Saturday, August 27, 2011

Diet Is a Four-Letter Word

 Just like every fat girl has a skinny girl trying to get out, I have a fat story trying to get out.  They say "write what you know". Well I know fat.

My entire life I have been at war with my weight.  I've won a few battles, but mostly my evil enemy has beaten me time and time again. I am finally winning, but I still have a long road ahead of me.  So here is my story:

My name is Jennie.  I am 38 years old.  I have been overweight for as long as I can remember.  Although I recently saw a picture of me when I was about five years old and I was as skinny as can be.  That made me cry.  In grade-school and high-school I was just overweight.  When I went off to college I started to get fat.  I apparently liked the freshman fifteen so much that I repeated it every year.  Since college it's been a roller coaster and it's been mostly up hill.  I did have a few years when I dropped down.  I spent one year working in NYC and walked everywhere.  I looked pretty good then, but still couldn't lose the belly. As soon as I left I ballooned up again.

Six years ago things changed for me.  I had just suffered serious heartbreak and my office-mate was preparing to get married.  So to support her I joined the gym with her through work.  I'll discuss that first week later, because that was a hoot. I became addicted.  We initially started going together and then I was going every day on my own.  I couldn't get enough.  The weight was coming off and I was feeling good.  What I didn't know then is that I was still a moron when it came to nutrition.  I could have lost so much more if only I had eaten right.  I wasn't eating horrible, I just wasn't eating what I should.

Fast forward a couple years and there was a follow-up heartbreak.  This one was even worse.  I couldn't breathe anymore and I had to move back north.  That meant leaving my gym. So here I was heartbroken and without a gym.  I walked as much as I could for the first couple months and seemed to be doing well.  And then then not so much.  The weight started to come back.  Great!  Now I was heartbroken and fat again.  I made the decision in November to start the South Beach Diet.  Because it's always best to start a new diet routine right before Thanksgiving.  But I was seeing results. I couldn't believe it.  Sure, I thought I was going to die and go into sugar-withdrawal, but it was making a difference.

So I had seen results with the gym and I had seen results with nutrition, but not together.  I'm still working on that.  It's been almost 4 years since then and I've been up and down so many times.  My emotions take over and I can't help it.

I am hoping that this journey together will help.  I am hoping it will help me heal and maybe help others to know they aren't alone.  If I can help inspire one person change their lifestyle then it will be a victory well won :-)

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