Wednesday, September 30, 2015

Random Wednesday: Pumpkin Spice, the Pope, and Tony Stewart

Happy Random Wednesday Bleeps!

Last week we started Girls on the Run again. Hooray!  I have missed these girls. I heart them so! They seemed to sprout up over the summer. I think they were getting their milk through IV.

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Whenever I'm anxious I tend to have crazy dreams. Last week when my schedule was so crazy and tight I had a dream that I took my wet laundry to the gym and hung it on the equipment while I worked out because I didn't even have time to do my laundry...and when your clothes are as sweaty as mine that's disgusting.

Last night I had a dream that I was shopping in the plus sizes again. I actually woke up having an anxiety attack. Please note, I kicked my own butt with my workout today. That's my biggest motivation.

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Did you see any of the Pope's visit? I am sending a big Shout out to the Pope after watching him this week. That man is 78 and had a schedule that would make 20 yr olds tired. He also has sciatica and was limping around, but man that man has energy.

I wonder if the Pope has a personal trainer....

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I had an encounter with myself in a fitting room mirror this past weekend...ugh...I need to switch things up.

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I started up a 100 miles a month group on Facebook. If you are training for an event or just want to keep active please join. It's a closed group, but I will approve anyone.

https://www.facebook.com/groups/964024576991311/?ref=br_tf

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It's hard to keep away from sweets when there is pumpkin spice everywhere....

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Over the weekend I heard that sad rumor that Tony Stewart would be retiring after next season. Well today was the official press conference. I am officially in mourning.

Although perhaps his schedule will lighten up to finally call me...hey Tony Stewart CALL ME! :-)



Have a Blessed Evening
****Please note****

If you feel like you are alone on your journey and you just need some encouragement I am here for you! Shoot me an email and I will do my best to check in on you or give you the words of support you need several times a week. The journey is so much easier if you have support.

jhendersonfit@gmail.com 
Check out my Facebook Page for Confessions (there are before and work-in-progress pictures):

http://www.
facebook.com/ConfessionsOfAFormerFatGir

yeah, sorry, I messed up and the "l" is missing....I need an assistant :-)

Don't forget to follow me on Twitter: hugsnsmile
Instagram: Jennie5973

Tuesday, September 29, 2015

Why am I crying daily?

Hello Beautiful People,

Holy Craziness Peeps!  Just when I think my life is as busy as it can get, it gets that much busier. I have had a lot of struggles lately and it's been quite stressful. But, I've also had a lot of blessings.

The good news is that I am pretty full with clients. The bad news is that it's impacting my personal workout time. Add that to my knee issues and I have been a sad little puppy.

The big news is my life is that I made the horribly painful decision to switch my December Marathon to a Half Marathon. It has made me cry just about daily. It might be hard for most people to understand, but to anyone who has committed to a marathon, they know how hard it is to say no.

My calendar has a countdown on it for the weeks leading up to the race. Week by week seemed to go by and I missed another week of training. It hurt. As each week went by I knew I was getting closer and closer to pulling out of the Full.

On top of the busy schedule, I was having a lot of knee pain. I am fine when I am out there, but I have pain for days after. As a trainer, it's very difficult for me. I need full function of my body to do my job properly. I am not getting the rest and elevation time I need after training. I basically have time to shower and eat before heading to my next appointment.

So one day I was on a 5 mile walk to test out the knee on back to back days. I mentally compiled a pro-con list in my head about switching:

Reasons to change to Half Marathon:
-I do not have any regular day weekly to get my full distance training in.
-I can spend more time hanging with the other runners after I finish the Half
-I can spend more workouts cross training with weights
-Less chance of injury
-Easier recovery time
-Allows me to use any free time I have for fun with friends
-My knee will thank me
-No transfer fee
-3 full marathons within a calendar year is pretty aggressive

Reasons not to change:
-It will break my heart to switch

There is no sane reason to keep trying for the full. But, I never claimed to be sane. I know I struggled with my previous trainings, but I pushed through and I finished. I also know that I would have had an easier time finishing if I had trained better.

