Monday, June 30, 2014

Cape May Recap: Walking, Ice Cream, and Sweatpants

Happy Monday Bleeps!

Well I am happy to report that despite being exhausted the last two days I squeaked in my 100 miles in June. In fact I got in officially 100.5 Holla!  I am signed up for July. I also start another push up program on Wednesday. My arms looked beach ready thanks to them. I'm in.

Okay so let's talk about my fabulous couple of days in my most favorite place on earth- Cape May, NJ.

Where do I begin?  First off, I shall describe it for those of you who have never been there. It is a quaint little Victorian beach town. There are horse drawn carriages. There are flowers everywhere. There are bicycles everywhere. The boardwalk isn't really a full boardwalk. Most of is is asphalt and there are very few stores on it. It is not gaudy and flashy. It is relaxing and so beautiful.

As a former fat girl it felt ginormous. It would take forever to walk from one end to the other. On this trip I parked my car and walked EVERYWHERE. It was glorious. I so want to get a cruiser bike and ride around there one day.

Thursday I got there late in the afternoon. I met my family at the beach. I wasn't in a bathing suit, but I changed into a tank top and we went for a nice walk. I hadn't seen some of my cousins in two years. They have been in Lithuania for two years and I missed them at Christmas this year.

So not only was I seeing my family, but I also discovered that my good friends from college were in town for the weekend. Ms. Ann and Mr. Damien have been in Thailand for a year. They are back for a month to visit family and we just happened to be in the same place at the same time. So I went to meet them for dinner and show them around a little. Their son was allowed to pick what he wanted for dinner and pizza was his choice. I got one slice of plain. And then he wanted ice cream. In full disclosure I had gone to Ben & Jerry's with Aunt Kathy and Uncle Judah before I met them for dinner. I got a kiddie size coconut ice cream. So for this ice cream I got a small sugar-free Mint chocolate chip.  I loved seeing these guys again. We had reconnected shortly before they left for Thailand.

We considered getting up for Sunrise on Friday, but it was very cloudy. So I slept in a little longer and then we went for a morning run. Well mine was more of a walk. I was able to jog a little, but my knee was really sore without a rest day and the walking on the beach the day before. I was up a little during the night. So I walked most of it. But, it was cool. For years I had seen people running along the boardwalk and was jealous. This time I fit right in. :-)

Afterwards I wanted to go to the beach. The family had been there all week and wanted to go to the Lighthouse. Normally I would have been all over it, but there is no way my knee was going to get me to the top. So I went to the beach.

I had my chair and my towel. I had my book and my water. I was happy.

I saw lots of dolphins and finished my book. Then my two young lad cousins came to hang with me. After a little while everyone joined us and I could get up and walk freely. Aunt Kathy, Uncle Judah, Cousin Jacob, and myself went for another 3 mile walk looking for shells and rocks. I got to spend some time with Cousin Jacob and that was really sweet. The walk away was fine, but the walk back was difficult. It was really windy and my tankini top kept blowing open. I was a little self conscious at first, and then I just didn't care. I didn't see anyone running and screaming so I figured it was ok.

After the beach, a shower, and a little rest we went back out to watch the sunset. That's the beautiful thing about Cape May. It's at the bottom of New Jersey so you can watch the sunset too.

We were with 3 teenage girls (one of whom thought I was 20!!!!) so I was in Selfie heaven. hahaha.

Later in the night we had girls night shopping. Well the girls wanted ice cream. haha. I wanted custard so I went with Cousin Hannah and got soft serve and then we met the others at Ben & Jerry's. Nothing beats vanilla and chocolate swirl...just sayin.

*Forgot to mention that Cousin Hannah made some killer guacamole that we snacked on with carrots...YUM

Right by Ben & Jerry's is one of my favorite stores, Great White Shark. I had gone in the night before and found some sweatpants on sale. I really wanted a pair. I had had a pair forever that I loved, but I finally got rid of them. They had CMBP on the butt and I felt that I was too old for that. I went in while the girls were eating and realized they also had writing on the butt. I was telling the girls this and also happened to mention the number of butt selfies on my my phone because I like to see the progress and I am super proud. They said I should be proud and get them anyway. Show off my butt and bring attention to it. So I went in and tried on a couple of pairs. The medium fit my waist, but the legs were not super loose. The large were nice and loose on my legs, but really big on my butt. But, if I roll the waist down I am good. I got them. (and I've been wearing them for two days...I super heart them!)

Saturday morning was sad. I didn't want to leave. I mean I REALLY didn't want to leave. I would live there if I could. The Girls and Cousin Nathan had to leave early, but the rest of us decided to get in a game of Mini-Golf. I was happy. :-)  After everyone else left and I was walking around. I wanted to get my pork roll sandwich. It's my Cape May favorite. So I walked to the arcade where they sold them and was devastated to see it's under new management. No more pork roll. (I have since googled and found another place that has it so i'm good for the next time). Instead I got a pineapple gelato.

When I was walking back to my car after getting a few things I found out that Ms. Ann and the fam were on the beach. So I grabbed my beach bag from the car and headed back. I stayed with them for a while and then eventually had to make my way home. It was a bonus visit and it was so sweet.

My eating wasn't the best, but I walked logged over 21 miles walking and I kept my portions down. I also kept drinking my water like there was no tomorrow. It wasn't perfect, but I'm okay with it. Nothing can ruin my Cape May time...just need to plan another trip now.

Have a Blessed Evening

****Please note****

If you feel like you are alone on your journey and you just need some encouragement I am here for you! Shoot me an email and I will do my best to check in on you or give you the words of support you need several times a week. The journey is so much easier if you have support.

Sunday, June 29, 2014

I didn't get my Rest day and my body protested

Hello Beautiful People,

I had the most wonderful time in Cape May the last few days. I can't wait to tell you about them. And I will, tomorrow.

Today I want to talk about my fear of the Rest Day.  Your body needs rest. I know this. I do. I know it as a human. I know it as a trainer. It doesn't mean I don't fear it. I can enjoy a good rest day. Sometimes a little too much.

With 10 days left in June I was still on schedule to meet my 100 miles in June if I hit 5 miles a day. I knew I would need a rest day so I doubled up one day. Thursday was my travel day. It was to be my rest day.

My trip took a little longer than I had hoped. There was a lot of construction along the way. I was itching to move when I got there. I met my family on the beach and after a few minutes Aunt Kathy and I went for a walk. A nice 3 mile walk on the beach. So much for my day of rest.
Friday we got up and hit the boardwalk for 4.5 miles. There were a few more miles on the beach after. And then more later walking around shopping. No rest day there. 

Saturday I allowed myself to sleep in a little. It was our last day. Finally a day of rest!  We decided to play a game of mini golf. I intentionally parked far away so that I could get in a little movement before I got on the road. We picked a different course and that meant a longer walk.

When I was almost back to my car I found out that some of my friends were on the beach. So I went to my car and got my beach bag and headed back. So that was another 4 now I had a little cough.

On the way home I stopped for some cough medicine. Oh and my unexpected stop at the beach also got me a little sunburn on my back because I stayed longer than I planned and the sun shifted to behind me while I was talking.

