Wednesday, November 30, 2011

Buon Italian dinner a week after Thanksgiving? This is torture.

Hello beautiful people,

Good news!  I got a new camera today.  Yeah. It's way nicer than my old one and this one will stay out of the ocean.

So tomorrow is a work event.  We had been told to keep the day free, but we didn't know where we were going until today.  We're going Italian.  ACK!  I asked to see the menu.  There are three things that are semi healthy (that I can eat...there is some seafood, but that would kill me...well not kill, but I would end up in the ER for the night).  We don't know if we will have access to the full menu or not.  So here's the thing, my favorite meal is eggplant parmesan.  I could eat that forever. I could have that tomorrow.  But, I think it would actually make me sick.

It would be so heavy in my system. Now I know what you're thinking: But Jennie, you can have just a little bit. Can I?  I think we both know that the answer is no.  I did well at Thanksgiving with my portions, but that was because I knew there was pecan pie coming later.  The smell alone tomorrow may just kill me. 

My willpower can only take so much.  Today someone brought in a bunch of soft pretzels.  Oh yeah, they sat on the desk across from me all day.  I did well and I didn't have any.  I wanted one, but I did not have one.  The bin of candy at the desk next to me got filled again.  I have resisted and not had any.  The jar of candy cane Hershey kisses have been at an unmanned desk all week.  I have resisted and not had any.  Really, a girl can only take so much.

After work I ran to pick up my new camera before Choir.  While I was at the store I got the news that choir was canceled. This meant that I could run to Target to pick up some groceries.  I had bananas, water, yogurt, and cheese sticks in my bag...and then I accidentally walked down the candy aisle.  Okay, it wasn't such an accident.  I saw the godiva chocolate and it was like my body was being pulled in that direction.  I remembered a coupon I had for a lindt chocolate bar.  They had a coconut white chocolate bar.  Um yes please.  I can make it last a few days. 

Yeah, that didn't happen.  I ate the whole thing tonight.  Felt a little stress and that's all it took.  I shouldn't have bought it.  I knew deep down that it wouldn't last a day. :-(

So I have been resting my knee for a couple of days.  The marathon is 10 days away and it has been really bad since Monday.  It feels much better and I'm planning on walking at lunch and after work before the dinner.  I won't push it too hard, but I need to walk.  I'm hoping that if I can get 5-6 miles in tomorrow that will help with the dinner. Wish me luck.

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Biggest Loser - Episode 11

It's my favorite week on the Biggest Loser Ranch.  It's MAKEOVER WEEK!

It's also my favorite challenge.  It's Put Your Weight Back On Time.  The remaining contestants put on weight packs with the amount of weight they lost each week.  Then they must climb a mountain.  Every so often there is a weigh in drop off.  They take off the weight they lost for each week.  The winner gets a 1lb advantage at the weigh in.  Really though, they all get SOOOO much out of this challenge.    When they realize just how much weight they were carrying around and how much easier it is on their body when they lose the weight.  Get out the's a good moment.

Now it's Makeover time!

The first step is a spa day.  Massages...Facials...good stuff.  Then it is time for shopping.  So the chick from the Style network is on this year.  I WANT TIM GUNN BACK!

Antone is the first one up...Mister gets a suit...hasn't worn one in Years.  Next up is Vinny.  Vinny is in one of my favorite Country Trios (that's right...I've seen him twice at Toby Keith Concerts).  He is famous for his overalls.  They are not allowed in Beverly Hills.  Soon it's John's time. She won't let him go for the blues and blacks (the fat person's favorite colors).  He comes out in a light coat.  Very nice boys.

And now for the Ladies.  Miss Becky is up first.  We don't see anything before they talk to Sunny.  She admits that she hates shopping. She comes out in a pretty dress and heels...and then Miss Becky comes out in a FABULOUS size 10 blue dress.  You Go Lady!

Once the clothes are purchased they head over for the hairstyles.

After the makeovers, the contestants are given the red carpet treatment. They arrive in a limo at the Kodak Theatre.  There is a red carpet with a crowd and photographers.  It's a shock to the system when you are used to hiding from the cameras.

Soon they are sent inside for a private showing of Cirque Du Soliel.  But, you know they aren't going to see it alone...awwww...time for some family members to pop up.  There were some touching moments.  Becky's husband got down on his knee and put her engagement ring on her finger (she hadn't been able to wear it in years).  When Vinny was sitting with Bob and his girlfriend he expressed concern about his future.  He is the "fun fat guy".  Will people still expect him to be the person who eats for fun? 

Time to go back to the Ranch.  Makeover week is fun, but they lose a lot of gym time.  The trainers hate that.  So these last chance workouts are brutal.  Two of the three teams only have one person left.  While they are competing as individuals, they still belong to a trainer.  Two trainers are in danger of not making it to the end.

This is the final weigh before they go home. They will be back for the marathon.

The weigh ins...well it was makeover week.  Sunny only lost a pound (but she's in One-derland YEAH SUNNY). Bob isn't even her trainer any more and he's pissed.  Antone gets up there and drops 8lbs.  John is next and needs to lose 6lbs (that includes his 1lb advantage) to stay.  He got 9.  WOW.  Vinny comes up BIG with a 10lb drop. He's in the final four.  Miss Becky is up and needs to lose 4lbs to be safe.  Miss Thang pulls a 5!

Now I am sad.  I love Antone and Sunny.  I hate to see either go home. Sadly, Sunny goes home.  Although, I loved seeing her update!  She looks Fantastic!  She is back to teaching and her life is working out and work right now.  Three days a week she goes to bootcamp before work.  Three days a week he goes to the gym with her trainer after work.  And Saturdays she plays tennis with her husband.

My favorite quote of the night is from Sunny: My life had gotten away from me...and now I got it back.
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Tuesday, November 29, 2011

Victoria's Secret...and some boobie talk

This week is the Victoria's Secret show.  I never watch it.  While I drool over my future butt, I really don't want to watch these incredible unattainable bodies strut around in tiny little things.

I was reading today about how Miranda Kerr prepares for this runway show.  Now the girl is already skinny and hot.  Three weeks before she intensifies her workouts and ups it to two a day.  Then nine days before the show she goes on a liquid diet.  And then she stops drinking all together 12 hours before the show.

Um...WHAT?  So you're telling me that is what I would have to do for that body?  Um...I don't think so.  She's beautiful, but that's insane.  So think about that when you are flipping through these magazines thinking "I'll never look like that"...well they hardly look like that too.  So don't sweat it.

When you think Victoria's Secret you think Boobies (or my future butt). Over Thanksgiving I had a chat with a young lady.  We talked about boobs.  I had commented on how my mom keeps saying how much smaller my boobs have gotten.  They are still plenty good, but they are most definitely not the Double D's they once were.  We discussed what size I am now.  I made the comment about her being a Double D and she was horrified.  She said she was a C or a D.  Um, no.  I've fallen into that trap before.  It was like not buying the right size jeans.  They aren't going to fit right.

I hated how upset she was when I said that she was at least a Double D. I really do.  And I'm sad that the response was "It's embarrassing to get fitted." Yes it is.  And seriously, what young girl wants to wear a bra that looks like something their grandmom would wear?  The larger bras certainly are not as pretty or sexy.  But, they have a bigger job to do and a skinny little strap just is not going to do the job.  I can't tell you how many "pretty bras" I have owned and could never ever wear.  They looked horrible on me and provided no support.  I bought them to make myself feel better, but in the end they only made me feel worse.

So here's why it's important to get the right bra. Your back with thank you.  If you are constantly reaching in and shoving your boob back into the ain't pretty.  You won't have the indentations in your shoulder.  You just nodded right now didn't you?  I had permanent dents in my shoulder because my bra straps were so tight they just dug in.  I don't have the dark marks anymore, but I can still see a slight indentation :-(

If you are walking around and they are swinging side to side or bobbing up and down, then you do not have the right support.  You certainly aren't going to be able to workout. When I first started working out I would squeeze my arms and hold them in place when I would run a little.  I don't have to do that now.  They are smaller and I have the proper support.  YEAH!

It's okay to shop at long as you are truly supported (and go ahead and get something pretty...just don't go running around in it).

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Monday, November 28, 2011

Eat, Poop, Walk, Blog...

Happy Monday...

Well Vacation is over.  Luckily I had a half day today and worked the West Coast Shift.  That meant I got my walk in this morning.  I met my cousin at 7am (all of those Sunrise club mornings got me ready).  We headed over to the lake to walk for 4-5 miles.

