Random Tuesday: Recipes, Shame, Butts, and Spiders

Hello Beautiful People,

I hope this finds you healthy and warm. It's been a busy and crazy couple of weeks. Once again I have so much to say and I have been writing this in my head every day. I'll probably make this another random post. 

When last we met I mentioned that I would be making a new recipe. I signed up to make the vegetarian chili at my Church's Annual Chili Supper. I was so excited to make this once I saw the picture. It was delicious and worth the wait. 


The ingredients included: Sweet Potatoes, Black Beans, Kidney Beans, Sweet Corn, Carrots, Garlic, Crushed Tomatoes, Vegetable Broth, and chili spices. I didn't add the green chilies. I will definitely be making it again very soon. 

This past weekend I went shopping and I was having a hard time. On the one hand, I was proud of myself for shopping for fresh ingredients to make healthy recipes. On the other hand, I knew that would be spending hours food prepping and I really wanted to curl up and read. I was talking about this today. There are so many reasons to make my own recipes. Food prep means that it's easier for me to make healthy choices. It makes it harder to justify eating out. It also means less processed foods and less processed foods means less sodium. This is good for blood pressure. When I'm feeling particularly stressed and anxious this is very important. I can honestly say that my body feels a difference when I eat food that I prepare. 

I made an amazing Lentil Soup on Saturday. And to make my life easier I like to pick recipes that share some of the same ingredients. This soup includes Lentils, Vegetable Broth, Kale, Carrots, Celery, Onion, Garlic, White Wine Vinegar, Cumin, Thyme, and Fire Roasted Diced Tomatoes. 


The second recipe I made this weekend was my Cassoulet. I love this recipe. It's similar to Chili, but it's vinegar-based. There are Red Beans, White Beans, Diced Tomatoes, Vegetable Broth, Kale, Rosemary, Thyme, Celery, Carrots, Garlic, Onion, Red Wine Vinegar, and Balsamic Vinegar. I didn't have Parsnips this time. I pair it with a fresh baguette and I love walking around with one. I'm weird like that. 


My food this week has been really good. But, I confess that I still haven't given up milk chocolate completely. I have increased my dark chocolate intake, but some milk chocolate is still creeping in. It's a lot less so that's something. 

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This month's Book Club pick was The Gifts of Imperfection by Brene Brown. It was a different choice for us and led to some self-reflection. I wasn't really hooked until I got to the page that defined the difference between Guilt and Shame. Guilt is "I did something bad." and Shame is "I am bad". There has been a lot of both over the years. Sneaking food is my shame. It starts as guilt but ends in shame. 


There's also the shame of weight gain. It's not easy in general, but when you are a Personal Trainer it's a different shame. Weight gain does not negate my knowledge, nor does it mean that I'm lazy or out of shape. But, that doesn't mean that isn't what you think people think about you. I could really delve into that and I plan to one day, but that day is not today. A little relieved to stop there, not going to lie. I will recommend the book though. I will be reading more of her books.

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I have been really good at resting my leg/hip. The tightness and pain aren't gone completely, but it has lessened considerably. So today I went to the gym. I planned on 30 minutes on the treadmill and then a massage. I was feeling okay so I kept going a little longer to get 3 miles. I went straight to the hydro-massage bed. I localized the massage on my hamstrings, glutes, and lower back. The first few minutes it rolled over my butt my right glute felt it. I could really feel the knot. It eventually rolled over and I didn't feel it. I was able to walk easily to my car. Ahhhhhh. 



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I'm going to call it a night. I'm really working on my self-care and my mental health. It's been good to make it a priority. I have been doing a lot more reading, which is my favorite thing to do. I have also limited my Dateline intake. I've been falling asleep to Big Bang Theory instead. Last night I had a horrible nightmare about big giant hairy spiders crawling out of one of my craft baskets and then not being able to find them. 

I need to rewatch Ted Lasso. I still have recaps and lessons to share. 

Okay, I need to get some sleep. Sleep is also a priority. I am cutting out second coffees unless I have a client after preschool or an event I need to stay awake for. Good Lord, I'm old. No, I just listen to how my body reacts to caffeine. Have a good night. 

I appreciate you.


Jennie
xoxo


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