I had a hard time getting up this morning. But, I went to church anyway. I stopped for coffee on the way home. It was an epic fail. I fell asleep for 4 hours.

Basically, I neglected giving my body a day of Rest and it got pissed. My body demanded it.

I know better. Your body can't perform properly if it doesn't get rest. My training is not going to move forward if I don't schedule my rest days. So maybe I need to schedule rest things on my rest days. And then I need to schedule a training on the following day. The Former Fat Girl enjoyed her Rest days a little too much. Of course for her, they were every day.

Have a Blessed Night

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Wednesday, June 25, 2014

Random Wednesday: Beach, Push Ups, and Tony Stewart

Happy Random Wednesday,

Today was a happy day. I feel good about my future. It was a good hopeful day. The Former Fat Girl was not in my head trying to tell me bad things. I think she's tired and was probably sleeping. She's been working hard to hold me back. But, not today. It was a good day.


Aunt Kathy's family is in my favorite place for the week, Cape May. I have been invited to join them.  So I am heading to the shore tomorrow for a couple days. YEAH!


So yesterday was a painful day. My knee was swollen and really sore. I was agitated. I ate the Junior Mints that I had been saving for the movie that I haven't seen yet. Grr.


Guess what's back!  My Peach Green Tea Lemonade is back at Starbucks. Happy Camper!  Happy Camper!  Happy Camper!


Today was the last day of the Push Up program.

28-28-36-36-28-28-24-62+        60 seconds between. 

My last set was 67 

I could be done. Or I can start it again next week. I will start on day one seeing how many I can do in one shot. I know it will be much higher than my first time. Just because I finished doesn't mean I can stop. If I don't keep moving forward then I will lose ground.


I want ice cream.  It's hot.


 I have things in the works that I'm very excited about. Hopefully I will have some positive things to tell you in the next couple of weeks. 

I will share that I am putting this offer out there. No need to wait on it:

1 month free Personal Training (1 session/week) if you can introduce me to Tony Stewart

3 months free Personal Training (1 session/week) if you can get me a date with Tony Stewart or to watch a race from his Pit.

Lifetime if he proposes to me. Lol. 

Hey Tony Stewart...CALL ME!


I am a hydrating machine!


I seriously love a good sweet potato.


Before I go I wanted to share that I finally started that second blog that I had wanted to.

Have a Blessed Evening

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If you feel like you are alone on your journey and you just need some encouragement I am here for you! Shoot me an email and I will do my best to check in on you or give you the words of support you need several times a week. The journey is so much easier if you have support.

Tuesday, June 24, 2014

Everyone is a Beginner at First

Hello my Lovelies and Gents,

Today ACE posted a great picture on Facebook. It's something that I am constantly telling others and yet I seem to forget for myself sometimes.

When the Former Fat Girl worked out, as few and far between as that was, she did not like others to see her. She didn't want people to see how little she could do. The years that I didn't belong to a gym I worked out in the privacy of my own living room so that others wouldn't see. When this journey began and the Former Fat Girl joined the gym she would find herself going at down hours so that others wouldn't see. Early mornings. Friday nights. Sundays.  Those were the only times that she would try something new. She didn't want others to see.

So cut to today and there are moments that really frustrate me in my Marathon training.  I want to be so much further along.  It hurts that I'm not. It hurts my ego. I have limitations. My knee holds back my progress. I am still progressing, but not as fast as I would like. I am not as fast as I would like to be. That means my distances take longer than most runners. It gives me a lot of extra time to think. Sometimes it's good. I get a lot of great ideas and work through issues. Sometimes it's bad. I also tend to dwell in my setbacks.

I have to keep reminding myself that I am still a beginner in this training. Okay so it's not like I am going from the couch to a Full. I have a bit of a background in this so I'm not a total beginner. But, I'm not as far along as I would like to be. And that's okay as long as I keep moving forward.

No one wakes up one morning after doing a lifetime of nothing and says "I'm going to finish a marathon today." That just doesn't happen.  If you've never stepped foot in a pool or a large body of water, the odds are that you aren't going to be able to swim like an Olympian the first time out there. Everyone was a beginner at some point.


Today's distance was frustrating. I had planned to do it. But, I had originally planned on going to the gym for it. It was so beautiful outside. I changed my mind. I needed fresh air. Today's goal was distance only. It didn't matter what my time was. And that was a good thing today. I was very tired last night. I ran 5 miles yesterday and then spent the whole afternoon helping my mom clean and clear her classroom. I passed out last night. I was tired when we left school and we went to Subway. It was good, but I should have carb loaded knowing today's plan.

When the plan to spend the 10 miles outside changed that also indirectly changed my time. It got hot. I came in several times for popsicles and fresh water. Those little breaks slowed me down. I lost momentum and it took time away. I added 10 minutes to my pace time. That frustrated me, but I had to remind myself that today's goal was about distance, not time. For next week's Distance day we plan ahead. 

Have a Blessed Night

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Sunday, June 22, 2014

Goals, Motivation, and Support

Happy Sunday Bleeps,

I am currently part of a group on Facebook that is aiming for 100 miles in June. Some bike. Some run. Some walk. But the point is to post your achievements to encourage others and keep yourself motivated. The bonus is that you also get a lot of cheerleaders.

This is the second time that I have done this. I think the other was in November. I like it. It holds me accountable. Sometimes I need that. I can only dream of the day that I don't have things getting in the way and that I can just run every day because I want to. That day is going to come right?

I started off okay. Technically I should be able to just do 3 miles every day and hit it. Piece of cake for me. And that's been my goal. I want to at least do that a day. Especially with all of my training. December is right around the corner. So I started okay. Then I didn't do so hot. Getting sick always kills my momentum. If only you didn't need to breathe to exercise...

I have done really well recently and I'm in good shape now. It sucks that it's the last third of the month. I should be down to less than 30 miles, but right now I am at 40 left. there are 8 days left. If I do at least 5 a day I will finish. I can do this. 

It's also very nice to have support from people. I'm out there by myself every day so to have others cheer me on is quite nice. The other day I was on one of my last laps and a young lady was walking towards me. She gave me the thumbs up and told me I was doing great. I threw in a couple extra laps because it felt so good. It's also nice to come running in and post immediately how I did. It makes me feel good. It makes me feel accomplished.

I've been good about switching it up. I've gone outside. I've hit the treadmill. I have gone out in the heat. I have gone out in the rain. There is no excuse. I can do this. The problem is that I can easily give myself an excuse early in the month. "There's still plenty of time left."

I like to get out as early as possible. It gets it out of the way and there can be no excuse later as to why I didn't do it. It's a big adjustment for me though. For years I was used to working out at night. I would go after work and then I would go home and rest. So I'm still finding the fine line between big workouts and workouts that will knock me out for the rest of the day and keep me from doing anything.

For me I need to have this public goal. Private goals for me don't always work. If I don't tell anyone and don't do it then no one knows I failed. I don't want to fail and so I put it out there. It's what works for me.

There is no reward or prize for hitting the 100 miles in a month. It's just a personal satisfaction of knowing that I committed to it and I finished it. I will. And then I will try for 200 in July!