Lots of good talking this morning.  As I mentioned yesterday, he competed in his first 5K on Thanksgiving and now he's training for his first Half in March.  GO RANDY! Hopefully he can come and be my cheerleader for in two weeks :-) 

Okay, so do you watch The Office?  It's one of my favorite shows.  My favorite episode is the Fun Run.  Michael Scott (oh how we miss you Mr. Carrell) gets the office to run a 5K for the awareness of the cure for Rabies.  The best part of the run is Andy's "nipple chaffing".  Before the race he puts band-aids on his nipples and halfway through the race they are bleeding.  It always makes me laugh.  So yeah, apparantly this is a real thing and I should expect to see this at the race.  OMG I don't know if I will be able to keep from laughing.  This could be bad.   Really bad.  Someone is going to beat me up over this.

That was just one fun topic that came up.  We also talked about Turkish baths and my fear of having have to go number two during the race.  So yes, I am a regular girl.  And I do mean regular.  (My mom is dying of embarrassment right now).  I eat my greens.  I fiber it up all day long.  The race is at 7am.  My fear is that I will need to go during the race.  I can't do that in a porta john.  I just can't!

After the walk we were meeting Mom, Auntie, and the grandmom's at IHOP.  Did you know that they now have a Light & Fit menu?  I KNOW!  I'm excited too.  Okay, so it's only a very small portion of the menu, but it's still there.  So I got a turkey bacon and swiss omlet with fresh fruit.  GO ME!  Well...after I ordered my white chocolate mocha (a girl's gotta stay awake).  So the lesson here is that a lot of places are offering healthy options.  You just gotta look for them and be strong.  It was delicious.  I had their whole wheat french toast last time.  It was goooooood.

After breakfast it was time for a quick shower then we had to get on the road.  Thank goodness there was no traffic.  I made it home an hour before I had to start work.  YEAH.  So I unloaded (more stairs...bah) and got to work. So here's the thing.  I was craving chocolate all afternoon.  I don't have any in the apartment, but I just really really wanted it.  What the heck?  I have a hundred things to do and all I have on my mind is chocolate.  I seriously have problems :-(

Before I go, I wanted to share a text I got this morning.  A friend who joined my family for Thanksgiving weighed in today: I lost 2.5 pounds during Thanksgiving week.  You are clearly a bad influence on my holiday fun.  Well I try. :-)

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Biggest Loser - Episode 10

Hi Everyone,

I was on the road during last week's episode so I had to watch it on demand.  Wow.  It's the Thanksgiving episode full of challenges.

It started right off with a Temptation Challenge.  The room was full of plates with Thanksgiving food on them.  Under each plate was a number.  After they ate the plate they could look at the number.  There were 3 prizes (3 lb advantage, home gym, and $500 for every pound lost this week).  The lowest number got to pick first.  So someone could have all three prizes.  It was luck of the draw.

Now of course they did not have to take part.  Sunny was the last one to take a plate and she barely finished it in the time allowed.  She did not win, but I'm glad at least one person struggled with this decision. Everyone else sort of jumped in.

Vinny ate one plate and got the lowest number.  He took the 3 lbs.  No surprise.

Then the contestants got to have a Thanksgiving dinner with the trainers (recipes are available on NBC.Com).  They sat around the table and told what they were thankful for.  Bob took this time to tell Sunny that she reminds him of his sister.  She has been overweight her whole life.  He only wants to help her, but she doesn't want to listen.  I can relate in so many ways.  I can relate to both Bob and his sister.  When I was Fat I did NOT want to hear it.  It really did not matter what you said to me about my health, I was not ready.  I also struggle like Bob.  I see friends and family that I want to help, but they don't want my help.  They are not ready to take their journey yet.  It hurts.  I just want them to be healthy.

Next they had another challenge. They had to climb the Jacob's Ladder for a mile. There were three more prizes: 1 lb advantage/give a 1 lb disadvantage, a meal plan for home (plus one for a contestant that went home), and some cash (plus cash for a fellow contestant).  John won.  Vinny offered for him to get the disadvantage since he already had a 3 lbs advantage.  In the end, John gave it to Sunny.  That pound pushed her under the yellow line and kept John safe.  Technically it was smart of him, but it angered everyone else.

The good news is that she doesn't go home.  And the even better news is that next week is Makeover week!

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Sunday, November 27, 2011

Recovering from Thanksgiving

Hello my wonderful Peeps,

It's been a full couple of days since my last post.  Shortly after my last post I went out to the beach with my Aunt and her family to take their Family Christmas picture.  On the way I grabbed my camera and put it in my pocket.  I wanted a shot with my camera too.  If you know me, you know that it is an extension of my hand.  I carry it with me at all times.  I think you know where I am going with this.  Yep, it fell out of my pocket and into the ocean.  My belly flopped.  I kept my emotions together until I got inside and then I cried.  I mean I know I wanted a new one, but I didn't want to kill this one.  We've had some good times.  The good news is that my camera card is still okay.  The bad news is that I was upset and faced stress eating. 

We were having a bonfire with Smores and I was really excited.  However, when I walked out to the beach it was completely dark and I almost tripped on a step (shades of my falling in July and taking out both of my knees for months).  I got a little nervous about falling.  Plus, Hurricane Irene beat up the Outerbanks and the beach was a mess.  There was not a lot of beach area and there was a drop off from the step to the ocean level.  During the day I was walking down the ramp of sand to the side and around to the front, but in the dark I just didn't see that happening.  I had avoided walking on the beach a lot during the day because I was afraid of messing up my knee (and I usually walk for hours on the beach).  So I skipped the bonfire.  I came inside and had some ice cream instead.  Happily, I had a small portion and only one small bowlful and not the entire pint.  I'm learning to deal with stress eating.

Yesterday was my last day at the Outerbanks *insert giant sad face*.  I woke up for the sunrise and was a little sore from my workout the day before.  So after sunrise I decided to get a walk in.  Since it was still vacation and I looked adorable, I did my walk in my pj pants and t-shirt.  I was only going to go for two miles because we had a lot to do before getting on the road.  I stayed out for an hour though and got my four miles in.  I loved seeing so many people out there.  The weather was beautiful.   It was sad though to see people packing up to go home :-(

When I got back I started helping with the clean up.  I couldn't load the car until I showered and others were still showering.  So I vacuumed.  I straightened up.  I packed.  Once I showered it was time to load up.  I cannot even begin to tell you how many times I went up and down those steps.  It was a LOT.  Not only did I carry everything for our car, but I took stuff for my aunt's car too.  I was a beast.  When everything was loaded I came upstairs and vacuumed and straightened there too.  I was getting hot.

When we got on the road we really needed to eat.  SUBWAY!  My grandmom doesn't go to Subway and let me order for her. I got her a chicken breast on a wheat roll.  She was happy.  It was a good choice.  We were set for a good portion of our ride home.

I will admit that we stopped at the Border Station for gas.  The Border Station has some fun souvenirs.  They also have fudge. I got a piece of Rocky Road.  Um...yeah, I ate it in the car.  It was a bit of a rough ride.  I will say that I was beyond tired.  I had the walk, the cleaning, the packing, the Sunrise, the big workout yesterday..I was toast.  The car was also super packed.  I didn't have a lot of leg room.  My knee was not feeling good.  I offered to switch drivers so that I could stretch it a little.  That was fine, but I was really really tired. I put in a little over an hour of driving, but I was not going to make it the rest of the way.  The question then became: what do we do for dinner?  There were fast food places galore to choose from.  We weren't hungry, but we needed to eat.  We opted for Chick-Fil-A.  I got the kids meal for portion control.  And then I promptly fell asleep for the rest of the ride.  Still had to unload the car though.

I have been beyond sore today.  I really needed to walk, but my knee is not happy with me so I took today off.  I have plans to go walking with my cousin in the morning before we get on the road.  He did his first 5K on Thanksgiving (GO RANDY!) and may come cheer me on for the Half in two weeks (OMG REALLY?  TWO WEEKS already????)

Before I go let me just say how great my vacation was.  On a completely personal note, it was so nice to keep hearing how "skinny" I am.  I need to hear that.  I know I look much better.  It is so important to hear the positives because sometimes I look in the mirror and focus on the negatives.  I couldn't stop looking at the flabby areas under my arms this week.  I get so mad that I focus on the negative.  So hearing the positives made me feel so much better (I could almost enjoy the fantasies while reading People Magazine's Sexiest Man Alive Bradley Cooper you can call me too!  I'm an Eagles fan you know :-). 

Anyway, positive reinforcement is so incredibly important.  So I'm telling you right now, you look awesome!  Keep up the great work.  :-)

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Friday, November 25, 2011

Quite possibly my healthiest Thanksgiving Ever :-)

Hello my fellow Gobblers :-)

I hope you had a wonderful Thanksgiving. I'm sorry for missing a few days, but I've been just completely enjoying my down time :-)  So we have a lot of catching up to do.