I cried and cried and cried, but I finally decided to make the switch. I'm so tired right now. I love my job and I love that it allows me the time to volunteer for things that I am passionate about. I am finally doing everything that I have dreamed about for years. That has to be my priority.

During my recertification I took a course on Osteoarthritis. I spent a whole day on it. It was so fun (sarcastic by the way). I found out some things that I really need to stop doing (my quad stretches) and basically distances are severely frowned upon (putting it nicely).

I have a hard time saying No to people. If someone needs something done, I say "Yes, I can help" regardless of my availability. It's a problem. I said yes too many times. I forgot to say Yes to myself.  This is what I want to do for myself and I overcommitted to everyone else.

So why is this so hard to do?

There is a part of me that is very scared. Not of the race, but of the implications of not sticking with it. It makes me feel like the Former Fat Girl won. It makes me feel like my body betrayed me. It makes me feel like I'm not good enough. I know that's all crazy, but let's face it, the brain is not always rational.

I want 3 full marathons. I will get number 3 in 2016. In the meantime, I will focus on filling my schedule with Half marathons to keep me moving and training.

Now I just have to deal with the battle happening inside my head. I'm a little depressed over this decision. Depression plus a food addict equals a bad situation. I need to get my head in the game.

Have a Blessed Evening
****Please note****

If you feel like you are alone on your journey and you just need some encouragement I am here for you! Shoot me an email and I will do my best to check in on you or give you the words of support you need several times a week. The journey is so much easier if you have support.

jhendersonfit@gmail.com 
Check out my Facebook Page for Confessions (there are before and work-in-progress pictures):

http://www.
facebook.com/ConfessionsOfAFormerFatGir

yeah, sorry, I messed up and the "l" is missing....I need an assistant :-)

Don't forget to follow me on Twitter: hugsnsmile
Instagram: Jennie5973

Wednesday, September 16, 2015

Random Wednesday: Greek salads, Hunger Walks, and Yoga

Happy Random Wednesday,

I have been craving a greek chicken salad like crazy. I finally went out and bought the ingredients and made my own. YEAH!  It was yummy. I made one for lunch and packed a bowl for dinner too.

Tyson's cubed oven roasted chicken (just heat in the microwave)
Spinach
Cucumber
Tomato
Mediterranean Herb feta cheese
Greek dressing
pita chips

I'm not a fan of olives and onions, so I didn't add them.

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Next month I will be walking in the CROP Hunger Walk again. I am also the recruiter for my church for this walk. It was an easy fit for me. My church has been extremely active and supportive for years. It was a little intimidating to go to the rally meeting and have everyone say "Oh you're from Advent! They always do a great job." I just hope I don't let anyone down. Our number of walkers and amount raised increases every year. So what's my goal? My goal this year is to get more of the youth involved. I don't want them to just walk it. I want them to understand why we are doing it. I want them to get it.

Please help me spread the word for my fundraising page:

http://hunger.cwsglobal.org/goto/JennieHenderson

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Have you seen the new Lane Bryant commercial? Shout out to them!  It is a wonderful commercial with Plus size women in their underwear. Love it.

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Girls on the Run starts next week. WOO WOO!

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One of my favorite snacks is to freeze grapes. It's so refreshing on a hot day.

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Monday I was the only person in Holy Yoga class. That means she asked what I wanted to focus on. HOLLA! We didn't have class a the week before and my legs were super tight. So legs it was. They felt so good after. I really needed that.

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Sunday I squeezed myself into my size 6 jeans. I hadn't worn them in a while and they were quite the snug pair. I was able to button them, but sitting was extremely painful. I put on my oversized Ravens jersey and spent the first half of the game standing up. I then leaped into yoga pants for the second half. I need to put them on every day as a motivator.

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This week I was approached by a friend who asked if I had any clients as old as she is. I was happy to tell her that I have clients who are older than she is. In fact, over 50% of my clients are over the age of 50. I love that. I love that these people aren't letting age become an excuse.

I love my job!