When it comes to working out in the heat play it smart. Where breathable fabrics (cotton) and drink lots of water. If you are going to be outside try early in the day or in the evening. Try to avoid exercising when it's humid. The moisture in the air does not allow your sweat to evaporate and cool your body temperature down. It puts you at a greater risk for heat stroke.

Have a Blessed Evening

****Please note****

If you feel like you are alone on your journey and you just need some encouragement I am here for you! Shoot me an email and I will do my best to check in on you or give you the words of support you need several times a week. The journey is so much easier if you have support.

Thursday, June 19, 2014

Random Wednesday so Random it's Thursday

Happy Random Wednesday on a Thursday,

I had really hoped to write a post yesterday, but I got a little wiped out.

I was feeling a little better when I got up. I got myself together and decided to try and get a walk in. I wasn't quite as well as I had hoped and needed my inhaler after 1 mile. I forced 2 more and then I was done for the rest of the day. Very disappointing, but glad that I at least got 3 miles in. I spent the evening finishing my book out on the patio. It was relaxation time.


I have been enjoying putting roasted red pepper hummus on my chicken sandwiches. I never eat mayo any more, but I had been using mustard. This is definitely an even better flavor. Plus it's another veggie :-)


Today I went to the grocery store. I caved and bought a Twix. I have been really good for a while. I wanted a treat. I also happened to be wearing white shorts. Take a guess at what happened. If you said "you got chocolate on your white shorts" then you win. Grr...


I am enjoying the Fitbit, but it's not very nice when you are sick and not moving.

Anyway, it's frustrated me a little when I know for certain that I have walked more than it has recorded. It tracks the swing of your wrist. So if I'm running or walking with a bottle of water in that hand it's not moving as much. If I'm pushing a shopping cart or holding a bag it's not capturing all of the steps. It's okay now that I have figured this out. I just swing my arm until I hit the steps that I should have.


For the past few weeks I have gone to happy hour with my mom and some of the other teachers on Fridays. Yes, they are still in school. I have been good with my drinks limiting it to just one. It's the food that hasn't been so great. But, we get what's on special. It hasn't been horrible since I've limited my portions.

Tomorrow night we are going to a winery because they have half price sangria. Oh hello. Now the food is different. We can bring our own so I have pita chips and hummus planned. I'm also making sure that I have a sandwich before we go.


I mentioned before that I got a rotissarie chicken at Walmart for $5. I've been getting them and enjoying them immensely. All I have to do is peel the meat off of the bone and it's ready. It feels a little gross, but it's all good and yummy.


I spent all night coughing. It's a good thing though. I was coughing because my throat was unbelievably dry. When I take the mucus relief medicine and I don't need it anymore than that is my first sign. I haven't taken any medication today. It's been glorious.

I got out there for 5 miles today. When I was done I blew my nose and it was a little gross so I should probably take some more medication today. But, I've enjoyed the medicine free day.


I really can't take the commercials anymore. My guilty pleasure channels are Hallmark, Lifetime, and TLC. Every commercial break is a commercial for a weight loss program.

When I watch ESPN every commercial break has one a sugary beverage or a fast food joint.

This is so frustrating. Get Skinny Ladies. Gentlemen, you just indulge in anything you want.


I've slightly become obsessed with Sweet Potatoes lately.


I know that I'm starting to feel a little better because my brain is a little happier. It's coming up with plant and ideas. I'm a lot less anxious.

Have a Blessed Night

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Tuesday, June 17, 2014

Something is wrong when eating at Taco Bell is more acceptable than choosing to eat Healthy

Hello Beautiful People,

I have recently seen a few things that horrify me. HORRIFY me.

On my road trip last week I saw numerous billboards for "Tacos in a bag". If you stop at this gas station with a convenient mart then you can get a taco like meal in a dorito bag. Oh yeah, that sounds good. And great, you can get it at a gas station. NEVER BUY MEALS AT A GAS STATION.

I have stopped for gas and gone in for a bottle of water. If I was hungry I bought a small bag of peanuts.

Then I have seen two different commercials for Taco Bell. One is for their new Quesarito: a burrito wrapped in a quesadilla. Um...why is this necessary?  At some point the flavors just mix together. The grease and the cheese just blend together.

They have also been pushing their breakfast menu. There is an egg wrapped in a sausage wrapped in a waffle sandwich. There is an egg and cheese on top of sausage on top of a hash brown wrapped in a quesadilla wrap. Why?  WHY?

I will admit that the Former Fat Girl would have wanted to try all of these. But, she didn't appreciate food. Just just abused herself with it. She just inhaled it. She never really tasted it.

Food is meant to fuel us. It should be enjoyed. It should be savored. It shouldn't be smothered in grease, fat, salt, sugar etc. We have become desensitized.

Healthy eating has a stigma attached to it. If someone says they are a Vegan the odds are that someone will roll their eyes. It's hard to comprehend for most people. Vegans abstain from all animal based products. That includes eggs and dairy. It's not crazy. It's smart.

Lots of people I know have decided to eat Paleo.  The theory is that if people in the Paleo era couldn't eat it, then it shouldn't be consumed. Basically, the body wasn't designed to digest a lot of what we consume today. I am completely on board with this...I just can't beat my addiction to Dairy no matter how hard I try.

Sometimes I look at food or drinks and think "how did someone decide to make it and think that it's okay or safe to eat?"  Pork rinds. Who made the first pork rind? And how? How did deep frying even come about?  Anything blue to drink. Why do you want to drink something that is neon blue???

So why is it then when someone takes it seriously what they choose to put into their body they are questioned or considered strange?  That seems so backwards.

Have a Blessed Evening

****Please note****

If you feel like you are alone on your journey and you just need some encouragement I am here for you! Shoot me an email and I will do my best to check in on you or give you the words of support you need several times a week. The journey is so much easier if you have support.

Monday, June 16, 2014

Sick and full of anxiety...hide the chocolate!

Happy Monday Bleeps,

Alright so I haven't really been feeling well since I got back from Charlotte. I was outrunning storms on the drive back and that's when it started. Sinuses....grrr... not good.

Friday night we went out to a Happy Hour. I started with a little headache, but by the time we left my throat was sore. By the time we got home I was stuffed up and my head hurt. I didn't get much sleep. When I woke up I was a little stuffed. I took some medicine and felt much better. I could breathe!

I had hoped to go lay by the pool. It was a beautiful day. Sunny. Warm, but not hot. I could breathe and I was all anxious. I hadn't heard regarding the Personal Trainer Position one way or another. So I opted to go for a walk.  I hadn't really done anything for a couple of days because of a blister on my heel. My plan was to just go out there for 3 miles. But, while I was walking it just felt sooooo good. I was getting sun. I didn't need to go to the pool. I could go a little longer.