Let's see...where do I begin?  Well first let me say, this trip has been full of great choices. YEAH! 

Wednesday started with 30 minutes on the treadmill.  Honestly, the plan was for an hour, but I am blonde and had turned off all sounds on my phone not just everything except the alarm.  So I slept in a little longer than anticipated. The trip is long and lots of packing needed to be done.  So I was a good daughter and cut it short.  But, 30 minutes is better than nothing. 

While others were packing for the trip I was sent out to Panera's for lunch and Starbucks for sanity.  I got the tomato mozzarella half panini and the creamy tomato soup with an apple.  I really wanted to get a salad, but I wanted to make sure my belly was full.  8 hours in the car is a long time to have the munchies.  Guess what I got at Starbucks?  A tall skinny peppermint mocha of course :-) I also filled up my giant water bottle for the road.

As we approached North Carolina we needed to make a plan for dinner. We had already stopped twice and we had been in traffic for a while.  We usually stop at The Border Station.  It is a rest stop on the border between North Carolina and Virginia.  Half of the store is in one and half is in the other.  It's pretty cool for souvenirs, but food?  Um...everything is fried.   We stopped and the first thing I saw was that they had subs.  So we split a large roast beef (come on...we were having turkey the next day...and the day after that...and the day after that) on a whole wheat roll.  Not bad.  Not the best, but I didn't get fries so I'm happy.

Thanksgiving morning I was very sad. I woke up for sunrise club, but the clouds were all over. Sunrise club canceled *Sad face*  I decided to sleep in a little longer and then I was going to go walking.  Oops, I slept in a little longer than anticipated.  I'm totally sensing a theme on this vacation :-)  Once I got up I got ready to head out for a walk.  Oh yeah, while I was driving down I checked the mile marker from the edge of town to the house.  It was a little over 2 miles.  So the plan was to walk up and back twice. However, I got a later start and a friend was going to be arriving soon.  So I got in 4 miles, but then walked to the grocery store for some veggies.  Ran into mom while I was there, so got lazy and let her drive me back.

At the store I picked up some apples and fat free peanut butter for a snack.  *peanut butter is a good source of protein and apples are good for caffiene*  So that was holding me off until dinner.  We got kicked out of the kitchen (and I'm not complaining because that meant I would not be picking all day).  It was such a beautiful day that I came up with the genius idea to go see the Cape Hatteras Lighthouse.  This is my fourth Thanksgiving here and I had not gone to see it ever.  OMG it was beautiful!  I will post pictures on my facebook page.

It was not open to climb, but I wanted to soooooo bad.  It's twelve stories and the tallest lighthouse in North America.  It's not open until the summer season, but I was invited to come back December 10 for the Ho Ho Ho Run Up The Stairs.  Oh how I wanted to do it.  Alas, that is Half Marathon day.  Oh well, maybe I will try for that next year :-)

So we got back home for dinner and it smelled fantastic!  You know I wanted everything (including a full bowl of mashed potatoes), but I was very good in my portions.  I got a small portion of almost everything, but I did not go for seconds.  YEAH!  I will admit that I did have a piece of pecan pie later...and a sliver of apple, but no ice cream.

This morning was pretty awesome. My cousins got chocolate and ice cream as their Thanksgiving present.  My aunt gave me a day pass for the gym.  So after Sunrise (oh it was just spectacular) I walked over.  I put in 5 miles on the treadmill (plus the 2 miles walking too and from) and then did a bunch of weights before I walked back.  Wanted to try the steam room, but it was taking too long to warm up.  The spa/gym was celebrating Black friday and I got a new water bottle...for just $3..Woo Woo.

When I got home I was starving.  I got out some turkey, green beans, and carrots for lunch. YEAH.  That pie is staring me in the face, but so far I have resisted. :-)

So now it is time to go back and enjoy the ocean and possibly do a little shopping...

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Tuesday, November 22, 2011

Holiday Traveling

Hello my wonderful Peeps!

Well it's Tuesday and right after work my Thanksgiving holiday begins.  Can I get an AMEN?  I have been waiting for this for a long time.  As you probably know, I'm heading down to the Outerbanks tomorrow.  YEAH.  We will be at my Aunt's house on the Ocean (dreamy sigh).  The stress completely leaves my body the minute I get out of the car.

Nothing relaxes me like the sound and smell of the ocean.  I can practically feel my body relaxing right now.Ahhhh....

But first, I have to get there.  It's quite a trip.  I will be leaving the Philadelphia area and picking up my Grandmother after work.  Then we are off to my mom's in Virginia.  That means we have to drive around DC on the beltway.  No traffic this is a 3 hour drive.  It's going to be a long night.   I am packing a peanut butter sandwich so that I am not antsy for a burger and fries.  I will also be packing some water.

In the morning I am getting up early and putting in at least 30 minutes on the treadmill (although I'm hoping for 60 since I'm already packed).  We'll have breakfast and a Starbucks run before we get on the road. It's an 8 hour ride.  Now it's probably realistically a little over 6, but we stop a lot.  Lots of water means lots of potty breaks.  We also want to stop and eat.  No eating lunch in the car.  Stop and enjoy a nice healthy meal.  Just accept the fact that it will be a long ride and make the best of it.

We will have snacks packed for the ride, but the majority of the food will be in the trunk.  So as to avoid the temptations.  It's the only way fudge has ever made hit home from the beach with me.

Road trips are tough.  I know you know what I'm talking about.  You are sitting for hours and passing signs for fast food places.  Your brain plays tricks and convinces you that you're hungry when really you aren't.  Be strong. If you're going to stop though, do it right.  Go in and eat.  It's hard to eat salads in the car.  Can't be done if you're driving.  So go in, order something healthy, sit and relax.  Rushing on the road only leads to more stress...which leads to more eating.   If you can, pack a lunch and pull over at a rest stop.  Many have lunching areas which are nice.  This will help avoid the temptations of fries.  It will also keep your car from smelling like fast food for the rest of the trip.

I travel a LOT.  So here are some tips that work for me:
*Eat and pee before you get on the road.  There is nothing worse than being hungry or having to pee five minutes into the ride.
*Make sure all devices are fully charged the night before
*If you travel by yourself, check out a book on cd at the library
*Fill up on Gas the night before
*Don't be a hero, stop and stretch your legs.  Any trip over 2 hours is tough if you aren't used to it
*Drink water and avoid salty snacks. Bloating sucks
*Enjoy the ride. 
*Make sure you have plenty of music
*Have napkins and baby wipes for messes (and for after pumping don't want to eat anything if my hands smell like gas)
*Make sure you have tissues.  You never know when you will need them.
*Bring a grocery bag for trash (especially if you have kids)
*If you have kids-pack an activity bag for them (books, games, movies)
*Pack the car wisely-Heavy and big stuff on the bottom then pack around it.

Hope you have a safe and wonderful holiday.  I will be posting pictures from the beach...stay tuned


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Monday, November 21, 2011

Walking 101

Hello there beautiful People,

This morning I woke up to a sad story on the news. Yesterday was the Philadelphia Marathon and two people died during the race.  One was a 40 year old during the Full Marathon and one was a 21 year old who just finished the Half Marathon.  My heart breaks and my thoughts go out to their families.  Any thoughts I had of breaking into a run are gone.  Walking it is good enough. 

And on that note I am soaking my feet right now and getting ready for a pedicure.  I am packed for my trip and this is my reward.  I wanted to do it yesterday, but I did more overtime than I want.  Oh and on that note, don't walk 10 miles and then put in 11 hours of overtime in two days.  I tried to get up and walk around often, but my calves were still a little sore today.  I walked four miles at lunch and they felt much better after.  YEAH!

So I was tired when I posted on Friday and I forgot some things.  If you want to start walking or are new to it I wanted to tell what has worked for me.

*Don't wear rings (your fingers may swell)
*Keep baby wipes in your bag/car to clear the sweat when you're done
*Focus on pumping your arms (when my mind drifts I tend to look like George Jefferson when I walk)
*Make sure you have a good playlist (keeps you moving)
*Put your hair up (sweaty necks and hair are gross)
*Sneakers sneakers sneakers!  (Good tread and comfortable)
*Bring plenty of water
*Bring a friend (although talking may slow you down)
*Don't forget sunglasses
*Wake up early and go walking before you shower
*Bring a protein bar
*Put the phone away (although bring it for safety)
*Be careful of wet leaves (I almost took a header today)
*Pee before you walk (even if you don't think you have to)
*Wear layers (if it's cold when you start, your body heat will make it better)
*Trim your toenails first (Don't laugh...okay, you can laugh, but I'm a hard walker and I have put more holes in socks even with short nails).
*Carry small hand weights
*Just when you think you are done, take one more lap...go one more block.  You totally have it in you.