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I am growing out my bangs again...the last time took FOREVER (two years) and I cut them after 6 months. I love my short hair and I love the possibility of it with long side bangs. We'll see if I can hold out.


Have a Blessed Evening
****Please note****

If you feel like you are alone on your journey and you just need some encouragement I am here for you! Shoot me an email and I will do my best to check in on you or give you the words of support you need several times a week. The journey is so much easier if you have support.

jhendersonfit@gmail.com 
Check out my Facebook Page for Confessions (there are before and work-in-progress pictures):

http://www.
facebook.com/ConfessionsOfAFormerFatGir

yeah, sorry, I messed up and the "l" is missing....I need an assistant :-)

Don't forget to follow me on Twitter: hugsnsmile
Instagram: Jennie5973

Saturday, September 12, 2015

Random Saturday: Sweat, Sugar Cookies and (Tony) Stewart

Happy Random Saturday,

Alright so it's no surprise that I sweat...and I smell. I tend to stop at Target for fruits and vegetables on my way home. I'm starting to get paranoid that they will ask me to stop doing that. The other day the lady in line in front of me started sniffing the candle she was buying as soon as I got in line.

I am telling you, this is how I am going to be when I finally run into Tony Stewart...he is either going to be drawn to my pheromones or completely repulsed.

Hey Tony Stewart, CALL ME and let's find out!

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Big shout out to Panera for their Mediterranean Chicken Quinoa salad...YUM

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I have been treating myself to cut up big giant peaches and frozen Lite-Cool Whip.

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Under the Subject: things that suck...we can add my whole left leg. Because my knee has been an issue my body tries to compensate. The result: tight calf...tight arch...tight hamstring...grr

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I have not bought any Halloween Candy. I count that as a win since it's in my face constantly.

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I did, however, have maybe 2 sugar cookie sandwiches last night...omg so good.

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I love my clients. I really do. They bring me so much joy. It brings me more pleasure than you can imagine to know that I am giving them the tools for a healthier and fitter life. One of the best comments last week was:

If it hurt as much to put the weight on as it does to take it off, I never would have done it.

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It's football season!  WOO WOO. Over labor day weekend the NFL website was having huge sales and discounts. I found a shirt I liked and ordered it. I stressed about the size though. Fan shirts tend to run small. So I ordered a Large. When it arrived it is actually a little big, but it's 100% cotton so hopefully it'll fit right soon.

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I need a massage...STAT!  Or at least a very thorough pedicure.

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I had a nice week. Daddy was sort of in town and I got to meet up with him and his friend for lunch. I picked Outback for it and couldn't wait. Prior the drive my blood sugar dropped super low. I was shaking. I had a little protein bar and it subsided, but I was so hungry when I got there I gobbled down some of the bread. For lunch I picked a combo. I had the cup of baked potato soup and the 1/2 ribeye melt sandwich. Nope, not the healthiest choices, but portion control was my win.

And then a couple hours later dad called to tell me a friend of his had Tony Stewart at his house last week. WHAT???  So the plan is in motion to introduce me...that meant I ran my ass off yesterday morning at the gym. No motivation like a Tony Stewart motivation!

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It's time to update your playlists.

Here's the full list, according to votes placed at Run Hundred--the web's most popular workout music blog.
Beck - Dreams - 114 BPM
Grace Potter - Alive Tonight - 120 BPM
Veruca Salt - Laughing in the Sugar Bowl - 163 BPM
Demi Lovato - Cool for the Summer (Mike Cruz Remix) - 126 BPM
Flo Rida, Robin Thicke & Verdine White - I Don't Like It, I Love It - 119 BPM
Madonna - Bitch, I'm Madonna (Fedde Le Grande Remix) - 128 BPM
Shawn Mendes - Stitches - 150 BPM
Elle King - Ex's & Oh's - 140 BPM
One Direction - Drag Me Down - 139 BPM
To find more workout songs, folks can check out the free database at RunHundred.com. Visitors can browse the song selections there by genre, tempo, and era—to find the music that best fits with their particular workout routine.

