Super Bowl Anxiety...I miss my Dad.
Hello Beautiful People,
Happy Super Bowl Sunday!
I have been so excited for today and I've been dreading it so much. I just was not ready for the flood of emotions that I've been going through today. I woke up crying and have spent most of the day crying. To say that I miss my Daddy is an understatement. It's been four months since he passed away and it hasn't gotten any easier. I'm crying right now actually. I'm a giant knot of anxiety. But, I'm wearing my Dad's jersey so he's here with me.
I'm not even going to try on focusing on food today. It'll be a losing battle, but I've been so good lately that I'm going to not fight it and just enjoy my stress eating.
On a more positive side, I had a really good day yesterday. I was so tired when I got up though. I had that coffee Friday night and had a hard time falling asleep. Then I had to get up for my clients. And the plan was to go straight to the gym. I wanted 8 miles. But, oh I wanted to just come back and go to bed. Then something pretty awesome happened. I had an email from St. Jude Heroes that someone had donated to my fundraising page. That' all it took.
I went straight to the gym and I got my 8 miles in. It was so amazing. There was not one moment when I thought that I would cut out early. In fact, I felt so good that I almost went for 10. But, as a trainer I knew that was a bad move. I didn't know how my foot and calf would react afterwards. It was my first big distance in two years. I needed to make sure I could recover. I felt amazing the whole time. I wasn't fast by any means, but I was consistent and my miles got faster as they went on. So it was a huge success.
I rewarded myself with a hydromassage afterwards. It was so good.
I was happily surprised with the results. I mentally planned the this week's workout plan. I am going away saturday so I can't do a long one then, but I can get one in on Thursday. I have two mid distances tomorrow and Wednesday.
Eight miles is good. I have 5 more to get through though and that's the mark in DC that I start to struggle. What I really need to work on now are hills and the cold. Two of my least favorite things, but I feel like I'm in good shape right now.
What I liked best about time time was that I got into a great rhythm. I could feel my muscles moving. That is my favorite thing. I can feel the leg muscles, my core muscles, and even my back and shoulder. Everything is in play.
I need to not look at the scale for a while. The number isn't changing, but the clothes fit better and frankly that matters more. I'm just a little worried about the St. Jude race singlet though. It looks awfully small.
If you would like to help with my motivation I would welcome all of the donations that I can get:
http://heroes.stjude.org/Jennie_Henderson
Okay the game has started and my focus is gone. Fly Eagles Fly!
Have a Blessed Evening,
Jennie
xoxo
If you feel like you are alone on your journey and you just need some encouragement I am here for you! Shoot me an email and I will do my best to check in on you or give you the words of support you need several times a week. The journey is so much easier if you have support.
jhendersonfit@gmail.com
http://www.facebook.com/ConfessionsOfAFormerFatGir
yeah, sorry, I messed up and the "l" is missing....I need an assistant :-)
Don't forget to follow me on Twitter: hugsnsmile
Instagram: Jennie5973
Happy Super Bowl Sunday!
I have been so excited for today and I've been dreading it so much. I just was not ready for the flood of emotions that I've been going through today. I woke up crying and have spent most of the day crying. To say that I miss my Daddy is an understatement. It's been four months since he passed away and it hasn't gotten any easier. I'm crying right now actually. I'm a giant knot of anxiety. But, I'm wearing my Dad's jersey so he's here with me.
I'm not even going to try on focusing on food today. It'll be a losing battle, but I've been so good lately that I'm going to not fight it and just enjoy my stress eating.
On a more positive side, I had a really good day yesterday. I was so tired when I got up though. I had that coffee Friday night and had a hard time falling asleep. Then I had to get up for my clients. And the plan was to go straight to the gym. I wanted 8 miles. But, oh I wanted to just come back and go to bed. Then something pretty awesome happened. I had an email from St. Jude Heroes that someone had donated to my fundraising page. That' all it took.
I went straight to the gym and I got my 8 miles in. It was so amazing. There was not one moment when I thought that I would cut out early. In fact, I felt so good that I almost went for 10. But, as a trainer I knew that was a bad move. I didn't know how my foot and calf would react afterwards. It was my first big distance in two years. I needed to make sure I could recover. I felt amazing the whole time. I wasn't fast by any means, but I was consistent and my miles got faster as they went on. So it was a huge success.
I rewarded myself with a hydromassage afterwards. It was so good.
I was happily surprised with the results. I mentally planned the this week's workout plan. I am going away saturday so I can't do a long one then, but I can get one in on Thursday. I have two mid distances tomorrow and Wednesday.
Eight miles is good. I have 5 more to get through though and that's the mark in DC that I start to struggle. What I really need to work on now are hills and the cold. Two of my least favorite things, but I feel like I'm in good shape right now.
What I liked best about time time was that I got into a great rhythm. I could feel my muscles moving. That is my favorite thing. I can feel the leg muscles, my core muscles, and even my back and shoulder. Everything is in play.
I need to not look at the scale for a while. The number isn't changing, but the clothes fit better and frankly that matters more. I'm just a little worried about the St. Jude race singlet though. It looks awfully small.
If you would like to help with my motivation I would welcome all of the donations that I can get:
http://heroes.stjude.org/Jennie_Henderson
Okay the game has started and my focus is gone. Fly Eagles Fly!
Have a Blessed Evening,
Jennie
xoxo
****Please note****
If you feel like you are alone on your journey and you just need some encouragement I am here for you! Shoot me an email and I will do my best to check in on you or give you the words of support you need several times a week. The journey is so much easier if you have support.
jhendersonfit@gmail.com
http://www.facebook.com/ConfessionsOfAFormerFatGir
yeah, sorry, I messed up and the "l" is missing....I need an assistant :-)
Don't forget to follow me on Twitter: hugsnsmile
Instagram: Jennie5973
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