Now is as good of a time to start as any.  Be consistent and push yourself.  When you feel that you are improving then go faster or further.  Your body is capable of so much.  Just be smart about it.  Don't start by trying to run 5 miles if you've never run before.  Start with a 30 minute brisk walk.  Then up it to 45...then 60. 

Ok, my feet are pruning.  Time for the pedicure. 

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If you feel like you are alone on your journey and you just need some encouragement I am here for you!  Shoot me an email and I will do my best to check in on you or give you the words of support you need several times a week.  The journey is so much easier if you have support.

Sunday, November 20, 2011

Thanksgiving Dinner - A Good Plan and The Ugly Numbers

So we know that the holidays are tough when it comes to keeping the weight off.  In fact, most people gain weight.  I heard something disturbing on the radio the other day.  The average weight gain used to be 5-10lbs and now it's 7-12lbs over the Holidays.  That's insane for such a short period of time.  Sadly, I know I've contributed to those numbers over the years.  That's pretty much going up as pant size.

I would love to say that my goal this holiday season is to lose weight, but realistically, I will be happy to maintain.  We know I have a sweet tooth that will be the end of me. And on that note, if you are reading this and are going to see me this holiday season, PLEASE DO NOT GIVE ME CHOCOLATE.  Every year my mom gives me Andes Candies.  I love that.  I look forward to that. I live for that.  I also binge eat them.  I can't eat just one.  So I'm even going to ask that I not get those this year.  :-(

To Survive the Holidays I have come up with a plan.  I also want to share some numbers.

Tips to get through Thanksgiving day-
*Wake up 30 minutes early and start the day with a walk or another workout.
*Make sure you eat a healthy breakfast (Oatmeal, Egg Whites, Whole wheat waffles).
*Drink plenty of water through out the day
*Make sure you eat a good portioned lunch
*Chew gum while you are preparing the meal (cuts down on the snacking)
*If you fear sneaking bites, offer to set the table or help clean the house before dinner
*Make smaller portions of the high calorie/fatty dishes
*Maker larger portions of the vegetables and salads
*Limit the numbers of desserts (If Sam likes apple pie, Lisa likes pumpkin pie, Paul likes cookies, and Ann likes chocolate mousse compromise. Don't make one of each)
*If you're watching football throughout the day, take halftime and go outside and play a game yourself.
*If you feel the urge to get up for seconds, wait five minutes. Your stomach may catch up with you and you may be fuller than you thought.

Hope that helps.  Now I want to share the numbers.  Remember, 3500 calories is a pound and you generally burn 100 calories every mile.

The Meal Courtesy of:

BeveragesApple cider, 1 cup: 115
Champagne Punch, 6 ounces: 124
Wine, 3.5 ounces: 84
Kahlua Sombrero, 4 ounces: 340

Appetizers and First Courses
*Pay attention to the crackers and dip.  Are you really only eating 5?

Mixed nuts, 1 ounce: 170
Candied Pecans, 1 ounce: 139
Cheese ball, 1 ounce: 110
Crackers, 5: 80
Crudités selection, 8 ounces: 75
Sour Cream & Onion Dip, 2 tablespoons: 60
Chex Mix, 2/3 cup: 130
Stuffed Mushrooms, 6 small: 386
Deviled Eggs, one: 59
Cheese Puffs, one: 71
Shrimp with Cocktail Sauce, 3: 30
Fruit Cup, 1/2 cup: 70
Sherbet, 1/4 cup: 55
Pumpkin Soup, 8 ounces: 70


Tossed salad with Oil and Vinegar, 10 ounces
Ambrosia Salad, 1 cup: 183
Molded Jell-O Salad, ½ cup: 103

Main Course

Dinner Roll, 1 small: 87 (I'm good for 2 or 3)
Butter, 1 pat: 36
Cheesy Corn Bread, 2" X 2": 96
Turkey, roasted white meat, 4 ounces: 180
Turkey, roasted dark meat, 4 ounces: 323
Turkey Gravy, 1/4 cup: 50
Stuffing, 1/2 cup: 190 (Yes please...1/2 a cup?  Um... try 3x that much)
Mashed Potatoes, 1 cup: 190 ( we make two bowls. One for me, and one for everyone else...that's my downfall....1 cup?  More like 5...that's 1000 calories in mashed potatoes alone)
Candied Yams, 1/2 cup:  210
Sweet Potato Casserole, 3/4 cup: 624
Honey Glazed Carrots, 1/2 cup: 45
Green Beans Almondine, 1/2 cup: 220
Green Bean Casserole, 1/2 cup: 75
Peas and Pearl Onions, 1/2 cup: 40
Jellied Cranberry Sauce, 1/4 cup: 110
Cranberry Relish, 1/2 cup: 76


Pumpkin Pie, 1/8 of a 9" pie : 316
Apple Pie, 1/8 of a 9" pie : 411 (1 right after dinner...and another before bed...both with ice cream)
Pecan Pie, 1/8 of a 9" pie : 503
Vanilla Ice Cream, 1/2 cup: 145
Pumpkin Roll with Cream Cheese Filling, 1" round: 306
Chocolate Cream Pie, 1 large slice: 535
Baked Apple, 1 apple: 182
Tea, brewed, 8 ounces: 2
Coffee, black: 10 ounces: 5
Coffee with Cream and Sugar, 10 ounces: 120
Coffee with Baileys Irish Cream and Sugar, 10 ounces: 18

Good luck everyone!  I'm here if you need me :-)

Happy Thanksgiving

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Saturday, November 19, 2011

A good day with the Brain: Planning ahead

Hello Sunshines,

Are you ready for the Holidays?  I'm getting there :-)  This morning I walked for ten miles and used that time to plan out some of the upcoming weeks.

I had originally planned on walking 13 miles today, but my Thanksgiving trip is coming quickly and I have a lot to do.  I've been away the past couple weekends and there's been overtime this week.  If I walked the full time I would not be able to move for the rest of the day so I stopped at 10.

Right before I was about to hit the track I was on the phone with my mom who asked if I had charged my ipod.  I hadn't, but I hadn't used it in two days.  I checked and I still had half the battery.  I was set.  Until I got on the track and started to listen.  One my my earbuds had died.  Bah.  I could listen to one, but I was going to feel off all day.  Oh well, the sacrifices I make.  haha.  Luckily, I had anticipated this and bought another pair a few weeks ago.  So I could make the switch when I got home.

The beginnings of the walk are always the toughest.  It feels like I am climbing a mountain when I think about how far I have to go.  Immediately my mind went to the Half.  I need to pace myself for finishing, not try to be competitive with myself for a good time.  I know this, but it's hard for me to accept.  I am a competitive person by nature and I want to finish with a good time. 

I started to think about how when I am at the halfway mark people who are competing in the full marathon will be passing me to head back.  They will have done twice as much as me and beat me to the finish line.  These are crazy thoughts.  They are running.  They have been training for this.  They have earned it.  So why do I feel like my efforts are good enough when I think about it?  I hate this.  I have worked hard.  I have come so far.  One day that will be me, but it's going to take some time.  It's an internal struggle I deal with all of the time.  The good news is that most of the time I truly do believe in myself and have faith in myself, but there are those nagging moments when the Former Fat Girl gets into my head.

Halfway through the walk I started to change my thinking.  Instead of dwelling on my time, I started to think about what I can do to improve on it. Sundays are my day off and I will not be walking.  I will be doing weights, abs, and possibly the step.  Monday I will walk at lunch.  Then it gets tricky.  Tuesday I have lunch plans and then I am heading out of town after work.  I won't be arriving to my destination until around 9pm.  So there will be no walking that day.  The next morning we are leaving for the Outerbanks. By the time we get there it will be dark.  And I mean DARK.  There aren't really a lot of street lights.  What I can do is get up early and head to the fitness center for 30-60 minutes before I get ready.  I can nap in the car on the ride down.  Good plan.

I was planning on walking every day while I'm there, but why not aim for 8 miles every day.  I'll be getting up for the Sunrise every morning.  I can certainly go and walk for 2 hours early in the day.  So that's the plan.  This of course is weather pending.  I will be happy if I can get 2 of those days in, but I will aim for 3. 

We'll be driving back on Saturday and I will have Sunday free.  Even though that's normally a day off, I will go to the fitness center for an hour and then i will take Monday off.  I'm happy with this plan.    It's all about planning ahead.  I was so inconsistant before and that's not cool.  You have to be smart about it.

So halfway through the walk I could feel the blister starting on the bottom of my foot.  I kept going though.  I limped to the car when I was done and drove home.  When I got home I wanted to cry I could barely walk.  The water blister on my foot was HUGE.  I did not want to put shoes on to go out again, but I had no choice.  I had made plans to meet a friend at Starbucks and get a little shopping done.  I probably would not have taken so long if I could have moved faster, but oh well.  I was extremely productive and even came home for a long night of overtime.  My brain was my friend today.

