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Hello my Lovelies and Gents,
September is not my friend. It's been a stressful month and now tomorrow is the anniversary of my Dad's passing. I know that makes my emotions high, but I need a break. It's been a tough year at preschool, and it's only been 4 weeks. I'm hopeful that things will get better, but I seem to have a headache every day (I have a screamer) and I'm physically exhausted. Then this week I don't know what I did to my right hand, but my wrist is sore. And then I got a killer debilitating migraine this weekend. I haven't had one this bad in a long time. My hair still hurts. BREATHE.
So let's back up. I've been so tired that I haven't had any energy to get my cardio in. And truth be told, when it came down to it, I also had very little energy for strength. I started back with a morning client two days a week so I decided that I would get up at that time every day and walk in the gym at church before Preschool. That first morning I got there only 30 minutes early and I forgot my watch. Darn it. But, I still walked. I made it one time the next week, but I also stayed after and walked one day after school. It's not much, but I'm getting there. I'm determined to work on my resting heart rate and help my blood pressure. It doesn't take that much to do that, it just takes consistency,
It is killing me that I haven't finished telling you about my Cedar Point trip. But, I won't do it until I can sit and do it properly.
This past week was full of a ton of emotions. I had a really bad day at preschool and then we found out about an unexpected death and long story short I ate half of a box of Thin Mints for dinner.
Then I had a Me Day planned. I'm happy to report that I went to see My Big Fat Greek Wedding 3. I had a little time to kill before I went to the theater so I did my laps. Go me. And then I got my snacks for the movie and long story short I ate a bag of combos for dinner.
On Thursday my afternoon client cancelled because her household was throwing up and with fevers. So I made an impromptu trip to the grocery store to pick up bananas and long story short $75 and 3 pints of ice cream later I left. NEVER go to the store without a list. Especially when you are having a rough week. On the positive side of that trip, I did get some more roasted vegetables to put on my salad. I am embracing the roasted brussel sprouts and butternut squash on my salad.
I was finally not stressed at work on Friday and long story short as soon as I got home my nose was running and the headache started.
I don't think that I mentioned this before, but I may have. Sadly I got a bug infestation in two of my plants this summer. I treated them and kept them contained and minimal, but when I went away in August I had to throw one of them out as soon as I got home. I treated the other but, it was just stressing me out. Every new growth brought a new nest. So last week I finally threw it out. I also threw out two others that were just struggling and giving me problems. I bought a replacement and I repotted it yesterday. My plant area looks a little different, but it is less stressful. I also have to figure out what to do with it once I put my Christmas tree up.
I did get another succulent and pot too. My mustache pot has a girlfriend. She is adorable. Now let's talk about habits. I checked plants 4-5 times a day for bugs. Sometimes I found something every time and sometimes I went days in between. I still found them though. It's been over a week and I'm still checking my plants multiple times a day looking for them and expecting to see them. I don't know when I will stop checking them daily. I know there is an incubation period and they could show up again, but the anxiety I have is still there. I'm not even relieved when I don't see anything because I'm still expecting something bad to happen. Life with anxiety.
There is still another stress that I haven't talked about. The Charlotte CROP Hunger Walk is in three weeks. This is my second year as the Co-Chair. I was stressed last year and everything worked out. I'm stressed again this year, but I'm mainly disappointed in myself. I don't feel like I have put the work in that I should. I have been too exhausted. My To-Do list every day is to promote the walk and to work on fundraising. Now in the back of my head, I think of how behind we felt last year and then how fast the donations came in. I felt like I had put undue stress on myself. That doesn't change anything though. I have to recruit walkers from my church. I need to work on the talk that I will be giving at church next week. Maybe I will include it in my next post.
If you are in the Charlotte area on Sunday, October 22 please come join us at Memorial Stadium. We will be walking to End Hunger from 1:30-3:30. If you would like to make a donation I can make it very easy for you: Charlotte Crop Hunger Walk. All funds raised go to help a community in need. It may be helping people in Charlotte with food or building a well for a community in Kenya. It may be to give a family chickens to provide the necessary protein they need or help a community harvest honey. Long story short it all goes to make life better for fellow humans.
Thinking positively I have been thinking about the theme for my car for Trunk or Treating this year. No surprise, but I have picked a Ted Lasso theme. I got a small kids soccer goal and ball. They will get to try and kick a goal and then they will get a bag of goldfish. I thought about having army men too, but I don't like the optics of any guns at church. I'm excited though. I'll make a poster and dress up as Ted. I have a visor and a whistle. I'll just get a fake mustache.
I did get a surprise gift this week. Shout out to my mom who sent me a new Tervis cup. Nope, not today.
Okay, I need to wind down and relax before I go to sleep. I'm sure I'll be a mess tomorrow.
I appreciate you.
Jennie
xoxo
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