I was out there for 7 miles. On my last lap I started to feel hungry and started to feel a little stuffed up. So I came inside for a shower, some food, and medicine. After a little rest we went out for a little bit. It was not long before I was completely stuffed up. One of our stops was Bath & Body Works so that could get some of the little holders for the anti-bacterial hand gels. I have a bunch of the little bottles, but if they aren't easily accessible I don't really use them. I have been using the one that is attached to the outside of one of my bags. They were having their big 75% off sale. I don't know if it's a good thing or not, but I could not smell a thing. I couldn't buy anything because I had no idea if I liked it or not. I did get 3 of the little cases though. For $1 each. Woo Woo!

By the time we got home I was super miserable. My ears were starting to hurt. I spent the rest of the night with one tissue stuck up my nose and the heating pad on my face. My throat was super sore so mom went out and got me a smoothie. Thanks Mom!

The next morning we found some Mucinex and I immediately felt relief. YEAH. So I went to church. My aunt's church has a foyer that you can sit in and watch the service on big screens. They also have a little coffee area. We stayed out there because I was a sneezing machine. I also got a smoothie for my throat. I'm glad I went though. The Pastor was comparing our walk with God to running a Marathon with Him. It spoke to me.

I was feeling a little better when I got home and went to the pool. I had two glorious hours where I could breathe...ahhh...I even thought that maybe I could go for a walk afterwards. And then I had a hard time breathing when I walked across the street back home. I couldn't even cross the street. BAH!

The medicine was working and I was breathing, but I was just completely drained. My body was tired and still fighting something. I think I've well established that I am not a good sickie. It's frustrating. Especially frustrating because I was getting increasingly anxious about the job. I hadn't heard and quite frankly I was not able to start immediately if they called and offered it. So I'm anxious and I can't run or even walk to clear my mind. If there was chocolate anywhere in the vicinity it would be gone. The good news is that there was one box of junior mints and I have yet to touch them. I'm saving it as a treat if I go to the movies.

Today I woke up feeling much better. For the most part I have been able to breathe for much of the day. However, stuff is coming out of my head that is disgusting. Eww. I actually lost 2 pounds. I know it's not that much fluid that has come out of my nose, but ha it's darn close. 

Tomorrow is going to be a challenge. I feel like I should be able to go out and do things tomorrow. I did not hear anything today either. I'm choosing to believe that no news is good news right now. I have to think positively right now, because otherwise I will be finding a reason to stop for some chocolate and that's just not cool.

I have spent 5 days with the Former Fat Girl in my head telling me that I wasn't good enough. That they didn't want me. If I don't get it position, I need to stay focused. If I don't get this then there's something else better for me out there. I can't let the Former Fat Girl get to me.

I really hope the I physically feel better tomorrow because I just can't rest with the Fat Girl looming in my head anymore. It's time for her to go. Plus, I have a marathon to be training for :-)

Have a Blessed Night

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Friday, June 13, 2014

Response to the Biggest Loser Controversy

Happy Friday Bleeps,

I am such a Biggest Loser Nerd. I really am. I follow so many former contestants on Instagram and Twitter.  They are such an inspiration for me. I love following their progress. I love seeing them live their lives. They are no longer hiding behind a body. They are enjoying life.

Do you remember Bernie? I LOVED Bernie from Season 5. He is one of my favorites. Today he liked back one of my pictures. I felt like a little school girl.

So I know I promised my response to the Biggest Loser finale. Here it comes.

There are many reasons why I love the Biggest Loser. Love it.

Everyone has a story. For some it's a tragic loss. For some it's abuse. For some it's the result of an injury. For some it's putting everyone else first. For some it's because they never knew any different.

The Former Fat Girl avoided mirrors and hid behind giant clothes. To bare yourself in front of an audience like that is so brave and amazing in my eyes. They tell their stories. They wear spandex. They cry.  The Former Fat Girl just watched in amazement at how open these people were.  She was jealous. Why couldn't she be that brave? Why couldn't she make the changes needed before it would come down to baring everything on National TV?  And so she watched. But, she didn't quite learn.

One of the things that I always said about this show is that even as a Game Show everyone comes out a winner. The money is just a bonus. But, the thing to remember here is that IT IS A GAME. Never lose sight of that fact.

The weight loss program that these people go through is extreme. But, they are in the care of doctors and professionals. They don't have to worry about anything other than losing weight and getting healthy. For those weeks on the Ranch that is their 24/7 full time job. It's a fast weight loss. To achieve that at home is very hard to do in that short amount of time.

My number one rule is maintenance. As bad as I want to lose everything I need to do it at a pace that is healthy and I will be able to maintain. For the most part the contestants do very well when they go home. Very rarely are they able to keep up that pace though.  But, they have been given the tools.

Don't forget that there is TV Magic at work. I always love when they get to the week when they get to wear shirts at the weigh in. They start to look simply amazing. So from following some of the former contestants I have learned that according to them they are wearing slim shapers.  It's not just for appearances, of course that helps, but it's also for the excess skin they have. So the shapers are worn all of the time. The excess skin becomes a problem just performing every day tasks. Several of the former contestants have raised money for and chronicled their skin removal surgery. That's not really mentioned on the show. It's not a sexy part of weight loss. The reality of the show though is that the average weight of the contestants have gotten progressively higher.

Reminder: it is a Television show. We see what the producers want us to see. It used to be such a positive show. Then there was that one unfortunate season where I actually started to dislike two contestants immensely. They didn't make me want to watch the show. They made it dramatic. It changed the show. TV is about ratings. Never forget that.

So now let's talk about Rachel. We all loved Rachel. She was the former athlete who followed a boy and gave up her athletic career. She was young and in great shape when she gave up. Dolvett got her to tap into the former competitor that she was. It was no shock that she was constantly in the lead. She had been there before. Your body remembers. It responds.

The one thing that we didn't see on camera was her really dealing with how she got there in the first place. That is key to a healthy journey. If you don't address those issues then the odds are that you'll fall back into old habits. Now, just because we didn't see it, doesn't mean that it didn't happen. We didn't see a lot of things. We seem to miss a lot of the workouts and hard work as they focus on stories and challenges. So that doesn't mean that it didn't happen.  Her story was clearly shown for us to cheer her on.

So what was my reaction when she came out? I was shocked. It was scary. Clearly she had lost too much. The big athlete lost muscle tone. But, she is a competitor. If she had kept her muscle she might not have won. That's the danger. I have thought that former winners and contestants looked like they had lost too much, but no one seemed concerned then. This isn't the first time. This was just a little more drastic than the others.

I read an article that talked to former winners. They all said the same thing. In the end it's a game. Those last few weeks before the final weigh in were drastic. Win at any cost. Within days of winning they immediately gained 5 lbs.

So that's the downside to this show. As motivating and inspiring as it can be, you shouldn't ever lose fact that it is a game show.

I'm not saying that this was a good thing, but it got people talking. Quite frankly I see actresses and singers that are just as skinny and without muscle tone that young girls look up to. They are practically skeletal. It drives me crazy. Reports are that Rachel has put some weight back on and doing very well. So I won't call it a good thing, but I will say that perhaps some good came out of it.

Not everyone has the same response on their journey. For some the endorphins are too addicting. When you have as many people go through these programs you're going to have extreme cases. That's why I like to follow the former contestants. I like seeing how positive it can be.