I have good post planned for tomorrow so stay tuned...

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Friday, November 18, 2011


TGIF!  Oh yeah!

It's been a long week kids.  There have been some good decisions and some bad decisions :-(

Remember what I said about If You Buy It You WILL Eat It?  Well it's true.  I broke down and bought a bag of the candy cane hershey kisses.  I don't even want to tell you, but it did not last long...just a few days.  I couldn't help it.  It's like some Crazy-Eyed monster took over.  I seriously had no control.  I know you may not believe me, but it's true.  I don't know what happens.  I can put them in the drawer and within 5 minutes I'm consumed with wanting to eat them.  Just one more...well one more handful...  I really don't know if I will ever be able to kick this chocolate addiction.

 I've been doing some overtime so I haven't gotten the workouts at night that I would like to.  This wouldn't be so bad if I had walked a lot during lunch this week.  Sadly, I walked twice.    Just Monday and Thursday.  Although technically I walked today. lol.  I was telling my friend about the SkinnyGirl Margarita mix and how the Wine & Spirit store has them on sale right now (because oh yeah, I stopped for another bottle last night...I wanted to make sure I had enough for Thanksgiving :-).  She said she wanted to go and wanted me to go with her.  I wanted to walk.  So we walked to the store at lunch.  It's not exactly a safe walk (lack of sidewalks) so I doubt we will do that again, but I didn't feel so bad about not walking.

Tonight I was meeting a friend at the mall, but I was going to get there an hour early.  I figured I could grab something to eat and look around before she got there.  I could not decide what I wanted.  I immediately thought Subway, but I had that earlier this week.  I had a serious craving for Bourbon chicken and found a place that had it.  It came with rice and one side.  I chose the mixed veggies.  It was so delicious.  The veggies were awesome. I felt good.  I also felt full.  Not uncomfortable, but not skinny.  Sounds like the perfect time to go try on some new workout outfits for the Half.  NOT.  I did it anyway.

It shall I put this...HORRIBLE.  I felt so bloated.  I had not had enough water during the day.  I was full of chicken and rice.  UGH.  It was a dumb DUMB move.  Plus, I'm short so some of the pants were way too long.  I did find a pair of pants that I will probably go back for (my butt looked AMAZING by the way).  The tops were okay, but I want to keep looking for the right one.

I did find something awesome for me tonight.  I love homedic massagers.  I found a lumbar massager on clearance.  It normally sells for $45 and I got it for $10.  Right now is massaging my lower back.  But I will be moving it to my feet shortly. Merry Christmas to me!  It's especially nice because my company is now offering 10 minute chair massages on Wednesdays.  I got mine this week, but I got robbed on time.  I barely got 5 minutes.  It was such a tease :-(  Everyone was getting their massages while my chick was helping move furniture.  I had barely sat down before they announced time was up for everyone.  It was a big reminder to take care of your muscles though.  It felt good.  I am going to treat myself to a foot massage after the race.  My poor legs and feet are beat up.  They are skinny, but they are sore.

So tomorrow was supposed to be my next trial run.  I am still planning on walking, but I have a ton of things to do before I leave for the Outerbanks next week.  So I'm going to have to dial it back.  I may only get 8 miles in, but I have to be happy with that.  I will be walking a LOT next week :-) So I will be okay.  I have total faith in my body at this point.  That's such a good feeling.

Before I go wanted to just talk about one thing.  When I signed up for the 5K and for the Half they both asked what size shirt I wanted.  I totally had a panic attack.  How small do they run?  Are they made for boobs?  Maybe I should go big just in case.  I chose a medium for both.  It was hard for me to do that though.  My first thought was go for the Large.  I'm proud that I kept it to medium though.  Clothing sizes are still hard to adjust to.  I have a sweet poncho sweater that I got from Old Navy a couple years ago.  I love it.  But, I always loved it because it hid the right things.  I wore it again this week and was actually sad that I was covering up so much :-)  I always get compliments when I wear it though so it's easy to adjust.  I just think it's fun that I am not trying to cover up anymore.  GO ME!

Have a wonderful weekend.  I'll be back tomorrow, I promise.I have some more overtime to do and I'll need a break.  haha.

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Wednesday, November 16, 2011

Biggest Loser - Episode 9

Alright Kids it's week 9 on the Biggest Loser Ranch.

It was a Big Big week.  They are down to Singles!  That's right, no more teams. It's every Man and Woman for themselves.

This week there was a Pentathalon challenge.  There were 5 events and they were awarded points based on where they finished.  After the fifth challenge the person who had the most points received Immunity and the person who came in last received a 1lb disadvantage :-(

The first event was for Rank.  They were to rank the other contestants any way they wanted.  The results for this one would not be revealed until the weigh in. Some ranked by loyalty, some by competition, and one by alphabetical order.

The second event was for Survival.  Each player had a table with their name and three pegs on it.    They also had tubes with their name on it.  The object was to cross the field and place your tube on another contestant's peg.  When all three pegs were covered you are eliminated.

The third event was Trivia.  They were asked multiple choice questions on everything from nutrition to exercise.  They received a point for every question they got right.  No one got every question right, but one person did get all but one.

The fourth event was Balance.  They had to sit on a floatation device and pull their way across the pool on the ropes hanging above them. This was my favorite. :-)

Next it was the last chance workout. The trainers were merciless :-)

And lastly, the fifth event was a mile sprint with Apolo Ohno (who just finished the NYC Marathon!).  I will say right now that I was incredibly impressed with their times.  I could not have beaten half of them.  YOU GO BLs!

So the best part about making it to Singles is that now they are able to wear shirts during the weigh in.  It's always a good week.

You may have heard that Anna K will not be back next season.  There has been a lot of feedback on this.  "She didn't connect with the Contestants" and "She doesn't know what it's like to lose that much weight".  Well I will say this: I was very much against her being a trainer.  I was wrong.  They may have thought that she didn't connect, but they lost weight.  Perhaps she doesn't have the background for losing weight and should focus more on basic training, but she did a good job.  I will be sad to see her go. 

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Tuesday, November 15, 2011

Tips for the Holidays

Well it's official!  I am registered for Rehoboth Beach Seashore Marathon and Half Marathon-2011.  The even better news is that it benefits Make a Wish and the Fire Department.  YEAH!

Tonight I was supposed to walk, but my knee was really bothering me the last two days so I took today off.  It killed me because I have tomorrow off too (Bible study at lunch and Choir at night), but I have to listen to my knees.  Besides, I can do some overtime tonight so that's a bonus.

Today I attended a presentation at work about Savoring the Season.  The focus was on planning ahead for the holidays to help reduce stress.  And I don't know about you, but for me STRESS=FOOD.  It was very informative and helpful. The crazy thing is that I could have given the presentation. As stressful and depressing as the Holiday season is, it's also my favorite time.  I love my family.  I have a very large immediate and extended family.  That means lots of presents, cards, and parties.  I have a lot to plan for and I generally get started in October (I am almost done shopping..but quite frankly I have about 50 people to buy for).  Even doing that I'm still running around like crazy, but I have definitely learned to reduce the stress.

I will share some of my favorite tips that have worked for me:

*Make a list of people that you buy for
      I have so many people that I have forgotten presents that I had already bought
*Wear comfortable shoes when shopping
*Avoid buying food related gifts (that's a personal one)
*Bring an extra gift for kids and adults to family parties in case someone extra comes that you may have forgotten

*Keep a toiletry kit ready so that you don't forget anything (including feminine products)
*Pack healthy snacks for the trip
*Make sure you drink lots of water on the trip
*Make a list of events you will be attending and select clothes accordingly (if you can wash your clothes at your destination drop an outfit or two)

*Make sure you eat a healthy lunch before your big meal
*Plan on buying the food needed several days before the event.
*Offer to bring a veggie platter or side if you are a guest
*Avoid buying or making cookies too soon.  You may eat them before you need them.

These are just a few things to help.  If you plan ahead then you can continue to add working out to your schedule and not feel bad :-)

In addition to these tips please note that now is the perfect time to prepare for the new healthy you!  Ask Santa for healthy presents:
-Yoga Mat/Dvd
-Exercise machines
-Gym Membership
-Sporting Equipment
-Salad spinner :-)
-Subway Giftcards
-Workout clothes
-Water bottle with a filter
-Spa gift certificate
-Healthy Cookbooks
-George Foreman Grill
-Vegetable steamer
-SkinnyGirl Margarita mix :-)

I hope this helps and please feel free to share any tips you might have...Happy Holidays!

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Monday, November 14, 2011

That cookie isn't going to love you back...