Have a Blessed Evening
****Please note****

If you feel like you are alone on your journey and you just need some encouragement I am here for you! Shoot me an email and I will do my best to check in on you or give you the words of support you need several times a week. The journey is so much easier if you have support.

jhendersonfit@gmail.com 
Check out my Facebook Page for Confessions (there are before and work-in-progress pictures):

http://www.
facebook.com/ConfessionsOfAFormerFatGir

yeah, sorry, I messed up and the "l" is missing....I need an assistant :-)

Don't forget to follow me on Twitter: hugsnsmile
Instagram: Jennie5973

Thursday, September 3, 2015

I'm back...and I'm cranky

Hello Beautiful People,

Do you remember me? OMG how long has it been?

So I had to step away for a little while because I had to crunch get my recertification credits in, you know because I waited until the last minute. Grr. Actually I have a lot that I got out if it that I want to talk to you about, just not tonight. Tonight I am in tears.

It's no secret that I have a bad knee. It's no secret that it's arthritis. Well between studying cross legged and a lot of jumping, well my knee is not in great shape. It doesn't help that I did a day course on osteoarthritis. I mean it's good because I learned some things that will help me. But, I also learned that some things I do are not so good. In fact, they are on the Big No No list.

For a couple weeks I was basically shut down. I worked and studied. There was no sleep. There were no workouts. I was stressing. We had a really fun 5k a couple of weeks ago that Heather even flew down for and I couldn't enjoy myself because I was so stressed about how much work I had to do. It didn't help that I didn't have my patella straps and the course was on a farm. It was so uneven. I felt the daggers in my knees after a quarter mile. I was done. Ms. Caroline and I walked the rest of the way.

So I couldn't enjoy that night. I was miserable. I was worried that I wouldn't get things done in time. I was pissed that time was passing and I wasn't running. I had started my 100 miles in August and basically stopped with 10 day to go. It's frustrating.

I struggled a lot with the studying. Studying usually means snacking. For the first week I made bad choices. My meal choices were fine, but then I snacked way too much. I finally really focused and got strict with myself. Things got better. But, I did notice something. For someone who doesn't drink that much, I was having a glass of wine every night. This started to really bother me. I don't want to stress eat, but I don't want to stress drink either.

Yesterday I went to the park for the first time in forever. A super slow 4 miles and I was hurting. My foot hurt before I finished. I was frustrated. I had to go to church to set something up and it took longer than I thought. I could barely walk to my car when I was done. I needed a shower when I got home. I needed lunch. And I needed to elevate my knee. I got cranky real quick.

I have been limping around for several days. It's pissing me off. It's also doing damage to my foot. Because I am limping I am putting more weight on the inside of my foot when I walk. That in turn puts more pressure on my big toe. It's jammed. I can usually crack my toes and ankle about a hundred times a day. I cannot crack my foot to save my life right now. Grr.

It hurts. I'm in pain. The solution: rest and ice. I am not supposed to "work through it". It's not going to just go away, it needs rest. I think we all know how well I do with that. I ate a big giant brownie at lunch. I am frustrated. We are less than 14 weeks until Marathon #3. I actually said out loud several times today that I need to either write myself a letter or make a video for my Post Marathon self. This is it. I am stopping at #3. There may be a #4 in my future, but not in 2016. It's so hard. I am so miserable now, but I will be so ready for another the minute that the finisher medal is around my neck.

This is the picture I will use to remind myself of this. It has looked like me all day.




Have a Blessed Evening
****Please note****

If you feel like you are alone on your journey and you just need some encouragement I am here for you! Shoot me an email and I will do my best to check in on you or give you the words of support you need several times a week. The journey is so much easier if you have support.

jhendersonfit@gmail.com 
Check out my Facebook Page for Confessions (there are before and work-in-progress pictures):

http://www.
facebook.com/ConfessionsOfAFormerFatGir

yeah, sorry, I messed up and the "l" is missing....I need an assistant :-)

Don't forget to follow me on Twitter: hugsnsmile
Instagram: Jennie5973