Have a Blessed Evening

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Thursday, June 12, 2014

Recap: My Trip to North Carolina

Hello my Lovelies and Gents,

Well it's been an eventful week. Thursday night I applied for 10 Personal Trainer positions in Charlotte. By 10 the next morning I had a call. Could I come down for an interview Monday? YOU BETCHA!

I had plans to workout Friday, but they quickly changed as I realized that I didn't have anything to wear. So I went shopping. And then there was a Happy Hour. Pomegranate Margarita.

Saturday I went to Baltimore. Sunday I got on the road after church.

My plans were to leave Tuesday unless I heard from someone else.

My drive down Sunday was fun. It was a very different drive for me. Previously the 6 hour drive would be made with the I-want-to-get-there-in-as-little-time-as-possible-mode. This time was different. I didn't want to be bloated. I didn't want my knee to hurt. I drank so much water. I stopped 5 times. It took me a little longer to get there. Plus I stopped for a Subway dinner stop. But, when I arrived I was in great shape. I did need to stretch though.

So Monday came and it was Push up day. I did my program and some crunches. I went in to my old office to have lunch and visit. We hadn't decided where to go. My only stipulation was that I wouldn't smell like food after. I was going straight to my interview. They selected Jimmy Johns. I had never been, but was told "just don't get onions and you'll be fine". Okay then.  I don't remember the name of my sandwich, but it had turkey, avocado, and tomato. I asked them to hold the mayo. It was good. I just didn't love the bread, but we Philly peeps are picky about our rolls.

The interview went well and I was told that they would be having follow up interviews with the regional manager later in the week. 

So I went to another gym and went for a run. I liked the set up, except that there was no fan. Ugh...a little hot. I got in 6 miles and then I went to shower. I LIKED the big giant showers there...very nice.

After the gym two of my Charlotte Besties, Ms. Amy and Ms. Crystal, and I went out to dinner. One of our favorite spots: Chili's. We like the margaritas. Although I didn't see a skinny on the menu. So I splurged on a watermelon lemonade instead. There was no rhyme or reason for that. The whole point of the skinny margarita is to eliminate the sugar and we all know there was sugar in this drink. But they had me at watermelon.

Ms. Crystal and I shared a 2 for $20. We ordered the half size chipotle flatbread as our starter. It was good, but a little spicy. My entree was the:

Ms. Crystal took a shower...I didn't realize we were doing that so I was a sweaty mess and a hungry sweaty mess. We stopped at Subway on the way home. 

Wednesday was another Push Up day. I felt good and strong. I had time to kill before the interview and the one thing that I wanted to do during my whole visit was to hit up the park that I used to go to. There is a shopping center with a pond in the middle. There are paddle boats, ducks, fountains, and even a small boardwalk area. The Former Fat girl spent a LOT of time there. It started as an option other than the gym for a good walk after work. And then it was a great place to get a tan on the weekend while walking. She LOVED it there. She logged a lot of miles. It's about a mile track all of the way around. It's not a complete circle so you need to improvise.

I was excited to go back. I packed some water and headed out. It was beautiful. It was hot and sunny and beautiful. I wish there was a bathroom, but if you are there when the stores are open that's not a problem. I also wish there weren't so many Canadian Geese. There were two sections with them walking around and hissing. Those aren't my favorite spots. Plus it smells a little. But, I was on a mission.

Quick story about the geese. On my last loop just as I had passed them a cute boy with a dog the size of a bear was walking towards me. When I got to the other side of the pond I looked over. All of the geese were in the water. Note to self: Bring a cute boy with a big dog next time. haha. 

My plan was to run, but I had in my head that it was an asphalt trail. It was sidewalk. No running on concrete!  So I turned it into a 5 mile fast walk. It was great. It was a little therapeutic. It was nice to think about how far I have come since the first time I was there. I needed that.

Afterwards I went back and showered. It was time to go. The gym is next to a Super Walmart with a Subway. It seems to have been a Subway week for me. I got a footlong ham on flatbread and had them wrap it separately. I quickly ate half and then kept the other half to eat at a rest stop on the way home.

I think the interview went well. I will know shortly. I don't want to jinx anything. If I get it then it's great. If I don't then at least I know there was interest in me and that I got the push that I needed to get back down to NC.

I did get a blister on the back of my heel walking from my car to the gym though. Grr. So no running for a day or two. I need to find my blister band-aids.

I drank more water on the way home. This time I was a little bloated from the morning's 5 miles and the heat. I hit 100 oz before Virginia. I also got nailed with some big storms.

I will say that a 7 hour trip is a long time right after an interview. There was a lot of replaying. Maybe I should have said this or that. Grr...time with my brain is dangerous sometimes.

I got back to Virginia late and fell asleep before I could finish my book. Today I was exhausted. I have a blister and it was rainy. So it was a yoga read day. Ahh...

In case you've missed it: I Heart NC!

Have a Blessed Night

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Saturday, June 7, 2014

Sing it with me...Good Morning Baltimore!

Good Morning Baltimore! (if you've seen Hairspray you'll get that)

Today was a Beautiful day!  Earlier in the week Cousin Kim asked if I was available today. I was. And so we met halfway in Baltimore. And yes, she brought Miss Cassidy. HOLLA!

I checked the weather before getting dressed. It's going to be a hot one. So I put on some shorts and a tank top. I did pack a cardigan in case. The outfit would look super adorable with some sandals. But, that's not an option for me. If I am going to be on my feet all day then I need to be wearing sneakers. My feet and knees need that support. I cringe when I see people walking around all day in flip flops. And that kills me. That's what the Former Fat Girl lived in. Of course she also paid for it at the end of the day...she just never put 2 and 2 together. You're never too old to learn these life lessons. haha.

We were meeting at the Port Discovery Museum. It's a fun place for kids. Since I had an hour drive I made sure to drink my water on the way. I didn't know how much I would get to drink throughout the day so I needed to make sure I got a good start. Psst...I also packed a bottle in my bag.

We met up just after 10 and stopped at a Subway to use the bathroom an get something to eat. I had a bagel thin with some peanut butter for breakfast. I was a little hungry. So I got a 3 inch egg white and cheese on flatbread with spinach and tomato. Yum.

 So if you have young kids and find yourself in Baltimore I highly recommend this place. It's so cute and full of activities for kids. Miss Cassidy had a blast. They have stuff for all ages.

The special exhibit right now is a Curious George interactive exhibit. It was so cute. We even got to meet him!

After a couple hours Miss Cassidy needed a nap and Aunt Jennie was hungry. So we walked over to the Inner Harbor. It was a nice walk on a hot day. Thank goodness for the water.

We got to the food area and found a fudge place...mmm....Fudge! There was a fudge making demonstration and you got samples at the end. We stayed for a little bit, but not long enough for the free samples.

There aren't that many options for a good lunch. Hamburgers. Tacos. Chicken tenders. I went to another subway. I got a 6 inch turkey on wheat with avocados, spinach, tomato, and cucumber. Yum.