Hello Beautiful People!

I almost skipped tonight because Syracuse Basketball is on :-)  And quite frankly my brain is feeling crappy so I didn't really know what I wanted to write about.  Okay, that's not true.  There is something I've been wanting to talk about, but I've been playing computer games instead (see this is what happens...I was home sick ONE day and discovered a couple games I like and now I am playing them all of the time :-(  I'm falling into some old habits and I don't like it).

It's a rough time of year.  I have a love/hate relationship with the holidays.  I love spending time with my family and friends, but I hate the horrible depression and loneliness that comes with it too.  For me they both equal food.  If I'm sad then food will make me happy.  If I'm lonely, then food will be my friend.  Well it is the holidays so I should treat myself.  It's such an unhealthy life and I'm scared for this year.

I love every minute that I spend with my friends and family, but the drive home is very lonely.  I feel it and I feel it hard.  My immediate urge is to stop for a burger and fries no matter what time it is and no matter what I had just eaten.  I have done it so many times over the years.  Thankfully, it's been a little while since my last time.

I travel a lot. I go away just about every other weekend and feel like I practically live in my car.  I can't even tell you how many meals I have eaten in it. Bonus meals know, that "fourth" meal of the day.  Since it's an old pattern it's very hard to resist the urge when I get that sad feeling.  I've been doing well and have been trying for the "don't eat it in the car" rule.  If the rule is that I need to get out and sit down to eat then the chick who just really wants to get to her destination will win and I will pass on the food.  It's not a fool-proof plan though. I do always have a book in my bag and the lure of a reading break is hard to resist.

I do most of this traveling by myself.  That makes it harder. Although sometimes my partner-in-crime Heather comes along and we tend to make some unnecessary Sonic trips.  If I have someone in the car, other than Heather, I tend to be smart about food in the car.  I will be picking up Grandma  next week and heading to my mom's before we all head to the Outerbanks for Thanksgiving.  I am sure that we will be loaded up on healthy snacks, but we will also need to make lots of stops and sometimes the options aren't that healthy :-(  You know how it goes, you are good and eat apples and grapes, but then one bathroom stop and you spy the bag of doritos and that's all you can think about.

So yes, I travel by myself because I am single.  It's not super fun when just about everyone is married with kids.  It's hard most of the time.  What I need to remember is that I am still a work in progress.  I am a completely different person than I was ten years ago.  Heck, five years ago.  My tastes have changed. My habits have changed.  Boys who have the same interests as I do now, would not have been interested in me back then.  And quite frankly I would not have been interested in them.

I am finally someone that I like.  I am finally becoming the woman I have always wanted to be.  I have faith that the right boy will come into my life, but until then I am focusing on myself. Who knows, maybe I'll find Tony Stewart in a big red bow waiting for me at the finish line next month ;-)
PS-Syracuse Won tonight in case you were wondering...GO ORANGE!

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Sunday, November 13, 2011

Thanksgiving Trial Run

Happy Sunday!

It's been a few days since my last post so we have some catching up to do :-)

Let's start with Friday.  I mentioned before that Friday was Tracey's last day before maternity leave.  This of course meant going out to lunch.  We opted for this place called Cosi.  It was awesome. I opted for the pick two and got the signature salad (Mixed greens tossed with red grapes, pears, pistachios, dried cranberries, Gorgonzola and tossed in sherry shallot vinaigrette) and the Tuscan Pesto chicken on flatbread.  My side was baby carrots :-)  It was very tasty and filling.

After work I was getting right on the road.  My usual Friday dinner got postponed so I figured it would stop for something to eat halfway to the beach.  I would just look for a Subway when I stopped for gas.  The problem is that I sat in a lot of traffic right at the start of the trip. By the time I got to the halfway point I was hungry. I immediately thought: Wendy's, but I knew I would not make a healthy choice when I was that hungry.  I was planning on stopping at the Super Walmart for a few things and I thought there was a Subway in the shopping center.  I was wrong.  There was a Dunkin Donuts in the walmart.  I would have normally skipped it and kept looking for somewhere else, but it was closing in on 8pm and I don't like to eat later than that.  DD does have some decent flatbread sandwiches.  I asked and they had two left.  So I got the turkey bacon cheddar flatbread.  It's not my first choice, but it's also not a loaded bacon cheeseburger and fries.  I should add that I also got a mint hot chocolate for the road...Oh yeah, it was good. Naturally I saw the Subway in the next shopping center one block away.  Oops.

Saturday morning I was able to sleep in.  I still woke up around 9am (remember the good old days when you could sleep in until the afternoon?).  Since I didn't have the alarm wake me it took a little while to actually wake up.   I needed to be fully awake before I tackled the treadmill and face planted because I was sleepy.  Before I headed over my dad offered me a cookie...dang it.  I can't say no to cookies...this is a cake cookie with chocolate PLEASE.  After I ate it and chastised myself I headed over to the gym.

Let me just say that after walking at the track, the mall, and the park so much it is very hard to get back on a treadmill.  I did it though.  There are only 4 weeks until the Marathon and I wanted to get 10 miles in.  I decided to break my time up into 3 mile increments.  I wanted to see my time for each and see how I did.  My first three was pretty good.  Of course I jogged for some of it.  My second three I decided to start at my old pace and go up a .1 every .25 miles.  My second half of it should be taxing.  It was.  I did good though.  The problem is that after six miles I had done a lot of jogging and my knees were NOT happy with me.  So the last four miles were to just relax.  I slowed it down and read off and on for the last four miles. 

After the first 3 miles I was completely soaked.  So I was quite happy to see my dad pull up to the fitness center just as I was getting ready to go.  I had walked to the gym and I don't know that I would have made it  back.  I had tried to jog my last mile and my knees would not let me.

So I got my 10 miles in and I was wiped the rest of the day.  I showered and then plopped myself in the chair.  I would have blogged, but my laptop was upstairs and I did not want to take the stairs. :-(  It's ok.  I watched some football, some Syracuse Basketball (I'm a happy happy girl), and I knitted.  I relaxed and that was very needed.

I did go out for a little bit.  I went to Starbucks and was sent to the store for some beer.  I went in to get that first and immediately saw the Skinny Girl Margarita mix.  hmm...I got the beer and then went over to Starbucks.  It's Peppermint Mocha time and I could not be happier.  I asked for a Light and the cashier asked if I wanted Light or Skinny?  Oh heck yeah, give me skinny (sugar free).  It was good!  I got to thinking as I was leaving that I really wanted that Margarita mix so I went back for one.  I don't drink beer or wine and there was going to be a gathering for dinner.  If I'm in for the night I want something tasty.

Dinner was a Pre-Thanksgiving dinner.  We had deep fried turkey, stuffing, mashed potatoes, green bean casserole, corn, biscuits, and kielbasa with sauer kraut.  I had small portions of each, but I was starving after.  Wait a minute, I did 10 miles this morning.  I can certainly have seconds.  So I did.  Again it was small portions, but I was happy and content.

And of course I had my Skinny Margarita after dinner.  Oh yeah, it was good.  Dear Santa, I would like a case for Christmas please.

I did not have as many vegetables as I would have liked yesterday, but I'm not going to beat myself up.  I did good for the walking/jogging and I kept my portions under control.  I also took several aleve because my legs and hips were sore.  They are still sore today, but it's a good sore.

So you know what's better than Thanksgiving dinner?  Thanksgiving left-overs of course :-) Don't worry, I picked up a small spinach salad on my way home from church.  I could eat the leftovers guilt-free. :-)  Of course the cookies are still there and I WANT one....

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Thursday, November 10, 2011

Oh yeah, it was an 8 mile Thursday...GO ME!

Hello Beautiful People,

The weekend is almost here and I am quite happy.  I'm packed and ready to go to the beach. YEAH!

I'm especially excited because I did well today.  I walked my 4 miles at lunch.  I started to talk myself out of walking again tonight. I need to pack for the weekend. I need to stop at the library.  I fell asleep during my favorite show last night (PSYCH!) so I thought I should come home and go to bed early.  I can so easily talk myself out of working out it's scary.

So I offered myself a treat. I had a coupon for my shoe store and if I walked another 4 miles I could go in and look around.  *try the reward I'm not saying spend a lot of money, maybe it's just a new pair of socks or a candle, but do what you have to to motivate yourself *  As soon as I started my first lap I was happy.  I knew I would be, I just had to get there.  Of course I had been walking outside this week and hadn't seen the mall since it threw up Christmas all over...Yup, the tree is up and Santa's Village is ready.

