel the cold. Our body temps were dropping and our extra layers were in the car. I'll give you one guess as to where we went next.  For Hot Chocolate of course!  And this time we were getting food.

We weren't the only ones. It was packed with runners, but we managed to get a table. I had my eye on a spinach and feta croissant for some time...so that's what I got with my Salted Caramel HoCho. Oh soo good.

By the time we parted and I got home for a shower it was 1pm. Even though I stretched my muscles were tight from the cold and the driving. It may have been the best shower ever. I was pretty much worthless after that. I was still tired from Sunrise. I don't even remember what I did that afternoon. I think I watched tv.

We had leftovers for dinner and even with one serving each I was full. OH I do know that I watched the Alabama/Auburn game. That was some great excitement!

I went into the living room to watch a movie with my Stepmom after that. The movie was only 1:23...and I think I only saw 10 minutes of it. I was out. And that's okay because the next day was another sunrise. :-)

I made it just in time. And it was GORGEOUS! We spent most of it on the beach and it was hard to tear away from, but we needed to get breakfast and then I had to get over to my next race. It was sad to say goodbye to Mr. Brian. I hadn't seen him since last Thanksgiving and I miss him, but I had no time to dawdle. I had no idea where I was going.  And frankly I was wondering why I chose to sign up for two that weekend.

And then as I pulled in I remembered why. It benefits Special Olympics and you know how much that makes me smile. There were no questions when I got there. I was doing this.   Luckily packet pickup was in the Fitness center...with REAL bathrooms!  And they let us leave our shirts and water bottles there until after the race.

I was smiling like crazy at the start line. I ran into people that I have met at the past Polar Plunge weekends. Again, so many walkers. They just want to support it. You don't have to run. It's all good.

Okay so for this race I was wearing my new camo running pants. I opted against my running belt because I was going to run with my running bottle. I could keep my phone and id in it and I could keep my keys in my jacket pocket.

So the race starts and I had started in the back. I decided to run until the knees hurt. Then I would stop. Except that I had a problem...my brand new running pants started falling down when I was in a fast run. Doh!  If I had worn my running belt I would have been fine. So the first mile I spent pulling up my pants. By mile two I figured out that they would stay up at a slower run pace. This was probably good because I didn't want to push it too much after running the day before.

There was one section of the race that put us out on the highway for 3 blocks. My original plan was:Walk in the sun and Run in the shade. The highway was in the sun...and I was wearing my camo running pants...I was a runnin! That's for dang sure.

My finish time was almost exactly the same as the day before. I was good with that. If not for the wardrobe malfunctions they would have been really good.

Do you know what the best kind of pizza is?  It's post race pizza!

I really wanted to stay and talk to people. It broke my heart to leave, but I had to get to church....in my camo and neon...I left my bib on so they wouldn't think I was a nut job. haha.

When I got back to dad's I started packing up. I was fine as I was moving. When I finally sat down that was the end of me. The drive home was icky, but I needed to get home to put my tree up. I don't think that's ever taken me so long. haha. It's okay though. It's up and it's pretty. Yes, I have a Christmas tree in my bedroom :-)  I am THAT girl!

Have a Blessed Night

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