It was really hot and I wanted ice cream. I really REALLY wanted ice cream. So after Miss Cassidy woke up we went to a souvenir store and got her a little stuffed crab before ice cream. Amazingly we found the best place. When they say one scoop they mean it. It was perfect. Just enough to make me happy, but not enough to make me feel was coconut. I could have EASILY gotten a large.  I also picked up another water.

It was getting late so we walked back towards the museum again. The cool thing is that we could go back in with our bracelets. We spent a little more time and got to use the bathrooms...I was peeing all day as you can imagine.

So I wore the Fitbit today and logged my steps. We walked a lot today...but I didn't hit my 10,000 steps. I only hit 4,000 steps in Baltimore. There was a lot of time on my feet and a lot of walking, but not enough. Days without  scheduled walks/runs rarely are. I won't let it get to me though. I still got in more steps outside of Baltimore. It was still a great day.

Have a Blessed Evening

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Friday, June 6, 2014

Getting Started 101

Happy Friday Beautiful People,

So you want to make positive changes and lead a more active lifestyle, but you don't know where to start?  It can seem overwhelming.

My first two suggestions would be to:

a) Get your water in!

b) Start with your walking.

Water is your friend. It's the most basic advice that I can give you. I know I've said it before, but I'm so horrified at how much water I used to NOT drink. It's sort of amazing that I am still alive. Your body needs it to function.  It really does.

You know how when a plant hasn't been watered in a long time it starts to wither?  Well what happens when you water it? It comes back to life. That is you!  That is how your body will respond. It's so important for so many reasons.  It expels the toxins from your system. It cools your body temperature. It amazes me that so many people don't know that. I don't get affected by the heat as much as most people do because my body temperature is lower from all of the water I drink. 

We all know how active I am. I can tell you the days that I don't get my water in. My workouts SUCK. It takes me forever to get moving. My body doesn't want to do it. My brain feels sluggish. It's hard. Once I get my water in then I am good to go. That also applies to my non-workout hours in the day.

So start with your water (morning til night) and then plan on getting in a regular walking schedule. If you can carve out time for your favorite TV shows then you can carve out time for a walk. If you can carve out time for the internet then you can carve out time for a walk. I'm not telling you to run at full speed in the beginning. I am telling you to get in at least a 30 minute walk a day. I'm not talking about walking at the mall. I'm talking about a constant pace for 30 minutes. Do it on your lunch hour. Do it as a family after dinner. Do it with your dog before work. Just do it.   Everyone has 30 minutes a day. If you don't then you need some time management lessons.

Why do I recommend walking? Because it's free and easy. It's good for your heart. It's a good stress reliever. It helps to clear your mind. If you tell me you don't have the time or you're too stressed I will tell you that you are wrong. 30 minutes a day will help with both. It'll give you more energy. It'll help relieve stress. And that's what it's all about. It's about giving you a better quality of life.

So what do you need for your walking?  A good pair of sneakers. It hurts me to see people wearing the same pair of sneakers for years and years. Make sure there is tread on the bottom. If it's worn then they must go. And bring a bottle of water with you. It makes me so nervous when I see people walking or running in the heat with no water. Try to keep to a regular schedule of it. Let it become a habit. Pretty soon you will be missing it if you have to skip it.

And let me tell you a little secret. I get asked almost every day about how to lose weight in certain areas. I can give you exercises to tighten up muscles, but to lose the fat you need to do the cardio. Walking is a great start.

There are plenty of other things (eating habits) to change next, but these are my top changes to start with. Let me know how it goes :-)

Have a Blessed Night

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Thursday, June 5, 2014

Second Chances

Hello Beautiful People,

I have been staying with my mom for the past couple of weeks. She lives in a beautiful complex that we moved into my year after college.  It's been wonderful and a little sad.

For a whole year after college I lived here and didn't appreciate it. There is a decent fitness center that I believe I rarely went to. There is a swimming pool that this Sun Goddess should have gone to every chance she got.   The reality though, is that the Former Fat Girl just didn't do anything other than work, read, watch movies, and eat.

As most of you know, I gained my fair share of weight in college.  The summer after graduation I lived in D.C. I didn't lose all of the weight that summer, but I did shed some pounds. I had very little money and even though I loved the Metro System, walking was cheaper. I walked as much as I could. I also didn't go out to eat. While the food I ate was cheap it wasn't exactly healthy. Lots of mac'n'cheese and hot dogs. Thank goodness for the walking.

So that summer I lost a few pounds and then I moved to the suburbs in Virginia. The first couple of months I lived in my Aunt's basement. Almost every night when I came home I would go for a walk. It was nice. I sat all day and my commute was forever. So walking was nice. And then we moved in November to the new place. So it's starting to get dark at night and I have a new place to live. Why didn't I move my walk to the treadmill in the fitness center? I have no idea.

The girl who LOVES the sun also had access to a wonderful pool. She could have spent every weekend basking in the sun. Did she? Nope. She was there a couple of times, but she was gaining weight again and didn't want to be putting that fat out there.

These past couple of weeks have been awesome. I haven't been to the Fitness Center though. It's okay since I have been hitting up the jogging trail. I have been enjoying the Lake that the trail is around. I have seen turtles, Blue Jays, and Orioles. I have spent time out in the sun and breathing fresh air.

I have even enjoyed the pool a few times. Ahhh...

So I mentioned earlier that one of the things that the Former Fat Girl did was eat. And one of her favorite places was called Hunter's Mill. The only thing she ate there were ruebens.  They were the most amazing reuben sandwiches. She would eat there at least once a week. Sometimes twice. Oh and she got french fries too. She LOVED those reubens.

This place is the type of place that you can smell all through the parking lot. Your mouth just starts salivating as soon as you are in the area. I have avoided going there for a long time. I've been scared of it. Could I go and survive?  Well we tested it out last week.

I had to look at the menu for about 10 minutes because I had literally only ever had a reuben. They had stuff from the grill, subs (not hoagies *insert sad face*), salads, sandwiches and wraps. I opted for a Chicken Wrap. I felt good that I stayed away from the grill. Although I was a little annoyed that the wraps were labeled "Healthy Wraps" when they were full of mayo and ranch dressing. Mine was a chicken salad with cucumbers, avocados, and spinach. The next time I will get one of the chicken wraps without the dressing.

It makes me sad to think of the year wasted way back when, but no looking back. It's just time to make the best of Today! I feel like I'm living a Second Chance.

Have a Blessed Evening

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Wednesday, June 4, 2014

Random Wednesday: Juicers, scales, and Playlists

Happy Random Wednesday Bleeps!

A few posts ago I was talking about Hoarders. I can totally relate to the emotional attachment to things. So this week I have had a pile for donations in the living room. They were bagged and boxed for a few days. I wanted to wait until I was completely done before I took them in case I found more. Well yesterday was the lucky day. And I totally had a panic moment. There was a shirt that I couldn't remember if I put in the bags or not. I know I thought about it, but did I do it? I would need to look in them before I took them away. But, no. If I decided to let it go I had talked myself into that.

I checked the bag. And was mad at myself for doing it. I hadn't put the shirt in the bag anyway.


When Cousin Randy and I were at Panera the other night I noticed something new on the menu. They have flatbread sandwiches. I am a little excited. I'll have to go check them out. I saw a Mediterranean chicken that peaked my interest.