The only problem I had was that my sneakers weren't comfortable.  They were the ones that I keep in my car.  I didn't feel like I had any support.  Maybe it was my thin socks or maybe it's because I had worn my new sneakers this weekend, but I felt like it was time to retire them.  We've had a good run.  So after my hour I went to the clearance section at DSW.  I found a pair of cool purple Nikes that I liked and another pair of new balance.  When I put them next to the pair I was wearing it was sad.  Mine were so beat up :-(  Of course that means I had used them a lot :-) 

Anyway, I was trying to decide which pair to buy when I saw another pair out of the corner of my eye...hmm...they were a little more than the others, but oh dear heaven they were fun for my tootsies.  Should I?  Oh I should. Pretty Grey and Hot Pink RealFlex Reeboks :-) I shall retire the pair I was wearing and hopefully someone will buy them from Good Will and give them a good home.

So twice today I was telling someone that I will be in a Marathon in one month. I immediately followed it up with "It's a Half Marathon".  Why do I do that?  I feel like I'm beating myself up.  I'm excited about this and yet I feel like I'm letting myself down.  Does that make sense?  13.1 miles. That's nothing to sneeze at.  When people ask how long the Half is and I say 13 they always have the same reaction: Wow, that's a lot.  I'm hoping that my reaction is because I know that I can do much more and not because the Fat Angel on my shoulder is taking over.

As far as food choices today, I did fairly well.  I can honestly say that I did not have any fudge tonight.  Sadly, that is because I finished it after I posted last night :-(  I hate that I did that, but I'm going to look forward.  Now I don't have the temptations sitting around calling my name.

Tomorrow I am eating out for lunch and dinner and then I have a long drive after work.  I will do my best to make good choices.  Wish me luck :-)

Oh and PS - yes I shaved today

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Wednesday, November 9, 2011

One hour alone with my brain

Today's Lesson: Make sure your ipod is charged and turned off before you go to bed.

You can probably guess what happened when I went to go walking at lunch.  Yup, my ipod was out of juice.  Bah.  I heart my little Nano.  I recommend it to everyone.  It's small. It has a clip.  It has radio. Most importantly, it has a pedometer.  It's awesome. However, there is no "off" button.  It has a sleep mode. I have not had any problems until today.

Immediately I thought Great, now is a good time to go to Starbucks.  It was supposed to be an off day anyway (Bible Study got pushed to Friday).  I told myself NO.  You have a marathon in 31 days.  You need to get off your butt and walk.  I was scared though.  One hour with just me and my brain.  There is no telling what would happen.

The first thing that hit me was that yesterday was beautiful, but I was really hot walking in jeans.  Today I wore a skirt with my fake uggs....I realized only too late that I had not shaved since Friday so I got a little nervous that if my legs rubbed together I would start a fire.  Mental note - shave tomorrow please.

I started off figuring it was a good time to chat with God.  I have my morning prayers before I get ready in the morning, but I thought this was a good time to go a little deeper.  That lasted about twenty minutes.  I still had forty to kill.

I started to mentally plan out my next month...31 days until the Marathon.  Will I have enough training time?  I really need to get back to a couple 8 mile days during the week.  I immediately picked Thursday this week. And then I thought maybe not. I'm going away this weekend and I need to pack and get some laundry done before I go.  So now I'm questioning myself.  Do I really need to do that?  Am I just making excuses?  This is what I was worried about. would the fat angel get into my brain if I didn't have distractions?

I did a load of laundry tonight so now maybe I can walk tomorrow night too and not feel bad :-)

Friday I am going out to lunch and then heading down to the beach after dinner.  No time to walk then.  Bah.  But, saturday is wide open.  I am getting a 10 mile day out of it if it kills me.  Sundays are usually my day off, but I have to do some walking. Maybe only 5, but that's good.  I have no plans next weekend so that will be my next trial run. I should also pack for the Outerbanks that weekend.  Okay, I feel better about my plans now.

So then my brain stayed on the Outerbanks.  What do I need to pack?  Clothes? Books? Yarn? Movies? Bathing suit (hot tub..I'm not crazy enough to go in the Ocean)?  Laptop? Sneakers?  I really hope the weather is nice.  I plan on walking a LOT.

We have a "Sunrise" club.  That's right, on my vacation I am leaping out of bed before 6am to get everyone up and ready for the sunrise over the ocean. :-)  It's my favorite part of the day.  I always say I will take a nap later, but I never do.  Usually I run down to the beach immediately after it rises to get even more pictures.  This will be a good time to get used to walking at 7am.  So the plan is to walk for at least 5 miles after each sunrise.  Then I can shower and then I can nap.  WOO WOO.

The ride down and back is always a long long drive.  It's generally an all day affair.  It's hard to get in a workout that day except when we get to unload the car.  Carrying all of the bags up the steps is just plain sucky.  The first time I did it was when I had just started the South Beach.  I was not in the best shape.  It did get easier each year.  This year I say BRING IT ON!  I am planning on doing the steps for 5-10 minutes every now and then.  Well that's the plan anyway.

So the Outerbanks got me through the rest of the hour.  I am proud to tell you that even without my music I kept up my pace.  I thought for sure it would drop off because I didn't have the music to push me.  And on that note I am going to go charge my ipod for tomorrow.  Sleep well my friends.

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Biggest Loser - Episode 8

It's week 8 on the Biggest Loser Ranch and there's another twist.

This week only one person's weight per team counts...*dramatic pause*...and it's up to the trainers to select that person.  I thought they were going to throw up. They sure as heck do not want that responsibility.  They don't have to name that person until weigh in.

During this week's challenge Lovely Olivia is back.  She won last season and looks amazing (her hubby just ran the NYC marathon...Congrats!).  She is the judge for a cooking challenge.  Each team has to come up with a meal. They will be judged on taste and nutrition.  The winning team will have the recipe printed in the next Biggest Loser cookbook, some personal time with Olivia, and a 1 pound advantage.

The winner: a fantastic pork tenderloin.

Naturally there was a little surprise and Olivia presented the winning team with scrapbooks from their family *insert tears here*  Support is SOOOOO important.  Antone started crying when he saw how big he was.  He is a former NFL player (Da Eagles..WOO WOO) and his kids don't know him as anything smaller than 400lbs.  It reminded me of seeing my "before" picture in the Huffington Post. I cried.

It's week 8 and that means the Doctor is back.  It's been 8 weeks since Ramon learned that he had diabetes.  It's gone now. He has changed his eating habits so much that he has eliminated diabetes.  This happens every season.  It's the most important lesson I think.  Seriously, why would you willingly do that to yourself?  Usually along the way to the finale so many people can go off most of their medication: blood pressure, cholesterol, Insulin...think of all of the money you can save by just being healthy!

The Doctor also talked about the Pleasure Center in your brain.  They showed an obese person and a lean person's reaction to a hamburger through pretty graphics of the brain.  The lean liked it more. The obese wanted it more, but liked it less.  That meant eating more to reach that high.

They also talked about rewiring your brain.  It is possible.  I did it.  It took months, but I can't eat a meal without wanting vegetables and fruit.  Sadly, they did say that it only takes a week to rewire your brain back to your old ways :-(

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Tuesday, November 8, 2011

If you buy it then you will eat it!

Hello Beautiful People!

It's been a beautiful week so far and I've been able to walk 4 miles at lunch each day.  YAY!!!  It's felt good.  Real good.  It still amazes me that I like it so much.  Who am I and what did I do with the old me?

Last night the Eagles were home for Monday Night Football.  I knew it was going to be a traffic nightmare to get home so I thought I would go walk at the mall for a little while.  Just as I was leaving I changed my mind though.  I was away all weekend and I'm away this weekend.  I needed to come home and do some things.  As soon as I got home I whipped out the weights and worked my arms and shoulders.  Then I did some squats and abs.

So Friday is Tracey's last day at work before she starts maternity leave.  Obviously we are going to go out to lunch to celebrate.  Yesterday a few places were tossed around and we seemed to land on Chili's. I love Chili's I really do.  But, I was not feeling it. I would still go to lunch with them, but really I was annoyed.  This was not the ideal choice for me.  Specifically, the chips!  You get the bottomless pit of yummy chips.  I would eat them.  I've had them refill the basket and then take it home.  I can't say no to Chips and quite frankly I feel like I've had a big problem saying No lately (fudge, cupcake, chocolate covered oreos...bah). 

Trying to plan ahead, I got on the website to figure out what I would order.  I still wasn't feeling it.  So Tracey and I got to talking about other places to eat.  Naturally as soon as we do that I see the "Guiltless Grill" section on the menu.  Chili's has a grilled chicken sandwich on a whole wheat roll with a side of steamed broccoli.  I could have gotten that, but I will know that for next time. 

So every time I need to use the ladies room at work I have to pass by Robin's desk. Oh dear sweet Robin...or shall I say TEMPTRESS Robin?  She has a jar of my favorite candy on her desk: Candy Cane Hershey Kisses....Oh I heart them!  I want to grab that jar and run for the hills every time I pass her desk.  I had one yesterday and none today.  Of course I resisted because my secret plan was to stop and pick up a bag on my way home.  I resisted though and didn't.  I don't trust myself not to eat the whole bag.

I have good reason to think that...I don't don't have much fudge left :-(  Argh...Remember: if you buy it YOU WILL EAT IT...I should know.

On that note I will tell you that I am getting very nervous.  I did not do well on Halloween.  Sure I was able to resist the candy leading up to the big day, but I did not behave myself that night.  I had a great time on Saturday.  I most likely would never have gone to a food show if my Aunt hadn't invited me.  I was happy to buy gifts for others, but I bought a little too much for me.  We are going to the Outerbanks in two weeks for Thanksgiving.  I can have high hopes, but I know myself. I won't be able to resist the whole time.  I will have two weeks before the Race and I think I can handle that...but then what happens between the Race and Christmas? 

Thank goodness I have you now.  I really hate when I tell you about bad food choices.  And on that note, I'm going to get on the floor and do more abs :-)

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Monday, November 7, 2011

Dare I dream...Is there a NYC marathon in my future?

Sign one that my life has changed this past year: I have become obsessed with the NYC Marathon.

I have always considered the NYC marathon the ultimate test.  I could never even fathom finishing it.  Obviously it's possible. People do it every year.  And then I just thought they were crazy.  Who would want to run 26.2 miles?  Well there were about 47,000 this year.

I used to love walking the streets of NYC...of course I would stop and sit if I got tired.  I'm sure I've had days where I walked 10 miles or so (anything to save money), but that was throughout the day.  26.2 miles in one day? 

I love how many former Biggest Losers competed this year.  After all, they were once in my shoes. That makes me think that I can do it...someday.  I know...I know...first I have to get through the Rehoboth Half next month.  But, I want this to be my first of many.  In fact I've been trying to figure out which one to do after this.  :-)

I'm not sure how long it would take me to train for a full marathon.  I would probably have to quit my job and just start walking. It would be helpful if I had a Sugar daddy that would let me do that.  HaHa. Or at least move somewhere warmer that would allow me to train outside year round...

I have been planning a trip for my 40th birthday in a couple of years.  There will be a girls trip to swim with the Dolphins in Key West...but maybe I should aim for the NYC Marathon on my half birthday...something to think about.

Did I really just tell you that? 

Of course I'm going to need new sneakers for that...and maybe new knees...

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Sunday, November 6, 2011

Dear Guy had me at Mac'N'Cheese!

 Talk about sensory overload....Have you ever been to a Cooking Show?  There is literally food EVERYWHERE!  Taste this!  Smell this!  We're offering a special Show price.  Taste this!  Taste this!  TASTE THIS!

Before I get to the food I want to tell you about the trip to the Convention Center.  I ran to the store in the morning to get some bottled water and protein bars.  I wanted to make sure I had good alternatives in my bag. I even went to Subway for breakfast.  I had an egg white on flatbread with tomato, lettuce, and cucumber. I felt good.  

When we were leaving the metro station we could walk up the stairs or take the escalator.  I lived in DC for a summer and never ever ever EVER took the stairs.  Not only did I take them, but I ran up them :-)  GO ME!

Okay, so we took the escalator down to the Cooking Show floor and my eyes got huge as I looked over at the 300 booths set up.  It was going to be a long day.  First up, we were were going to sit down and look at the schedule. We needed to map out which demonstrations we wanted to go to.  We picked out four.  I asked if we wanted to look at the list of vendors and pick out some that we wanted to see.  The response I got: We're going to see them ALL. Alrighty then.

We started in the back and the first bunch seemed to be all BBQ sauces.  Not so tempting. I should be okay.  The next section didn't seem too bad, but then I saw a line and I of course wanted to know why.  Cupcakes!  YES PLEASE. We got in line and I saw that the cupcakes were $.85. They had samples.  Fine I'll have a sample.  Wait, what's that?  Red Velvet cupcakes for $1.  Um...I didn't even make it out of the first row without caving. But seriously, how could I say no to that?

I promise to be good after this.  Oh wait, what's the next booth? Chocolate covered pretzels.  CRAP.  And chocolate covered oreos.  I'm in so much trouble.  I bought some.  I was still holding my dang cupcake when I made the purchase.  Across the aisle was a booth for some mustards.  In addition to pretzels to dip in it to taste they had vegetables.  So I grabbed a carrot and dipped.  I felt good with that. 

A few booths further we came across a Skinny Margarita booth.  Oh heck yeah!  I got a couple.  One for me and one for a Christmas present. I was proud until I realized that I needed to carry this around for the rest of the day.  DOH!  At this point I felt like I was going to go insane.  I needed to get a hold of myself and slow down.  My back and wallet were not going to be happy if I kept up this pace.

We walked up and down row after row.  I was actually very good about my tasting.  There were so many salsas, BBQ sauces, and olive oils that I actually got turned off.  I could easily say no.  What I couldn't say no to was the chocolate chip cherry amaretto biscotti...yum...and the lavender ice cream (I had Always wanted to taste that)...and then I saw it.  MAPLE BUTTER...I almost fainted.  My aunt got a picture of me after I tasted it.  The lady behind her giggled at it.  I could not say no.  I did stop at one jar, but I wanted to buy their whole stock.  Luckily, they have a website and I do believe I will be buying more later.

Around that time we needed to head over to the demonstration area for the first one we had chosen: Chocolate and Tea pairing.  By the time we got there all of the seats were taken.  Oh well.  Time for more browsing. We realized that we needed to go get some real food and headed over for lunch.  We opted for Caribbean Cove.  I got the pineapple chicken platter.  It came with rice and shredded cabbage.  Oh it was good.  Too much for me and I didn't finish, but I felt full and that was a good thing.  

Since the last demonstration was full we headed over earlier for the one on Olive Oil.  It was good.  We learned a lot about what to look for in Olive Oil and the benefits of it.  (I'll have a special post on it later).  What I wasn't expecting was the taste test we were going to have.  All of the booths offered pita bread to dip in it and taste it.  These guys passed out dixie cups for  EWWWW.  It was by far my least favorite part and I was burping it up all afternoon.  ICK.

The next demonstration was the one I was most looking forward to: Surviving the Holidays.  We didn't want to take a chance of missing it so we stayed close.  Immediately the seats started to fill up so we ran and got front row seats and just relaxed for a bit.  It was a great demonstration, but not what I thought it as going to be about.  I was hoping for healthy options, but this was about decorating and eating with things you already have in your house. It was still cool. 

We decided to give up the last demonstration and finish up with booths before Guy Fieri time.  We went over to the bookstore where my Aunt surprised me with a signed Guy Cookbook.  She rocks! 

We found a booth that was my total downfall..You had me at Fudge!  I cannot say no.  I really can't.  It's impossible.  I caved.  They let us taste so many...I HAD to buy some.  I HAD to!  (I put it in the trunk for the ride home today...yeah! There was no cheating in the car).  I was just about done for the day when I found an awesome vendor.  I found the coolest lunch bags.  I pack my lunch every day.  It's a good investment.  I got one for a christmas present and one for me :-) 

By now it was almost 4 o'clock and it was time for Guy!  Can I get a Holla?  LOVE HIM!  He is the rockstar of chefs.  We had seats in the 8th row and it was awesome.  The first thing he made was Mac Daddy Mac'N' had me at Mac'N'Cheese...should I tell you that there is bacon in it?  My mouth was watering the whole time.  He had a lot of great things to say, but what I liked best is: If you eat it in moderation, then go ahead and eat the good stuff.  Don't have the crappy versions. You're just cheating yourself.  He's so wise. And damn cute!

When we got home I spent an hour looking through his cookbook.  I want to make just about everything in it.  I was very surprised as the number of healthy options in there.  There's a veggie patty that I'm looking at and a lettuce taco that looks pretty darn good.  Of course there are plenty of not so healthy, but if I only make one every other week that will be my splurge.  Have I mentioned that I love him?  Don't worry, Tony Stewart (who won today!) still has my heart...Tony Stewart CALL ME!

So the good news is that my feet felt great at the end of the day.  The new sneakers are a success.  The bad news is that after I gave away the chocolate covered pretzels I ate my chocolate covered Oreos after dinner...and then had a moonpie :-(  

I am surprised I was able to fall asleep after all of the sugar I had. Thank goodness for Daylight Savings Time.

I will be posting pictures and links for the vendors/demonstrations that I liked on my Facebook page this week. Be sure to check in for them.

Thank you Aunt Carol for an awesome day!  And thank you Guy Fieri for being so dang Cool!  You make me want to cook!
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