So the other day I was flipping through the guide channel and I saw the description of a show that intrigued me. A comedienne that I like has a show with her family. On this particular episode she wanted her family to eat more healthy. And so I watched.

She and her mom were at a Farmers Market buying bags of wonderful veggies for a mere $10. They were so excited. Then the conversation turned to Juicers. So cut to dinner time and she is making the family vegetable juice for dinner.

I spot a problem.

The teenagers were not really excited. They were really mad actually. After she tasted the juice she threw up and then took them out to dinner.

Why would you do that? All of those beautiful veggies could have been presented in a much better way. Throwing them all in a juice for a meal is not going to end well. And now that's the association with "healthy eating".


Once again I am in the struggle with my hair. To cut or not. I love it short, but the maintenance of the short cut is driving me crazy. I used to go years between big cuts. Now I need one just about every month.

I did have a crazy moment thinking that I might grow out my bangs...that moment has passed though.


So I'm very excited. I got a new scale. Sadly, my really great scale broke. At some point during the previous move the calibration got messed up and it just would not fix. I held off getting a new one for so long hoping that I could fix it. I could not and so I finally got a new one this week. YEAH!

Um...did I just say YEAH in terms of getting a new scale? WHO AM I????


The Push ups are coming along VERY nicely....just saying.

PS. My arms look VERY nice.

I had a bonus this week. I got a call from Ms. Tracey. I miss her. I haven't talked to her since the end of March. I did get to see pictures of her baby boy, but we haven't really gotten a chance to talk. It was nice. We caught up on our lives and talked about a post-baby workout.

And then later that night I got another call from another friend who had just joined a gym and wanted a program.

It's been a good week.


So my Fitbit total step count yesterday was just over 2 miles. And that was with effort on commercials. Today I got a run in and was out and about. My run was only 3 miles, but my step count is over 9,000 so far and I still have the night to get there. I will.


Today at lunch I substituted the seasonal veggies for my french fries. Squash, zucchini, peppers, and tomatoes...oh my. I don't know what they were grilled in, but they were so yummy.



It's time to update your playlists. I've already added a couple of these to mine.

Here's the full list, according to votes placed at Run Hundred--the web's most popular workout music blog.
Clean Bandit & Jess Glynne - Rather Be - 122 BPM
Crazibiza, Dave Aude & Vassy - Hustlin' (Radio Version) - 124 BPM
Janelle Monae - What Is Love (Walden Radio Edit) - 127 BPM
3LAU & Bright Lights - How You Love Me - 128 BPM
Afrojack & Wrabel - Ten Feet Tall - 126 BPM
John Legend - All of Me (Tiesto's Birthday Treatment Remix Radio Edit) - 128 BPM
Avicii - Addicted to You (Albin Myers Remix) - 128 BPM
Ariana Grande & Iggy Azalea - Problem - 103 BPM
Imagine Dragons - On Top of the World - 100 BPM
Pitbull & G.R.L. - Wild, Wild Love - 120 BPM

To find more workout songs, folks can check out the free database at Visitors can browse the song selections there by genre, tempo, and era—to find the music that best fits with their particular workout routine.

Have a Blessed Night

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Tuesday, June 3, 2014

Tracking your steps: Surprising numbers

Hello My Lovelies and Gents,

Have you ever said "Oh I probably walked about 5 miles today"?  Sometimes there is a misconception about just how much you walk during the day. 

I know I get a lot of mileage on my walks and runs. It's my daily movements that aren't so hot. There are even less excuses now that I'm not sitting at a desk all day.  Although I try to make it a little more active every day. I park further away. I take the stairs when I can. I try to get out for a little walk every day. If I am watching TV I try to get up on commercials and move around.

Many times over the years I have considered wearing my pedometer and seeing how my day is. I have had a couple of pedometers over the years, but I never got in the habit of using them. The one I use for my runs is on my ipod so I would get nervous about using that all over. I might not notice if I lose it if I am not listening to music on it. So many times I packed the pedometers for big trips though. I wanted to use it in Disney World and at the zoo, but I forgot to put it on.

Before I left my former company they gave me a Fitbit as a reward for qualifying for a Health drawing. Setting it up has been on my To Do list forever. And last night I finally did.

So what is a Fitbit?  It's a fitness tracker that you wear and then it sync's up with your computer. I wasn't sure how it would work, but so far it has. You wear a bracelet all day long. You set it to the 'sleep' mode when it's time. It's waterproof so you wear it in the shower. The only time you take it off is to charge it about every 5 days. It tracks your sleep, your steps, your activity level, and your calories burned. You set your goals and it tracks your progress. The box came with two bracelets. I'm happy to report that I am wearing the Small :-)

The default goal is 10,000 steps a day. That's about 5 miles. It's a good healthy number. It's what we should all strive for every day.

Today is either a really good day for me to start tracking or a very bad day. Last night I went for a run with my cousin. We didn't go to the lake as I had planned. Instead we ran from his place to over by the mall and then back. There was no running trail. We ran on the concrete sidewalks for 3 miles. This is my big NO NO. No running on concrete. It is the WORST surface for your knees. So for me a 3 mile run is a short run, but a 3 mile run on concrete is like a 10 mile run on the treadmill on my knees.

While I'm here I should tell you about the run. It was fun. I don't usually run well with others. It's very hard for me to find a good pace with someone else. I have talked about Cousin Randy before. He came to my first Half Marathon and I was there for his first one. We have been very supportive of each other, but in all of this time we have only ever run together one other time and that was more of a walk around the lake. I wasn't sure if I could hold pace with him, but we did really well together.

The only real problems were that he lives in a very busy area near lots of shopping centers and major highways. Crossing intersections were were a little tricky. Although they were nothing compared to crossing exit ramps. We joked that it was a death run. Nothing gets you moving like speeding cars.  The irony is that the Former Fat Girl used to joke that she ran "only when chased.".

Towards the end of our run we stopped at Panera for a smoothie. We were sweaty nasty and I really felt bad for the other customers. We got Superfruit power smoothies. It was very yummy.  It was great run though. We had a lot of fun. And when I got home there was a lot of ice.

So today needed to be a light day. No runs.  So maybe it it's the perfect day to track with the Fitbit.

Today I ran out for a couple of hours to drop off donations and pick up a scale. I made it home just in time for the giant storm to hit. So it was a perfect afternoon for me to get some work done on the computer. Not exactly great Fitbit material. So I put on the TV and during every commercial I got up and walked around. Sometimes I actually got up to do things and sometimes I got up just to walk continuously. I decided to track my steps for one hour of commercial breaks. It's kind of disappointing.  I only got 400 steps. That's barely a dent in the 10,000. Although, since I am well aware of how much you have to do to get 10,000 steps it really wasn't that surprising.

I have been a little obsessive about checking my progress, but that really is a great motivator. So get out there and invest in a pedometer. I think you'll be surprised with the results.

Have a Blessed Evening

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Monday, June 2, 2014

My Weekend: Sangria, Spontaneous Run, and Baptism

Hello Beautiful People,

I had a pretty good weekend. It was beautiful.   I hope you got to enjoy the wonderful weather.

Friday night I met up with Mom and some other teachers for a Happy Hour. I love all of the people she works with. They are so sweet and so supportive of me. I am more than happy to hang with them for the evening. And more importantly, I enjoyed a very nice adult beverage. Summer can only mean one thing....SANGRIA! Just one...and I did eat my fruit.

So Saturday morning when I got up I knew that my plan was to get a run in. As I was laying in bed I made the decision that I would head over to my Aunt's and then come back. Not in my car.

My Aunt lives just over 3 miles from my mom. Every time we drive over there I see people on the running trail and think that I should do that. I love that about this area. There are trails all over the place. I can hardly go anywhere without seeing people out running.  Why the heck don't I do it.

And so I made the decision to do it and that meant I needed to get started before it got too late...and hot. The plan would be to get over to my Aunt's and see my Grandmom for a few minutes and then head back. I could also refill my water bottle and use the ladies room. I never questioned that I would get there. I was a little worried that Grandmom would worry about me heading back to mom's.

It's kind of amazing to me that I can just decide "Hey, I think I'm going to go run about 7 miles right now. I'll be back."  And I LIKE IT!

When I was getting ready I found a bag that I had gotten last year. It goes across your back over one shoulder. Since I didn't have stops between houses I opted to take it. I would need keys, ID, fuel, and I was carrying something for Grandmom.

Since I hadn't done this before I never really paid attention to where the sidewalks and running trails were. I would cross the street and realize there was no sidewalk. Or I would cross and see that there was no crosswalk up ahead.

At one point I had crossed a street and realized there was no sidewalk. I figured it was okay and I would just walk the block and cross the street at the intersection. Um...I didn't realize they were mowing the lawn so I was kicking up freshly mowed grass...great.  And then I got to the intersection and there was no crosswalk on that side for me. So I had to cross back. This intersection is a biggy. Once I got through it I would be fine, but I now needed to go diagonal and I could be waiting forever each way. And let me tell you, this is NOT the intersection you want to play around with. So after about 6 minutes I made it across.

The irony is that I could have worn the bag easily if I hadn't lost the weight. I couldn't tighten it enough to stay put while I ran. It was fine when I slowed to a walk though.  I did a little of both. I walked on the up hills and the concrete and ran the rest.

The best bonus of the day was that there was honeysuckle practically the whole way.

When I got to my Aunt's I was pleasantly surprised. Grandmom wasn't phased at all that I didn't drive. I stayed for about 10 minutes and then headed back out.  I took a little different way on the way back. I wanted up even out the mileage to about 7 miles.

Lots of pretty flowers along the way.

It was a good run/ good that I showered and then went to the pool for a couple of hours...ahhh

Sunday came and it was Baptism Day. It's something I really wanted to do for a while, but I wasn't sure if I was going to be around for it.  It was a little weird, but I wore my bathing suit to church. I wore a skirt and a sweater over for service. They gave us t-shirts to wear in the Baptismal pool, but I still felt a little naked coming out in my bathing suit bottom. I will be starting my second blog this week and that will be a little more detailed. But, I have to say that when I saw the photos I couldn't believe how flat I looked when I was being dunked :-)

I hope you had a great weekend. Now I have to close up because I have a running date with my cousin at the lake. WOO WOO.

Have a Blessed Night

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Sunday, June 1, 2014

Hoarders: motivation and correlation

Happy Sunday Bleeps,

Do you watch Hoarders? For someone with mild OCD it is good and bad. Sometimes it's so difficult for me to watch that I just walk away. Part of me wants to jump in and help. Part of me wants to cry. Part of me wants to throw up. Part of me understands the family's frustration. Part of me gets frustrated when the family yells. It's a range of emotions.

It's hard to watch the beginning when people are going about their daily business as if nothing was wrong. Even when faced with eviction or removal of children there doesn't seem to be an urgency to fix things.

If you watch you will notice that they not only bring in people to organize and clean, but also a therapist to help. You don't get to this point because everything is ok.

The first day of cleaning will start okay. Then after a little bit the hoarder will begin to get rattled. It's too much too fast for them. They will start pulling things from the trash piles and halt all progress. It seems hopeless. There is no way this will get better.

Then after the commercial it is 30 days later and we are back to see the progress. More often then not things are in much better shape. Sometimes it's practically perfect and sometimes there is no change. The severe improvements are good for my heart. The OCD girl can finally breathe. The girl who watched the whole episode sometimes has a hard time grasping the quick change. This is the problem with "TV magic". You tend to see the extremes and not the in between. I need the in between. That's where the lessons are.

So why am I bringing this up? Well there are a couple of reasons. Thanks for asking.

First, I get way anxious when things are all a clutter in my life. It stresses me. It depresses me. It makes me eat. Sometimes I jump up and tackle the problem like I am in a vacuum. I forget to eat or I eat too much. I forget to rest. I forget to drink water. It will be 2am before I come up for air. Sometimes I need to sit back and make a plan. I am the type of person who starts in one section then gets sidetracked by another. It may not look pretty to someone else, but there is rhyme and reason in my head. If someone were looking at it they would not understand.

This past week has been a joy for me. Finally all of my belongings are in the same spot. Granted they are all in boxes, bins, and bags. Yes, the OCD chick has been living out of bins for 2014. It's been a little longer than I had hoped, but that's ok. It made going through my stuff a little easier. If I haven't used it then maybe I can go without.

I wanted to go through everything and get rid of more stuff. It took me 5 days and my stuff was already packed and organized. Now granted my stuff isn't covered in feces or rotting food and is in much better shape. But, it's also much smaller in volume. And this amount felt daunting. There were emotional ties. If I hadn't seen it I would have forgotten about it. Someone could have sorted through it and gotten rid of stuff for me a lot easier...but that thought frightens me beyond belief. Control!!!!

I feel like a new person when things are clean and organized. I feel better. I feel clearer. I feel like I can deal with anything. When there is clutter and all I want to do is clean it I can find myself climbing in bed overwhelmed by the task. It's frustrating. When things are organized I can focus on me. No more excuses.

This week I watched a couple of episodes before I really got started. It was highly motivating.

Second, I see a correlation between hoarders and unhealthy lifestyles. Imagine that you are extremely unhealthy and you have 30 days to make it all better. Imagine that the doctor just said that you will die if you don't make these changes (forget the doctor, I am telling you that your unhealthy lifestyle will eventually kill you). If I started you with an all day boot camp the odds are that you wouldn't make it through without getting frustrated and stopping. It would be too much too fast.

Yes I want you to get healthy as fast as possible, but the reality is that there are other factors. It won't change overnight. The number one goal of a trainer is to help a client maintain a healthy lifestyle. Only 50% of people who sign up with gyms and trainers are still going 6 months later. That's not good. We want you to come back. I can push you til you puke on that first day, but if you aren't truly ready to change your entire life then it's not going to matter. It takes a month for these guys to turn things around. One workout won't make it all better. It takes work and dedication. And let me tell you from experience that it is SO WORTH IT!

Have a Blessed Evening

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